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99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 17 – Al-Matin – Step by Step Persistence

There’s some pathways you come across where you know that there’s a life lesson involved and there’s pathways that show you just how far you’ve come. This was a bit of both for me.

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to connect with the sacred qualities of practicality and deliberation, of small steps taken over a long period of time.”

I know there’s been a massive gap between the last pathway and this one and that’s because there has been a lot of learning and integration that has taken place in the time in between.

In the last pathway I talked a lot about shadow work and learning to take responsibility for the parts of yourself that are difficult to own. I feel that this pathway has taken me in a lot deeper and shown me how shadows work on a whole new level.

The pathway talks about step by step persistence. It says, “Love also demands this type of persistence, especially when a relationship has begun to mature beyond attraction, in to something deeper.”

This is what I’ve been exploring on a number of levels within myself since I last posted on my journey with the pathways. Self-love is something that I’ve been learning to cultivate for a long time and one of the biggest realisations was just how much deeper I needed to go with this.

I feel like my relationship with myself and also with my work has reached that level of maturity that the pathway talks about. I relate it to my own journey. When I first discovered energy healing, it led me to create an idea of who I wanted to be and the work I wanted to do. As I travelled on this path, I started becoming that woman I always saw myself to be and doing the work I wanted to do. I saw myself making the difference I wanted to make and I am achieving that.

I look upon that now as the honeymoon period when I started to fall in love with myself, or at least this idea of who I wanted to be. I put all my effort and energy in to pursuing this dream. I worked hard to become that person and find what needed to be healed.

As my relationship with myself and the love I have cultivated for myself and my work starts to mature and deepen, I find that there are challenges and it doesn’t get easier. The more we uncover about ourselves, the more we are challenged to love our imperfections. The more we are challenged, the deeper in to ourselves it takes us.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve really been paying attention to what’s happening in my life. I’m observing what I’m doing and saying. I’m observing what other people are doing and saying and I am learning a great deal. To be able to watch without judging, that is a labour of love. To love without attachment, that is an art in itself.

I find I’m not the woman I fell in love with. I’m not willing to be defined that way or any way but I’m finding I love myself anyway. Who I am, just like any long term relationship, has morphed and changed. It just is what it is and doesn’t need defining anymore. When that happens, that relationship really doesn’t look like what you thought it would. When you get to this place, you realise that kind of love takes strength. It takes persistence and courage. It takes a conscious decision that even though it isn’t what you thought it would be, you’re choosing to love it anyway.

My path over the last few weeks has been a rollercoaster on a personal and emotional level. I’ve had some really tough challenges and I’ve had to really make a decision about how I feel about myself and what I’m going to do for myself out of love for myself. It’s meant shutting down for a while. It’s meant standing my ground. It’s meant not allowing anyone else’s opinion to cloud how I feel. It’s meant reaching in for my own truth. It’s meant expressing, sharing and really pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

The detail of what I’m facing is irrelevant but suffice to say that there will always be people who try to bring you down. Some with their words and some with their actions. I say this because with the last pathway we talked about being responsible for ourselves and our projections. I’m also learning to discern my own truth and that means that rather than own everything, I’m recognising that people play out their own pain by throwing it at other people. This is what I mean when I say “To be able to watch without judging, that is a labour of love. To love without attachment, that is an art in itself.” I’m not willing to own someone else’s pain. I bless their journey but I know what’s mine and what’s not.

If you allow anything to cause doubt within yourself, you lose. When you love another, you trust them with your whole heart and you don’t doubt if they are true. When you love yourself, you must see it exactly the same way. I’ve learnt this and it’s unearthed a massive strength in me.

Persistence means that you have to fight for yourself. As an empath, I’m great at fighting for others but maybe not so good at fighting for myself. One of things that this pathway has shown me is just how much I love myself and love my work. When push comes to shove, if my ability to do my work is threatened, I will fight to the death and I will win. Nothing is going to bring me down and each time it tries to take me down, I come back a hell of a lot stronger. That’s because I know what I bring to this world is important. I’m fighting for me but I’m also fighting for all of those people who benefit from what I do.

