Healing

Unrequited love…the solution…

The theme in the healing room this week has been unrequited love. I thought it would be a nice, juicy topic to write about seeing as I’m a singleton in the city and I have helped dozens of women who are coming out of not so great relationships.

Women over the ages have fallen for the charms of the wrong guy. You know the one. You love spending time with him. You could talk for hours. He makes you laugh. You think he could be the one…so you give a little more…and get a little physical…

And then he tells you he’s not ready for a relationship knowing full well that he’s got you hook, line and sinker.

You go backwards and forwards in this merry for him but not-so-merry-for-you dance because now you’re emotionally invested in the relationship. You have hope that he’ll see how amazing you are and fall for you in the same way. While he continues being aloof and emotionally unavailable, you get more and more sucked in to the game.

After repeating this cycle again and again, you start to realise it’s a trap. While he’s still in your line of vision, you’re missing out on meeting anyone else. He doesn’t want you, and he doesn’t want anyone else to have you either. You’re not getting any younger, and it’s time to move on, but it’s just so difficult right.

When push comes to shove, you know yourself that you are worth much more than this. When you’re treated like an option, you know that you deserve so much better. When enough is enough, you need those cords cut and you need your power back.

This is usually when you book an appointment to release “all that no longer serves you” or in other words, wash that timewasting Mo Fo out of your hair and a healing bodywork session is the best way to do this – trust me!

Remember that every relationship is an energy exchange and his energy is sitting in your system feeding off you. That’s what I pull out during a healing bodywork session, and at the same time, I help you restore the faith in yourself so that you’ve got the confidence to move on without looking back.

Break-ups have become one of my specialities and if you’re ready to move on, I can help you get that thorn out of your side. Make the call – let’s get you sorted so that you can attract what you’re worth!

 

Energy Updates

Opening the Heart Chakra

The Heart has been the focal point this week and the healing room has seen a great deal of anger and self-criticism trying to shift it’s way through clients. It seems to be that these are the things that we are working on collectively and there is so much in this that I had to write about it to take a closer look at what is the happening with the energies.

It is a time for change and I definitely feel that for myself and for all of my clients. Like I wrote in my last update, we are losing “old” version and integrating this newer updated version of ourselves. The way in which this is most noticeable is in our reactions and the way that we deal with things. Opening your heart up to loving yourself is one of the most challenging things to do. We find that we are often quite harsh on ourselves and developing that love and compassion towards ourselves is something quite alien. It’s almost as if we don’t even realise how much we are berating ourselves for the smallest things.

We are realising that we deserve so much better in all things. We are realising that with this build up of love and power, all things are possible as we learn to hold this new energy. I had one client who simply said, “Grrr! Why are you right?!”

It’s quite a big thing when you realise that you really aren’t the person that you thought you were. It’s even bigger to understand that you’ve got to try and love yourself anyway. Even if it feels like you don’t really know that new you that well. Your instinct is different and your reactions are different. It feels that we are in a place of spiritual limbo energetically because between losing the old you and becoming the new you, there is a void. One thing it is pushing us to do more and more is to be unconditionally loving towards ourselves and be ok with the not knowing what that final product (if there ever is one) looks like.

The void is an interesting energetic space because in it we find the anger, the self-criticism and the sense that we aren’t quite there yet. It is a frustrating space. I know first hand because I’ve really been feeling it, especially yesterday. There is no sound basis for the way that we feel and actually what we find is that we can always find a donkey to pin the blame on.

In actual fact, when you break it down, you realise that you are in a transitional space and transitional energies can seriously mess with your head if you don’t come back down to earth and stay grounded. The situations in our lives become the reasons for the way we feel because it makes us feel better to have some rational explanation for how we feel.

It could be anything and everything that you blame. When you ask yourself how you really feel about that situation, it opens you up to acceptance. What’s actually happening is that heart chakra is being wrenched open and all the emotion is pouring out of it. Can you be ok with that?

