Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 15th July, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. Apologies folks but I’ve had a lot going on recently that has taken me away from work. All in a good way, of course. It’s time to get back to work and it feels a bit rusty!

What’s going on with the energies? Well the last couple of weeks there’s been a sense of renewal energies coming through. A strong reassuring energy of everything being ok.

One of the deepest paradoxes with these energies is that on the one hand we get this bouncy, optimistic sense of all good things being on the horizon yet at the same time, this stands opposing an almost disbelief of what’s actually possible. Certainly for me on a personal level, it has been a time of major breakthroughs.

Post Eclipse and between now and the full moon tomorrow the energies are intense. There is a spiralling energy which feels like it could go either way and it definitely is up to us which way this energy takes us.

The Eclipse did that thing where we plummet in to the depths of anguish and sorrow. When we’re in these moments, the contrast is so start that it’s hard to regain composure and understand that the contrast exists for a reason. There is nothing to be afraid of.

For most of us, we are starting to re-learn the cycle of life from a place where it is non-threatening. Empaths have a unique journey when it comes to navigating planet Earth and for most, the defenses they create and the need to protect themselves from this world are kind of the default.

As we enter New Earth and as we deepen our sense of commitment to being here, we understand that although it feels like shit at time, although life is a mixture of suffering and joy, although it feels like an ongoing assault on the senses – it is a sensory experience that we are having. It is one that we signed up to and to approach all of it with the intention of simply experiencing it goes a long way towards an acceptance of being here.

The energies feel a lot less turbulent today coming up to the moon and it’s much needed respite. It is the optimum time to re-think goals, plans, commitments. Remember that everything you thought you wanted looks different as we approach 5D Earth. You can see quite clearly that you wanted it because it’s what you thought you should want.

What you really want is something completely different. Remember when you created those “wants” you may still have placed limitations on yourself. When you look at the things that you are striving for as a result, you get to a place where some things just don’t make sense to drive for anymore. And even that’s ok.

We have dropped so much of our old identity that of course it is going to feel confusing. There’s something very distracting about this energy. It’s unsettling and I know on a personal level, up until today I have been doing everything I possibly can to avoid sitting still with it because there is a lot of old wounds being opened up as a result.

We do need to begin facing and embracing the hurt that is still there. One of the realisations that I had this morning was that for as much light that there is within me, there is just as much darkness. Sometimes we create the illusion of light because it’s easier for the world to accept us or it’s easier for us to operate on that level.

Life isn’t about what’s easiest for everyone else or for yourself. It’s about understanding the masks that we create and with this Eclipse energy the masks are falling off. There is a need to breathe, fully, deeply and be ok to be seen taking this breath.

After all, we are human. We have our sorrows, we have our pain, we have our darkness. Most of which we experience behind closed doors because this world is polarised to the light, the positive and our natural survival instinct is to simply pretend that everything is OK.

But it isn’t and actually that’s also OK. Let the energies bring it all to the surface. Allow yourself to see what you were masking over before. Yes, we judge through our own lens and projection but in the space between the eclipses, we are realising that perhaps those “judgements” were accurately placed. Perhaps they weren’t judgements. Perhaps they were intuition. Perhaps you now have the evidence. Perhaps you’re still in denial. Perhaps it was this wanting to always be in the light that caused you to believe it was you that needed healing for making that projection or judgement.

Unfortunately, we can’t just withdraw from life because it’s too painful or confusing. We can take a step back and decide how we’d like to go forward. This is where the power is.

And with this moon, there is power. There is revelation. There is darkness and there are storms.

We’re definitely on the road to somewhere with this. We are changing on the deepest level and it’s beginning to show on the surface. The world may not like it, but the world is going to have to get used to this new level of honesty.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 22nd April, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and wow what a week it’s been. The energies have been ever so kind to us this week.

The big theme in the healing room is Rebirth, synchronistically with Easter. There has been a great deal of tension of late. A lot of chaos and then making sense of the chaos.

The pieces are finally landing. Not with a big bump but there is definitely a sense of things beginning to fall in to place. This makes us realise just how much chaos is actually an essential part of the change process. The pushy energy has subsided and we’re getting a warm, calm glow at the moment.

There are still things that feel like they’re not completely resolved but even that feels like it will iron itself out. The pieces of the puzzle are beginning to fit together and it’s as if we can just about see the picture taking shape. It still looks a little blurry but the most challenging part of it is definitely over.

This is a time for refinement and fine tuning. It’s a time for thinking about the fluorishes that we would like to add and all the bonuses we’d like. It feels like an awesome time for manifesting.

A good friend of mine always says, “Speak it in to existence” and with these energies, it’s definitely a time to visualise what you want and verbalise that to those around you that you can share it with. There is definitely a great deal more clarity than there was last week.

