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“Is Reiki Haraam?” That’s a question that I get asked quite a lot as a Muslim Energy Healer. I wanted to give my own personal perspective because I think that there’s very little that’s understood and people are quick to judge Reiki in particular without knowing anything about it. I know I’m risking opening up a can of worms with this post and those that wish to criticise my approach are more than welcome to but I can only write from the perspective of my own truth and explain in an honest way using my own journey as an example. As a practicing Muslim, if I thought there was a conflict I wouldn’t be doing it but I want to share what I have learned and how it has helped me on so many different levels, especially in terms of my faith.

I think it’s important to create an awareness of the concepts of energy and the principles of Reiki. Once you understand these, you’ll begin to see that these are Universal principles that all religions and spiritual philosophies share. Master Usui – the founder of the Reiki system actually studied Theology as well as many other areas such as Psychology, Traditional Chinese Medicine and many of the Martial Arts. It just so happened that he grew up in Tendai Buddhist family and studied Buddhism but just because the founder is Buddhist doesn’t mean that the system is too.

People often say that Reiki is Haraam because it is Buddhist. Let me put this to you a different way using an example that explains what I mean. Many of us use Facebook. Facebook is a system that was created for people to connect with each other and share their lives. It was created by Mark Zuckerberg who is Jewish but we don’t say that Facebook is Jewish and therefore haraam. When you understand the ideas and concepts that make up the Reiki system, there isn’t anything that conflicts with any religion, least of all Islam. Is Reiki Haraam just because it was founded by a Buddhist?

Many people are concerned that they will somehow be practicing Buddhism if they practice Reiki. When you learn Reiki, you learn one way to connect to Source energy and you can apply this to everything that you do, including your prayer. You learn how to fill yourself up with this Light of Source. You also learn to sense how this energy moves through you. Now imagine you’re reading Salah the way you currently read it and be honest with yourself in terms of how deep you feel that connection to Source, how much you feel it fills you up and whether you can feel the presence of Divine Source in your practice as you’re meant to.

Let’s now look at energy healing in a bit more detail. Any type of Energy healing is deeply intertwined with Divine Light. The Source that we connect to during energy healing is the Source of Pure Light, Pure Love – Divine Source itself. We all connect with this Divine Source when we pray. Our breath comes from this Divine Source. The light in our eyes comes from the very same Source. That Source is Oneness. Those with a religion will often call it God or their respective name for God in their religion. If you don’t believe in a God or Creator, scientifically energy is a proven phenomena. All particles have a positive or negative charge that has an impact on it’s immediate surroundings. Scientifically, we are made of particles and this is how we are able to move through this world and influence (or not) the direction of our journey.

Throughout the course of this lifetime, we are meant to experience darkness. We come from a place of light and we are placed here to learn and to grow. Our hardships, our experiences, the reality and the temptations of this world cause wounds and in essence darkness. The role of prayer, connection and remembrance of God is so that we can fill ourselves with light. We pray because we know that we need that light more than it needs us. We pray to ask for help, to make things easier for us on this difficult journey. Each time you pray, you connect to this energy of light and is the same energy that we connect to during healing.

When you are experiencing Reiki in a session, I am connecting to the Source of Light and allowing it to flow through me and then in to you. Where your experiences have created darkness or blockages in light, it helps to remove these. Where you feel drained and you’re unable to hold the light, the energy fills you up. When I work, I put myself to one side and allow the light to guide me. This Source is the very same intelligence that created you and so it knows exactly where it’s light is needed. This is where we focus.

As a Healer, you have to be in a neutral state of mind when you work with people. You’re just a channel or a vessel that the light moves through. None of this light even belongs to you. All you are doing is accessing that light for someone who is struggling to access it and fill up for themselves. It’s important that all Healers work to neutralise their own ego in this sense.

We are not “fixing” people nor are we taking away “bad energy.” We have learnt to fill ourselves with light and we share that light to help others. Each person has a responsibility to maintain that light, including Healers themselves. Once a person has this light, it’s up to them to keep it alive through prayer, through remembrance, through taking care of themselves and working on managing their emotions. The work of a Healer is just as much on themselves as it is helping others. If we didn’t do this, we would be open to hypocrisy so walking the talk is an essential aspect of being a good healer.

When I first came to Reiki, it was purely by chance that I was led to this path. I didn’t fully know what it was until I actually did my first course. What I learnt about energy and how it works changed me in more ways than I could even imagine. I was always looking for something within myself. Sadly, the way that I was taught religion only gave me a rule book in terms of “what to do” but there was no real emphasis on the meaning of it. I think when you pray, it can be an empty prayer if you can’t feel it in your heart.

I know I’ve always felt something but it’s connection and the nature of it that pulled me in to learning because energy was something that I’d always been able to feel. I wanted to know what it was that I was feeling in my prayer and why it felt so intense. Being brought up in a generation that was taught in a punitive way, most of what I was practicing was out of fear that God would punish me rather than out of love. Spiritual Islam, Sufism, Islamic Mysticism therefore had a massive appeal for me because it taught me from a place of love. This felt more like home to me and had always pulled me ever since I started reading Rumi’s poetry in my teens. This is where I realised that I had to also connect and learn the nature of the heart and explore the various qualities of Divine Source.