The Heart Chakra has really been the focal point for the healing room this week. It feels like all of our hearts are opening to self-love more than anything else. With this opening, we are beginning to release old feelings of being unworthy, of loss, of grief, of sadness. With the Heart Chakra opening comes a renewed sense of purpose and being which feels refreshingly different.

Since the beginning of the year, the focus has been on authenticity and getting real with yourself and the people around you. It has been about finding yourself, shedding what no longer serves you and letting go of the past. Now that the bulk of that work has happened, it’s like the words “What now?” are flashing in front of you and there is a need to know and have it all worked out.

We are still releasing and the picture will take a little longer to emerge. The thing that helps me the most is remember that this is the creation phase and so the energies that we bring in to this space matter. If we can see the clearing as a positive thing, it helps us to stay focused on the purpose. Clearing is a good thing. It is releasing from a heart centred place.

We are learning to hold the energy of joy from the heart. Whereas before it has been suffering that we held in the heart space, this energy is one that feels like it’s bobbing up and down and making us feel motion sickness. It’s acclimatising to the feeling of joy and being able to hold that. We’re bound to feel a little sea-sick with it but breathe it in and hold it and brace yourself for what’s coming next.

It really does feel like great hope on the horizon. I know many of my clients are at that stage in the healing cycle where they are learning to hold their own energy and learning to fly can be tricky!

All things now seem possible…hold tight!

 

Healing

Can you release your own emotional blocks?

Can you release your own emotional blockages?

It’s a good question that…so I thought I’d try and answer it from my own experience as someone who does her own self-healing but also helps others to heal.

The first thing to say is that emotions get trapped and stuck in your energy field every single day. Period. That’s all of us whether you’re a trained and experienced healer or your Jane Bloggs going about your daily business. You can be mindful, conscious and hot to trot but this’ll still happen to you because you are HUMAN and that’s a fact of life. Nobody is immune to the stuff life throws at you and we all experience human emotion.

The next thing I want to say builds on this point. There’s stuff that we are conscious of; For example, “that person said something that upset me.” There’s also stuff that we are not conscious of so we can have a reflex reaction to something and we may not even be aware of it. This is what’s known as being triggered.

Now sometimes when you’re triggered, you’ll blame the person that triggered you. Other times when you’re triggered, you’ll realise that they’ve activated something that was already in you to begin with. This is when we start taking responsibility for our own vibration when we notice that our reactions are “our stuff” and not the other persons.

There will be things that you were unaware of that you become aware of. There will be things that you are unaware of that you still don’t see. Some of these things can be so automatic and they are intrinsically linked to what we believe about ourselves.

I’ll give you an example. The other day I was talking to a client about POISE – about being composed and self-assured and how this is key to finding your confidence. She said, “I’ve never had poise” and continued on. When she stopped talking, I asked her to think about what she had just said and she couldn’t remember. I relayed the words back to her and she was like, “Oh my god! I didn’t even realise I’d said that.” This shows how deep these beliefs are if you are unaware of them leaving your mouth.

You can help yourself a great deal by making yourself aware of what is leaving your mouth. What are the patterns? These beliefs tend to start with “I always” or “I never” and we all do it, including me. It tells us a lot about what we think about ourselves.

There are other beliefs that go a lot deeper than this though and these are the ones that manifest the not so nice experiences in life. These are deeply set and for me, these are the ones that healing helps me to bring to the surface.

My healer sees in me things that I am unaware of myself. My healer points out my patterns and makes me realise what it is that is holding me back. I’ve had to really push myself through the fear to overcome some of these beliefs and still sometimes find myself racking my brain to work out the answer.

That’s the point at which I realise that it’s likely to be subconscious and then I’ll do some Emotion Code on myself and the answer becomes apparent as I process the work. You can clear what you become aware of, but some things will remain there to be discovered. The subconscious is like a treasure trove of learning really.