We are learning that it’s perfectly ok to have the meltdown – officially giving yourself permission with the knowing that you’ll just pick yourself up and keep going. That feels much easier with these lighter energies. It doesn’t feel as intense as it did 3 weeks ago.

A time of good fortune and abundance is on the horizon but don’t rest on your laurels just because it feels calmer. If you can harness this energy and channel it towards what you want, it’ll feel like you’re riding the crest of a wave.

There really is magic in the air!

Until next time,

Love and Blessings,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 28th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s the last day of February and I don’t know about you but time seems to have been going really slowly. Christmas feels like it was years ago and the year seems to be going at a really slow pace.

One thing that is emerging is the level of clearing for all of us is reaching a depth we never even knew we had in us. There is a lot going on around the Heart Chakra and we seem to be revisiting the themes around “letting go” of things that don’t serve us. Have a look at this previous post around the Heart Chakra that might help. Click here to access.

The intensity of February’s energies is being felt by all. If you’ve been tuned in to what’s happening with the Schumann Resonance, you’ll know that the Earth’s frequency has been extremely high since mid February. Take a look by clicking this link.

Restlessness, sleeplessness, fatigue and upheaval all coming up as a result of the fluctuations in energy. It seems to be settling but worth just keeping an eye on. I think of it like this. This is the electromagnetic frequency of the Earth so it works with energy. If you think about your emotions as energy, then what’s happening is that this increase in electromagnetic energy is pulling the dense energy up to the surface to be cleared. This is why we feel out of sorts during these periods of high energy. It’s not the only reason, but it does have an impact.

What does all this mean? Well we’re all connected to each other and we’re all connected to this frequency. Whether you’re “awake” or not, you’ll feel it in some way, shape or form. For those that are new to the path, these feeling of being unsettled usually send them in search of an answer and it leads them to self-discovery and spirituality. For those that are already on this path, it unearths deeper layers. As more people wake up on the planet, the frequency or vibration rises. As more people work to raise their own vibration (through meditation, prayer, law of attraction etc) the higher the collective vibration.

There is no doubt that something is happening. It feels like the Earth is rumbling and calling in what it needs. We can see the world is changing. Politically, economically, socially, environmentally it feels like changes are afoot.

While this happens on a collective level, you’ll notice changes within you on an individual level. In your own life, this sort of energy brings with it changes. You know once you start seeing things a different way, you can’t go back to how it was. That’s the feeling that’s working it’s way through. It feels like change has been on the horizon for a long time but now feels like the right time to make that shift for good.

Another theme in the healing room and on a personal level has been this idea of a wake up call. This almost make or break moment that people are experiencing. It’s now or never. Although sometimes that can feel like a pushy energy, it feels like we are consciously making decisions that will benefit ourselves.

Everything we do on an individual level has an impact on the collective energy so never underestimate how important your part is. I was in London over the weekend talking to a friend as we walked through the city. I looked up and saw buildings either side and then blue sky. When you look up at the sky, you’re not even a dot in comparison. Then you think about our planet, and that’s not a dot in comparison to the Universe. She helped me to see it the other way round and used the example of an ant in your garden. It’s energy is needed and it has it’s purpose. Without that ant, it’s whole ecosystem would be completely different. When you think about it like that, you put things in to perspective and recognise that without that dot, the whole universe would look completely different. You can disappear in to insignificance and merge in to the world around you, but it’s you that makes it what it is. Without you, it would be completely different. The people around you would be completely different.

What we do for ourselves is key. I think sometimes as Lightworkers we feel that we are carrying a collective burden but it’s not necessary. You are connected and your vibration impacts the collective vibration. This is why with so many people waking up and exploring spirituality, we feel collectively a feeling of hope, rebirth and renewal.

It takes time for these things to integrate and work themselves through our mental, emotional, physical and spiritual parts. This is why we keep working on ourselves. The more we strengthen ourselves spiritually, the more we strengthen the collective energy body of the planet. That meditation you do in the morning, that yoga session, that prayer, that Reiki healing, that journalling, that grounding – all those things you are doing for yourself are having a knock on ripple effect in strengthening the core energy body of this planet and Mother Earth is saying thank you because it’s much needed.

We are all in this together. Let’s not forget that. We have our own journey and sharing that is what provides hope for others. Lifting ourselves inspires others to lift themselves.

YOU matter and your vibration matters. Anything you can do to help yourself is inadvertently helping to raise the vibration of this planet. None of us are insignificant. We all have something to give and we are powerful as individuals and even more powerful as a collective.

Do for yourself. Do for others. I think that’s the message this week. If you need help with any of the themes covered in this update, please get in touch.

