Energy Updates

Alternative Energy Update 18th June, 2018

I’ve not done one of these for a while and I have a confession to make. I’m not sure if I want to continue with these in the same format as a whole lot has changed for me over the last month or so.

Some of you will know that I have been fasting. I am a Muslim and I observe Ramadhan as one of the 5 pillars of Islam. During this period of time, I have learnt a lot about myself and I also took the opportunity to learn more about my faith.

“What do I believe in?” It’s an interesting question to ask yourself. I’ve always been one of those people who wanted to know why this and why that and so I’ve kind of gone off on a tangent with things. It was strange during Ramadhan because I knew I had committed to writing these regular energy updates. I know they are useful for people going through the various changing collective energies, but for some reason I found myself questioning whether or not they were still relevant for me.

So when something is relevant for your audience and isn’t 100% resonating with yourself – what do you do? This is the question that I ask myself. I didn’t want to force myself to write and feel compromised and so this post is more my own inner exploration of whether I should continue or not.

It’s sort of an experimental post in that I do not as yet have an answer to the question of whether I will continue or not. I always say that I don’t truly know how I feel about something until I’ve written about it and so it feels strange to do this in a public space, however it is helping me to get over some of the blocks I have to sharing. This is why I decided to do it in this way and none of this was edited post writing.

It is simply a stream of consciousness.

So to energy updates and I’m trying to work out whether or not I should continue with them. I’ve fallen out of love with the idea of Ascension in a way. I do believe that we are all on our personal journey of transformation. I also believe that people are experiencing similar frequencies in the way that they experience change. I believe it isn’t one size fits all.

I have also come to think about the information that is being given out through these updates and I’m not sure that I want to be the “director” of this information for a number of reasons, mainly the paragraph directly above this one.

Whether you call it Ascension or Enlightenment doesn’t even matter so much anymore. I have always been of the persuasion that you take what resonates and then explore the rest for yourself and find your own reasoning. I’m sure that’s what people do with the information anyway – I just felt the need to reiterate that.

As I write, an idea has just struck me. What if instead of a weekly energy update, I went in to the themes that emerge in the healing room each week? A lot of what I write in these energy updates picks up on these themes and so I think this may be a more helpful way of addressing the different energies that emerge during the healing process.

When you break it down, any Ascension or Enlightenment journey is actually all about self-healing and learning about yourself. This is the journey that I am on and I know that it is the journey that many of my students and clients are on. I like the idea of continuous evolution and exploration and this is a lovely space in which I am able to share that with my audience.

I am almost certain that these updates in future will be themes from the healing room and my own personal themes as I evolve. There is something that feels very real and transparent to me by going back to basics. It feels like this is what is happening through my work and it is a very powerful shift. It is moving from the person I think I should be to who I am and although it is challenging, I think it is probably one of the biggest shifts that I have undertaken. Deciding to do things differently and my sense tells me that this is just the beginning. There is something very expansive about this energy. It’s again peeling off the mask and revealing more and more. Things always get blurred, then you focus and more is revealed. Amazing and expansive.

When you learn Reiki, you learn that Master Usui called it his “Method to achieve Personal Perfection” and so it is always about being the best that we can be in any given situation. Personal perfection is about continuously awakening to yourself, recognising yourself and being aware of your surroundings and how you mesh with them. Perfection itself is a myth, but it is the journey of travelling towards it and coping with the big and small changes that it brings as you adapt to a new way of being. This in a nutshell is what it is all about for me. It is that very real and pure acceptance of the imperfections that lie within us all. Complete acceptance of where we are and what is happening. These are the themes that we find challenging because we are always on a quest to make it how we “want it to be.”

This then brings me to my faith and one of the things that I have really come home to through this month of fasting is surrender. Complete faith and surrender and the same theme of acceptance rings out loud and clear for me. It is not, nor will it ever be, about what it “should” look like or what “should be happening.” It is taking a step back and surrendering to the idea that everything is good for you. Everything is happening perfectly, by design and what you do in this particular moment helps to design what comes next for you.

Can you accept it if it isn’t how you planned it? That brings me to realise that when I set out with this commitment to providing regular energy updates, it felt right for me in that moment. I felt I had a voice and space to give that and share the experience. We are in a time where that information is readily available to you and there are others who can provide this for you in a more authentic way than I am able to do so at this time.