If you would like to know what you don’t know, please give me a call. I love digging for treasure!

Energy Updates, Healing

The Old Me Died – Help!

The theme from the Healing Room this week has been about getting comfortable with this new version of ourselves. There’s a deep sense of loss that comes when we have changed so much and can be difficult to cope with.

For myself and many of my clients, the theme over the last couple of weeks has been the realisation that we aren’t who we used to be. It’s time to step up. Noticeably so, a lot of my clients are at the stage where their old ways and habits just don’t fit anymore. They’ve noticed that they’ve also shed a lot of the baggage, including people in their lives. We’ve talked about this a little in previous blogs because I know it’s been happening for a lot of people as part of the Universal energy shifts.

When we shed, it creates a void. It feels energetically that we have been living in this limbo/void stage for a while now but this week it really seems to have shifted to allow the new stuff to begin it’s manifestation. When you’ve shed and worked through your baggage, what you’ve actually been doing is preparing yourself ready for what you’re about to receive.

We grieve the loss of who we were because it involves a little bit of our Ego dying. The Ego that tells us what to do to stay safe. When your heart over-rides this, there’s a lot of discomfort that follows.

This is one of the things that we have been dealing with this week. Personalities have changed. Priorities have changed. And now what we’re noticing is that because of this inner change that’s already taken place, it’s manifesting on the outside. We receive when we are ready and so clearing the old vibrational energies out and integrating the new ones is a vital step in the manifestation process.

You’d think when you got what you asked for, you’d be ok with it all though, right? However, it’s useful to know that it can create a great sense of overwhelm.

Am I ready? Can I cope? Is it really happening? Do I deserve it?

All these questions are the old Ego fear just whispering in your ear trying to put you off. Keep listening to your heart and let it guide the way for you.

There are some amazing changes happening for my clients. Many of them have been asking for clarity with certain situations and it has been delivered. So now they know what to do as a result of getting the information they needed to make the decisions.

It’s crunch time. It’s time to follow through.

It’s also time to enjoy the results of the hard work that you have put in and enjoy the lovely delights the Universe is bringing your way!

It really has been a whirlwind couple of weeks for many of us, and now we are entering Eclipse season so prepare to do it all again!!

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 12 – Al Muhsi – Assessing What Is

I started this pathway at the beginning of Ramadhan and now feels like a good time to write about it.

“When you are drawn to this pathway, take the opportunity to stop and look through the eyes of Divine clarity at your life as it is right now.”

If this Ramadhan has taught me anything at all, it is mindfulness and being present. A lot of crap has been happening and a lot of good things have been happening too. I’ve been looking at the way I manage myself through these situations.

As someone who suffers from anxiety, this pathway again has taught me acceptance of things as they are now. I’ve said this before but you don’t necessarily have to like what’s happening to accept it. When you reject it, it creates a whirlwind of anxiety and feels overwhelming.

Sometimes you have to cut through the crap of what you want things to be or how you think things should be. At the root of it is what is happening RIGHT NOW and often we look at situations through a different lens. We stay in disappointment when we focus on as we want it to be. Nothing in life is going to be that picture perfect. Every moment is leading you to the next moment and everything is temporary and transitory. It’s very much what you choose to believe that has an impact on hardening or softening your anxiety.

The perfection is in this present moment. Accepting what IS can be really challenging because it involves surrendering. This is the ego as it starts to fall away. The ego is what you believe to be true and when that goes, parts of your identity start falling away with it. I could go a whole lot deeper with this idea, but I will save this for another post! Suffice to say that we are working with what we believe to be true in so many ways and the way we assess “what is” has a lot to do with what we believe to be true. It is always laced with judgement about our current situation.

It’s amazing how much stress falls away when you bring your mind to what is happening right now as if that is all there is. It is one of those things that you have to keep reminding yourself of. One of the things that I have been doing that has really helped me this Ramadhan is to try and be in this state of continuous dialogue with my Creator.