Until next time, keep vibing high!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 18th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and oh my does it feel like the ground is moving from under our feet! Before I begin this update, I just want to say that my updates are NOT astrological. They’re purely based on tuning in to the frequencies. I include what I know may be happening with the moon and planets if it’s relevant. Mostly, I’m sharing what I’m experiencing as well as collective themes that emerge from the healing room that are tied in to these themes.

I’ve not done an update for a while as I’ve been processing this very heavy energy that’s around. Those of you who follow my Facebook posts know that I’ve been keeping an eye on the Schumann Resonance. Check out this link: https://www.disclosurenews.it/en/schumann-resonance-today-update/

The spikes have been noticeable as the frequency rises and I’ve been feeling it all quite physically. It’s worth checking out if you’re feeling a bit odd and wondering what it is that’s setting you off!

Energy wise, as always, there’s a lot going on. Although the last few weeks have felt quite still and stagnant. There’s been a feeling of “nothing seems to be happening.” Hold on tight because the energy is taking us higher and higher.

There’s a full moon Tuesday 19th and the energy is building around that. It doesn’t feel as intense as previous moons. With full moon energy, usually the shit that needs to clear comes up and hits you square in the face. This moon has a gentler energy. It’s calmer and it feels like a real magnetic pull towards something bigger.

One of themes we’ve been exploring in the healing room has been growth. Growth happens on a number of levels. Emotional and spiritual growth is what I support people with. It’s been noticeable just how much people are starting to become aware of energy and it’s impact on daily life. I’ve been doing this kind of work for the last 5 years and I’m really seeing the landscape changing in terms of awareness and expansion on a spiritual level. Everyone knows about energy – regardless of whether they believe in it or not. It’s becoming a mainstream thing to talk about energy and that can only be a good thing.

This weeks energy is about expansion and I feel that really strongly. The thing to remember about expansion is that when it’s happening, the first thing we do is resist. This makes us contract (not expand) and there’s a certain amount of pressure that falls on us in order for us to get to a point where we burst forth from it. I’ve certainly been feeling this way over the last week or so. It’s tough to remember when you’re going through it that the time you feel pressure is the bit that’s going to make you grow and expand.

Times like these are perfect to show you what you’re made of!

Another theme in the healing room has been around asking for what you need. Whether that’s setting boundaries, asking for help or just being able to take time out. We seem to be learning some really big lessons around that. This week’s energy is asking us to choose wisely and to include ourselves in our choices.

We are inextricably linked to the past but we forget that we are also linked equally as strongly to our future. The present is where these timelines meet and that is something to be really conscious and aware of as we are manifesting our future. We can do this consciously or unconsciously but simply to be aware of it seems to be a big message from the universe.

I don’t know where you’re at but I seem to be doing a lot of watching. I’m observing myself. I’m observing others. I’m also finding that a lot of the questions I’m asking seem to be answered through this observation. I love this way of working because I’ll reach out to the Universe and say “show me.” This is even more awesome if you remember that you’ve asked because being human, we often forget and then when the shits hitting the fan, we wonder what hell we’ve unleashed! I’ve started getting in to more of a conscious habit with the words, “show me regardless of whether I like the truth or not” and then I let go. This is the critical bit because you really do have to accept what comes rather than influence the outcome!

The pull from the moon is a big one and there’s something very reassuring about this moon’s energy. I’m feeling a different vibration with this one. It’s almost like the energy of “home” wants to come in and sit with us. I like this feeling. For those of you who are on this path, you’ll know I’ve talked about this feeling before. This feeling of wanting to go home. I feel the energies of this place are with us. I can’t sense whether it is galactic star energy or whether the energy of the ancestors is coming through more strongly with this moon. It’s a nice feeling this glow though because either way, the message I’m getting is “You are not alone. There are many more out there like you.”

For me, this moon is significant as I turn 40 in a few days. They say life begins at 40 so perhaps I’m also feeling the energy of my own rebirth from this star flooded universe. Who knows?

If you need help with any of the themes in this post, please do get in touch.

Until next time….Love and Light,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 30th November 2018

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been a little messy since the full moon, hasn’t it?!

Many of us are finding that the lessons are coming in thick and fast and with Mercury has been in retrograde since November 16th. It goes direct around the time of the new moon on the 7th December and there’s refreshing changes on the way. Well that’s the least we can hope for.

Expect between now and then to be messy. There is much coming up to heal and one of the things that will really hit you is that one same lesson that you’ve still not learnt. I know I’m feeling it in many areas of my life at the moment and it really is time to gather your wits about you!

The best way to handle it is to take that time out for yourself. Reflect. I mean really reflect and ask yourself what are the things that you keep experiencing time and time again. There’s your big clue. Whether it’s feeling hard done by or whether it’s a feeling of stop/start – just take time to sit with it.

The next step is to ask yourself, “What am I doing that’s keeping it the same?” Therein lie a lot of the answers.