I think the most beautiful thing that’s come alive for me is this fire that I know I’ve always had in me. I think as you reach in to spirituality, you almost believe that you need to put that fire out for the sake of love and light. That fire is courage in adversity. That fire is fighting for what you believe in. That fire is a relentless amount of self-assuredness. That fire must never be diluted, especially for those that are making a difference in this world.

None of this comes without persistence. None of this comes without a fight. None of this comes without being challenged. For me, I didn’t realise it but this is what I’ve been building step by step. I couldn’t see it at the time, but everything leads you to the moment where you’re at right now. Perhaps you need to be challenged for you to find your strength? Perhaps you need the darkness to come at you for you to overcome it?

I believe that this is all the alchemy of the Universe at work. Every action is a small step towards something greater. I sometimes forget there’s a bigger picture and get bogged down in the detail of it all but I’m human. It sometimes takes adversity to show you just how far you have travelled.

I take great strength from this pathway. It’s a long journey full of twists and turns, full of challenges but look how beautiful it can be. It’s designed to help you find yourself and if you can see that, you’ll keep at it.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 18th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and oh my does it feel like the ground is moving from under our feet! Before I begin this update, I just want to say that my updates are NOT astrological. They’re purely based on tuning in to the frequencies. I include what I know may be happening with the moon and planets if it’s relevant. Mostly, I’m sharing what I’m experiencing as well as collective themes that emerge from the healing room that are tied in to these themes.

I’ve not done an update for a while as I’ve been processing this very heavy energy that’s around. Those of you who follow my Facebook posts know that I’ve been keeping an eye on the Schumann Resonance. Check out this link: https://www.disclosurenews.it/en/schumann-resonance-today-update/

The spikes have been noticeable as the frequency rises and I’ve been feeling it all quite physically. It’s worth checking out if you’re feeling a bit odd and wondering what it is that’s setting you off!

Energy wise, as always, there’s a lot going on. Although the last few weeks have felt quite still and stagnant. There’s been a feeling of “nothing seems to be happening.” Hold on tight because the energy is taking us higher and higher.

There’s a full moon Tuesday 19th and the energy is building around that. It doesn’t feel as intense as previous moons. With full moon energy, usually the shit that needs to clear comes up and hits you square in the face. This moon has a gentler energy. It’s calmer and it feels like a real magnetic pull towards something bigger.

One of themes we’ve been exploring in the healing room has been growth. Growth happens on a number of levels. Emotional and spiritual growth is what I support people with. It’s been noticeable just how much people are starting to become aware of energy and it’s impact on daily life. I’ve been doing this kind of work for the last 5 years and I’m really seeing the landscape changing in terms of awareness and expansion on a spiritual level. Everyone knows about energy – regardless of whether they believe in it or not. It’s becoming a mainstream thing to talk about energy and that can only be a good thing.

This weeks energy is about expansion and I feel that really strongly. The thing to remember about expansion is that when it’s happening, the first thing we do is resist. This makes us contract (not expand) and there’s a certain amount of pressure that falls on us in order for us to get to a point where we burst forth from it. I’ve certainly been feeling this way over the last week or so. It’s tough to remember when you’re going through it that the time you feel pressure is the bit that’s going to make you grow and expand.

Times like these are perfect to show you what you’re made of!

Another theme in the healing room has been around asking for what you need. Whether that’s setting boundaries, asking for help or just being able to take time out. We seem to be learning some really big lessons around that. This week’s energy is asking us to choose wisely and to include ourselves in our choices.

We are inextricably linked to the past but we forget that we are also linked equally as strongly to our future. The present is where these timelines meet and that is something to be really conscious and aware of as we are manifesting our future. We can do this consciously or unconsciously but simply to be aware of it seems to be a big message from the universe.

I don’t know where you’re at but I seem to be doing a lot of watching. I’m observing myself. I’m observing others. I’m also finding that a lot of the questions I’m asking seem to be answered through this observation. I love this way of working because I’ll reach out to the Universe and say “show me.” This is even more awesome if you remember that you’ve asked because being human, we often forget and then when the shits hitting the fan, we wonder what hell we’ve unleashed! I’ve started getting in to more of a conscious habit with the words, “show me regardless of whether I like the truth or not” and then I let go. This is the critical bit because you really do have to accept what comes rather than influence the outcome!