When you learn Reiki, you learn the precepts or the principles that you begin to integrate in to your life. These are really simple and they make a lot of sense.

“Do not anger,

Do not worry,

Be honest,

Be humble

Be compassionate to yourself and to others.”

Is Reiki Haraam? Most of us regardless of our religious or otherwise beliefs would agree that these are sound principles and a good way to be human. When I learnt Reiki, I think it articulated the things that I needed to work on in myself in a way that had never been broken down to me in this way. We all try to be good people and sometimes we get it right and sometimes we get it wrong. We can draw from all sorts of places in terms of our understanding of what this means in practice because essentially all these ideas come from One Source. Oneness is Oneness. It has different names in different religions but all the prayers and good deeds are done in it’s name.

Learning energy and how to feel it made me realise that I had been connecting and feeling this my whole life. It gave me more than one way of connecting to the light and filling myself up with it. It enhanced my structured prayer practices because I felt more deeply connected when I understood more and when I felt like I was part of Oneness and Oneness was part of me. Filling up with light in multiple ways enabled me to overcome my own darkness. Not only that, it helped me to recognise my own ego and begin overcoming it.

It created a sense of humility. Just realising how small you are in comparison to the size of this great Universe and surrendering to the idea that if you trust in Oneness, you are taken care of. All your needs are always met. It helped me to deal with my anger and my worry in a more helpful way and to communicate with Source and ask for help with the things that I couldn’t handle on my own. It taught me to be kinder with myself and therefore learn to be kinder to others, especially those who I felt had wronged me. It taught me how to be honest with myself and with others.

All of this had already been taught to me in some way shape or form but when I applied what I learnt in Reiki, it brought what I had already been taught to life because I could really feel it. When you feel, it gives things meaning and purpose.

I have found that throughout my studies in both Reiki and Sufism, there are Universal ideas and concepts that all human beings can relate to. These are Universal truths and we are all build to be pulled towards what is good and towards truth. Often we acknowledge it with our tongues but not with our hearts. It takes the feeling to bring something to life. This is why we are alive. We are not only thinking but feeling beings.

As a result, there are a number of different types of healing that I offer so there is something for everyone. Please check out this page for more…

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Essentially whether this is the way for you or not, it’s something to ponder on. I’ll leave you with one of my favourite quotes from Imam Ghazali.

” Know that the key to knowing God is to know your own self. “

Cord cutting sounds quite brutal, doesn’t it? LOL I’m talking about energy cords here and I thought it was important to share more on this as it’s something that I work with on a daily basis both for myself and in the healing room.

I have to keep my own energy protected as much as possible because I know that it is way too easy to absorb other people’s energy, emotions and even entities. This is important for all empaths to be aware of. If you’re sensitive to energy, you’ll more than likely be picking up, absorbing and retaining the energies around you.

At the end of each day, I check for energy cords, unhealthy attachments and entities and remove them. This work is a part of my daily self-healing routine and I wanted to talk about why it’s important.

When we interact with other people, it is an energy exchange. As this exchange happens over time, the energy builds up in the form of an invisible energy cord. This is often the attachment that a person has to you or you have to them. You’re joined together, connected by this invisible cord. This cord keeps pulling energy out of you regardless of whether the person remains in your life or not. If your past is draining you, it might be time to think about having energy cords cut and removed so that you can let go and move forward in peace.

Energy cords work both ways in the sense that just as others are draining our energy, we may also be draining theirs through the attachment and the energy cord that’s developed over time. We aren’t always aware that we’ve created these cords and we’re certainly not sucking the energy out of people on purpose. It isn’t anyone’s fault. It’s just the way that energy works so you’ve got to just focus on being responsible for yourself.

You may have some clues in the way a person becomes attached to you or you may be completely unaware of it, but unhealthy attachments feed on your energy leaving you feeling completely drained. Where there’s reliance or an unfair exchange of energy, there’s usually a cord. Remember this works in both directions.

You can have multiple cords from the same person. The most I’ve dealt with in myself is 12 all from the same person. You have cords from your exes, friends, parents. It’s only the ones that are affecting you negatively that need removing.

The energy cords are only ever released with your permission. This is because you have to be ready for them to go. It’s the decision you make within yourself that you’re ready to let go of certain aspects of your life in the pursuit of what’s for your highest good. These cords can’t be forced out unless you’re ready to let them go. By cutting energy cords with love and compassion, we’re releasing any dependency or toxicity in our system. This isn’t about cutting people off in a harsh way. It’s about learning to have healthy relationships without unhealthy attachments.

When you have your energy cords cut, it can feel like a huge relief especially if it’s a relationship that has been heavy on you for a while. Remember everything that we do in the healing room is with your highest good at the forefront and everything is permission based so if you’re not ready to release, that’s also absolutely fine. Sometimes in situations like this, we begin to untangle or loosen the cords as a person is moving towards preparing themselves to move on. Everyone does this in their own way and in their own time.

