99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Maintaining and nourishing yourself

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a very steady yet powerful state of awareness in your being that maintains and nourishes you and others.”

This is the pathway that I’ve been reflecting on this past week and it is one that presents plenty of challenges for me. Embodying a steady state is something that I have been working on for as far as I can remember. For me, there is a juxtaposition here with being a free spirit.

This pathway requires pulling yourself inwards whilst you experience life. Being a free spirit, it’s easy for my heart to be called elsewhere. I want to talk about this because for me it is one the most challenging aspects of who I am as a person. This is where the conflict lies and I’m noticing that it is how my power escapes sometimes.

I know I have this immense reservoir of love within me and the capacity to nourish and give to others. This pathway takes me further in to using this source to help maintain myself and it is this very thing that I have been trying to do for a long time. This pathway has helped me to uncover a whole other level and given me an awareness and perspective that goes deeper.

For those of us that are empathic, it’s very easy to relegate our own needs in order to serve others. We think that this is why we came here – to serve. That’s part of it but not the whole of it.

This pathway really made me look at the way I give and the expectations that I have created from others around me. When I began to pull it back and go within, what struck me is how very little I have given myself. With a reservoir so large, it’s almost as if I think can survive on a lot less from the pot so rather than taking from it, I put in to it. This brings up feelings of guilt and feeling selfish. At the same time, I look around me and notice that perhaps I feel this more because of the belief that I came here to serve. There are deep set emotions here about worthiness attached to this and whether I deserve to take when I can give so much. It became obvious to me that there was very little balance in my life when it came to this.

It’s been a really challenging week and working with this pathway has actually made me feel really sad. I have to be raw and honest about how I feel. That’s what this space is for and it needs to be expressed.

The pathway also reminds me that I must not overextend myself. This is what occurred to me and I can see clearly where I am doing this. I can blame being an empath to some extent but the truth of it is that I have plenty of fleeting whims and distractions all created by my ego to prevent me from embodying this state. I can see that very clearly. I realised that I can’t hide behind anything anymore. Especially not when it has been shown to me this clearly. When you realise how little you have given yourself, it brings up anger and resentment and I’ve had to spend a lot of time working with this. I’ve allowed this and I forgive myself. I can change and that is what I am doing. Easy statements to make but if you’ve ever gone through this, you’ll know the raw emotion it brings up.

This idea of sacrifice comes with this type work and it’s something that keeps coming up for me to clear away. The idea that being in service should be at the expense of your own self simply isn’t true. I am entitled to a life just like everyone else. There’s a paradox here as the “service” is actually what I have chosen to do. It’s my own path I’m creating so it is as much for me as it is for humanity. The ego makes you choose one or the other and we are conditioned to believe that choosing service to others is the better thing to do. In actual fact, we can have both but it takes a lot of unlearning which I am still learning to do.

When I call the ego out on this, the contradictions are so very obvious. There is so much pain in saying goodbye to old ways of being. I’ve always tried to be conscious of what my ego is doing and exploring the pathways has brought up a lot of wounds that need to be healed within myself.

It isn’t easy getting the balance within yourself between serving others and serving yourself. We are brought up with conditioning that tells us that putting ourselves first is selfish. We’re taught a linear way of thinking that suggests that if we think about ourselves first, it means that we don’t care about others. It’s difficult to shift to a way of thinking that enables you to be equal to others and there’s a perception that to consider yourself equal equates to being egotistical. It gets really complicated because you can think this logically in your head but when the feelings of guilt show themselves, your heart gets pulled straight back. This is what I’m grappling with.