Remember there are some things that are programmed in as subconscious patterns and so they’re not that easy to shift on your own. If you want to give me a call, I’d be happy to help you with this.

Think about what you want to do differently. I can’t remember who it was that said that it’s an act of madness to do the same thing again and again and expect a different result. It might have been Einstein but he was right.

It is really heavy right now but it’s all about getting us to take a real good look at where we have come from and how we want to change. Mars, the planet of action, is also on the move so this will make it easier.

I would say take some time to reflect. Sometimes we can want change so badly but the actions that we are taking really aren’t in alignment with what we want to achieve. It’s time to work it all out so that when you do take action, it’s with intention and is fruitful for you.

I know my own personal way of doing things is haphazard and so sitting down and working things out is something I’m not used to doing. I kind of follow my heart on a whim and a prayer and structure and discipline are completely alien concepts to me. This wave of ascension energy has really forced me to slow down, take stock and plan.

My challenge now is trying to stick to the plan!

One thing I do know is that this year has been start/stop energy for many of us. It has brought up so much for us to heal and I know that many of you are going through a messy time right now.

I’ve been doing my own Emotion Code sessions to help me shift out of these old patterns because I know it isn’t me that doesn’t want to take action – it’s my subconscious hindering me. As a result, I’m noticing the changes in myself on a massive scale. I think those of you who have been following my social media have also noticed how much I’m changing.

It’s important that we tune in and believe that we are not hopeless in our endeavours. Healing is here to help you. If you’d like to have a chat, please get in touch. A consultation call is completely free.

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Healing, Inspiration

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it. Lately, I’ve been working to try and reach more people and that’s because I know I can really make a difference. I know there’s more to do and I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of this so I thought I’d share my thinking on this with you.

So I know that I have a real impact on people’s lives. I know that healing has helped make massive leaps for people’s careers. I’ve helped people come back from absolute rock bottom. I know that there’s some clients who literally trust me with their lives. I know that I’ve helped people avoid being on prescription drugs and even helped some people to come off them. I know I’ve helped people become confident and assertive. I know I’ve helped people overcome their fears of intimacy. I know I’ve helped people make sense of their spiritual journey and taught them how to work on themselves. I’ve seen people grow and blossom in front of my eyes. I’ve helped people to take charge of their own destiny and given them the perspective that’s helped them to believe that everything is possible.

The list is endless and you’d think that this would be enough evidence for me to believe in myself, right? Well, I’m going to be really honest here and say that I’ve only just started to understand the difference I make to people’s lives and I’m still battling with this. Empaths start on a much lower self-worth level to others in my opinion and it takes a lot to climb to that place where you truly believe in your gifts.

I had a lovely client come in the other day and something he said will stick with me forever. He said, “You can say that your work is rewarding and real satisfaction and that you make a real difference. People will remember you for what you did for them.” I tried to stay cool, but inside my heart dropped a little because I’d not taken that perspective. I usually just bumble along, shrug off the praise and get on with the job. I hadn’t really been listening or taking on board the nice things that people have said because perhaps I didn’t feel that I truly deserved it. I always focus on what else there is left to do and this made me stop and take stock and really appreciate what I have.

I know that when people tell me how much I’ve helped them with the sessions we’ve had together, I still have a hard time accepting the praise. It’s like I still can’t quite believe that I’m doing this.

It takes an awful lot to step up and accept all of who you are. I’m finding this as I battle my way through it. I talk a lot about working with the shadow aspects, but this is like another form of shadow that we also need to work with. Being able to see and accept what you’re putting in to world and the positives it brings is a beautiful thing. What happens is that we think of this as Ego and retreat in to being humble. I know this is what I’ve been doing and actually as a result, I’m not getting what I truly deserve because I don’t truly believe I deserve it.

This is one of the things that I’m trying to set about changing in myself because it’s part of my self-sabotage pattern and I know I’m fed up of living that pattern. In my bones, I feel that it’s time to step up and really be visible about the work that I do. I’m building my confidence. I’m getting better at accepting praise and I’m really listening and allowing the evidence to show me that this journey is well worth the graft. Look at what I can do – it’s magical but in the daily grind, the magic gets lost and forgotten. I want to be the person that still believes in the magic!

It can be overwhelming, but I’m learning that actually praise and kind words are how people are showing love and appreciation. I have to keep my heart open to this love. It doesn’t mean it’s going to my head and it doesn’t make me any less humble. It’s quite a difficult and new concept to me to be able to celebrate the good things that I have put in to the world and be proud of what I have achieved. It’s actually quite scary!

I’m conscious not to take anything for granted because I know where I came from. At the same time, I understand that if I am overwhelmed by it, I’m not in complete acceptance of it. It’s an interesting dilemma because the Ego is shouting “Be humble!” and at the same time you’re at the point where you can’t deny the evidence that’s put before you.