It helps because it means that you are talking to your Creator as if you are talking to yourself which makes you more conscious of the things that you are saying. It means that you can continuously ask for the help that you need in every moment. It also means that you can spend a lot more time in the here and now. When the worries come up, you can ask for help with them and then go back to noticing what is around you and expressing gratitude for it. It alleviates a great deal of stress for me!

It’s funny but what prompted me to write this post makes me chuckle now. I’m sat at Bru on my laptop as I write this. I’m waiting on a call from the garage because I took my car in for a service this morning. They’ve called me once already to tell me there’s work to be done and it’s going to cost me more than I thought. I felt a slight panic as I don’t actually have the money for it. That’s what credit cards are for and I’m grateful that I can defer payment but as the time comes closer to paying that bill, I can see the panic setting in. So as always, I have asked God to find me a way and holding on to that Golden Thread because everything happens for a reason.

Now, in this moment, I have two choices. I can either worry that I won’t have the money or I can trust that it will come from somewhere. I know what happens when I go in to worry. It means that I am not being present and I can get taken off on a tangent. The other option is to stay in the moment and focus on what I am doing right now which is to keep writing this post. Keep writing and just not think about something that hasn’t happened yet.

Now I know how my mind works and I will be back and forth from this thought about how I’m going to pay that bill but if I allow it to distract and then consume me, I am not going to be able to focus on getting anything done. Do you see how it works?

I have to accept that it has happened for a reason and use it to keep me focused on what I am doing. That is the clarity that this pathway talks about. It is clarity about my purpose. There’s something very magical about this present moment. It is a state of empowerment and clarity. It is a place of self-mastery. It’s understanding that you can deliver your purpose and all you need to do is stay focused on the actions that will help you to do this. I know for a fact that is all I need to do. Everything else is taken care of. Sustenance and provision is something that comes from that same Source. Creator provides. One way or another, I know it’ll be taken care of and so when I think of it like that, the worry begins to melt away.

Life is one of those things that is unpredictable. That’s a given. There is always uncertainty and that’s a given. However, if we embrace it and see where it takes us, it can feel expansive and exciting. If we worry, our energy contracts and we can’t see past the end of our own noses.

Life as it is right now.

What does that mean? It means looking around for things to appreciate. It means being thankful that the help is there. One of the big things for me working with this pathway is being able to see that some things happen so that other things can happen. We don’t always realise at the time, but what will happen for us in the future is dependent on what is happening now.

So if I look at this bill, perhaps this is what will create abundance for me. I know it’s money going out, but it is an opportunity to keep wealth circulating and by doing that I have contributed to the way the world goes round.

Everything is a dependency. I may be a speck in the grand design of this Universe, but I am a deliberately designed speck with a purpose. If we focus inward, we can create a sense of inner stability that we ride on when there is nothing certain in outer world. It is knowing that we are part of something greater and that there are other things that are dependent on us. Therein we do not exist in isolation, even when the world’s problems are beating down on us and it doesn’t feel like there is a way out. What happens next is dependent on this present moment.

Cultivating inner stability allows you to grow and change. I know even a year ago, this bill would have pushed me over the edge. It comes down to our outlook and belief that things are always getting better for us. Whatever is sent for us is good for us. This is an opportunity to trust in abundance even if things don’t look the way I want them to look right now. At least I have a car that is roadworthy and it’ll keep me safe.

ENABLING yourself with these beliefs is the way to create the way you want to be feeling right now. The way you feel is what creates the next thing. That is Law of Attraction in a nutshell.

If you can look around and be happy with what you have and be in acceptance of all of it, it helps. It is understanding that as you look around, everything is already changing because everything is temporary. Sometimes, it can feel as though nothing is really happening but life and the whole Universe is in continuous motion. When I think about this, it blows my mind. You can sit still and watch the whole Universe moving around you know that you too are moving even if you don’t feel it. It’s crazy!