I’m always banging on about self-worth and I’m a work in progress but what I am learning here has come at a critical time for me. My life is interesting because of the demanding nature of my work. I get phone calls and text messages all the time asking me all sorts of things. I’ve always felt the need to answer and help and I don’t regret helping. I do sometimes resent the demands and that’s me being really honest. I take full responsibility for this now where in the past I’d have blamed others. I’ve created and met these expectations without even thinking about it and it’s difficult to undo without experiencing emotional turmoil. Meeting demands is what I’ve been looking at taking a step back from because there is a line where my work ends and I begin and that can get blurred very easily. Even though boundaries have been set, a plea for help is a plea for help and my heart isn’t one that can ignore it easily. So it’s been an emotional time because for each time that has happened, I’ve had to ask myself who I am putting first. I’m learning to deal with the emotion that comes with it and I can tell you it isn’t easy but it is necessary. This is a spiritual lesson that needs to be learned.

A strong feeling of discomfort comes from taking a step back. It’s like going against what your heart is telling you when you don’t reply to a plea for help but I had to explore this feeling for myself. It feels as if people are relying on me. It feels that there is an urgency for them that I am ignoring and that somehow makes me a bad person. Again, this linear way of thinking is one I’m learning to undo because a lot of that conditioning simply isn’t true.

What I have realised with this pathway is that I go deep and I do have a lot to give. My priority has become to maintain that within myself. Embodying a steady state of awareness and power is important but I didn’t realise how important it was for maintaining and nourishing myself. I thought I was doing that and I know now that I am not doing enough of it. The reason for this is the raw emotion, the guilt, the anger, the feeling selfish that I’m still learning to overcome. And all this just to feel equal to others! It’s mind blowing because I thought I was overcoming myself in terms of self-worth but there’s always more I need to be shown and more I need to do.

It’s interesting because although I do take a lot of time for myself and I switch off when I have to, I’ve developed some sticky habits when it comes to work. It’s the belief that work overrides everything because of it’s nature. It doesn’t though. What overrides everything is my state of being and my ability to maintain and nourish myself and I’m starting to look at that as often as I can in response to meeting the worlds demands on me. I’m taking it one moment at a time and seeing how it feels to choose me.

Just when you think you’ve got the self-worth thing down, the universe throws you a massive curve ball. With things changing as rapidly as they are, this is a very valuable lesson that the universe is giving me. I’ve noticed how quickly it can become about everything else. I’ve noticed how my free spirit slips away under the mask of empathy.

Old beliefs and old habits are dying hard. I’m working hard on taking the shame out of “I’m putting myself first.” It’s one I think a lot of us can relate to. If nice people finish last, I’m not ok with that and so I’m determined to prove that wrong.

I am just as important as everyone else and I’m determined not to forget it!

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 13 – Ar-Rauf – Healing Wings

So after quite a long break, I decided today to pick back up on the pathways again because it felt like I needed to reconnect. The last few months have been a time for extreme expansion and inner healing for me and so I caught this pathway and found myself working through it. It’s always as if this book knows exactly what is needed and this is the beauty of life. If you seek answers, you’ll find them. Sometimes, it isn’t the answer we were looking for. Sometimes it is the truth and we find that hard to bear, but nevertheless it is an answer.

This pathway is about reconnecting your heart to Unity. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves that we do not exist in isolation from others. I’ve always been quite a solitary person. I’ve also been a very strong person and my story always goes, “I don’t need anyone.”

The one thing I have learnt from my story is that when you give off the vibe that you don’t need anyone, you attract people that couldn’t care less about you. Have a think about that one. I know I did.

Receiving help and healing from others is one of the hardest things that I have had to learn. I am still learning it if I’m really honest.

This pathway for me showed me what that was all about. The last few months for me have been a struggle to stay in balance. When the ego falls away, we feel lost. When all our beliefs are challenged, we question who we are. When we feel lost, we need help and coming in to balance means that we need to connect on three deep levels.

Firstly we need to connect with Divine Source to truly be able to see the world through Creator’s eyes. We need to connect deep within ourselves to discover our desires and joy. We also need to connect ourselves with everything that is around us because like I said, we do not exist in isolation.

Without going in to too much detail, I’ve had experiences over the last few months that have really challenged me on all three levels and the expansion and awareness has changed me. For me this pathway is about recognising the struggle that we have when we become disconnected.