The trick is to define your own sense of identity because there is strength in having that sense of self. The Ego is the false identity and when it screams “Be humble!” at you, it is one of the ways in which it is holding you back and keeping you in the limitations that you’ve been taught.

I never really recognised this fully before now and working with it has been really challenging. I can say in my own mind I believe I make a difference and I’m starting to accept the evidence as real. Remember how deep set the ego ideas and beliefs are.

Defining your own sense of self takes time. I’ve been on this journey a while and I’m still finding false selves and as each mask falls away, it enables me to become more authentic, more real and more confident in my own definition of who I am.

I don’t want to be what I’m taught I have to be in this world. I don’t want to have limitations and restrictions placed on me.

I want to be able to share and celebrate the fullness of who I am. I want to believe that I can attract what I deserve. I want to believe that I truly deserve it.

If any of this resonates and you’re on the path trying to find ways to become who you came here to be, please get in touch with me. I love working with opening hearts and minds to all the possibilities!

 

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 20th November, 2018

Well there’s definitely been a massive shift in the ascension energy since Venus went direct on the 16th November. The thing that I’ve noticed is that all those lessons that we’ve learnt when it comes to relationships are at the forefront of our minds. There is a steely determination in the air and the vibe is centred about not going back to our old ways.

With this energy shift, there have been physical symptoms. For me, the amount of sleep I am needing has increased! The rest is an important part of any energy shift because our soul energy moves a lot faster than our physical mind and body does. We need to physically catch up and as we process, it can make our minds and bodies feel tired.

One thing that I feel strongly is to understand that everyone’s pace is different. I do however get the sense that once we have caught up (however long this takes) the energy will speed up and you’ll find yourself really getting to grips with what needs doing and following through on things that have been sitting for a while.

With this energy, there’s definitely a sense of sifting through and prioritising. I know that this is the energy because it isn’t a process that comes naturally to me. I feel a deep need to really connect in solitude and actually that’s guiding me to what the priorities are at any given time.

The energy is magical at the moment. So many signs and synchronicities. It feels like it has to be this way to get us to believe in the magic again! The energies have been so heavy over the past few months that this is much needed relief for us all.

It’s uplifting even if it making us feel sleepy! I’ve found so much more joy and laughter since the shift happened and this lightness brings with it a renewed hope and optimism.

It really is a magical time and a brilliant time to get things in motion. I know that Mercury is retrograde but I feel that it’s time to plan and put together the vision for the future. It feels like we have moved on from so much after Venus shifted and it has given much needed clarity.

Re-evaluating relationships was the focus of Venus retrograde and it’s beautiful how the lessons learnt are resulting in the way that we approach anything new. There is something cautious and protective in the energy, but at the same time it isn’t coming from a place of fear. It’s coming from heightened intuition and the resistance to learning lessons seems to be subsiding.

There is an openness to this energy and a willingness to welcome whatever emotions are coming to visit. It’s an expansive space and its fast paced. There is a lot of movement and almost like a feeling of whizzing through the air at times.

With Mercury Retrograde, it’s important to pay attention to the details for us to properly harness the energy. If you’re anything like me, you’ll get carried and not take account for the small print! I have to keep reminding myself. Checking in is important and remember not to go too fast with this because there is the potential for burnout.

It is reassuring to know that all is coming to fruition but the message that’s coming through really strongly is that we need to take everything at our own pace. You can’t swallow the entire ocean. You can only take a sip at a time. This energy is setting the tone for what’s to come and so on a practical level, now is the time to think about what you’d like to introduce in to your routine. Whether it’s new ways of thinking, new habits, structure, discipline. This will all be made easier because of the energy that we are in.

The Universe is supporting us to get to where we need to go. Most of the time, it can feel like the Universe is throwing us a curve ball and teaching us the lessons but this energy is lovely because it feels supportive, reassuring and energising in a way that I’ve not experienced to this extent before.

Take advantage of it! Also know that what’s meant for you is on it’s way and regardless of whether you consciously or subconsciously try to sabotage it, it’s all coming for you anyway. You’ll learn what you need to learn through the process but that which you desire is the thing to keep in mind.

Learn to become obsessed with visualising what you’d like this energy to bring you and watch as the Universe meets you and supports you to achieve and realise it. It’s a beautiful feeling to be able to believe in the magic again and I’m really loving what’s happening right now.

Remember when you feel the magic, you resonate that vibration and that vibration has an impact on others. The more you can harness that feeling, the more you are contributing to raising the vibration on this planet. We are all doing that. Even something as simple as being in a good mood or sending out good vibes makes a difference.

I hope you’re making the most of it! I’ve cracked on with more videos as a result of this little boost so if you’d like to take a look CLICK HERE! Get in touch if you’d like to share how you’re feeling about the future!