I’ll conclude this pathway by asking you to take a moment today to sit still and notice at how much has moved for you. Think about the things you can’t see and the things that you can. Understand that you are in constant motion. Take a breath and allow yourself to catch up with THIS present moment.

Let me know how it feels!

Healing

Surrender is the Frenemy

The Goal of Faith is Surrender

One of the things that has really struck me whilst I’ve been fasting is the way in which our faith can drive us in a way that is unexplainable. Faith brings motivation to do the unthinkable. It powers us to accomplish otherwise difficult actions with ease. Quite a phenomena…I started thinking about this.

On a normal day, going without food and water in the same way would be really difficult, but there’s something about giving it up willingly that makes it easier. It’s difficult to articulate because I don’t want you to think that it is easy to do, but at the same time I want you to understand that it is made easier when backed by faith.

For me, this faith is based on surrender. What you notice when you’ve surrendered is just how easy it feels. That is because you are choosing this for yourself. You own that decision and you are fully in alignment with it. You’re not complaining about it. You’re simply getting on and doing it.

This works when it is decisions of our own choosing, but when life happens and the chips are down, that is when we really start to work with surrender. It’s a Frenemy for a lot of people. If you believe that there is a higher plan and that everything happens for a reason, it makes surrender easier. Having said that though, the human mind will need to go through it’s own reasoning and rationalising process. This is otherwise known as resistance.

Surrender is one of the most difficult things because it involves loss and ego. When we surrender, we give up a part of our identity and we are so attached to our identity that it causes us to grieve and feel like we’ve lost something.

In life, sometimes we fight and sometimes we surrender. It is knowing which will serve our highest good and going with what feels right in the moment.

In the healing room, we help you to surrender to what you can’t change and fight for what you can. It’s about untangling yourself from what holds you so that you can walk through life with the freedom and power that comes from doing things willingly.

If you’re having trouble untangling yourself, please get in touch. I’d love to help you.

Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 28th May, 2018

Hey hey!! It’s an interesting time energy wise. I was teetering on the edge of whether or not to do an energy update this week. I’m fasting at the moment and so my energy has been all over the place while I adjust. I decided to put off doing an update until I felt in a place where it wouldn’t be clouded with the distortion.

It got me thinking though in the sense that we are never separate from everything else that is happening in the universe and so maybe the collective is experiencing the same distortion? I know there are millions of people fasting around the world and it is a time for conscious reflection and inner change. This is a Universal theme and one that we are all working with. I certainly feel that fasting has given me an accelerated feeling in terms of this inner reflection and change and there is a lot to be said for the growth that comes as a result.

There is a full moon tomorrow and that explains why I’ve been grumpy and inwards the last couple of days. This new moon feels intense and serious. It feels like it is consolidating change and for those of you who have been feeling the build up, it feels like this is about setting in the changes of the past few months. It hasn’t been an easy trip, but it is lovely to feel at the point where we are integrating lessons.

Sometimes we are receiving lessons and that’s when everything is changing around us and it moves so fast and we have to deal with things whether we like them or not. And sometimes, you get this lovely energy of integration. It still pushes us, but in a very different way.

The theme of the last couple of months has been this idea of being aware of your part in everything and so with this knowledge it feels like we are beginning to learn how to direct our own lives and guide ourselves towards our future.

Try as much as possible to notice the inner changes. Who have you gone off? What are you finding difficult to tolerate? What’s starting to wind you up and why? Pay attention to the answers. Look at where you’re blaming others and when you’re blaming yourself.

There’s a tricky aspect to this energy in that it is breaking down the Ego and the sense of identity to the extent where we are experiencing such a massive void that we feel lost. In that place, any sense of purpose or belonging goes out of the window. You need to feel lost in order to find your way. If anything, it will tell you whether you continue on the same path or change direction. There is nothing finite in the decisions that we make for ourselves and it is ok to change to something that feels better for us if that’s necessary.