The pull from the moon is a big one and there’s something very reassuring about this moon’s energy. I’m feeling a different vibration with this one. It’s almost like the energy of “home” wants to come in and sit with us. I like this feeling. For those of you who are on this path, you’ll know I’ve talked about this feeling before. This feeling of wanting to go home. I feel the energies of this place are with us. I can’t sense whether it is galactic star energy or whether the energy of the ancestors is coming through more strongly with this moon. It’s a nice feeling this glow though because either way, the message I’m getting is “You are not alone. There are many more out there like you.”

For me, this moon is significant as I turn 40 in a few days. They say life begins at 40 so perhaps I’m also feeling the energy of my own rebirth from this star flooded universe. Who knows?

If you need help with any of the themes in this post, please do get in touch.

Until next time….Love and Light,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 4th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. Hasn’t it been an interesting few weeks? We’re working with a couple of major themes and so I thought it was good timing to write an update today.

Revisiting the Past

The first major theme I want to cover is this idea of revisiting the past, or rather as it has been over the last few weeks is the past coming to visit you. For many of us, some ugly things have raised their heads from as far back as 2017. However, what we’re finding is that rather than it toppling us in the same way that it did before, it all seems to be showing us how much we have grown. This is all positive in my view. What you’ll notice when you’ve been working on yourself is that your responses begin to change. There is more of a sense of “I’ve got this” or “The Universe has got my back.”

It goes deeper than just growth though. This is all part of cultivating faith and trust in what’s meant to be, which leads me nicely on the the next theme.

Letting go

One theme that we will always be working with is this idea of letting go. Certainly in the healing room and for me on a personal level, it has been about exploring the mindset that keeps us locked in. Once we realise that it’s our thinking that keeps us in the same place, we can consciously move from that place to the next level.

One of things that helps is to become aware of the stories that we tell ourselves. For me, it’s going over old journals and things that I’ve written and that really helps me to see the story that I am telling myself. It isn’t just the story on it’s own though. It’s about what that story says about you and asking yourself if that’s who you want to be. This is challenging because if the answer is no, it means you’re going to have to do the work to change it!

This is when we start to let go of the ideas that we’ve been locked in to. Old you has been trying to keep pushing itself back in, but I find that baby steps are the best way to easing your way to carving a new place for yourself.

Advice going forward

The thing that works best for me when I’m transitioning in to a new version of myself is to take one day at a time. Watch for signs of old you because they’ll creep back in. The way that self-sabotage works is through the thought process and it’s challenging to keep on with things. This is something that I’m working with and the way through it is to ask yourself “What happens if I keep going with this?”

There will always be a pang of fear, but keep going nonetheless because fear can’t kill you. It can harm you and cause you to do things to your detriment, but even those things you learn from.

You’ve just got to keep on keeping on. Healing is there to help you so if you find you’ve hit a stumbling block and can’t move past a certain phase in your journey, please get in touch. I love helping people progress so hit me up!

Healing

Ascension Energy Update 15th January, 2019

Here’s your Ascension Energy Update for this week.

Finally it feels like the heavy energy is shifting a little. It’s moving slowly but it is moving. For the most part of December and January, it’s felt like treading water in the dark.

It feels like a lot of our old loose ends coming in to our awareness since the New Moon and Eclipse. Those people and situations that you’ve been avoiding dealing with have come right up to your face. I know I’ve certainly had my fair share of it and what we’re doing is confronting that energy head on.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again – there really is nowhere to hide on this path. The things we don’t deal with always come back. For me the lesson has been to be more direct. No pussyfooting around. Just saying it like it is. That helps to put a full stop after it and gives you that feeling of, “Yes, I’m done.”

Clarity is starting to emerge now after a long sleep. I finally feel like I can come out of hibernation. It’s still slow, but it feels a lot better than it did.

The Earth’s frequencies have been spiking. Follow the Schumann Resonance to see what it’s doing. There have been some really big spikes that have affected us all. I don’t think this is going to settle. Remember that we are in between two Eclipses so more and more stuff that needs to be settled will be coming up.

