Healing

The challenge for Lightworkers…

The challenge for lightworkers or this idea of “Being the light” is something that I’ve been pondering on over the last few months. I’ve not really felt like writing much and I think it’s down to everything that’s been happening in the world. Like all caterpillars, we must emerge as butterflies. A lot of our energy as lightworkers has been being consumed unnecessarily and so I’ve had to stop and reset that many times that I just ground to a halt and decided to go inwards to find my truth instead. That way I’m full enough to keep going and to help others.

With Covid-19 came a whole new unprecedented level of darkness that none of us (lightworkers) had anticipated. As the lovely Dr Vernon Coleman says, “If you’re not paranoid, you’ve not been paying attention.” I feel like the world stands divided at the moment. Those that like the security of following the rules and being told what’s safe and those that see the world changing rapidly before their eyes in a disproportionate way and have a sense of something not being quite right. The 3D/5D divide is becoming visibly apparent so on a spiritual level, take this as meaning something big is on it’s way and we as lightworkers need to keep this high octane frequency going. It’s intense and it’s draining but I also feel that once you see things for what they are, you can push ahead with your light work.

I don’t want to get in to the particulars of the plandemic because if I told you where I stand and how I understand it all, this post would more than likely get censored. I’ve noticed this with more than a few things that I’ve either posted or have been researching. Information seems to be disappearing or being written to fit.

Just the other day I was speaking to a friend who said if you put any random 3 digit number in to Google followed by the words “new cases” you’ll get an exact match every time you do it. So I tried it and they were right which set the cogs in motion. But when you see this hidden in plain sight, everything starts to be seen as it is. You realise that you can only trust what’s inside of you, not what’s outside of you.

If you’ve not read “1984” by George Orwell, I’d highly recommend that you get hold of a copy and read it before they ban it, edit it, censor it or make it obsolete. It will scare the living shits out of you but definitely good to open your eyes.

These are just observations by the way and I point them out as a way of illustrating how easy it is to get distracted from the truth. If you’ve kept up with this post thus far, you’re probably wondering what the point is of all this.

Life is smoke and mirrors and this is something that we have to keep reminding ourselves. The first lesson in “A Course is Miracles” is to tell yourself that nothing is real. As Lighworkers, we know this.

Being present is a trick that if we learn to master can help us to see beyond what is happening right now. Nothing actually ever happens – the only place it happens is in your mind. I’ll prove it to you.

Right here, right now – nothing is happening and everything is fine….right? Every time you ask yourself that question, the answer will always come back the same. This is because when you bring yourself to the present, you are one with time and space and therefore everything is suspended and nothing is happening. Life is a series of moments. One moment after the other and when you are present, there isn’t anything happening in that moment or the next. Therefore, does anything ever actually happen?

I know I’m going on a bit of a mind bender but I think it’s important to put this in the context of the reality that we are experiencing right here and now. I know for many, myself included, it has been a time of immense stress and pressure and actually, the only way that I can find to bring the light is to be present. The mind bending is essential until your mind lets go and your heart starts to work properly again. Your heart is the seat of your soul. Your soul is deeply connected to Love/The Light.

The time we have to ourselves is an opportunity to confront our fears because if we don’t confront our own fears, we will play right in to the hands of the darkness that wants to control and manipulate us. Fear makes us compliant and we put our truth to the side.

The biggest fear being played out in the world right now is the fear of death. As spiritual beings, we understand and accept death as an inevitable conclusion to life and depending on what you believe, it’s a transition of you as a physical energy form from one realm to another.

This world will have you believing that you will live forever and therefore you should fear dying but I believe ultimately, the only thing that can save you from your own death is your appointed hour.

Being the light and indeed being a Lightworker is about finding your truth and for me this whole experience of lockdown has been about finding the truth on so many levels. Like you, I’m not stupid. I like to look at different views and perspectives. I like to question the science. I like learning about how things work and so I’ve grown immensely as a result. It’s been challenging and difficult at times but my ultimate goal is the truth and when I have my truth, I can be the light. And ultimately, when I’m in my light I don’t need to be saved or kept safe. As Lightworkers, we do this for ourselves and we hold space for others to do the same.

If you feel free, you’re able to liberate others. If you hold the space for yourself, you can hold the space for others. If you are in search of the truth, you encourage others to find their own truth. If you stand up for Oneness and the Light, you inspire others to do the same. If you give yourself permission to shine, you give others permission to shine.

For many, this lockdown has shows us who we truly are and how resilient we can be. Not only that but for me, it highlights the rights and freedoms I own as an individual that can not and will not ever be taken from me. Freedom ultimately is a state of mind and the way we get there is encapsulated in the analogy of the caterpillar shedding to become the butterfly.