We think we have everything sussed and sorted and then along comes someone or something that brings out a whole lot more in you that needs to be healed. Someone or something that makes you question what you believe in. Someone or something that makes you admit what you really want isn’t in alignment with your story. Someone or something that allows you to open up and receive help and healing.

It is opening on a deep level and often these things are unexpected and meant to throw you off balance. All UNLEARNING is learning and part of the soul’s journey is to disconnect to be able to reconnect. We can arrive in a comfort zone with our spirituality unless we continuously challenge what we hold to be true. That in itself brings us to a better understanding of the Divine, of ourselves and of the world around us.

This separation between ourselves and Creator/ourselves/our world is something I want to touch on because for a lot of empaths like me, we have this yearning for home. We don’t know where home is but we have always had this longing and this deep sadness because we feel separated from it. Those of you who know, will know.

This pathway pointed to something quite poignant for me. It led me to explore all the times that I had tried to heal the separation within myself. The separation and disconnectedness can be healed through this idea that we are part of Unity. That is home.

Being spiritual isn’t simply about a set of ideals and beliefs. It’s about connecting on the three levels that I have mentioned. It is about striving to achieve that balance within yourself. It’s about repairing all the connections and this for me is the deepest kind of healing.

Sometimes we are shown through trauma and experience. Sometimes we are shown by another person who has entered our lives to teach us this very lesson. All I know is that you need to dig deep and challenge what you think you already know about yourself. For me, it was reminding myself that I also need help.

It is when I need help, comfort, affection that I am at my most vulnerable because it challenges my story. I’m admitting this here and now and I’m choosing to see this as a strength. Over the last few months, I’ve seen what compassion really is from people I would not have expected it from and it’s taken me to new depths in the way I operate in the world.

I’ve learnt what it means to receive compassion and real love and to be able to express it for another. I’ve learnt that I am absolutely safe being vulnerable because I trust that Divine is always looking out for me. I’ve learnt that when I am out of balance, I need to heal the separation within myself.

This pathway took me to a whole new level of opening within myself. I thought my heart was open and I’ve learnt that even though it is open, it can open so much wider.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 12th October 2018

WOWZERS! It’s time for another ascension energy update. I feel like it’s been a while and I can only apologise that I have not been writing as much but here I am and better late than never!

This new moon has seriously had us all exhausted! The energies have been so intense and I for one have been feeling it physically. It’s like having sleepy syndrome and there hasn’t been much time for me to sleep.

The healing room has seen some massive breakthroughs over the last week or so and I think this is the theme for October. It is officially breakthrough month on all levels.

It feels like we are all being asked to step and challenge ourselves to transition in to our next phase of ascension. The energy has been making us feel very tired with this feeling of “how long can I keep going?” It feels like burnout but it really isn’t. There is a need to push beyond this veil and there is a definite need to step up.

This week there will be something that happens that makes you feel certain that it’s time to step up. You’ll be overwhelmed with fear but honestly just remember what I’m telling you and roll your sleeves up and fight for what you want.

As lightworkers, we really suffer from procrastination and we can find reasons not to stretch ourselves. This is the time. It has always been the time. We talk about preparing ourselves quite a lot and intuitively knowing when we are ready.

The truth of the matter is this.

Your entire life has led you to this moment. You are ready. Hell you were born ready and it’s about time you realise it.

I’m in the headspace now where I have to give myself the Rocky speech every day and HURR myself on to keep going and I can feel that we are all breaking through. It may be next new moon when situations are resolved but if there’s a time to take action, it is now. This moment is defined by all previous moments and if it’s come in to your head, you are ready for it.

It doesn’t matter whether or not you can see progress. Feel it. Feel that the Universe is at work on your behalf. Set your intentions because energy follows intent.

The most important thing though is to cut out distractions. It’s all about you now.

Make this week a good one because it’s in your power to do so!

