I’ve not done one of these for a while and I have a confession to make. I’m not sure if I want to continue with these in the same format as a whole lot has changed for me over the last month or so.
Some of you will know that I have been fasting. I am a Muslim and I observe Ramadhan as one of the 5 pillars of Islam. During this period of time, I have learnt a lot about myself and I also took the opportunity to learn more about my faith.
“What do I believe in?” It’s an interesting question to ask yourself. I’ve always been one of those people who wanted to know why this and why that and so I’ve kind of gone off on a tangent with things. It was strange during Ramadhan because I knew I had committed to writing these regular energy updates. I know they are useful for people going through the various changing collective energies, but for some reason I found myself questioning whether or not they were still relevant for me.
So when something is relevant for your audience and isn’t 100% resonating with yourself – what do you do? This is the question that I ask myself. I didn’t want to force myself to write and feel compromised and so this post is more my own inner exploration of whether I should continue or not.
It’s sort of an experimental post in that I do not as yet have an answer to the question of whether I will continue or not. I always say that I don’t truly know how I feel about something until I’ve written about it and so it feels strange to do this in a public space, however it is helping me to get over some of the blocks I have to sharing. This is why I decided to do it in this way and none of this was edited post writing.
It is simply a stream of consciousness.
So to energy updates and I’m trying to work out whether or not I should continue with them. I’ve fallen out of love with the idea of Ascension in a way. I do believe that we are all on our personal journey of transformation. I also believe that people are experiencing similar frequencies in the way that they experience change. I believe it isn’t one size fits all.
I have also come to think about the information that is being given out through these updates and I’m not sure that I want to be the “director” of this information for a number of reasons, mainly the paragraph directly above this one.
Whether you call it Ascension or Enlightenment doesn’t even matter so much anymore. I have always been of the persuasion that you take what resonates and then explore the rest for yourself and find your own reasoning. I’m sure that’s what people do with the information anyway – I just felt the need to reiterate that.
As I write, an idea has just struck me. What if instead of a weekly energy update, I went in to the themes that emerge in the healing room each week? A lot of what I write in these energy updates picks up on these themes and so I think this may be a more helpful way of addressing the different energies that emerge during the healing process.
When you break it down, any Ascension or Enlightenment journey is actually all about self-healing and learning about yourself. This is the journey that I am on and I know that it is the journey that many of my students and clients are on. I like the idea of continuous evolution and exploration and this is a lovely space in which I am able to share that with my audience.
I am almost certain that these updates in future will be themes from the healing room and my own personal themes as I evolve. There is something that feels very real and transparent to me by going back to basics. It feels like this is what is happening through my work and it is a very powerful shift. It is moving from the person I think I should be to who I am and although it is challenging, I think it is probably one of the biggest shifts that I have undertaken. Deciding to do things differently and my sense tells me that this is just the beginning. There is something very expansive about this energy. It’s again peeling off the mask and revealing more and more. Things always get blurred, then you focus and more is revealed. Amazing and expansive.
When you learn Reiki, you learn that Master Usui called it his “Method to achieve Personal Perfection” and so it is always about being the best that we can be in any given situation. Personal perfection is about continuously awakening to yourself, recognising yourself and being aware of your surroundings and how you mesh with them. Perfection itself is a myth, but it is the journey of travelling towards it and coping with the big and small changes that it brings as you adapt to a new way of being. This in a nutshell is what it is all about for me. It is that very real and pure acceptance of the imperfections that lie within us all. Complete acceptance of where we are and what is happening. These are the themes that we find challenging because we are always on a quest to make it how we “want it to be.”
This then brings me to my faith and one of the things that I have really come home to through this month of fasting is surrender. Complete faith and surrender and the same theme of acceptance rings out loud and clear for me. It is not, nor will it ever be, about what it “should” look like or what “should be happening.” It is taking a step back and surrendering to the idea that everything is good for you. Everything is happening perfectly, by design and what you do in this particular moment helps to design what comes next for you.
Can you accept it if it isn’t how you planned it? That brings me to realise that when I set out with this commitment to providing regular energy updates, it felt right for me in that moment. I felt I had a voice and space to give that and share the experience. We are in a time where that information is readily available to you and there are others who can provide this for you in a more authentic way than I am able to do so at this time.
My heart is saying write from your heart. Write what you are feeling, share the experiences of the students and clients that come to you and do this with the aim of simply being able to share. There is no real purpose other than it makes my heart happy and I’m cool with that. It isn’t so much about the energy and where it is taking us – although I do still keep an eye on that!
It’s more about being human, living and integrating this in to your day to day life. It is about what your mind, your body and your soul are doing together and how connected you feel to inner yourself, your life, your purpose. It’s about what you’re going to do about it. That’s more me. My voice matters more here than anywhere else and it’s my way of helping people navigate the collective shifts on this planet. The term “Ascension Guide” doesn’t fit for me in the way that it used to. I can leave that to others and focus on what I need to share that’s related to my own purpose and service here on Earth.
So in future, these updates will be titled, “Themes from the Healing Room” (and everyone in it, including me!) as this is what is feeling good for me to do right now. If it’s energy updates and Ascension information you’d like, I can point you towards Vaz Sriharan. (Click here)Vaz is one of the most credible and authentic voices in this field of work and I continue to follow his work. He’s humbly living this journey the same as us all and sharing his experience being of service in the way that’s most authentic to him. I respect and admire that!
In essence, we all have our own way of making a contribution and being of service and I’m still finding mine so thank you for your patience. You know we are all a work in progress and always will be!