Balance is the key thing and the middle ground is something I’m always on the hunt for. When we fear nothing, we are more likely to be calm and take decisions from a rational place. When we are full of fear, we will take the option that presents safety. It’s remembering that even though I may not fear anything, someone else may not feel the same as me because of the experiences that they’ve had. Being the light is about respecting that rather than getting others to agree with you.

In all of this chaos, it’s important to remember that we are all grown ups and we all make our own choices about what feels good to us or not. As adults, we can be mature enough to know that other people may not agree with us, but we can love them anyway.

Oneness is what the world needs right now and I’m finding that whichever way you’re looking at this situation, there’s always going to be a part of you that wants to convince others that you are right. This is what the ego is famous for and actually, part of that growth phase is calling out the ego and dealing with it. Those that want to stay safe want to keep others safe. Those that want to have the freedom to choose want others to exercise this freedom too.

Oneness is about understanding that everyone chooses the version of truth that is most acceptable to them. We become separated and divided the second we try and be responsible for someone else’s truth. It’s important that we give this some thought.

Division is not something that’s on my agenda but the search for the truth is firmly up there. As challenging as it is, people will choose their own beliefs, do their own questioning, do their own research and trust their own gut instinct. We all have the freedom to do this.

Alongside this, we must also learn how to work with this idea that our truths are not static. There is a spectrum that reflects the whole range of truths and we are allowed to be wherever we want on it as well as travel between different points on it. Growth ultimately means that movement through timelines and dimensions is happening, and isn’t that what we want?

The light emerges when we are not pinned down to one particular idea. Oneness emerges when we accept another’s truth as much as we can our own and love them anyway. If you’re right, you don’t need to be “more right” and that helps you to let it go. It also helps you to see where duality is showing itself to you in the world, where your own discomfort and inner fears are being projected right back at you and where you need to work to let things go.

We are in an epic timeline shift that traverses across duality thinking and is introducing a whole new way of being whether you’re in 3D or 5D – there’s some stepping up to do. The only place you’re going to find your truth and your truest self is within.

If you’re planning on being the light, remember it isn’t just about love and positivity. You get to that place through a real challenge of your fears, your safety nets and your comfort zones. Lightworkers have been doing this for a long time and maybe now is the time where it’s most needed.

Lightworkers are finding this time particularly challenging but the inner work is preparing us for something much greater. How resilient are we? How much more can we take?

There is a mass awakening going on right now on both a micro and macro level.

What matters is that you find your own truth which will ultimately lead you to your purpose, which will lead you to freedom.

All my love,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 30th November 2018

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been a little messy since the full moon, hasn’t it?!

Many of us are finding that the lessons are coming in thick and fast and with Mercury has been in retrograde since November 16th. It goes direct around the time of the new moon on the 7th December and there’s refreshing changes on the way. Well that’s the least we can hope for.

Expect between now and then to be messy. There is much coming up to heal and one of the things that will really hit you is that one same lesson that you’ve still not learnt. I know I’m feeling it in many areas of my life at the moment and it really is time to gather your wits about you!

The best way to handle it is to take that time out for yourself. Reflect. I mean really reflect and ask yourself what are the things that you keep experiencing time and time again. There’s your big clue. Whether it’s feeling hard done by or whether it’s a feeling of stop/start – just take time to sit with it.

The next step is to ask yourself, “What am I doing that’s keeping it the same?” Therein lie a lot of the answers.

Remember there are some things that are programmed in as subconscious patterns and so they’re not that easy to shift on your own. If you want to give me a call, I’d be happy to help you with this.

Think about what you want to do differently. I can’t remember who it was that said that it’s an act of madness to do the same thing again and again and expect a different result. It might have been Einstein but he was right.

It is really heavy right now but it’s all about getting us to take a real good look at where we have come from and how we want to change. Mars, the planet of action, is also on the move so this will make it easier.

I would say take some time to reflect. Sometimes we can want change so badly but the actions that we are taking really aren’t in alignment with what we want to achieve. It’s time to work it all out so that when you do take action, it’s with intention and is fruitful for you.

I know my own personal way of doing things is haphazard and so sitting down and working things out is something I’m not used to doing. I kind of follow my heart on a whim and a prayer and structure and discipline are completely alien concepts to me. This wave of ascension energy has really forced me to slow down, take stock and plan.

My challenge now is trying to stick to the plan!

One thing I do know is that this year has been start/stop energy for many of us. It has brought up so much for us to heal and I know that many of you are going through a messy time right now.

I’ve been doing my own Emotion Code sessions to help me shift out of these old patterns because I know it isn’t me that doesn’t want to take action – it’s my subconscious hindering me. As a result, I’m noticing the changes in myself on a massive scale. I think those of you who have been following my social media have also noticed how much I’m changing.