I guess we just have to roll our sleeves up and say bring it on! It is volatile and unpredictable but there’s something really beautiful about not knowing. It’s the anticipation. The uncertainty.

If you’d have asked me a couple of years ago I’d have been sod uncertainty but this feels like a different time. Politically and environmentally there’s a lot of uncertainty and we are definitely being asked to get comfortable with a different kind of reality.

One of the most noticeable things for me is working around personal power which is sort of where I feel the energies are leading us. I feel like I’m seeing the same things from a different perspective and having lots of lightbulb moments. It’s magic and real alchemy at work by the Universe and I can feel it.

It’s like a background hum of static that’s always there and you don’t know where and when the spark will come. Some of us wait in anticipation. Some go searching for it. Some are somewhere in between and back and forth.

It feels like things are just starting to open up. There is much to do around alignment and it feels like this is what the energy is pushing us towards. In any case, I think new beginnings is a definite theme that we’re working with.

There was dropping the old and integrating the new and I think we are going to be in transition a little bit longer.

You’ll notice that term “what no longer serves me” is what is falling away but you can actually see how it isn’t serving you. This ties in with that feeling of empowerment because we are choosing rather than having things wrenched away. It takes time to integrate these new energies. I’m just really glad that it’s not so much taking it’s toll on a physical level.

Sleep feels like it’s returning back to normal finally. The long hibernation is over. Welcome to the new world!

Healing

Ascension Energy Update 8th January, 2019

I don’t even remember if I’ve done any Ascension energy updates this year and this is the whirlwind energy we are experiencing at the moment. It’s crazy. It’s fast paced and even though we are whirling around, nothing feels like its moving.

The first week of January was when the dregs of 2018 came back to visit and it was pretty intense. Around new moon on the 6th things started to feel like they were changing. An air of optimism and hope which was much welcomed after December’s intensity.

What we’re facing now is piecing things together and it can feel really heavy while we do this but hang in there because we’re almost getting to the crescendo before the big drop. I feel there is a while to go yet.

Physically, it has been really demanding. Many of us are processing in our sleep which means we don’t wake up refreshed. As we are downloading new information and our cells start to expand with light, this takes its toll on the body. I’ve certainly had some nights where I’ve knocked out straight away but woken up several times to give myself a break from the processing. I don’t think I’ve had more than a couple of really good night’s unbroken sleep since the beginning of December. I’m just taking it as my new “normal” pattern knowing that this can happen sometimes and you get used to it.

The dream state has also been quite intense. There’s so much coming through dreams for me now and I’m trying to piece it all together but its like a jigsaw puzzle and all the pieces are being delivered everyday. I’m not able to put it together just yet although there are areas that are starting to make sense.

I feel a need for quiet time more than ever before. Just to be in my own energies and process. I’ve been writing like a beast but more for myself to make sense of this than to share. It really is an intense time and I have days where I catch myself asking whether I am in a real situation or dreaming.

There isn’t much distance between the dream state and the waking state at the moment. It’s blurry and at the same time, this is when we need to maintain a state a consciousness because this is the manifesting state.

In the end, you ask yourself what’s real. Knowing all the dimensions exist simultaneously helps. Sometimes we think that shifting dimensions means that we find trouble in dealing with our 3rd dimensional reality. In actual fact, we can exist and operate at all different dimensions.

Remember also that shifts to higher dimensions come from our experience of this physical reality and so our experience here is an essential part of the ascension process. We can take ourselves off to higher planes, we can meditate and we can learn to see energy on different levels but the fact of the matter is that we exist here, in a physical form and on a physical dimension. We need to master our existence here as well as develop in other dimensions.

The more I do this work, the more I feel that this 3rd dimensional reality is like the lost or forgotten reality in the pursuit of spiritual ascension. In actual fact, this human experience is the basis for all other experience that causes you to question and challenge your existence.

What is real?

Until next time….

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 12th December, 2018

This is your ascension energy update for this week. I know it’s a little later than scheduled, but there’s been a lot happening this week.

Mercury went direct – although we are still in the shadow phase and it’ll take a little longer before full clarity. We are Re-evaluating, Re-trospecting and Re-vamping our lives.