Cutting energy cords is a way that you can move on and be whole as a person without the influence of others. It helps you reclaim your own heart, your personal power and your ability to make good decisions for yourself. Often we feel like other people hold some power over us that restricts us. It also prevents us from finding our own path in life, especially if we are seeking approval from others with the things that we do and the decisions that we make.

Just to make it clear that nobody is harmed in the process. The other person won’t feel anything. Remember it’s your energy that you’re working on and cutting cords is simply a way of releasing the energy or attachment that isn’t serving you in a healthy, positive and compassionate way. It may be hindering your clarity or stepping on your sense of freedom and releasing it may be the best thing that you can do for yourself and others.

There’s always an integration period that follows any healing session. Remember that your energy has changed from the inside and so it can take a few weeks for your outer world to catch up. Everyone has a different process and will notice different things about themselves and their reactions. Often cutting cords simply creates the energetic space needed in order to make decisions for yourself.

Cord cutting is something that I love doing because I can see how much relief and change my clients get. Often, we’ll work on the cord for a few sessions and once it has been removed, that’s when the accelerated progress happens. Although for some clients, they are so ready and want it gone on the first session. I love a good clean extraction!

I offer cord cutting through a number of different healing methods so you can have this done in a bodywork session, a Reiki session, Emotion Code session and even through a transmission. For sessions, please see this page https://healingworksreiki.com/healing-leicester/

I check for cords as standard with most of my sessions and for me, it’s really important to establish full trust and rapport before any release or extraction takes place. Permission and consent are central to the work that I do.

If you’re going through a breakup or trying to get over someone, or even if you’re getting ready to find new love, cutting cords can really help you. Even if you’re working on your sense of self-worth, watch this to see if resonates!

If you’d like to explore this in your healing journey, please get in touch.

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Heartache is something that we will all face at some point in our lives. I’m no stranger to this. It’s not just heartache, but it’s also heart break and it brings with it a deep emotional pain that just needs some form of healing or release.

This tearing apart serves a purpose. The harsher it feels, the deeper it’s opening you up to a way of seeing the world in a unique way. If you think about it, it’s the wounds and the pain that we have experienced that shape who we are as human beings. When we know what that feels like, heartache teaches us compassion and a sense of humanity. Heartache makes us want to reach out and help.

Heartache can also make us shut down though. Emotions are such and they can be unpredictable. What grows one person may totally shut down another. We all come with our own unique set of experiences and circumstances. We all have our own set periods of time before we can begin to go in to the heartache deeper and take the richness that it offers us.

Many of us feel a desperate need to fix this feeling of heartache and make it go away. More often than not because it hurts in a way that feels deeply uncomfortable. However, there is something very beautiful and courageous to being open to having your heart broken. It’s an unspoken rebellious streak that dares life to open you up.

Heartache isn’t necessarily a bad thing because it shows us that our hearts are awake and alive. I’d rather this than the alternative. Even a heart that feels shut down will feel pain and sadness. With this stirring comes a yearning to make things better and that is what’s known as hope. It’s as if a part of us already knows that there is something greater that lies beneath those feelings and the pain is a way of reaching out to Divine Source for help.

We are learning to grow and nurture our hearts. As much as we age and mature, there is something that remains very childlike about our hearts and so there is a need to grow and nurture this. That bewilderment that the heart experiences is a type of innocence that sits within us all. It’s the heart that falls in love and drives the madness within us all. There’s something very special about this feeling. We fall in love, experience heartache but we know that it isn’t impossible for us to fall in love all over again. We know that this can happen as much as we tell ourselves we won’t allow it. This is one of the reasons that we try and protect ourselves.

On a personal level, one of the realisations for me on this spiritual journey is that I do not need to protect my heart because it is already looked after by Divine Source. As many times as it has broken, it has opened up. The heart has an immense capacity to love and be loved and perhaps we underestimate this ability within ourselves.

Even though at times it feels overbearing, there is something fascinating about this wild, raw and untamed being that sits within us. The way that it roars when it is wounded. The way that it cares for others that are hurting. The nature of your heart and the nature of heartache are things that are worth knowing in order to appreciate the richness of being.

It always amazes me just how special and considered this aspect of a human being is and this leads me to believe that we are all seen and recognised by Divine Source. Imagine this Divine Source, the heart of hearts and soul of souls, the essence of every thing – imagine this Creator took time to fashion your heart, your heartaches, your heartbreaks and your journey just for you to come to know and see Him. Each experience of sadness calls you to the One because in that heartache and heart break is a whisper that beckons you back home and back in to your own connection.

Ponder that.

Until next time,

Love Hafsa xx

Emotion Code is an energy healing modality that helps you release negative trapped emotions from all your previous life experiences. It’s a really powerful healing technique and I’m living proof that it works effectively. If you want to know more about it in detail, check this page of the website out @ https://healingworksreiki.com/emotion-code-practitioner-uk/

I was introduced to Emotion Code by my friend when she was training to be a practitioner. I was one of her case studies to clear my heart wall. Again if you want to know more, please watch this video.

My heart wall was causing a lot of blocks for me in my life. At the time, I felt like things just weren’t going my way. I had a really negative attitude towards romantic relationships. I tended to keep away from people and I was finding it difficult to manifest money. I didn’t really trust the process of life and because of my previous experiences, I found trust difficult on all levels. Period.