It’s important that we tune in and believe that we are not hopeless in our endeavours. Healing is here to help you. If you’d like to have a chat, please get in touch. A consultation call is completely free.

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Healing, Inspiration

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it. Lately, I’ve been working to try and reach more people and that’s because I know I can really make a difference. I know there’s more to do and I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of this so I thought I’d share my thinking on this with you.

So I know that I have a real impact on people’s lives. I know that healing has helped make massive leaps for people’s careers. I’ve helped people come back from absolute rock bottom. I know that there’s some clients who literally trust me with their lives. I know that I’ve helped people avoid being on prescription drugs and even helped some people to come off them. I know I’ve helped people become confident and assertive. I know I’ve helped people overcome their fears of intimacy. I know I’ve helped people make sense of their spiritual journey and taught them how to work on themselves. I’ve seen people grow and blossom in front of my eyes. I’ve helped people to take charge of their own destiny and given them the perspective that’s helped them to believe that everything is possible.

The list is endless and you’d think that this would be enough evidence for me to believe in myself, right? Well, I’m going to be really honest here and say that I’ve only just started to understand the difference I make to people’s lives and I’m still battling with this. Empaths start on a much lower self-worth level to others in my opinion and it takes a lot to climb to that place where you truly believe in your gifts.

I had a lovely client come in the other day and something he said will stick with me forever. He said, “You can say that your work is rewarding and real satisfaction and that you make a real difference. People will remember you for what you did for them.” I tried to stay cool, but inside my heart dropped a little because I’d not taken that perspective. I usually just bumble along, shrug off the praise and get on with the job. I hadn’t really been listening or taking on board the nice things that people have said because perhaps I didn’t feel that I truly deserved it. I always focus on what else there is left to do and this made me stop and take stock and really appreciate what I have.

I know that when people tell me how much I’ve helped them with the sessions we’ve had together, I still have a hard time accepting the praise. It’s like I still can’t quite believe that I’m doing this.

It takes an awful lot to step up and accept all of who you are. I’m finding this as I battle my way through it. I talk a lot about working with the shadow aspects, but this is like another form of shadow that we also need to work with. Being able to see and accept what you’re putting in to world and the positives it brings is a beautiful thing. What happens is that we think of this as Ego and retreat in to being humble. I know this is what I’ve been doing and actually as a result, I’m not getting what I truly deserve because I don’t truly believe I deserve it.

This is one of the things that I’m trying to set about changing in myself because it’s part of my self-sabotage pattern and I know I’m fed up of living that pattern. In my bones, I feel that it’s time to step up and really be visible about the work that I do. I’m building my confidence. I’m getting better at accepting praise and I’m really listening and allowing the evidence to show me that this journey is well worth the graft. Look at what I can do – it’s magical but in the daily grind, the magic gets lost and forgotten. I want to be the person that still believes in the magic!

It can be overwhelming, but I’m learning that actually praise and kind words are how people are showing love and appreciation. I have to keep my heart open to this love. It doesn’t mean it’s going to my head and it doesn’t make me any less humble. It’s quite a difficult and new concept to me to be able to celebrate the good things that I have put in to the world and be proud of what I have achieved. It’s actually quite scary!

I’m conscious not to take anything for granted because I know where I came from. At the same time, I understand that if I am overwhelmed by it, I’m not in complete acceptance of it. It’s an interesting dilemma because the Ego is shouting “Be humble!” and at the same time you’re at the point where you can’t deny the evidence that’s put before you.

The trick is to define your own sense of identity because there is strength in having that sense of self. The Ego is the false identity and when it screams “Be humble!” at you, it is one of the ways in which it is holding you back and keeping you in the limitations that you’ve been taught.

I never really recognised this fully before now and working with it has been really challenging. I can say in my own mind I believe I make a difference and I’m starting to accept the evidence as real. Remember how deep set the ego ideas and beliefs are.

Defining your own sense of self takes time. I’ve been on this journey a while and I’m still finding false selves and as each mask falls away, it enables me to become more authentic, more real and more confident in my own definition of who I am.

I don’t want to be what I’m taught I have to be in this world. I don’t want to have limitations and restrictions placed on me.

I want to be able to share and celebrate the fullness of who I am. I want to believe that I can attract what I deserve. I want to believe that I truly deserve it.

If any of this resonates and you’re on the path trying to find ways to become who you came here to be, please get in touch with me. I love working with opening hearts and minds to all the possibilities!

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 16 – Flexible Strength

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a flexible strength that can adapt to any situation and yet remain rooted in, and moving toward, the purpose of your life.”

This pathway came at just the right time for me to integrate many of the lessons that I am learning on this journey. I’ve talked before about distraction and how sometimes being an empath can mean that you get absorbed and pulled in to everyone else’s stuff. We can feel resentful because our full focus is not on our own mission.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been consciously looking at how I get pulled away and distracted and I’ve made a lot of changes. The first thing that I want to say is thank you to all the true friends that have understood that I’ve needed me and my work to come first. It’s appreciated more than you know.