The 12:12 energy gateway/portal has now opened and we have an opportunity between now and the winter solstice (21st December) to really put the past behind us.

What I’ve noticed is that I’m really looking at what is being brought in to my life. If I’m trying to birth a new version of myself, why am I still mulling over old stuff. Why am I playing out the same old patterns? Where am I still not honouring myself?

You’ll find that if you make the intention to put the past behind you, it’ll all start surfacing for you to clear. This can be difficult. I know on a personal level, I am facing these challenges but this is serious energy. This is what’s helping us to set the tone for what we deserve. We really do have to have the courage to resolve what we need to resolve and walk away from the noise.

The great thing about this energy is that it brings with it echoes of the past year and all the lessons that we’ve learnt. 2018 was the year that really started the breakdown of identity and ego in a massive way and it feels like the Universe is just making sure that we’ve fully learned the lessons.

The last few weeks, we’ve felt a need to retreat in to ourselves. A lot of us have been avoiding people, going out, interacting because we just need to be with ourselves.

There’s nowhere to hide anymore. Face it and be done with it. You’ll start to have the massive realisations and act on them. This energy has decisiveness about it and there is almost and impulse and drive to follow through.

I’ve found myself really going forth with it in the sense that I no longer want to hold back. Saying it like it is – that’s a real theme. All with love and compassion and all for the greatest good of all. That’s what it’s all about.

2019 feels like it really is going to be amazing. This is like the stress of having a driving test and next year will be like being let loose with a Maserati. I feel it. Great things are coming.

The message is to consolidate the learning and hold true to yourself.

The Empowered woman drives her own destiny

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 30th November 2018

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been a little messy since the full moon, hasn’t it?!

Many of us are finding that the lessons are coming in thick and fast and with Mercury has been in retrograde since November 16th. It goes direct around the time of the new moon on the 7th December and there’s refreshing changes on the way. Well that’s the least we can hope for.

Expect between now and then to be messy. There is much coming up to heal and one of the things that will really hit you is that one same lesson that you’ve still not learnt. I know I’m feeling it in many areas of my life at the moment and it really is time to gather your wits about you!

The best way to handle it is to take that time out for yourself. Reflect. I mean really reflect and ask yourself what are the things that you keep experiencing time and time again. There’s your big clue. Whether it’s feeling hard done by or whether it’s a feeling of stop/start – just take time to sit with it.

The next step is to ask yourself, “What am I doing that’s keeping it the same?” Therein lie a lot of the answers.

Remember there are some things that are programmed in as subconscious patterns and so they’re not that easy to shift on your own. If you want to give me a call, I’d be happy to help you with this.

Think about what you want to do differently. I can’t remember who it was that said that it’s an act of madness to do the same thing again and again and expect a different result. It might have been Einstein but he was right.

It is really heavy right now but it’s all about getting us to take a real good look at where we have come from and how we want to change. Mars, the planet of action, is also on the move so this will make it easier.

I would say take some time to reflect. Sometimes we can want change so badly but the actions that we are taking really aren’t in alignment with what we want to achieve. It’s time to work it all out so that when you do take action, it’s with intention and is fruitful for you.

I know my own personal way of doing things is haphazard and so sitting down and working things out is something I’m not used to doing. I kind of follow my heart on a whim and a prayer and structure and discipline are completely alien concepts to me. This wave of ascension energy has really forced me to slow down, take stock and plan.

My challenge now is trying to stick to the plan!

One thing I do know is that this year has been start/stop energy for many of us. It has brought up so much for us to heal and I know that many of you are going through a messy time right now.

I’ve been doing my own Emotion Code sessions to help me shift out of these old patterns because I know it isn’t me that doesn’t want to take action – it’s my subconscious hindering me. As a result, I’m noticing the changes in myself on a massive scale. I think those of you who have been following my social media have also noticed how much I’m changing.

It’s important that we tune in and believe that we are not hopeless in our endeavours. Healing is here to help you. If you’d like to have a chat, please get in touch. A consultation call is completely free.

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To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it. Lately, I’ve been working to try and reach more people and that’s because I know I can really make a difference. I know there’s more to do and I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of this so I thought I’d share my thinking on this with you.