After clearing my heart wall, I didn’t really feel a whole lot different immediately so I just got on with things. The changes crept up on me slowly and I noticed that things felt different somehow. Everything was starting to pick up in alignment and I had that feeling that things were actually starting to work out. It was one of those ones where you don’t know how that’s happened but you just feel different in a good way.

I decided to train as a Certified Emotion Code Practitioner because I was feeling different and definitely more positive. Emotion Code had a deep and profound impact on me and I wanted to train as a Practitioner because I wanted to take my own self-healing to the next level. As part of the training, I cleared another Heart Wall for myself and I think that was when I noticed the biggest change on all levels, especially with work, manifesting money and attracting healthy relationships.

Emotion Code is one of those things where you wonder if anything is even happening and it all seems a bit random but time and time again, I know it works and it’s really powerful.

As a practitioner of other modalities and as an intuitive healer, I’ve discovered that there’s so much more that it can be used for and so I incorporate it in to my coaching sessions now as well.

If you’d like to know more, please get in touch!

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Spirituality – what is it all about? For me, it’s an understanding of the soul and this idea that there is something greater than us that created us to be in this world. It’s about connecting with this overarching Soul of the world and beginning to find your place in it.

Everyone at some point goes through some sort of awakening where they realise that perhaps there’s more to this world than what we can see, hear, touch, taste and smell. Sometimes it’s after something major has happened when you have this feeling that something is looking after you or has saved you from something far worse.

People experience this awakening in many different ways depending on their life circumstances and experiences. I believe we all have the potential to be awakened. I believe that the breath of Divine Source came through us when we were first created and on a subconscious or unconscious level, we all remember that moment.

The experiences that awaken us are those that trigger that memory and life is never the same again. We know there is something but we just don’t know what that is or how to articulate what it is that we are looking for.

Once activated, this search begins. This search turns in to a mission and it’s everywhere we turn. There are signs everywhere we look. Synchronistic happenings that lead us to people and places and experiences that feel deeply like they were just meant to be.

Through this process we begin to believe in a Divine plan, a blueprint for all life. Within in, we have our own plan that is connected to the paths of others, our own unique Soul Blueprint.

It’s an energy and energy connects. The more we seek, the more we create the energy that pulls in others that seek what we seek. It pulls in the information that we need and the experiences that open us up further.

Curioser and curioser, down the rabbit hole we go. This journey is full of all emotions, not just the joy and wonder but the pain and sorrow. It becomes like doing a PhD whilst riding the big dipper. It’s frustrating. It’s exhilarating. It’s magical. It’s tiring.

We fall in and out of love as we begin to uncover the depths of our own soul. It feels like being deeply in love this spiritual yearning and curiosity. It’s a deeper pull to something that can not be quantified but drives the way that you live your life. It governs your manners, your interactions, your personal space, your sacred self.

This current that lives deep beneath the waters of your soul entices you. It can not be seen, but it’s movement can be felt throughout every aspect of your life. It becomes difficult and challenging to comprehend that this body is a vehicle that houses something so magnificent. A temporary body that is fading away with every breath. We remind ourselves to be conscious that life slips away from us so quickly yet live as if we have all the time in the world.

This body needs reminding. It doesn’t always do as it’s asked but we learn to love it in all its imperfections because it too is a gift, just like the time that we have been granted here. Although it’s just a suitcase, this suitcase has little windows through which the soul seeps out.

We’re lucky if we get a glimpse inside. In each moment of being called, we yearn, our hearts break and keep on breaking as life cracks us open to show the wounds where my Shaikh Rumi says is “where the light has entered.”

In this seeking, we understand our Master’s analogy of the intoxication of this sweet spiritual wine. I don’t care. I need to have more. I need to keep feeling like this. When we surrender to this, even though we are blinded by the light, we know that we are being guided.

Trust is a house built for the broken. You see me clearer than I see myself. What do I know? You know my heart better than I know myself.

I’ll hurt, I’ll break and I’ll bleed in this broken house in this broken world. If I die with surrender, let this be while I am in your house, as your guest.

Salaam (Peace) be with you

Hafsa

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to affirm the magic of life. Remember that anything you do displays the power and life energy of the One.”

This is an important pathway and I feel certainly for myself as a healer and a teacher, there have been some important lessons to learn as I’ve worked through this. Learning that true power sits in the way that we react and respond to life and there’s certainly been plenty of tests of this over the last month that have shown me how far you can take this pathway within yourself.

This pathway talks about channelling sacred power in a public way which I can relate to deeply because of the work that I do. This is sometimes viewed as both a blessing and a curse. On the one hand you know you’re here to help others and on the other hand you feel like people are taking the piss with the amount of time and energy they take up. The real power is in knowing when to say no to preserve your own energy. The real power is in learning to pull back from things that demand energy from you. Sometimes those demands are subtle and persuasive. Sometimes those demands are guilt laden. Sometimes those demands are innocently made. Sometimes those demands are loud and noisy.