Until next time,

Love Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Being an “Old Soul”

Pathway 15 – Al-Muqaddim – Preparing the way

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to acknowledge the part of your being that feels “oldest,” and prepare the way for power to flow through your life.”

So this is the pathway that I have been exploring and it started with a healing transmission that I did at the beginning of November which started a profound shift for me in terms of accessing the oldest parts of my being.

Power is an interesting concept, particularly for me. Since I began on this journey, everything has been about stepping in to my power and continuously I’m finding newer ways to do this. I had some funny ideas about power when I first started on this journey, but as I’ve grown, I’ve come to see it as a positive force in my life.

The pathway really is about delving in to who we are. Our souls were created long before our bodies were and so that part of us has lived and acquired a great deal of wisdom.

One of the things I noticed as soon as I started work with this pathway was the number of references made in relation to me being an “old soul.” The first time I heard that phrase I must have been about 17 and I’d sneaked away to London for the day. I went to Camden Market and was mooching around. I met this guy who looked like an old sage and he was full of love and life. I can still see his face. We ended up chatting for a long while. He caught sight of the palm of my hand and asked if he could have a look. I felt a bit hesitant but I agreed. He told me I was a very old soul but it wouldn’t be later in life until I realised what that meant. I’d completely forgotten about this experience and now that I’m writing about it, it brings it all back for me.

The story came back to me because I’ve only just realised that what he set in motion has resulted in this here today and I believe he knew exactly what he was doing. In this work, I am fortunate enough to be deliberately and consciously setting in motion change for those I work with.

It made me look at how I work with people and what I’m able to access. The pathway drew me to connect even deeper within myself. We spend life trying to define who we are in this world when really who we are sits within our soul. Once we start connecting to that deeper sense, everything in life starts to move around us for us to be able to fully understand and return to that original soul self.

The pathway is about returning back to our original image and this journey here in this world is what creates the means for us to do this. Life teaches us the nature of who we really are on one level. I’m talking about going beyond that. I’m talking about being from a place that you can’t access in a physical way.

For those of you who have read previous blogs, you’ll know that I talk about “going home” and by that I mean that place where we came from that’s before this world or any other world. It always seemed separate from me until I started to understand how to channel it in this world. I have more of a sense of belonging now that I ever have.

The adventure with this pathway was to learn how to go deeper within and I have found that connecting with this idea that I have been this energy for much longer than the 39 years here on earth has had a profound shift in my energy. I understand power on a much deeper level and it really is having an impact on the way I’m choosing to live.

The whole world looks different to me as a result. I’ve always been seeking to find my place here on Earth and each time I find it, I find new levels of understanding it. It’s not possible, I don’t think, to understand your place here unless you also understand where your soul has been.

I’m blessed to be an old soul and it really is becoming a distinct part of who I am. It gives me a uniqueness as a person. It has also made me curious enough to delve deeper. All of this enquiry is for a reason – this I know for certain. Synchronistically with this pathway, I’ve discovered aspects of my ancestry that have helped me to understand my spiritual gifts on a much deeper level. When healing is literally in your blood, you have no choice but to accept that’s who you are. It’s beautiful and it’s taken my sense of belonging to another level which is great for me and for the world!

I think the most amazing aspect of this pathway though is allowing yourself to open up and letting the power of YOU flow through. The more you access this part of yourself, the more you are preparing the way for what’s to come next. One of the beautiful things about this pathway is that it opens you up to wonder. I always talk about potential and fulfilling that potential but this is on a whole other level. It’s like you’ve got back up and support and everything you need. It’s like you are that potential in every moment.

With this pathway being so profound and deep, I’m actually having a challenging time in articulating how it’s making me feel. Suffice to say though that like all the other ways, it is changing me for the better. The closest phrase to describe how I feel is that “I am really coming into my own.” That sort of captures it.

The feelings you get when you’re accessing this are out of this world. Phenomenal. I wish I could tell you how or what to do to get there because everyone needs to feel this. I’m still integrating and working that out but when I have that in a practical form, I will share it. There is a sense of pride that comes from knowing yourself in this way. It isn’t an ego thing, simply a sense of contentment and being sure about who you are. This may not make much sense but if you know, you know.

There is a whole other world and worlds within worlds to discover. Such is the beauty of connecting to yourself, your power, your lineage, your ancestry, and the source of all that power.

“This is love.

To fly toward a secret sky,

to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment.

First to let go of life.

Finally, to take a step without feet.”

Rumi

Energy Updates

11:11 Energy Portal, 2018

If you keep seeing 11:11 and you understand it’s significance, keep reading. November has arrived and it feels like I’ve been waiting for this! It’s a really interesting time. The 11:11 portal has opened. We are now in full blown ascension energy. This wave has activated a new set of energies from within. I’ve certainly felt it and it is a lot deeper than previous waves.