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Energy Updates

Weekly Ascension Energy Update 20th September, 2018

Weekly Ascension Energy Update

Has it been chaotic for you too? Ascension energy this week has had us rockin’!

The last few weeks have been what feels like an uprising of the old coming to the surface to be cleared and there is a hell of a lot of shit to be cleared. The ascension energy is throwing us around so fast that we don’t know whether we are coming or going at the moment. All we know is that we are NOT who we used to be and we will not settle for what we used to.

There’s a lot to take in and for many of us, the last couple of weeks have taught us where we stand. There’s been some tensions but finally we can acknowledge that it is OUR own journey that we need to be responsible for. Everything else is needing to take a back seat at the moment.

Sometimes in life we need others to hold space for us. Just to listen. Just to be there. The ascension energies have been rampant and what many are finding is that their NEED is not being met by the people around them. This leads to a conscious decision to go solo. It has also led to many of us taking a step back and really beginning to evaluate the connections and what they add to our lives and our sense of wellbeing.

It’s no bad thing all this taking a step back. It’s been so intense this year that we haven’t had the time to ponder and reflect. As a result, we’ve carried elements of the old in to the new and we’re really starting to understand which relationships are actually maintenance work and therefore draining our energy.

September’s Energy

September is the holding space and use it to tie up loose ends and cut loose the straggly bits. My advice is do this with no apologies. Yes there will be casualties as you undertake a massive cull but this is all to bring you in to alignment with who you are and where you’re heading. All of this is about you now.

A lot of us are reaching that crossroads where we need to choose between ourselves and others. Choose YOU! Period.

It’s tumultuous to say the least but now is not the time to settle for what was. Now is the time to create. The ascension energies are ripe for it. We have the Equinox on the 22nd and a full moon on the 24th. What we create now is what will harvest for us.

A friend of mine pulled a card for me the other day and it was Cornucopia. I think it captured what’s to come. The harvest really is on it’s way but this bit of the journey will take balls.

The situations that are created for us to be able to experience this shedding mean that we have to stop being pansies and grow a pair. For empaths, the most difficult bit is this. We can go all gung ho cutting people loose but our hearts will always get called back to helping and this becomes the trap.

Tips for getting through these energies

My advice is CHOOSE YOU. Period.

On a practical level, start evaluating each and every relationship for what it is. Is there a balance? Is there a fair exchange? Are you giving willingly or do you feel like you’re being taken from?

If there is balance and you’re getting as much as you give, keep it. Your bones will tell you what and who doesn’t feel right and you take responsibility for dealing with that. It’s not that you’re cutting people out forever. It’s simply right now you need all your focus and energy for yourself. If we don’t do this, we have to deal with the feeling of being left behind. That’s a low vibration and certainly not one that we want to be in if we are creating our future.

Everything is temporary. Nothing is forever. This is the big shake up and it’s time to put your money where your mouth is in a lot of ways. Times will test us, but that inner knowing will never let us down.

I would even go so far as to say that the next couple of weeks are pivotal and we need to be really mindful and aware of what our energy is doing. Pay attention to what’s within. Pay attention to what surrounds you. If there is a mismatch, do what you need to in order for there to be balance.

If all else fails and you can’t see the wood for the trees, one of my favourite tools to use is Raw Black Obsidian. This will bring anything negative to the surface quickly and enable you to deal with it at the root. You may find it unleashes chaos but if you’re craving change and you know it needs to be in your face for you to do something about it then Obsidian is the catalyst.

Stay present and just watch it all unfolding for you. Look at the bigger picture. Play the long game.

We’re in exciting times and the light downloads are intense and heavy. Keep riding it and if you need help, you know I’m here!

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Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 4th September 2018

Well here we are and it’s been heavy and intense the last week. There is a hell of a lot of crap being pushed up to the surface and we are healing and doing more healing and continue healing!