So I know that I have a real impact on people’s lives. I know that healing has helped make massive leaps for people’s careers. I’ve helped people come back from absolute rock bottom. I know that there’s some clients who literally trust me with their lives. I know that I’ve helped people avoid being on prescription drugs and even helped some people to come off them. I know I’ve helped people become confident and assertive. I know I’ve helped people overcome their fears of intimacy. I know I’ve helped people make sense of their spiritual journey and taught them how to work on themselves. I’ve seen people grow and blossom in front of my eyes. I’ve helped people to take charge of their own destiny and given them the perspective that’s helped them to believe that everything is possible.

The list is endless and you’d think that this would be enough evidence for me to believe in myself, right? Well, I’m going to be really honest here and say that I’ve only just started to understand the difference I make to people’s lives and I’m still battling with this. Empaths start on a much lower self-worth level to others in my opinion and it takes a lot to climb to that place where you truly believe in your gifts.

I had a lovely client come in the other day and something he said will stick with me forever. He said, “You can say that your work is rewarding and real satisfaction and that you make a real difference. People will remember you for what you did for them.” I tried to stay cool, but inside my heart dropped a little because I’d not taken that perspective. I usually just bumble along, shrug off the praise and get on with the job. I hadn’t really been listening or taking on board the nice things that people have said because perhaps I didn’t feel that I truly deserved it. I always focus on what else there is left to do and this made me stop and take stock and really appreciate what I have.

I know that when people tell me how much I’ve helped them with the sessions we’ve had together, I still have a hard time accepting the praise. It’s like I still can’t quite believe that I’m doing this.

It takes an awful lot to step up and accept all of who you are. I’m finding this as I battle my way through it. I talk a lot about working with the shadow aspects, but this is like another form of shadow that we also need to work with. Being able to see and accept what you’re putting in to world and the positives it brings is a beautiful thing. What happens is that we think of this as Ego and retreat in to being humble. I know this is what I’ve been doing and actually as a result, I’m not getting what I truly deserve because I don’t truly believe I deserve it.

This is one of the things that I’m trying to set about changing in myself because it’s part of my self-sabotage pattern and I know I’m fed up of living that pattern. In my bones, I feel that it’s time to step up and really be visible about the work that I do. I’m building my confidence. I’m getting better at accepting praise and I’m really listening and allowing the evidence to show me that this journey is well worth the graft. Look at what I can do – it’s magical but in the daily grind, the magic gets lost and forgotten. I want to be the person that still believes in the magic!

It can be overwhelming, but I’m learning that actually praise and kind words are how people are showing love and appreciation. I have to keep my heart open to this love. It doesn’t mean it’s going to my head and it doesn’t make me any less humble. It’s quite a difficult and new concept to me to be able to celebrate the good things that I have put in to the world and be proud of what I have achieved. It’s actually quite scary!

I’m conscious not to take anything for granted because I know where I came from. At the same time, I understand that if I am overwhelmed by it, I’m not in complete acceptance of it. It’s an interesting dilemma because the Ego is shouting “Be humble!” and at the same time you’re at the point where you can’t deny the evidence that’s put before you.

The trick is to define your own sense of identity because there is strength in having that sense of self. The Ego is the false identity and when it screams “Be humble!” at you, it is one of the ways in which it is holding you back and keeping you in the limitations that you’ve been taught.

I never really recognised this fully before now and working with it has been really challenging. I can say in my own mind I believe I make a difference and I’m starting to accept the evidence as real. Remember how deep set the ego ideas and beliefs are.

Defining your own sense of self takes time. I’ve been on this journey a while and I’m still finding false selves and as each mask falls away, it enables me to become more authentic, more real and more confident in my own definition of who I am.

I don’t want to be what I’m taught I have to be in this world. I don’t want to have limitations and restrictions placed on me.

I want to be able to share and celebrate the fullness of who I am. I want to believe that I can attract what I deserve. I want to believe that I truly deserve it.

If any of this resonates and you’re on the path trying to find ways to become who you came here to be, please get in touch with me. I love working with opening hearts and minds to all the possibilities!