One of aspects of this pathway is developing strength from the way that we look at the past. For those of you that know me, you’ll know I do a lot of work with the shadow aspect. The shadow is all about looking at all the things that you’re not so comfortable with and I feel that it’s a way of breaking down the ego.

The pathway talks about forgetting the past and just keeping going. I find this really interesting and I don’t take that literally. I think there is much to be gained by understanding that you can’t just put your past in a box and pretend that it doesn’t exist. Part of shadow work is to revisit some of the more uncomfortable parts and to work through them and with them in a way that allows us to learn more about who we are. This process helps us to accept parts of ourselves that we may have disowned because of shame or anger at the way we behaved. Learning love and compassion for yourself means that you have to go in and be able to accept all of this to be whole.

We all have parts of ourselves that we don’t care to name and shame because it is deeply troubling. These parts usually are distinguished as the judgements we make about others. It’s hard to accept that that’s ourselves being reflected back at us. I know when I first started working with my shadow aspects, it sent me in to deep despair and it was so easy to let those things bring me down. That was because I didn’t fully own them and I hadn’t healed from them and so they still had a lot of power of me as a person.

It is easy when we face adversity to act out old shadows. Sometimes it is that inner child surfacing and being able to face yourself takes courage. It means being able to feel pain, shame, anger, fear and know that it has a place within you along with everything else. The spiritual journey isn’t all love and light and rainbows and unicorns! There are times when it is deeply uncomfortable getting to the truth. And the truth isn’t always fashionable enough to wear so we wear a mask instead. All of this starts to become apparent as you work with the shadow. It takes courage and being human, sometimes my courage fails but I think even approaching your shadow is a good start.

I do this because I want to be authentically myself. Sometimes authenticity can get lost in politeness and people pleasing. You’ll notice how that feels in yourself and I know that I don’t like it. I don’t like letting people down but when it’s a choice between that and letting myself down, I’ve learnt that it’s not always easy to choose me. It’s something that will take time to master and there’s a lot to work through.

There is darkness within all of us but part of our inner work is to face it and begin the alchemical process of transmuting it and learning to shine light on it so that it becomes something more than just a painful memory. From this process, we develop the flexible strength that this pathway is teaching us about. A person is more than the sum of their parts. When we identify all the parts, we become that something more. This is what I’m talking about. It isn’t the easiest thing to name those parts and become that something more.

When you know yourself, you are truly resilient in the face of adversity. When you are reluctant to face all aspects of yourself, you’re likely to be triggered. I think it always goes, “Trigger first, lesson later!” We need time to ponder and reflect and life is amazing in the way that it presents the lessons to us on a plate. Each trigger is an opportunity to learn and grow. Sometimes it starts with a bitch and a vent, but as you work through it, you realise that you need to own that judgement that you’ve made because it’s showing you who you are. When you’re at peace with it, you’ll experience it without being triggered. This is true strength.

There’s “who we like to think we are” versus “who we actually are” and the ego likes to hold on to it’s ideas about our identity and how we define ourselves. We have deeply set ideas, some so deep set that we’ve yet to see them.

There’s always more to do in breaking down the ego and it can sometimes feel like you’re treading water and that you’ll never be free of it. Even that is an acceptance in itself. You are in the actual process when you acknowledge it and try to make peace with it. It always feels better to me to acknowledge that I am on my way to something. It’s the process that’s more important than the outcome. When we focus on the outcome, we realise that it’s too big. When we focus on the process, we see that we’re taking steps towards something. A step in the direction you’re choosing feels better than perfection.

It’s always interesting to say the least working with the shadow aspect. We start to discover just how many lies we have told ourselves – more than we care to admit. It’s a level of honesty that you can’t really be ready for when it hits you. It makes sense to do it though because you arrive at a truer version of yourself than the one you are now. Constantly moving and evolving to get to the truth of who you are is meaningful work and it grows you.

And once you start on the quest for truth, you can’t stop!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 20th November, 2018

Well there’s definitely been a massive shift in the ascension energy since Venus went direct on the 16th November. The thing that I’ve noticed is that all those lessons that we’ve learnt when it comes to relationships are at the forefront of our minds. There is a steely determination in the air and the vibe is centred about not going back to our old ways.

With this energy shift, there have been physical symptoms. For me, the amount of sleep I am needing has increased! The rest is an important part of any energy shift because our soul energy moves a lot faster than our physical mind and body does. We need to physically catch up and as we process, it can make our minds and bodies feel tired.