Physically, the symptoms have been a thick or foggy head including migraines and headaches. Ears have been ringing. Dizzy spells have been common. Generally a feeling of being ungrounded and uprooted.

With this, there’s been unrest. A lot of emotional restlessness. An impatience for things to start moving again and an unwillingness to back down. Sound familiar?

It really is taking it’s toll this week. I know on a personal level, I’ve had to take some time out to just shut down and recalibrate the systems! This intensity will continue although the flow of it seems to be getting easier as we work through the lessons.

It feels as if we just have to master letting go of expectations. That’s pretty difficult because to manifest what we want, we have to expect that it will materialise. What I’m talking about is getting yourself in to focus and in to a headspace where the outcome is irrelevant. This period of limbo is about building full trust and faith and allowing yourself to be led.

The Universe always has your highest interests at heart and the stagnancy that we have felt of late has created a wishy washy kind of energy. It’s important that we don’t stay in this for too long. It has been heavy and it has been difficult to keep moving. More than ever, we are being required to push ourselves a little bit further.

You’ll have noticed in the midst of all this that you are starting to get really clear on what resonates with you and what doesn’t. It should be starting to become really clear to you what needs dropping from your life because it seems as though the triggers are everywhere.

The thing I am finding the most difficult at the moment is the balancing act between ourselves and other people. We have to choose to put ourselves first.

In the spiritual journey, there will be times when you feel so far apart in your way of thinking from those that you are closest to but know that that is ok. Your truth will continue to evolve and as it does, you may find that you judge those with a different perspective, or you feel judged by them. This is all experience and it is teaching us real detachment with love. It can be difficult to stay in love and compassion with those closest to you if they can’t understand your need to process in a different way to them. This is all part of working out your place in the world.

We are coming to the cross roads and the new moon on the 8th should be bringing us some unexpected surprises. My feeling is that we are heading towards having everything we want but something tells me that it won’t look anything like we planned it to be. Therefore this time is a time of opening up and acceptance of things as they are.

There is a great deal of courage required as our old belief systems fall away. It can feel as if the world is breaking off in fragments right before your eyes. It is the collapse of the old ways of thinking.

If there is one thing that helps me more than anything it is holding on to this affirmation.

I AM LOVE. I CAME HERE TO BE LOVE AND BE LOVED.

This is all. Just keep remembering this and you’ll ride this storm. New Moon New Start is  how I’m feeling the energies at the moment so I’m using this time to get things in order. It’s time to really start thinking seriously about where things are going and how you can direct them.

 

Energy Updates, Healing

Why am I feeling so wierd? Energy Update 27th August, 2018

Why am I feeling so wierd? That’s been the theme in the healing room this week and if you’re asking yourself the same question, the answer is in the energies that are around at the moment.

It’s like a dead weight and everything that we were trying to get off the ground in June and July seems to be moving ever so slowly. There’s been planets in Retrograde. Mars and Mercury have both gone direct now and there’s been a full moon, 3 Eclipses, solar flares and Geomagnetic storms not to mention the meteor shower.

So when you take all of that in to consideration, of course you’re feeling wierd. We are all connected to the heartbeat of the Universe and when it moves and shifts, we feel it too.

The energies have been dense and heavy. Like a dead weight. Nothing seems to be moving. After much unrest, it’s like we are covered in a blanket. A littler period of hibernation is kind of what is happening right now and hopefully we will open our eyes to an easier and lighter September.

It’s not been an easy 6 weeks energetically and a lot of us have felt upheaval and restlessness. For some it’s been time out, for others it’s been working through the energies. However it has been for you, you’ve felt it. The lethargy and the numbness has been a theme for all. There have been sparks of clarity followed by periods of massive uncertainty.

Things are certainly changing though and we are feeling it. WE as a collective are changing rapidly and there is a whole movement towards letting go. This “new me” stuff is really starting to take shape and there’s yet more layers to shed. All of the conditioning, fears and limiting beliefs seem to be rising to the surface for us to see more clearly and as always, there is healing to be done!