Power sits in how we react and respond both inwardly and outwardly. True power sits with Source and we are a physical manifestation of it. It can take a lot of strength to choose to focus inwards when the world places demands on you. This isn’t just in spiritual work. This is all of us, all the time, any place, anywhere. We are not at the beck and call of the world and the people around us. We choose. Even when it comes to Source, we choose to be in that connection. We choose to be guided. The power is in the choice that we make. This is profound.

I know from my own experience and from my teachers and friends in the spiritual field that often healers are perceived as a bottomless pit of energy and it’s assumed that we are just open to giving endlessly and selflessly. That’s something that very few people wish to address in this field of work for a number of reasons.

Nobody wants to be seen as the bad guy and nobody wants to have a moan about how unfair it is. After all, if you’re here to serve, you’re asking people to dump on you. That’s your call. The thing is that when we express it in that way, there’s a sense of powerlessness about it. There’s a victim speaking here.

Privately, we all feel it. We can all relate to the feeling of being imposed upon and there’s an unfairness that comes with it. Often empaths won’t have the strength to say that’s how they’re feeling and continue to get drained by the people around them. Learning to stand in your own power is a strength in itself. Being able to say how someone is making you feel is a strength in itself.

I think it’s important, not least because the role of a healer or teacher is to activate and support you to channel your own power. Healers often feel that their abilities and connection are taken advantage of but my personal view is that as empaths, we’re going to feel this way if we haven’t set boundaries around what we do. It takes time to learn and time to shift the guilt that comes from saying no.

Our connection to Source is one of the ways in which we fuel and replenish our own energy and self-preservation is alien to empaths but something that certainly needs to be learnt in order for us to do our work here. If we are to serve, we need to be full. When we are full, we give what overflows without any resentment. We are fully in our power when we do that giving and we are fully in our power when we choose not to give because we feel no guilt about that self-preservation. It’s an uncomfortable area and not spoken about much.

One of the most striking aspects about this pathway for me was that it made me understand what it means to conceal power as well as to show it. Power is apparent in everything that we do. This is what the pathway teaches and it’s really important to keep hold of this point as we move through this pathway.

Your power comes from your own connection and this can be seen in the way that you are both inwardly and outwardly with yourself and those around you.

Inwardly, it is a strength to view ourselves as our Creator views us. It is a challenge to think of ourselves as perfect because we are always looking for flaws and striving to become better. Inwardly, the power is in being compassionate and loving towards ourselves. This is easier to extend towards other people but the real power is in understanding how this applies to how you view and treat yourself.

Outwardly, your power sits in your reactions, your confidence, your manners and the way you conduct yourself. This is also as important because we begin to develop a discipline around our character. We begin to use love as the power to guide us in situations where it is not that easy to be love and light. We lovingly set boundaries that serve our highest good and begin to teach others what this means so that they may do the same. We have an awareness of ourselves and we ignite the spark of self-awareness in others through the way that we respond.

Where we gain our power from is also really important. For those of us that are healers and teachers, we need to learn that if our work is fuelling our sense of happiness and is the source of our power, we will be susceptible to burnout. This happens because we’re using the ego based high of being able to help others to feed our need to be needed. This energy runs out very quickly.

This applies to all of us, not just those of us in healing professions. Your work is what you do. It isn’t who you are. Are you fuelled by what you do or who you are? Often we know the what we do bit really well but not so strong on the who we are. This is where connection comes in. This is where exploration of the pathways really supports us. To know yourself is to know your creator and therein we can begin to recognise the power that sits behind each and every one of us.

Our power is rooted in the strength of our own connection. It has nothing to do with what we can do for others. It has nothing to do with being spiritually gifted either. Power is about how we react and respond to the world around us. Power is understanding that neither praise nor criticism matter as both come from a false source. Power is something that is manifested through us and belongs to Source as we do. So we are responsible for how this is channelled. We are accountable to Source and to ourselves for the way this power is used and displayed.

This pathway is understanding that you are channelling sacred power in all that you do. There are times when we are conscious of it. There are times when we are not. The mere fact that we live and breathe proves that we are an extension of source energy. Observe how this moves through you. Observe the action and the direction that you are being led to.

“Use this pathway to help you remember that all life energy, and the means to work with it, come from the Beloved.”

We will be exploring this pathway deeper in our monthly healing circle tomorrow evening. Link and booking details below.

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I am an introvert. There. I said it. There’s a massive misconception that anyone who runs their business mainly through Social Media is extroverted so I wanted to talk openly today about some of the challenges that I personally face and how I’ve overcome them. Perhaps to also shatter the myth that strong women don’t have insecurities. We all do.

The first thing to say is that although I am outgoing, sociable, friendly and open, I find being in crowds or around a lot of people draining. It’s taken me years to master my own energy enough to keep that layer of energetic protection around me when I’m out and about. Being a sensitive soul, I pick up on energies around me and if I’m not careful, I can absorb them and carry them as my own. I’m not afraid to admit that I really love being at home and I avoid being out and about with people if I can. It’s just my preference. I can own being a bit of a loner because it suits me and I’d rather that than blame the people around me.