One thing that I feel strongly is to understand that everyone’s pace is different. I do however get the sense that once we have caught up (however long this takes) the energy will speed up and you’ll find yourself really getting to grips with what needs doing and following through on things that have been sitting for a while.

With this energy, there’s definitely a sense of sifting through and prioritising. I know that this is the energy because it isn’t a process that comes naturally to me. I feel a deep need to really connect in solitude and actually that’s guiding me to what the priorities are at any given time.

The energy is magical at the moment. So many signs and synchronicities. It feels like it has to be this way to get us to believe in the magic again! The energies have been so heavy over the past few months that this is much needed relief for us all.

It’s uplifting even if it making us feel sleepy! I’ve found so much more joy and laughter since the shift happened and this lightness brings with it a renewed hope and optimism.

It really is a magical time and a brilliant time to get things in motion. I know that Mercury is retrograde but I feel that it’s time to plan and put together the vision for the future. It feels like we have moved on from so much after Venus shifted and it has given much needed clarity.

Re-evaluating relationships was the focus of Venus retrograde and it’s beautiful how the lessons learnt are resulting in the way that we approach anything new. There is something cautious and protective in the energy, but at the same time it isn’t coming from a place of fear. It’s coming from heightened intuition and the resistance to learning lessons seems to be subsiding.

There is an openness to this energy and a willingness to welcome whatever emotions are coming to visit. It’s an expansive space and its fast paced. There is a lot of movement and almost like a feeling of whizzing through the air at times.

With Mercury Retrograde, it’s important to pay attention to the details for us to properly harness the energy. If you’re anything like me, you’ll get carried and not take account for the small print! I have to keep reminding myself. Checking in is important and remember not to go too fast with this because there is the potential for burnout.

It is reassuring to know that all is coming to fruition but the message that’s coming through really strongly is that we need to take everything at our own pace. You can’t swallow the entire ocean. You can only take a sip at a time. This energy is setting the tone for what’s to come and so on a practical level, now is the time to think about what you’d like to introduce in to your routine. Whether it’s new ways of thinking, new habits, structure, discipline. This will all be made easier because of the energy that we are in.

The Universe is supporting us to get to where we need to go. Most of the time, it can feel like the Universe is throwing us a curve ball and teaching us the lessons but this energy is lovely because it feels supportive, reassuring and energising in a way that I’ve not experienced to this extent before.

Take advantage of it! Also know that what’s meant for you is on it’s way and regardless of whether you consciously or subconsciously try to sabotage it, it’s all coming for you anyway. You’ll learn what you need to learn through the process but that which you desire is the thing to keep in mind.

Learn to become obsessed with visualising what you’d like this energy to bring you and watch as the Universe meets you and supports you to achieve and realise it. It’s a beautiful feeling to be able to believe in the magic again and I’m really loving what’s happening right now.

Remember when you feel the magic, you resonate that vibration and that vibration has an impact on others. The more you can harness that feeling, the more you are contributing to raising the vibration on this planet. We are all doing that. Even something as simple as being in a good mood or sending out good vibes makes a difference.

I hope you’re making the most of it! I’ve cracked on with more videos as a result of this little boost so if you’d like to take a look CLICK HERE! Get in touch if you’d like to share how you’re feeling about the future!

Until next time,

Love Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Being an “Old Soul”

Pathway 15 – Al-Muqaddim – Preparing the way

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to acknowledge the part of your being that feels “oldest,” and prepare the way for power to flow through your life.”

So this is the pathway that I have been exploring and it started with a healing transmission that I did at the beginning of November which started a profound shift for me in terms of accessing the oldest parts of my being.

Power is an interesting concept, particularly for me. Since I began on this journey, everything has been about stepping in to my power and continuously I’m finding newer ways to do this. I had some funny ideas about power when I first started on this journey, but as I’ve grown, I’ve come to see it as a positive force in my life.

The pathway really is about delving in to who we are. Our souls were created long before our bodies were and so that part of us has lived and acquired a great deal of wisdom.

One of the things I noticed as soon as I started work with this pathway was the number of references made in relation to me being an “old soul.” The first time I heard that phrase I must have been about 17 and I’d sneaked away to London for the day. I went to Camden Market and was mooching around. I met this guy who looked like an old sage and he was full of love and life. I can still see his face. We ended up chatting for a long while. He caught sight of the palm of my hand and asked if he could have a look. I felt a bit hesitant but I agreed. He told me I was a very old soul but it wouldn’t be later in life until I realised what that meant. I’d completely forgotten about this experience and now that I’m writing about it, it brings it all back for me.

The story came back to me because I’ve only just realised that what he set in motion has resulted in this here today and I believe he knew exactly what he was doing. In this work, I am fortunate enough to be deliberately and consciously setting in motion change for those I work with.

