A letter to my old self (and maybe to you too),
I’m writing this letter to you from your future. You know, that place that you can’t see right now because things feel a little rocky. I want you to know that this time did pass eventually, and you grew so much as a result.
I think you need to know what your future holds so that you can have some faith and keep going. You are full of light, but your light feels like it has gone out and you have nothing to carry on for. You need to know that because of you, so many lives are made so much brighter. Give it a couple of years, and you’ll see for yourself that people are so happy to have you around, and you’re going to be helping them through the same shit you’re going through now.
You need to know that you have a future, and you need to understand that you are not a victim. Everything you are experiencing, and what the world is showing you is the pain and suffering inside of you that needs to be cleared away. It will take a long time, and you will never stop clearing, but know that in a few years you’ll have cleared enough to see your way forward. You can’t see it now, but I guarantee you will. It’ll still feel cloudy from time to time, but when you’ve seen it once, it’ll be imprinted on your eyes forever and you’ll only look back to remember the lessons you’ve learnt.
At this moment, you are not listening, and you are not trusting that voice inside you that will lead you out of where you are now. You are holding on to the feelings because they feel familiar and comfortable to you. You are not present. Your mind is elsewhere, your body is going through the motions. You feel disconnected.
Fast forward a couple of years, and you’ll really understand what happiness feels like. I know you don’t believe me!!! You’ll know what it feels like to fly! You’ll be brave enough to quit that job, and you’ll be courageous enough to trust in your gift and your purpose. All good things will come to you. That I can promise you.
I know you feel like you’ve never fit in, but a couple of years from now, you’ll have created your own world. A world where you can be yourself and it feels good. You’ll keep learning how to shine bright so other people who struggle with fitting in will find you, and together you’ll build a community, a tribe of people who want to make a difference in the world.
You’ll keep playing small for a couple of years, until you see what’s possible, until you see the results of your work, and then my dear it really will be your time and you will be so ready for what’s to come next.
I know you’ll never stop working on it. You have that warrior spirit and you will keep on going because you’re too curious about life and what it has to offer. You will learn some deep lessons, and you will use those lessons to inspire others.
The pain is deep, but you are becoming the woman you came here to be and through this pain, you will find your gifts and your purpose. The right people will come in to your life at the right time, and when you look back, you’ll see how this was perfectly created for you.
I want you to lose the belief that you don’t deserve it, and you’re not worthy. I want you to focus on looking inside at all the gifts you have to offer, and share them with love and generosity. Be brave enough to stand out in a crowd. Be sure enough of yourself that it will bring you what you need and provide for you.
This is me from your future telling you that you were worried for nothing, and that everything will work out perfectly. It isn’t a case of “if” it will all happen. It is only a matter of time so you focus on “when” it happens and prepare yourself in the best way possible.
You already have everything you need within you, and your future is being created for you while you sleep. You do not have to do anything except to trust that it will be better than you imagine. It has been planned in perfection, and it will be delivered in Divine time. Just keep holding on. Do what you can to keep your head above the water, and We will do the rest for you.
My advice to you is to be yourself. Be authentic. Be honest. Stay true to what you believe. Work hard but enjoy life. Smile often. Give yourself a break. Live each day. Know that all your tomorrow’s are taken care of so you only need to live today.
Keep dreaming. Keep holding on. Keep helping people and keep the faith.
Good things really do happen to good people.
With unconditional love from your future,