My first hurdle was being seen through my writing and it took me a while to get over that. I’ve had to overcome it by committing to writing every single day and producing content regardless of how I’m feeling. And even then, there’s things that I want to say that I find really difficult to convey in words. So when I write, I channel. I don’t think. I just write. I don’t edit. I just write. And now, I press publish regardless because to me that means I accept whatever I’ve created is good enough. The rest I deal with if and when it happens.

It has been a massive challenge for me to produce videos though because this makes me extremely visible. I cringe when I hear people tell me how natural I am on camera. Honestly, if you could see the build up and the procrastination, you’d understand. I have to be in the right mood and energy. I have to bang them out all in one go. I become a bit of a diva. I always worry if I’m actually being heard and this is because there have been times where I’ve made videos about pretty serious stuff and people have commented on how I look rather than what I’m saying. I think that’s something I still need to work through and although I’m starting to be a bit more consistent with it, it terrifies me. The last thing I want to be is boring and that says a lot about how I think other people will perceive me. There are a thousand and one reasons not to make videos but I’m getting to grips with the idea that my words matter and I need to share them with you. This is what I want to be doing – sharing and so everyday I have to drive that message home to myself and keep on working on my confidence.

It takes a lot to be “out there” in your chosen field. It takes putting your own fears and insecurities to one side sometimes. But we do it because somewhere deep inside is a knowing that it is the right thing to do. It’s knowing that someone out there may be helped by my words and my message. That’s what makes this job worthwhile. I’m not perfect, but I try my best. It makes me uncomfortable, but I do my best with it. It takes courage and strength and I can say I definitely have those even if I don’t always feel it. There’s a lot of ERMS and nervous laughter but that’s how I get through it.

For introverts like me, it’s a scary world out there. Being introverted and empathic brings it’s own challenges. I used to call it shyness but it’s more than that. Over the years, I’ve really had to learn to protect my own energy because it gets snapped up really quickly. I’ve had to learn to set boundaries. I’ve even had to stand up for myself with friends and family who dispute that I am an introvert. It just goes to show the assumptions people can make and the expectations put on us for how others want us to be.

I don’t have many friends and over the years there’s plenty of people who have come and gone from my life when I started putting boundaries around me. I’ve always found it difficult to say no but there comes a point when you realise that people are only friends with you because of what they can get from you. You’re a good listener. They never have to ask you how you are until the end of the conversation when it’s time for them to go. And you’re ok with that and you feel guilty if you aren’t.

It’s a tough place out there, especially when most situations make you want to cut and run for the hills. You wish people would just go away sometimes. All you want is to be in your own space, doing your own thing and you’re more than happy in your own company.

But that doesn’t mean that we shy away from life. I make myself do these things and get out and about regardless because I could quite easily be a hermit. That would suit me fine but then I wouldn’t be challenging myself to live. I wouldn’t make heartfelt connections or smile at people in the street. I wouldn’t do this work. Just as well I’m more a one to one kind of person but recently, I’ve been challenging myself to do group events. This is a massive breakthrough for me and even though it takes me a couple of days to recover, I’m committing to this because I know I’ve had so much resistance around groups.

It’s a delicate balance between being a hermit and being out there and sociable.I always know when I’ve done too much people-ing because I’ll just want to hide in my hole until I’ve got my energy back.

The thing that helps me the most to manage my hermit tendencies is to make sure that I do have a lot of time that is just for me. I also make sure that I use this time to recharge myself. Whether that’s reading a book, writing, listening to music or just dancing while I’m cleaning. I need to feel full and I know that when I feel full, I’m less likely to have to run home from places.

It isn’t always easy, is it? I just wanted to share that because there is another huge misconception that people that do this kind of work MUST have their life all sorted. I don’t have it all sorted. I am always working at it, just like everyone else.

And the thing that I work hardest at is putting myself out there despite my insecurities. That and making my boundaries known without feeling guilty. And finally, making sure I have enough for myself before I help others.

Always feeling the fear and doing it anyway. Sometimes very slowly but always working at it!

This is your ascension energy update for this week. I’m conscious I’ve not posted in a while but like many others, I too have been down the rabbit hole with these intense energies.

One thing I will say about this energy is expect the unexpected. This I can see on so many levels. Certainly in my own life, in politics, in the weather. The Universe is pulling us back to a place of trust. There is much chaos but we are not to be taking anything for granted.

Notice your reactions the second that the rug gets pulled from under your feet, and then notice how those reactions begin to change. It’s almost as if these lessons are coming thick and fast and are designed for you to recognise and feel gratitude.

For me, it’s certainly been the little things in life that I am grateful for this week. Things that might seem trivial to others but they mean a lot to me. Although the energies feel more settled this week and calmer, don’t be lulled in to a false sense of security.

For many of us, there is a need to go inwards. I’ve certainly felt as if the world is a bit too much for me to cope with. It’s really noisy at the moment and if you listen carefully, you can hear how the frequencies are changing. I felt a sharp pitch rise last night which has carried on through in to today. There doesn’t seem to be any let up.

As I said, I’ve been down the rabbit hole. There has been a great deal of soul searching for many and it feels as if all the old wounds are coming out to play again. This week, the healing room has seen a rise in physical issues. In particular, Sciatica. There’s only so long you can sit on your issues before they get your attention!