It made me look at how I work with people and what I’m able to access. The pathway drew me to connect even deeper within myself. We spend life trying to define who we are in this world when really who we are sits within our soul. Once we start connecting to that deeper sense, everything in life starts to move around us for us to be able to fully understand and return to that original soul self.

The pathway is about returning back to our original image and this journey here in this world is what creates the means for us to do this. Life teaches us the nature of who we really are on one level. I’m talking about going beyond that. I’m talking about being from a place that you can’t access in a physical way.

For those of you who have read previous blogs, you’ll know that I talk about “going home” and by that I mean that place where we came from that’s before this world or any other world. It always seemed separate from me until I started to understand how to channel it in this world. I have more of a sense of belonging now that I ever have.

The adventure with this pathway was to learn how to go deeper within and I have found that connecting with this idea that I have been this energy for much longer than the 39 years here on earth has had a profound shift in my energy. I understand power on a much deeper level and it really is having an impact on the way I’m choosing to live.

The whole world looks different to me as a result. I’ve always been seeking to find my place here on Earth and each time I find it, I find new levels of understanding it. It’s not possible, I don’t think, to understand your place here unless you also understand where your soul has been.

I’m blessed to be an old soul and it really is becoming a distinct part of who I am. It gives me a uniqueness as a person. It has also made me curious enough to delve deeper. All of this enquiry is for a reason – this I know for certain. Synchronistically with this pathway, I’ve discovered aspects of my ancestry that have helped me to understand my spiritual gifts on a much deeper level. When healing is literally in your blood, you have no choice but to accept that’s who you are. It’s beautiful and it’s taken my sense of belonging to another level which is great for me and for the world!

I think the most amazing aspect of this pathway though is allowing yourself to open up and letting the power of YOU flow through. The more you access this part of yourself, the more you are preparing the way for what’s to come next. One of the beautiful things about this pathway is that it opens you up to wonder. I always talk about potential and fulfilling that potential but this is on a whole other level. It’s like you’ve got back up and support and everything you need. It’s like you are that potential in every moment.

With this pathway being so profound and deep, I’m actually having a challenging time in articulating how it’s making me feel. Suffice to say though that like all the other ways, it is changing me for the better. The closest phrase to describe how I feel is that “I am really coming into my own.” That sort of captures it.

The feelings you get when you’re accessing this are out of this world. Phenomenal. I wish I could tell you how or what to do to get there because everyone needs to feel this. I’m still integrating and working that out but when I have that in a practical form, I will share it. There is a sense of pride that comes from knowing yourself in this way. It isn’t an ego thing, simply a sense of contentment and being sure about who you are. This may not make much sense but if you know, you know.

There is a whole other world and worlds within worlds to discover. Such is the beauty of connecting to yourself, your power, your lineage, your ancestry, and the source of all that power.

“This is love.

To fly toward a secret sky,

to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment.

First to let go of life.

Finally, to take a step without feet.”

Rumi

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 13 – Ar-Rauf – Healing Wings

So after quite a long break, I decided today to pick back up on the pathways again because it felt like I needed to reconnect. The last few months have been a time for extreme expansion and inner healing for me and so I caught this pathway and found myself working through it. It’s always as if this book knows exactly what is needed and this is the beauty of life. If you seek answers, you’ll find them. Sometimes, it isn’t the answer we were looking for. Sometimes it is the truth and we find that hard to bear, but nevertheless it is an answer.

This pathway is about reconnecting your heart to Unity. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves that we do not exist in isolation from others. I’ve always been quite a solitary person. I’ve also been a very strong person and my story always goes, “I don’t need anyone.”

The one thing I have learnt from my story is that when you give off the vibe that you don’t need anyone, you attract people that couldn’t care less about you. Have a think about that one. I know I did.

Receiving help and healing from others is one of the hardest things that I have had to learn. I am still learning it if I’m really honest.

This pathway for me showed me what that was all about. The last few months for me have been a struggle to stay in balance. When the ego falls away, we feel lost. When all our beliefs are challenged, we question who we are. When we feel lost, we need help and coming in to balance means that we need to connect on three deep levels.

Firstly we need to connect with Divine Source to truly be able to see the world through Creator’s eyes. We need to connect deep within ourselves to discover our desires and joy. We also need to connect ourselves with everything that is around us because like I said, we do not exist in isolation.

Without going in to too much detail, I’ve had experiences over the last few months that have really challenged me on all three levels and the expansion and awareness has changed me. For me this pathway is about recognising the struggle that we have when we become disconnected.

We think we have everything sussed and sorted and then along comes someone or something that brings out a whole lot more in you that needs to be healed. Someone or something that makes you question what you believe in. Someone or something that makes you admit what you really want isn’t in alignment with your story. Someone or something that allows you to open up and receive help and healing.