It will settle, but the pace, depth and intensity of the energies is something that we are going to have to start getting used to because it feels like it’s going to stay like this for a while. It feels like we’re being pushed and shoved in to places that are creating expansion for us.

I think it just got interesting!

If you’re struggling with the energies and you’d like some help, please get in touch x

Energy Updates, Healing

The Rise of the Divine Feminine

The Power of the Divine Feminine

It’s been an interesting week this week as the energies seem to be ramping up. I remember towards the end of last year we were talking about the rise of the Divine Feminine and wowzers has that had an impact.

I don’t know if its just me and because I work with women, but there really does seem to be some fine tuning going on with the way that we are connecting with the Divine Feminine. It’s causing a bit of a clash between the different aspects of this energy.

On the one hand we have the softness, vulnerability and opening. On the other hand we have the wildness, the strength and the power of Femininity.

My view is that we are learning to be unashamedly ourselves and embrace whatever combination of these qualities that we hold. We are learning to harness and use these energies for ourselves and it is enhancing our power to create.

More than ever over the last few weeks in the healing room have seen a rise in the Kundalini energy and I’m working with more and more women who want to clear sexual trauma and explore their creative life force energy. The power of this energy for healing us in incredible and learning to use it is even more incredible.

Where the #metoo movement gave rise to an awareness of the power imbalance, the residue of this has been a real awakening of power for women as a collective. There really is a “Don’t take no shit” attitude at the moment and it isn’t directed at the opposite sex. There is a balance to be gained between feminine and masculine forces within us and it feels like we have to come full circle and experience these energies for us to come to balance within ourselves.

When you’re nailing it, it feels like intense creative flow, passion and alignment combined with purpose, intuition and what I can only describe as a recognition of our own resilience and “sturdiness.” Above and beyond anything, although this is a spiritual process the impact is in a very human way and it is helping us to navigate between the different dimensions and realms.

This creates movement and that’s been reflected in the shifts that clients are experiencing as a result of sessions. There really is a big change in the air and a redressing of balance when it comes to power.

Bring it on I say!!!

Energy Updates, Healing

No time for fake ones – Energy Update 28th July, 2018

Yo! Feeling a bit Gangsta Rap this week and the energies are seriously ramping up. If you’ve struggled with sleep and you’re feeling tetchy around people that are not authentic, welcome to New Earth! The energies around are about being real, saying it exactly how it is and unapologetically taking what’s rightfully yours. Entitlement, Power, Ownership. This is some strong ass energy coming through and it’s opening us all up to new experiences and new ways of thinking about the world. Personally, I bloody love this wild, wolf like sass that’s being unleashed. It’s bold, it’s brazen and it’s empowering. It’s about change and this is the crux. Change is inevitable and our experience of these energies is influenced by our willingness to accept change.

Expect all your old perceptions to be challenged on the deepest level that you can manage and remember the confusion is temporary. This is the bit where you start working it all out. This is when the pennies start to drop. The energies around us are helping us even though it seems like more of a hindrance because of the frustration or fear of change. There’s a lot of work around “old me” and “new me” and it’s uncomfortable. To the max – UNCOMFORTABLE but it’s necessary. Progress is found in the Dis-Comfort Zone so expect to be challenged and expect to feel uncomfortable. Style it out and see how the different aspects of “new me” feel to you. You’ll know quite quickly what’s authentically you and what’s not. I like this experimental aspect as it has a really open feel to it. It feels ok to explore and discover. We have this gateway open to lead us to who we are becoming.