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 16 – Flexible Strength

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a flexible strength that can adapt to any situation and yet remain rooted in, and moving toward, the purpose of your life.”

This pathway came at just the right time for me to integrate many of the lessons that I am learning on this journey. I’ve talked before about distraction and how sometimes being an empath can mean that you get absorbed and pulled in to everyone else’s stuff. We can feel resentful because our full focus is not on our own mission.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been consciously looking at how I get pulled away and distracted and I’ve made a lot of changes. The first thing that I want to say is thank you to all the true friends that have understood that I’ve needed me and my work to come first. It’s appreciated more than you know.

One of aspects of this pathway is developing strength from the way that we look at the past. For those of you that know me, you’ll know I do a lot of work with the shadow aspect. The shadow is all about looking at all the things that you’re not so comfortable with and I feel that it’s a way of breaking down the ego.

The pathway talks about forgetting the past and just keeping going. I find this really interesting and I don’t take that literally. I think there is much to be gained by understanding that you can’t just put your past in a box and pretend that it doesn’t exist. Part of shadow work is to revisit some of the more uncomfortable parts and to work through them and with them in a way that allows us to learn more about who we are. This process helps us to accept parts of ourselves that we may have disowned because of shame or anger at the way we behaved. Learning love and compassion for yourself means that you have to go in and be able to accept all of this to be whole.

We all have parts of ourselves that we don’t care to name and shame because it is deeply troubling. These parts usually are distinguished as the judgements we make about others. It’s hard to accept that that’s ourselves being reflected back at us. I know when I first started working with my shadow aspects, it sent me in to deep despair and it was so easy to let those things bring me down. That was because I didn’t fully own them and I hadn’t healed from them and so they still had a lot of power of me as a person.

It is easy when we face adversity to act out old shadows. Sometimes it is that inner child surfacing and being able to face yourself takes courage. It means being able to feel pain, shame, anger, fear and know that it has a place within you along with everything else. The spiritual journey isn’t all love and light and rainbows and unicorns! There are times when it is deeply uncomfortable getting to the truth. And the truth isn’t always fashionable enough to wear so we wear a mask instead. All of this starts to become apparent as you work with the shadow. It takes courage and being human, sometimes my courage fails but I think even approaching your shadow is a good start.

I do this because I want to be authentically myself. Sometimes authenticity can get lost in politeness and people pleasing. You’ll notice how that feels in yourself and I know that I don’t like it. I don’t like letting people down but when it’s a choice between that and letting myself down, I’ve learnt that it’s not always easy to choose me. It’s something that will take time to master and there’s a lot to work through.

There is darkness within all of us but part of our inner work is to face it and begin the alchemical process of transmuting it and learning to shine light on it so that it becomes something more than just a painful memory. From this process, we develop the flexible strength that this pathway is teaching us about. A person is more than the sum of their parts. When we identify all the parts, we become that something more. This is what I’m talking about. It isn’t the easiest thing to name those parts and become that something more.

When you know yourself, you are truly resilient in the face of adversity. When you are reluctant to face all aspects of yourself, you’re likely to be triggered. I think it always goes, “Trigger first, lesson later!” We need time to ponder and reflect and life is amazing in the way that it presents the lessons to us on a plate. Each trigger is an opportunity to learn and grow. Sometimes it starts with a bitch and a vent, but as you work through it, you realise that you need to own that judgement that you’ve made because it’s showing you who you are. When you’re at peace with it, you’ll experience it without being triggered. This is true strength.

There’s “who we like to think we are” versus “who we actually are” and the ego likes to hold on to it’s ideas about our identity and how we define ourselves. We have deeply set ideas, some so deep set that we’ve yet to see them.

There’s always more to do in breaking down the ego and it can sometimes feel like you’re treading water and that you’ll never be free of it. Even that is an acceptance in itself. You are in the actual process when you acknowledge it and try to make peace with it. It always feels better to me to acknowledge that I am on my way to something. It’s the process that’s more important than the outcome. When we focus on the outcome, we realise that it’s too big. When we focus on the process, we see that we’re taking steps towards something. A step in the direction you’re choosing feels better than perfection.