My heart is saying write from your heart. Write what you are feeling, share the experiences of the students and clients that come to you and do this with the aim of simply being able to share. There is no real purpose other than it makes my heart happy and I’m cool with that. It isn’t so much about the energy and where it is taking us – although I do still keep an eye on that!

It’s more about being human, living and integrating this in to your day to day life. It is about what your mind, your body and your soul are doing together and how connected you feel to inner yourself, your life, your purpose. It’s about what you’re going to do about it. That’s more me. My voice matters more here than anywhere else and it’s my way of helping people navigate the collective shifts on this planet. The term “Ascension Guide” doesn’t fit for me in the way that it used to. I can leave that to others and focus on what I need to share that’s related to my own purpose and service here on Earth.

So in future, these updates will be titled, “Themes from the Healing Room” (and everyone in it, including me!) as this is what is feeling good for me to do right now. If it’s energy updates and Ascension information you’d like, I can point you towards Vaz Sriharan. (Click here)Vaz is one of the most credible and authentic voices in this field of work and I continue to follow his work. He’s humbly living this journey the same as us all and sharing his experience being of service in the way that’s most authentic to him. I respect and admire that!

In essence, we all have our own way of making a contribution and being of service and I’m still finding mine so thank you for your patience. You know we are all a work in progress and always will be!

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 12 – Al Muhsi – Assessing What Is

I started this pathway at the beginning of Ramadhan and now feels like a good time to write about it.

“When you are drawn to this pathway, take the opportunity to stop and look through the eyes of Divine clarity at your life as it is right now.”

If this Ramadhan has taught me anything at all, it is mindfulness and being present. A lot of crap has been happening and a lot of good things have been happening too. I’ve been looking at the way I manage myself through these situations.

As someone who suffers from anxiety, this pathway again has taught me acceptance of things as they are now. I’ve said this before but you don’t necessarily have to like what’s happening to accept it. When you reject it, it creates a whirlwind of anxiety and feels overwhelming.

Sometimes you have to cut through the crap of what you want things to be or how you think things should be. At the root of it is what is happening RIGHT NOW and often we look at situations through a different lens. We stay in disappointment when we focus on as we want it to be. Nothing in life is going to be that picture perfect. Every moment is leading you to the next moment and everything is temporary and transitory. It’s very much what you choose to believe that has an impact on hardening or softening your anxiety.

The perfection is in this present moment. Accepting what IS can be really challenging because it involves surrendering. This is the ego as it starts to fall away. The ego is what you believe to be true and when that goes, parts of your identity start falling away with it. I could go a whole lot deeper with this idea, but I will save this for another post! Suffice to say that we are working with what we believe to be true in so many ways and the way we assess “what is” has a lot to do with what we believe to be true. It is always laced with judgement about our current situation.

It’s amazing how much stress falls away when you bring your mind to what is happening right now as if that is all there is. It is one of those things that you have to keep reminding yourself of. One of the things that I have been doing that has really helped me this Ramadhan is to try and be in this state of continuous dialogue with my Creator.

It helps because it means that you are talking to your Creator as if you are talking to yourself which makes you more conscious of the things that you are saying. It means that you can continuously ask for the help that you need in every moment. It also means that you can spend a lot more time in the here and now. When the worries come up, you can ask for help with them and then go back to noticing what is around you and expressing gratitude for it. It alleviates a great deal of stress for me!

It’s funny but what prompted me to write this post makes me chuckle now. I’m sat at Bru on my laptop as I write this. I’m waiting on a call from the garage because I took my car in for a service this morning. They’ve called me once already to tell me there’s work to be done and it’s going to cost me more than I thought. I felt a slight panic as I don’t actually have the money for it. That’s what credit cards are for and I’m grateful that I can defer payment but as the time comes closer to paying that bill, I can see the panic setting in. So as always, I have asked God to find me a way and holding on to that Golden Thread because everything happens for a reason.

Now, in this moment, I have two choices. I can either worry that I won’t have the money or I can trust that it will come from somewhere. I know what happens when I go in to worry. It means that I am not being present and I can get taken off on a tangent. The other option is to stay in the moment and focus on what I am doing right now which is to keep writing this post. Keep writing and just not think about something that hasn’t happened yet.

Now I know how my mind works and I will be back and forth from this thought about how I’m going to pay that bill but if I allow it to distract and then consume me, I am not going to be able to focus on getting anything done. Do you see how it works?