October’s energy was pretty intense. One of the biggest themes was letting go. New Earth. New Me. It was as if we were preparing for something more intense. It has arrived although I don’t quite know what it looks like. I just know that its in the same place as I am.

I was fortunate enough to visit some sacred sights. On Halloween, I was at Avebury Stone Circle and then went on to Glastonbury Tor. It was a sacred and magical experience. Wednesday evening saw massive waves of energy coming in as the portals opened.

I felt quite blessed to be in Glastonbury, at the Heart Chakra of the world and spent quite some time with the energies there to cleanse and clear. I’m still processing everything that happened within on my journey and don’t quite feel ready to share as one piece of writing. There was far too much, but I feel the activations I received will have a major impact on my work.

The energies are driving us forward at the moment. My sense is that November is about clarity in terms of purpose and mission. November is also about being unafraid to change direction. It is about intuition and heart led intelligence. It also feels like it’s about being awake. I mean literally being awake – sometimes all night in my case!

The beauty of intuition is that there is no need for any physical and tangible evidence. When we intuit, it doesn’t matter what’s around us. All that matters is what is within. These energies are showing us that whatever is within us is clearly manifesting outside out us. The thing to grasp with this idea is that you have the power and you are able to drive and direct your reality. Tune in to your higher heart and let it guide you. The energy is making it easier for you to do this. You’ll find you have ideas, hunches and flashes of inspiration and you need to take action. You need follow the call.

As within, so with out is an age old idea that many have written about but there is some certainty and conviction about it’s truth in a completely different way now. It feels as if there is nowhere to hide with the intensity of how the truth is placed at the forefront of our awareness. We have no choice but to follow the signs. It isn’t about looking back at the breadcrumb trail that led you here. It’s about looking ahead to your next destination and lifting your foot to take that step.

Acknowledging the truth that we are seeing now gives us a justification for letting go. It is easier when you can see why you’re doing what you’re doing. The world looks and feels completely different when you are seeking truth. I certainly feel like I’ve been to the opticians and got new glasses because what I am seeing around me appears completely different. It is like we are being installed with a completely new operating system. I feel like the old one has been wiped out.

I feel very much that I am feeling my way through a new way of being. People I know are feeling like complete strangers to me at the moment and it is disorientating but I can feel that something is definitely changing. I’ve often said that this world is a simulation. It is a way of experiencing your true nature and delivering your soul’s mission in a physical way so that you understand the wholeness of being. This simulation is likened to the Matrix and I’m definitely feeling that analogy with these energies.

This is a time of massive energy shifts and it is important to harness this and use it to drive you forward. Seek clarity on your purpose and mission by simply asking for it. There are so many signs if you’re looking. The sky tells you stories. Nature gives you messages. Pay attention to what is happening around you and stay open to change course at any moment.

Yes it is disorientating but don’t let that phase you. It feels like a very special time and learning to harness the energy and allowing it to direct you feels like the right thing to do. It feels like this update has been a bit of a mish mash of ideas with no coherence but that tells you a lot about what’s going on! I’m still processing, but I wanted to get something out because it may help some of you.

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Maintaining and nourishing yourself

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a very steady yet powerful state of awareness in your being that maintains and nourishes you and others.”

This is the pathway that I’ve been reflecting on this past week and it is one that presents plenty of challenges for me. Embodying a steady state is something that I have been working on for as far as I can remember. For me, there is a juxtaposition here with being a free spirit.

This pathway requires pulling yourself inwards whilst you experience life. Being a free spirit, it’s easy for my heart to be called elsewhere. I want to talk about this because for me it is one the most challenging aspects of who I am as a person. This is where the conflict lies and I’m noticing that it is how my power escapes sometimes.

I know I have this immense reservoir of love within me and the capacity to nourish and give to others. This pathway takes me further in to using this source to help maintain myself and it is this very thing that I have been trying to do for a long time. This pathway has helped me to uncover a whole other level and given me an awareness and perspective that goes deeper.

For those of us that are empathic, it’s very easy to relegate our own needs in order to serve others. We think that this is why we came here – to serve. That’s part of it but not the whole of it.

This pathway really made me look at the way I give and the expectations that I have created from others around me. When I began to pull it back and go within, what struck me is how very little I have given myself. With a reservoir so large, it’s almost as if I think can survive on a lot less from the pot so rather than taking from it, I put in to it. This brings up feelings of guilt and feeling selfish. At the same time, I look around me and notice that perhaps I feel this more because of the belief that I came here to serve. There are deep set emotions here about worthiness attached to this and whether I deserve to take when I can give so much. It became obvious to me that there was very little balance in my life when it came to this.