It’s always interesting to say the least working with the shadow aspect. We start to discover just how many lies we have told ourselves – more than we care to admit. It’s a level of honesty that you can’t really be ready for when it hits you. It makes sense to do it though because you arrive at a truer version of yourself than the one you are now. Constantly moving and evolving to get to the truth of who you are is meaningful work and it grows you.

And once you start on the quest for truth, you can’t stop!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 20th November, 2018

Well there’s definitely been a massive shift in the ascension energy since Venus went direct on the 16th November. The thing that I’ve noticed is that all those lessons that we’ve learnt when it comes to relationships are at the forefront of our minds. There is a steely determination in the air and the vibe is centred about not going back to our old ways.

With this energy shift, there have been physical symptoms. For me, the amount of sleep I am needing has increased! The rest is an important part of any energy shift because our soul energy moves a lot faster than our physical mind and body does. We need to physically catch up and as we process, it can make our minds and bodies feel tired.

One thing that I feel strongly is to understand that everyone’s pace is different. I do however get the sense that once we have caught up (however long this takes) the energy will speed up and you’ll find yourself really getting to grips with what needs doing and following through on things that have been sitting for a while.

With this energy, there’s definitely a sense of sifting through and prioritising. I know that this is the energy because it isn’t a process that comes naturally to me. I feel a deep need to really connect in solitude and actually that’s guiding me to what the priorities are at any given time.

The energy is magical at the moment. So many signs and synchronicities. It feels like it has to be this way to get us to believe in the magic again! The energies have been so heavy over the past few months that this is much needed relief for us all.

It’s uplifting even if it making us feel sleepy! I’ve found so much more joy and laughter since the shift happened and this lightness brings with it a renewed hope and optimism.

It really is a magical time and a brilliant time to get things in motion. I know that Mercury is retrograde but I feel that it’s time to plan and put together the vision for the future. It feels like we have moved on from so much after Venus shifted and it has given much needed clarity.

Re-evaluating relationships was the focus of Venus retrograde and it’s beautiful how the lessons learnt are resulting in the way that we approach anything new. There is something cautious and protective in the energy, but at the same time it isn’t coming from a place of fear. It’s coming from heightened intuition and the resistance to learning lessons seems to be subsiding.

There is an openness to this energy and a willingness to welcome whatever emotions are coming to visit. It’s an expansive space and its fast paced. There is a lot of movement and almost like a feeling of whizzing through the air at times.

With Mercury Retrograde, it’s important to pay attention to the details for us to properly harness the energy. If you’re anything like me, you’ll get carried and not take account for the small print! I have to keep reminding myself. Checking in is important and remember not to go too fast with this because there is the potential for burnout.

It is reassuring to know that all is coming to fruition but the message that’s coming through really strongly is that we need to take everything at our own pace. You can’t swallow the entire ocean. You can only take a sip at a time. This energy is setting the tone for what’s to come and so on a practical level, now is the time to think about what you’d like to introduce in to your routine. Whether it’s new ways of thinking, new habits, structure, discipline. This will all be made easier because of the energy that we are in.

The Universe is supporting us to get to where we need to go. Most of the time, it can feel like the Universe is throwing us a curve ball and teaching us the lessons but this energy is lovely because it feels supportive, reassuring and energising in a way that I’ve not experienced to this extent before.

Take advantage of it! Also know that what’s meant for you is on it’s way and regardless of whether you consciously or subconsciously try to sabotage it, it’s all coming for you anyway. You’ll learn what you need to learn through the process but that which you desire is the thing to keep in mind.

Learn to become obsessed with visualising what you’d like this energy to bring you and watch as the Universe meets you and supports you to achieve and realise it. It’s a beautiful feeling to be able to believe in the magic again and I’m really loving what’s happening right now.

Remember when you feel the magic, you resonate that vibration and that vibration has an impact on others. The more you can harness that feeling, the more you are contributing to raising the vibration on this planet. We are all doing that. Even something as simple as being in a good mood or sending out good vibes makes a difference.

I hope you’re making the most of it! I’ve cracked on with more videos as a result of this little boost so if you’d like to take a look CLICK HERE! Get in touch if you’d like to share how you’re feeling about the future!

Until next time,

Love Hafsa