I have to accept that it has happened for a reason and use it to keep me focused on what I am doing. That is the clarity that this pathway talks about. It is clarity about my purpose. There’s something very magical about this present moment. It is a state of empowerment and clarity. It is a place of self-mastery. It’s understanding that you can deliver your purpose and all you need to do is stay focused on the actions that will help you to do this. I know for a fact that is all I need to do. Everything else is taken care of. Sustenance and provision is something that comes from that same Source. Creator provides. One way or another, I know it’ll be taken care of and so when I think of it like that, the worry begins to melt away.

Life is one of those things that is unpredictable. That’s a given. There is always uncertainty and that’s a given. However, if we embrace it and see where it takes us, it can feel expansive and exciting. If we worry, our energy contracts and we can’t see past the end of our own noses.

Life as it is right now.

What does that mean? It means looking around for things to appreciate. It means being thankful that the help is there. One of the big things for me working with this pathway is being able to see that some things happen so that other things can happen. We don’t always realise at the time, but what will happen for us in the future is dependent on what is happening now.

So if I look at this bill, perhaps this is what will create abundance for me. I know it’s money going out, but it is an opportunity to keep wealth circulating and by doing that I have contributed to the way the world goes round.

Everything is a dependency. I may be a speck in the grand design of this Universe, but I am a deliberately designed speck with a purpose. If we focus inward, we can create a sense of inner stability that we ride on when there is nothing certain in outer world. It is knowing that we are part of something greater and that there are other things that are dependent on us. Therein we do not exist in isolation, even when the world’s problems are beating down on us and it doesn’t feel like there is a way out. What happens next is dependent on this present moment.

Cultivating inner stability allows you to grow and change. I know even a year ago, this bill would have pushed me over the edge. It comes down to our outlook and belief that things are always getting better for us. Whatever is sent for us is good for us. This is an opportunity to trust in abundance even if things don’t look the way I want them to look right now. At least I have a car that is roadworthy and it’ll keep me safe.

ENABLING yourself with these beliefs is the way to create the way you want to be feeling right now. The way you feel is what creates the next thing. That is Law of Attraction in a nutshell.

If you can look around and be happy with what you have and be in acceptance of all of it, it helps. It is understanding that as you look around, everything is already changing because everything is temporary. Sometimes, it can feel as though nothing is really happening but life and the whole Universe is in continuous motion. When I think about this, it blows my mind. You can sit still and watch the whole Universe moving around you know that you too are moving even if you don’t feel it. It’s crazy!

I’ll conclude this pathway by asking you to take a moment today to sit still and notice at how much has moved for you. Think about the things you can’t see and the things that you can. Understand that you are in constant motion. Take a breath and allow yourself to catch up with THIS present moment.

Let me know how it feels!

Healing

Surrender is the Frenemy

The Goal of Faith is Surrender

One of the things that has really struck me whilst I’ve been fasting is the way in which our faith can drive us in a way that is unexplainable. Faith brings motivation to do the unthinkable. It powers us to accomplish otherwise difficult actions with ease. Quite a phenomena…I started thinking about this.

On a normal day, going without food and water in the same way would be really difficult, but there’s something about giving it up willingly that makes it easier. It’s difficult to articulate because I don’t want you to think that it is easy to do, but at the same time I want you to understand that it is made easier when backed by faith.

For me, this faith is based on surrender. What you notice when you’ve surrendered is just how easy it feels. That is because you are choosing this for yourself. You own that decision and you are fully in alignment with it. You’re not complaining about it. You’re simply getting on and doing it.

This works when it is decisions of our own choosing, but when life happens and the chips are down, that is when we really start to work with surrender. It’s a Frenemy for a lot of people. If you believe that there is a higher plan and that everything happens for a reason, it makes surrender easier. Having said that though, the human mind will need to go through it’s own reasoning and rationalising process. This is otherwise known as resistance.

Surrender is one of the most difficult things because it involves loss and ego. When we surrender, we give up a part of our identity and we are so attached to our identity that it causes us to grieve and feel like we’ve lost something.

In life, sometimes we fight and sometimes we surrender. It is knowing which will serve our highest good and going with what feels right in the moment.

In the healing room, we help you to surrender to what you can’t change and fight for what you can. It’s about untangling yourself from what holds you so that you can walk through life with the freedom and power that comes from doing things willingly.

If you’re having trouble untangling yourself, please get in touch. I’d love to help you.