We all go through periods in our lives where things really are shifting. When things started shifting for me, life really wasn’t very pleasant at all. I had to experience a great deal of grief to get here.
I remember in my saddest moments thinking to myself, “I really don’t know if there is a way out of how this feels.” That thought in itself is heartbreaking. I had several friends who literally had to scrape me up off the floor. I could not see a way out anywhere.
Everything I looked at was painted with a brick wall. I was struggling to smile, I was struggling to do anything. Everything I did just felt forced.
I think the saddest thing for me was that I didn’t feel like anyone would understand me. I couldn’t explain to myself what the pain was or why I was feeling it.
I was keeping myself in that place.
The only thing that gave me comfort at that time was to cry my eyes out and I had no control over this. It was like being dragged through broken glass and no matter how much I cried, I still couldn’t get away from that feeling I kept feeling in the pit of my stomach, my chest, the choking in my throat. That feeling of feeling completely drained and exhausted from the tears, being awake all night, not being able to eat, and then having to do it all again the next day. This went on for months and it really was torture. For me, it was the extreme, and this may not be the same for you, but I bet you can relate at some level.
Do you know what I’m talking about? Have you ever felt like this? Of course you do. We have all had moments, or weeks, periods of time like this. Its common and its not often shared as its difficult to talk about. Nothing I’m saying to you will be new to you and if you’ve felt this, you’re with someone who knows.
Hard to believe when you see me now that I came past all that. As difficult as it was to find help, I turned to Healing. It took time to get to a point where I felt I could take responsibility for myself getting better. I was a Healer myself which made me feel a bit more unworthy, but everyone needs helps sometimes.
I think the moment I said to myself, “why are you doing this to yourself?” was a lightbulb moment. That was an accidental realisation, but it was powerful!
I realised that like it or not, I was in control of being out of control.
I went to see my Healer who really helped me to start shifting things energy wise. My fears and my experiences help me to get to the core of what my clients are struggling with. I also went to see a Maori Healer called Anaru Paine. This was another intense treatment which was really physically as well as emotionally intense.
Sometimes the pain goes deeper, especially if it’s been with you a while.
You don’t have to understand healing to know that it really does work and my client reviews will give you confidence in that fact.
If you can relate to any of the stuff I’ve talked about, then Healing is definitely for you. I have been there, and now I am here and I know that what I’ve been through has happened for me to light up that pain so that I can help get you through it quicker and easier than I did.
If you’re umming and aaring, just get in touch with me and lets book you in so that we can get to work and get you past the crap that holds you down.
Look at what I’ve done in 2 years…this could be you…choose action…choose healing works.
Love and light,