It is opening on a deep level and often these things are unexpected and meant to throw you off balance. All UNLEARNING is learning and part of the soul’s journey is to disconnect to be able to reconnect. We can arrive in a comfort zone with our spirituality unless we continuously challenge what we hold to be true. That in itself brings us to a better understanding of the Divine, of ourselves and of the world around us.

This separation between ourselves and Creator/ourselves/our world is something I want to touch on because for a lot of empaths like me, we have this yearning for home. We don’t know where home is but we have always had this longing and this deep sadness because we feel separated from it. Those of you who know, will know.

This pathway pointed to something quite poignant for me. It led me to explore all the times that I had tried to heal the separation within myself. The separation and disconnectedness can be healed through this idea that we are part of Unity. That is home.

Being spiritual isn’t simply about a set of ideals and beliefs. It’s about connecting on the three levels that I have mentioned. It is about striving to achieve that balance within yourself. It’s about repairing all the connections and this for me is the deepest kind of healing.

Sometimes we are shown through trauma and experience. Sometimes we are shown by another person who has entered our lives to teach us this very lesson. All I know is that you need to dig deep and challenge what you think you already know about yourself. For me, it was reminding myself that I also need help.

It is when I need help, comfort, affection that I am at my most vulnerable because it challenges my story. I’m admitting this here and now and I’m choosing to see this as a strength. Over the last few months, I’ve seen what compassion really is from people I would not have expected it from and it’s taken me to new depths in the way I operate in the world.

I’ve learnt what it means to receive compassion and real love and to be able to express it for another. I’ve learnt that I am absolutely safe being vulnerable because I trust that Divine is always looking out for me. I’ve learnt that when I am out of balance, I need to heal the separation within myself.

This pathway took me to a whole new level of opening within myself. I thought my heart was open and I’ve learnt that even though it is open, it can open so much wider.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 12th October 2018

WOWZERS! It’s time for another ascension energy update. I feel like it’s been a while and I can only apologise that I have not been writing as much but here I am and better late than never!

This new moon has seriously had us all exhausted! The energies have been so intense and I for one have been feeling it physically. It’s like having sleepy syndrome and there hasn’t been much time for me to sleep.

The healing room has seen some massive breakthroughs over the last week or so and I think this is the theme for October. It is officially breakthrough month on all levels.

It feels like we are all being asked to step and challenge ourselves to transition in to our next phase of ascension. The energy has been making us feel very tired with this feeling of “how long can I keep going?” It feels like burnout but it really isn’t. There is a need to push beyond this veil and there is a definite need to step up.

This week there will be something that happens that makes you feel certain that it’s time to step up. You’ll be overwhelmed with fear but honestly just remember what I’m telling you and roll your sleeves up and fight for what you want.

As lightworkers, we really suffer from procrastination and we can find reasons not to stretch ourselves. This is the time. It has always been the time. We talk about preparing ourselves quite a lot and intuitively knowing when we are ready.

The truth of the matter is this.

Your entire life has led you to this moment. You are ready. Hell you were born ready and it’s about time you realise it.

I’m in the headspace now where I have to give myself the Rocky speech every day and HURR myself on to keep going and I can feel that we are all breaking through. It may be next new moon when situations are resolved but if there’s a time to take action, it is now. This moment is defined by all previous moments and if it’s come in to your head, you are ready for it.

It doesn’t matter whether or not you can see progress. Feel it. Feel that the Universe is at work on your behalf. Set your intentions because energy follows intent.

The most important thing though is to cut out distractions. It’s all about you now.

Make this week a good one because it’s in your power to do so!

My next stage is to begin getting more active on my visual platforms as that is the thing that I’m feeling needs to be done so watch this space!!

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I don’t have many followers and I need all the help I can get so I’d be really grateful for this. Also, if you do have ideas/questions that you’d like me to make videos about, let me know!

Healing

Does Distance Healing really work?

Curious about distance healing? Well let me tell you how it works!

Everything is made of energy – that’s a scientifically proven fact. Particle physics says that each particle can positively or negatively influence it’s immediate surroundings. That’s why when you have Reiki, it’s these waves of energy that are having an impact on your energy field to create a sense of wellbeing.

Now remember we are all particles of energy. We are all made of the same stuff and connected to the same life force energy. Energy doesn’t have physical boundaries, nor does it have any time boundaries. This is why we are always connected to our past, present and our future. Our mind can navigate these places and time travel between them without any physical movement. This is magic and in essence if we can recognise that we only have to generate positive thoughts for good things to happen, then we’re on the way to something really powerful.

Our physical body is the densest bit of our energy field and this is why it is visible. It is made of particles of solid matter. Things and people are made of this and so that’s why the mind recognises them as “real” objects.