You may find that some things just don’t seem to want to work out and you may just have to accept that it isn’t the right time. It’ll keep and come back around when the time is right.

All in all, really interesting energies this week. Personally, I’m feeling pulled inwards and will likely stay there until the Full Moon has passed. Full moons are usually a deeper cleansing so a lot of us are going to really be feeling it. Expect to be a little mardy…it’s all good.

It does feel like victory is just around the corner though so hang in there. Personal battles fought and won is the theme of this moon for me. Hang tight and see you on the other side!

 

Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 15th May, 2018

Wowzers! It’s been one hell of a rollercoaster ride with the energy and so I thought it was timely to do an update on what’s happening with the energy.

More emotional than physical over the last week or so and some of us have noticed all of our demons rising up to the surface in a way that enables us to really see ourselves in a different light. The light being shone is brutally honest and so we are starting to see the good, the bad and the ugly in ourselves. It can come as a bit of a shock, and the revelations are set to keep coming. All the things that we have been battling against have been in our faces in a way that really allows us to see the choices that we have been making. I use the past tense because there is a sense of bringing things to light in order to make different choices for ourselves.

By showing us what we need to see at this time, this energy has been taking us downwards and deeper in to the work that we need to do on ourselves. It has been like taking a bird’s eye view, out of body perspective of our life choices and seeing it is a wake up call to choose what really matters. It allows us to understand self-sabotage and watch it while it is happening knowing that we are changing and that we have the power to choose differently.

Although intense and often painfully honest, if you can maintain the bird’s eye perspective and harness this energy, it is truly liberating. There is something fresh and exciting about making different choices. The energy itself feels heavy and although we may decide to choose differently, there is a sense of being pulled back in to old patterns.

Ride the storm as it is going to be changeable. It’s likely that where you have chosen to do something differently, that old 3D energy will pull you back and dilute your determination. This is simply coming to show you that change happens slowly and it takes time for patterns to change.

There is an excitement that comes with this energy, especially when you see the possibilities of what can change if you can change and do things differently. This energy can be empowering, but like with anything has it’s shadow so it’s being aware that if it feels debilitating, it is only temporary.

We are shifting through to something better, and it can only be good for us. Everything is good for us, if only we could see it when we go through it! The beautiful thing about this energy is that we are seeing ourselves going through it, healing from it and really trying to make the most of living.

Feelings will come and go, but live needs to be lived regardless because it is temporary. I think the weather is showing that. All the signs are there, we just need to listen and pay attention and allow ourselves to be guided through.

If anything, this energy is showing us how to navigate life. 3D/5D doesn’t matter so much anymore. None of that matters. Do YOU that’s all it is teaching you to do. Learn YOU and do YOU in the most authentic way that you can.

Peace and blessings, and enjoy the ride!

Love Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 11 – Al-Musawir – Designing and Training

 

Now this pathway I found really interesting for where I am in my life. I have just been away to Istanbul. My second visit to what I consider in many ways to be a spiritual home.

I was called the first time, and fortunate enough to be called again. The first trip triggered a long process of cleansing and clearing, and those experiences led me to where I am at now. All the good, the bad and the ugly that needed to be raised to make me who I am was as a result of that trip and I’m certainly grateful for it. Although at the time, I had no idea that it would be the catalyst for such massive change.

I feel as if everything that I had asked for on that first trip had been achieved so going back felt like closure in a way. A feeling of peace and gratitude, but also space to shape the next phase of my life.

This pathway gave me just that. It is about shaping our lives, but also allowing ourselves to be shaped through our experiences. It highlights that the Divine shapes and moulds us in to what we are through our experiences and that process is one of continuous evolution.

For me, this pathway made me think again about who I want to be. I felt like I have grown in to the person I wanted to be, but sometimes when that process is complete, there is a void to fill.  The pathway shows us that we are being moulded and kneaded in to shape all of the time. This can either feel like we want to escape life or embrace it – and it very much depends on how much we are able to surrender to the process.