The portals have opened up and Lightworkers are starting to gain clarity on their purpose and mission here on Earth. There really is no time to waste at all. The energy for action is there to be harnessed and it really is driving us forward without giving a shit about what’s logical. Heart led work and dropping all the old ideas and expectations of what we thought our work would be. The work is just the work. You’re delivering something a lot bigger than yourself but ironically this time is all about you. This is about what you can create. With planets in retrograde, people tend to think that they are being slowed down. That’s true to an extent, but it is a perception. The Universe is going at it’s own pace and it always will. It’s the pace of our progress that we need to understand and to take ownership of the fact that it is not dictated by external forces. The pace you work at within is the same pace as the Universe. Staying connected is literally all you need to do to align and get in to the flow. Allow the flow and keep moving inwards through connection. Even when we stand still, we are still moving. Our thoughts are still creating. Our ideas are in the process of manifesting. The key thing is the action that pushes through this energy and that’s where we are standing still as it feels like there is more confusion than clarity.

Remember that confusion is the process that leads to clarity. One simple way to work out the direction is to make a list of what you don’t want. Then take each item and find it’s opposite and that gives you a list of what you DO want. Simple…kind of lol but that’s just the starting point.

For me, the energy is wild and ready to be harnessed for forward movement. There have been a lot of bombshells dropping as a result of the Eclipse season. The mask has literally dropped off and there is no time for any bullshit. You can take things at face value or you can go deeper. You’re seeing what you didn’t see before and it is eye-opening.

As a result, you’ll be finding that you’re irritated and impatient around people that are not willing to take responsibility for themselves. Anything that doesn’t feel real and authentic will jar. Be more concerned with you than them and don’t be overpowered.

The theme in the healing room this week has been all about taking action. Ideas can stay ideas. To make them manifest, the energy needs to move through action. These energies are causing restlessness. If you don’t know what action to take, this makes it even more frustrating.

This energy feels like a pushy parent and I am certainly feeling it driving me and whipping me in to shape. It’s tough but its what’s needed.

All for the greater good knowing we have to go through what we have to go through to get to where we are going to.

Enjoy the ride!

Energy Updates

Opening the Heart Chakra

The Heart has been the focal point this week and the healing room has seen a great deal of anger and self-criticism trying to shift it’s way through clients. It seems to be that these are the things that we are working on collectively and there is so much in this that I had to write about it to take a closer look at what is the happening with the energies.

It is a time for change and I definitely feel that for myself and for all of my clients. Like I wrote in my last update, we are losing “old” version and integrating this newer updated version of ourselves. The way in which this is most noticeable is in our reactions and the way that we deal with things. Opening your heart up to loving yourself is one of the most challenging things to do. We find that we are often quite harsh on ourselves and developing that love and compassion towards ourselves is something quite alien. It’s almost as if we don’t even realise how much we are berating ourselves for the smallest things.

We are realising that we deserve so much better in all things. We are realising that with this build up of love and power, all things are possible as we learn to hold this new energy. I had one client who simply said, “Grrr! Why are you right?!”

It’s quite a big thing when you realise that you really aren’t the person that you thought you were. It’s even bigger to understand that you’ve got to try and love yourself anyway. Even if it feels like you don’t really know that new you that well. Your instinct is different and your reactions are different. It feels that we are in a place of spiritual limbo energetically because between losing the old you and becoming the new you, there is a void. One thing it is pushing us to do more and more is to be unconditionally loving towards ourselves and be ok with the not knowing what that final product (if there ever is one) looks like.

The void is an interesting energetic space because in it we find the anger, the self-criticism and the sense that we aren’t quite there yet. It is a frustrating space. I know first hand because I’ve really been feeling it, especially yesterday. There is no sound basis for the way that we feel and actually what we find is that we can always find a donkey to pin the blame on.

In actual fact, when you break it down, you realise that you are in a transitional space and transitional energies can seriously mess with your head if you don’t come back down to earth and stay grounded. The situations in our lives become the reasons for the way we feel because it makes us feel better to have some rational explanation for how we feel.

It could be anything and everything that you blame. When you ask yourself how you really feel about that situation, it opens you up to acceptance. What’s actually happening is that heart chakra is being wrenched open and all the emotion is pouring out of it. Can you be ok with that?