It’s been a really challenging week and working with this pathway has actually made me feel really sad. I have to be raw and honest about how I feel. That’s what this space is for and it needs to be expressed.

The pathway also reminds me that I must not overextend myself. This is what occurred to me and I can see clearly where I am doing this. I can blame being an empath to some extent but the truth of it is that I have plenty of fleeting whims and distractions all created by my ego to prevent me from embodying this state. I can see that very clearly. I realised that I can’t hide behind anything anymore. Especially not when it has been shown to me this clearly. When you realise how little you have given yourself, it brings up anger and resentment and I’ve had to spend a lot of time working with this. I’ve allowed this and I forgive myself. I can change and that is what I am doing. Easy statements to make but if you’ve ever gone through this, you’ll know the raw emotion it brings up.

This idea of sacrifice comes with this type work and it’s something that keeps coming up for me to clear away. The idea that being in service should be at the expense of your own self simply isn’t true. I am entitled to a life just like everyone else. There’s a paradox here as the “service” is actually what I have chosen to do. It’s my own path I’m creating so it is as much for me as it is for humanity. The ego makes you choose one or the other and we are conditioned to believe that choosing service to others is the better thing to do. In actual fact, we can have both but it takes a lot of unlearning which I am still learning to do.

When I call the ego out on this, the contradictions are so very obvious. There is so much pain in saying goodbye to old ways of being. I’ve always tried to be conscious of what my ego is doing and exploring the pathways has brought up a lot of wounds that need to be healed within myself.

It isn’t easy getting the balance within yourself between serving others and serving yourself. We are brought up with conditioning that tells us that putting ourselves first is selfish. We’re taught a linear way of thinking that suggests that if we think about ourselves first, it means that we don’t care about others. It’s difficult to shift to a way of thinking that enables you to be equal to others and there’s a perception that to consider yourself equal equates to being egotistical. It gets really complicated because you can think this logically in your head but when the feelings of guilt show themselves, your heart gets pulled straight back. This is what I’m grappling with.

I’m always banging on about self-worth and I’m a work in progress but what I am learning here has come at a critical time for me. My life is interesting because of the demanding nature of my work. I get phone calls and text messages all the time asking me all sorts of things. I’ve always felt the need to answer and help and I don’t regret helping. I do sometimes resent the demands and that’s me being really honest. I take full responsibility for this now where in the past I’d have blamed others. I’ve created and met these expectations without even thinking about it and it’s difficult to undo without experiencing emotional turmoil. Meeting demands is what I’ve been looking at taking a step back from because there is a line where my work ends and I begin and that can get blurred very easily. Even though boundaries have been set, a plea for help is a plea for help and my heart isn’t one that can ignore it easily. So it’s been an emotional time because for each time that has happened, I’ve had to ask myself who I am putting first. I’m learning to deal with the emotion that comes with it and I can tell you it isn’t easy but it is necessary. This is a spiritual lesson that needs to be learned.

A strong feeling of discomfort comes from taking a step back. It’s like going against what your heart is telling you when you don’t reply to a plea for help but I had to explore this feeling for myself. It feels as if people are relying on me. It feels that there is an urgency for them that I am ignoring and that somehow makes me a bad person. Again, this linear way of thinking is one I’m learning to undo because a lot of that conditioning simply isn’t true.

What I have realised with this pathway is that I go deep and I do have a lot to give. My priority has become to maintain that within myself. Embodying a steady state of awareness and power is important but I didn’t realise how important it was for maintaining and nourishing myself. I thought I was doing that and I know now that I am not doing enough of it. The reason for this is the raw emotion, the guilt, the anger, the feeling selfish that I’m still learning to overcome. And all this just to feel equal to others! It’s mind blowing because I thought I was overcoming myself in terms of self-worth but there’s always more I need to be shown and more I need to do.

It’s interesting because although I do take a lot of time for myself and I switch off when I have to, I’ve developed some sticky habits when it comes to work. It’s the belief that work overrides everything because of it’s nature. It doesn’t though. What overrides everything is my state of being and my ability to maintain and nourish myself and I’m starting to look at that as often as I can in response to meeting the worlds demands on me. I’m taking it one moment at a time and seeing how it feels to choose me.

Just when you think you’ve got the self-worth thing down, the universe throws you a massive curve ball. With things changing as rapidly as they are, this is a very valuable lesson that the universe is giving me. I’ve noticed how quickly it can become about everything else. I’ve noticed how my free spirit slips away under the mask of empathy.

Old beliefs and old habits are dying hard. I’m working hard on taking the shame out of “I’m putting myself first.” It’s one I think a lot of us can relate to. If nice people finish last, I’m not ok with that and so I’m determined to prove that wrong.

I am just as important as everyone else and I’m determined not to forget it!