There does seem to be a big theme at the moment about facing your stuff. There’s always going to be experiences and memories that we bury because we know it’s going to hurt if we go there. My motto in life is that I’d rather take myself there willingly than have it imposed upon me which is one of the reasons I delve deep on a daily basis. Even so, I’ve had my fair share of surprises this week!

Life’s big questions are coming up for many at the moment. What are we here to do? Are we moving towards our goals? What is that we actually really want?

It’s time to take stock for a new chapter. It feels as if these energies of re-birth came upon us so thick and fast and we got carried away in this feeling of something amazing being just over the horizon. In truth, if that something is just around the corner, I think this week we are trying to measure how big this corner is.

It’s been difficult to maintain hope and optimism through setbacks and failures, but that underlying energy of something being just around the corner is still there when you tune in to it. It’s a relief in some ways and it’s carrying a lot of weight at the moment. We are going inwards to take some of that weight off so that we can begin to generate that hope and optimism for ourselves.

Another big theme this week has been owning our own emotions and owning what we are creating for ourselves. Understanding our self-sabotage patterns and beginning to break them is hard work that mainly comes from observation. We are seeing things in ourselves now that we perhaps didn’t see before and on some levels being harsher but on other levels allowing that tough love to do it’s work.

That “what do I really want” question comes in to play here and it matters so much. What are you worth? How much value do you place on your own dream? What are you doing for yourself?

Self-care is going to be the order of the day from now on so get used to it. It doesn’t seem to be letting up or slowing down, and I’m sure I read that there are solar storms coming in that are having a physical impact.

Hold on tight! We are entering a whole new cycle altogether. We just need to prepare ourselves to be who we came here to be.

Until next time,

Love

Hafsa

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to release any restriction or constriction you feel, with regard to yourself or another, in to the heat and fire of Unity.

I wrote part one of this pathway almost exactly 2 years to the day that I did the healing transmission that takes us deeper in to it. Part one is below and this was what was written a couple of years ago and it still stands. Part 2 revisits with fresh insight.

Part1:

I remember when I first got this book many years ago, and I used to open it for a pathway and more often than not, it fell open at this pathway. It’s clear that over the course of my life, this is a pathway I will always have a special connection with. I had a lot of tension and hurt that needed to be burned away

This pathway comes to me now in a whole different way and there are many lessons that arise as a result. As soon as I read the pathway, I could feel the tension and hurt all coming up, bubbling away under the surface. All very familiar feelings and I could feel the resistance straight away because I knew that once and for all, it was time to heal and lose the old wounds. There was a reason this pathway came at this moment and it was because this is what I have been working towards.

There’s a moment when you can actually see how everything has led you to where you are. There is a moment within that moment where you feel so close to turning that corner within yourself and accessing the freedom you crave. It’s liberating and terrifying all at the same time. That’s why you put a block on it and that’s what stops you from burning away the tension and hurt. You hold on with your mind and it’s hard to let go. It’s difficult seeing beyond that point. I could feel that had burning away in me for a long time.

If it was simple and straightforward, we would all be enlightened beings, but it really isn’t. Those darker feelings are there and yes it would be wonderful to get rid of them but imagine if you’ve never felt freedom and never seen real light before, that in itself can be overwhelming and painful. That’s why the spiritual journey, in my view, takes you in to the freedom and light a little at a time. It’s easier to digest that way although as humans we are fixated on “when will it all be alright?” and for me this pathway brought up a really big realisation in seeing the bigger picture. There is no end point when all is alright. All is alright RIGHT NOW. It’s just how being human and having a mind complicates everything when life really is pretty simple. Just think of when you were a baby, your needs were taken care of and you didn’t worry because you felt safe. You didn’t think then as you do now, maybe one day it’ll be ok because that day you were always ok.

Those old feelings of being unsafe bubbled up with this pathway. I felt like I was on an angry rampage for a few days but I was watching carefully at what was triggering me. It’s simple – when things are not the way I want them to be, you better get out of my way! I can joke about it, and I’m not saying I’m some kind of Diva, but the deeper hurt and tension does come from this feeling of I can’t have what I want and that comes from my conditioning and my experiences in life. It takes time to undo all of that. I am in a better place, and I am not in the past. The deepest realisation for me is seeing beyond into where these moments can lead me. This moment is perfect because everything is happening as it should, but the tension and hurt and anger is a rejection of this moment because it’s not perfect in my eyes. That’s the reason I feel tension and hurt and anger. The only way to neutralise this is love, and loving yourself when you’re raging is hard!

It’s hard to look at the anger, hurt and tension in yourself because you know that it is going to be painful and when we reject and resist that moment, it becomes even more so. To truly burn it away is to treat it with love. Love is the only way to neutralise emotions and release them. Love is total acceptance of things as they are, and yourself as you are. Unconditionally.