While I was away, I had some magical experiences and moments of insight and wisdom. You know when you cross paths with strangers and the words exchanged are just what you needed to hear and the answer is clear? Those sorts of experiences that I will cherish and never forget. Accidental happenings that answered the questions I was seeking answers to.

Practicing this pathway made me realise that the route to getting here was a long journey of many steps, yet I was feeling so impatient about knowing the answers and for me, it showed me that the answers keep revealing themselves. Sometimes you just have to relax and it becomes crystal clear.

The first stage is this concept of surrendering and accepting that I do not know best. It’s funny that when you allow yourself to be guided, everything becomes a message from the Divine and you can feel your heart talking to you and leading you to where you need to be. For me, surrender has always been challenging and I am still working on it. I noticed pretty much straight away how much expectation plays a role in my suffering and sense of control. Surrender means acceptance of everything, good and bad and saying I am happy with this. I thought I had this down, but exploring this pathway made me see my inner control freak in full blown technicolour. It also made me look at my Ego in a different way, and helped me to see aspects of my shadow that I had been avoiding looking at.

This places control in a different light in that we try so hard to avoid confronting the shadow aspects of ourselves. We feel guilt and shame for feeling the way we feel about certain things, and this is something that we hold. Using this pathway, surrendering those feelings simply by acknowledging that they were present within me gave me a sense of peace. It also gave me permission not to be in control, and a realisation that I could experience this shadow aspect without causing any harm to anyone else.

I think as human beings, we have an idea of what a “good” person should or should not think or do and when we have emotions that conflict with this, it becomes difficult to deal with because we feel like it makes us a bad person and it is shameful. Through this pathway, I felt like I was learning all over again to be responsible for everything I was feeling and to really own it. It is difficult to own your Ego and overcome shadow feelings. Sometimes we feel bitterness, resentment, irritation, anger, impatience, envy, rejection, sadness, misery but we think we can not feel it fully because it has an impact on the people around us. Sure, people may notice that you are not yourself, but you can not harm them with what you are feeling. You only harm yourself by not honestly facing what is there.

This pathway about designing and training is about living honestly and understanding the contrast that the shadow aspects of yourself allow you to see. By avoiding the shadow, there is a clear message that these are emotions you do not want to feel. This resistance is also a resistance to allowing the Divine to shape you. It contradicts acceptance and surrender to all things that are bestowed on you, regardless of how it all feels to you.

By knowing what you don’t want, ultimately you understand what you do want. I felt like the counter emotion to all these shadow aspects I was discovering is Love. When I asked myself, “How do I want to redesign my life?” the answer is with Love. To work through your shadows, you need Love. To ensure your reality feels good to you, you need Love. To surrender, you need Love.

The pathway is about continuous evolution and the way Creator changes us over time, and in our darkest moments we forget that even that is out of Love. This whole process of being human with all it’s intricacies is made easier with Love.

I remember how it used to be before I came to this path. I always used to think “Why me?” when I recalled all the moments of darkness, all the painful experiences, all the suffering I felt I had to go through. It all makes perfect sense though when I think about it because I needed to go through all that to be here doing this. You never grasp it at the time, but there are some experiences that are absolutely necessary as without them, you can not appreciate the fullness of your gifts here on Earth.

Finally, for me this pathway was very much about getting out of my own way and almost disappearing to allow the life force to work on moulding me. The trouble with the human mind is that it always has an opinion on what is happening! This pathway has taught me neutrality in it’s purest sense and given me a sense of curiosity. It taught me that I can set an intention and ask for something and it will be received. However, the way I receive it and the timing are not things I have any control over. It allowed me to pose the question, “What happens if I do nothing?” and I was finding clear guidance and signs and synchronicities as a result. It gave me confirmation that there are signs, and the path is lit up, but we are so caught up in trying to control and mould our own lives that we forget that there is a bigger picture. This higher plan will play out regardless of whether we do or we don’t.