The Heart Chakra has really been the focal point for the healing room this week. It feels like all of our hearts are opening to self-love more than anything else. With this opening, we are beginning to release old feelings of being unworthy, of loss, of grief, of sadness. With the Heart Chakra opening comes a renewed sense of purpose and being which feels refreshingly different.

Since the beginning of the year, the focus has been on authenticity and getting real with yourself and the people around you. It has been about finding yourself, shedding what no longer serves you and letting go of the past. Now that the bulk of that work has happened, it’s like the words “What now?” are flashing in front of you and there is a need to know and have it all worked out.

We are still releasing and the picture will take a little longer to emerge. The thing that helps me the most is remember that this is the creation phase and so the energies that we bring in to this space matter. If we can see the clearing as a positive thing, it helps us to stay focused on the purpose. Clearing is a good thing. It is releasing from a heart centred place.

We are learning to hold the energy of joy from the heart. Whereas before it has been suffering that we held in the heart space, this energy is one that feels like it’s bobbing up and down and making us feel motion sickness. It’s acclimatising to the feeling of joy and being able to hold that. We’re bound to feel a little sea-sick with it but breathe it in and hold it and brace yourself for what’s coming next.

It really does feel like great hope on the horizon. I know many of my clients are at that stage in the healing cycle where they are learning to hold their own energy and learning to fly can be tricky!

All things now seem possible…hold tight!

 

Healing

Can you release your own emotional blocks?

Can you release your own emotional blockages?

It’s a good question that…so I thought I’d try and answer it from my own experience as someone who does her own self-healing but also helps others to heal.

The first thing to say is that emotions get trapped and stuck in your energy field every single day. Period. That’s all of us whether you’re a trained and experienced healer or your Jane Bloggs going about your daily business. You can be mindful, conscious and hot to trot but this’ll still happen to you because you are HUMAN and that’s a fact of life. Nobody is immune to the stuff life throws at you and we all experience human emotion.

The next thing I want to say builds on this point. There’s stuff that we are conscious of; For example, “that person said something that upset me.” There’s also stuff that we are not conscious of so we can have a reflex reaction to something and we may not even be aware of it. This is what’s known as being triggered.

Now sometimes when you’re triggered, you’ll blame the person that triggered you. Other times when you’re triggered, you’ll realise that they’ve activated something that was already in you to begin with. This is when we start taking responsibility for our own vibration when we notice that our reactions are “our stuff” and not the other persons.

There will be things that you were unaware of that you become aware of. There will be things that you are unaware of that you still don’t see. Some of these things can be so automatic and they are intrinsically linked to what we believe about ourselves.

I’ll give you an example. The other day I was talking to a client about POISE – about being composed and self-assured and how this is key to finding your confidence. She said, “I’ve never had poise” and continued on. When she stopped talking, I asked her to think about what she had just said and she couldn’t remember. I relayed the words back to her and she was like, “Oh my god! I didn’t even realise I’d said that.” This shows how deep these beliefs are if you are unaware of them leaving your mouth.

You can help yourself a great deal by making yourself aware of what is leaving your mouth. What are the patterns? These beliefs tend to start with “I always” or “I never” and we all do it, including me. It tells us a lot about what we think about ourselves.

There are other beliefs that go a lot deeper than this though and these are the ones that manifest the not so nice experiences in life. These are deeply set and for me, these are the ones that healing helps me to bring to the surface.

My healer sees in me things that I am unaware of myself. My healer points out my patterns and makes me realise what it is that is holding me back. I’ve had to really push myself through the fear to overcome some of these beliefs and still sometimes find myself racking my brain to work out the answer.

That’s the point at which I realise that it’s likely to be subconscious and then I’ll do some Emotion Code on myself and the answer becomes apparent as I process the work. You can clear what you become aware of, but some things will remain there to be discovered. The subconscious is like a treasure trove of learning really.

If you would like to know what you don’t know, please give me a call. I love digging for treasure!