You can’t make something happiness and heart unless you truly feel it. You have to be looking for it in yourself to truly feel it and most of us don’t look until we come to a certain place in our lives. There are some people who just have the knack, life’s optimists, but it takes work depending on where you’ve been in your life and what you’ve experienced. At some point, we all throw the toys out of the pram because life isn’t going our way. It makes us unhappy and all because we are rejecting the here and now because it doesn’t look like how we wanted it to. The deep irony of life is that if we keep seeing it this way, life will never be what we want it to be. Right now is the perfect moment to be happy.

What is happiness anyway?

I think it’s rooted in freedom and freedom comes from being able to see what you’re doing to yourself and being able to stop it. The lesson for me which I feel cut the deepest is that I’ve been working so hard to love myself, and I’ve made some real progress with this but this pathway enabled me to notice that I can be horrible to myself still sometimes. I won’t take it if someone else treats me that way, but some of the things I catch myself saying to myself tell me that I could be a lot kinder sometimes.

As I was deep in meditation with this pathway, a realisation came to me. My mind wants to fix everything and that’s causing hurt and tension. I thought I had done away with my inner control freak, but as it turns out I haven’t fully! This is going to take some work and I can accept that is always going to be a part of me. It’s hard to undo conditioning because conditioning helps to keep you mentally and emotionally safe. It operates on a physical level though, so it stops you from taking action beyond your safety limit.

I am safe now though and so there is no need to try and fix anything. I find myself falling in love with my Creator on a whole other level as a result of this pathway and the realisation that there is something greater at work, always at work that has my best interests at heart. All I need to do is to get out of the way and stop trying to force my own interventions!

I remember when I first started meditating. I remember once doing a really long meditation and I was so determined to find the answer I was looking for. I insisted I would not get up until I knew what the answer was and I was there for about 3 – 4 hours. I searched in the silence for hours. I remember being calm and still and from nowhere a voice said, “Your job is not to know. Your job is to trust.” BOOM!! That message I know was really real because it came from nowhere. I have never forgotten it and working through this pathway, it has come up often for me. It’s a reminder. That real wisdom sits within, and I can access it if I am willing to listen.

The book talks about tension and hurt feeling like a pressure cooker and that life sometimes feels as if it is cooking you, softening you up and I feel this process. Life is so much easier if you tell yourself that everything is happening as it was meant to happen. You can’t make things go any faster or delay the pain. You are safe to go through it and go through it you must. If only we knew what was on the other side of our suffering, I reckon we would skip through it without a care!!

I feel I have ended several chapters in my life and I’m on to new beginnings now. I feel safe as a result. I know there is nothing that can harm me. I know what my mind is doing. I know where the tension and hurt are coming from. I know that feeling those feelings is softening me and bringing me back to Source. Those feelings in themselves are indicators and signals that I need to seek Source to feel at ease.

Everything is perfect. It’s how we choose to see it. Knowing it is happening perfectly takes the pressure off and makes you more accepting of things the way they are. It helps burn away the tension and hurt to bring you to a place of serenity and peace, freedom and happiness. Even if that’s simply one moment, it is enough for me to continue seeking it.

Part 2:

This time round felt like a more focused, grounded exploration of the pathway. It was humbling looking back because at the time, I thought I knew a lot more than I did and perhaps took it for granted that I’d turned a corner. I need to constantly remind myself that there are many corners in life and just because I’ve turned one, doesn’t mean there won’t be another straight after it! In the last couple of years since I first wrote on the pathway, I can say that I’ve had to go deeper in to the same wounds.

I still recognise that feeling of being so close and your mind not wanting to let go as it was something that came back as I revisited this pathway. I guess nothing is gone for good. It just changes shape and the heat and fire of Unity is part of the process by which this happens.

I did reflect on the fact that I feel safer in the world now than I have ever done before but at times I still feel the need to escape. What I thought was self-love keeps going to new and deeper levels. I hadn’t thought that far ahead, clearly!

One thing that has always come to the surface with this particular pathway is the hurt that I feel as a result of what others have done. The pathway talks about the different ways in which we handle this and I can say that I’ve done all of these things and it has kept me in a passive victim state. I noticed when I first wrote on the pathway, I didn’t go there.

The truth is people do shit on you in life. As a result, you can shut down and refuse to feel anything. You can give up and be a doormat or you can be over sensitive. I’ve done all three and I can see that quite clearly. In life, it’s inevitable and the only way through it is to actually open your heart up to it. This isn’t about what others have done to you. This is about accepting that you will feel done to but it’s for your own good that you feel this way. Our expansion comes from our interaction. Our sense of self-love develops through this feeling of being hard done by. Self-love is taking responsibility for yourself and actively stepping out of victim mode. It’s me. It’s all me and I’m doing this to myself. There. I said it. We can flit between slinging shit at others and slinging shit at ourselves but ultimately we need to just own ourselves. Let’s not be in denial about the rage but let’s use it as a creative force.

This kind of love is a challenge to cultivate in yourself because it comes from pain and hurt. It’s that pain and hurt that calls you to the One. That longing, that yearning, that cry for help – that is the burning that this pathway talks about. The rage, the fire, the anger that results in that release of energy. This is the purification of the heart so being afraid of anger will do you no good at all. It’s a necessary part of coming closer and closer to the One and purifying your own heart.

This month’s healing circle will focus on this theme. Booking link below and we would love to see you there.

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