From this, I took away something very important and that is the feeling of peace that comes with accepting the good and the bad and being happy with all emotions. Although we may not entirely be convinced that what happens to us is for the best, if we can see that it isn’t the end point and take the lessons that it brings, it gives us peace. Where my Ego would say that’s passive, it makes sense to just drop it and get out of my own way by saying, “Yes ok – thank you because I know this is leading me somewhere.” The critical learning is that in that moment of GRRRR – it isn’t the end point yet your ego will make you feel like it is. Continuous motion, continuous learning and continuous evolution. If you grasp this, life becomes something very different and the joy comes back. It is, in itself, a way of connecting and staying connected through the pain.

When you reject a situation, you become separated and disconnected from Source and it feels that there is no help and support. Why would Creator do this to you? As Rumi said, “The cure is in the pain.” In actual fact, it is an opportunity for you to accept and be the closest that you can be to Creator. Those painful emotions are a way of bringing you closer to the Truth but it is only through facing those shadows that we get there.

The pathway recommends that we get a feel for the design of our lives even if all the steps are not clear yet. It also suggests that we look at what’s going on inside us with love and discipline to clear and dissolve. It shows us that there isn’t an end point. Nothing is good and nothing is bad. It is all purely experience that shapes us.

It may not make sense at the time, but it will one day. For me, it is stepping back and allowing these experiences to support personal perfection, learning and growth. It is not judging the feelings and experiences and it is understanding that Love changes and moulds everything.

Energy Updates

Energy Update 17th April, 2018

What a build up to the New Moon, eh? Mercury has finally gone direct although things are slow this week energy wise. More time for integration.

I don’t know how you’re feeling, but the build up was so intense that I feel it hasn’t fully set in and feels like an anti-climax! Last weeks energy was draining, but there was air of excitement.

This week, I’m feeling a serious edge to the energy. It’s time for us to sit with that seriousness and for those of us that find it difficult to take things seriously, and I mean me, that is really something to contend with.

It’s reflective of the inner battles that we are facing and this week, the energy is showing us exactly what it is that we are fighting. It’s also bringing up where the conflicts and paradoxes lie in our belief systems. It’s deep and intense work, and I feel that we’ve had a break from working on ourselves. It feels like although there is a need to go back in, there is avoidance.

The biggest battle is with the unknown parts of us that are now starting to rise to the surface. What is it that you want to find in yourself that you feel you have been lacking in? This question is being answered with the energy this week, and yes it is pushing us to sit with it.

On a personal level, I’m back to needing solitude to just with myself and facing the shadows. On one level it doesn’t feel like it’s time. On another level, it feels like there is nothing to do except just sit with whatever is coming up..

In the background, there is a fire burning but it’s a slow burn. At this time, we are being required to use the energies of all the Elements – Fire, Air, Water, Earth and I feel that we are learning what our unique balance of these energies are. We are starting to come to an understanding of what we need to draw from these elements to make up our unique signature.

The pot is being stirred, slowly. An earthenware pot, heated by a wood fire, full of water, releasing magical vapours. We don’t know what will be left. We’re just trying to keep it all in balance before we are shown what’s on the horizon.

The magic of the New Moon is creation and I do sense that once we’ve worked out just what it is that we want, it will manifest. The trick is working through being boiled at the same time as sensing what it is we want.

One thing is very clear though and this is the sureness of knowing what we do not want. This provides us with contrast and so take that as a helpful sign. If it is not serving you, it needs to go and there is now space to release and let go.

It’s an odd energy and in Ascension terms, it feels like another transitional phase where adjustment is required. We are losing more and more of what we thought we were and this can be challenging when we live in world that requires identity. Particularly more so when we have a mind that needs to make sense of it all.

Feel your way through this phase. It may feel more and more pressured, but just as the diamond, the compression will make you shine.

If you need any help and support, or feel like you’re being squeezed, please do give me a call if I can assist.