We also have energy around us. This is the auric field. It’s the energy ball that surrounds us and it is filled with our own personal energetic vibe. When you meet someone, this is the first thing that you’ll sense even though it isn’t a tangible and visible thing.

Places and people all have their own energetic signature. When you walk in to a place, you immediately sense whether it feels good or not based on it’s energy. We all have this ability and we can use it inform us what feels right or not.

Thoughts generate energy. We only have to think about bad memories for us to start feeling low, even if we are nowhere near the person that may have caused them. This is because what we have generated is charged with the energy of emotion. For more on releasing emotional blocks – click here!

How does distance healing work?

Energy has an impact regardless of time, space and physical proximity. The premise for distance healing is simply that we are all connected to the same source of energy and so therefore to each other. Energy follows intent and so you can energetically connect with anyone, anywhere and send them positive energy and healing vibes simply by making the intention to.

Distance healing is a bit more than that though. It can be just as intense as having a Reiki session in person. You can watch this video if you want to see someone’s first experience of Reiki. It’s really old from when I first started out, but definitely worth taking a look at. Click here to take a look!

I’m connecting to your energy in the same way as I would if you were here. I’m channelling the energy in the same way that I would if you were here. The energy is working in the same way as it would if you were here.

There is no separation between you and I in the healing space. For most people who have distance Reiki, they feel everything as if they would in person and this is always a surprise for them!

I want to encourage more people to try distance Reiki because it’s an experience!

It’s definitely worth trying!

If you’re up for it, give me a shout!

Energy Updates

Weekly Ascension Energy Update 20th September, 2018

Weekly Ascension Energy Update

Has it been chaotic for you too? Ascension energy this week has had us rockin’!

The last few weeks have been what feels like an uprising of the old coming to the surface to be cleared and there is a hell of a lot of shit to be cleared. The ascension energy is throwing us around so fast that we don’t know whether we are coming or going at the moment. All we know is that we are NOT who we used to be and we will not settle for what we used to.

There’s a lot to take in and for many of us, the last couple of weeks have taught us where we stand. There’s been some tensions but finally we can acknowledge that it is OUR own journey that we need to be responsible for. Everything else is needing to take a back seat at the moment.

Sometimes in life we need others to hold space for us. Just to listen. Just to be there. The ascension energies have been rampant and what many are finding is that their NEED is not being met by the people around them. This leads to a conscious decision to go solo. It has also led to many of us taking a step back and really beginning to evaluate the connections and what they add to our lives and our sense of wellbeing.

It’s no bad thing all this taking a step back. It’s been so intense this year that we haven’t had the time to ponder and reflect. As a result, we’ve carried elements of the old in to the new and we’re really starting to understand which relationships are actually maintenance work and therefore draining our energy.

September’s Energy

September is the holding space and use it to tie up loose ends and cut loose the straggly bits. My advice is do this with no apologies. Yes there will be casualties as you undertake a massive cull but this is all to bring you in to alignment with who you are and where you’re heading. All of this is about you now.

A lot of us are reaching that crossroads where we need to choose between ourselves and others. Choose YOU! Period.

It’s tumultuous to say the least but now is not the time to settle for what was. Now is the time to create. The ascension energies are ripe for it. We have the Equinox on the 22nd and a full moon on the 24th. What we create now is what will harvest for us.

A friend of mine pulled a card for me the other day and it was Cornucopia. I think it captured what’s to come. The harvest really is on it’s way but this bit of the journey will take balls.

The situations that are created for us to be able to experience this shedding mean that we have to stop being pansies and grow a pair. For empaths, the most difficult bit is this. We can go all gung ho cutting people loose but our hearts will always get called back to helping and this becomes the trap.

Tips for getting through these energies

My advice is CHOOSE YOU. Period.

On a practical level, start evaluating each and every relationship for what it is. Is there a balance? Is there a fair exchange? Are you giving willingly or do you feel like you’re being taken from?

If there is balance and you’re getting as much as you give, keep it. Your bones will tell you what and who doesn’t feel right and you take responsibility for dealing with that. It’s not that you’re cutting people out forever. It’s simply right now you need all your focus and energy for yourself. If we don’t do this, we have to deal with the feeling of being left behind. That’s a low vibration and certainly not one that we want to be in if we are creating our future.

Everything is temporary. Nothing is forever. This is the big shake up and it’s time to put your money where your mouth is in a lot of ways. Times will test us, but that inner knowing will never let us down.

I would even go so far as to say that the next couple of weeks are pivotal and we need to be really mindful and aware of what our energy is doing. Pay attention to what’s within. Pay attention to what surrounds you. If there is a mismatch, do what you need to in order for there to be balance.

If all else fails and you can’t see the wood for the trees, one of my favourite tools to use is Raw Black Obsidian. This will bring anything negative to the surface quickly and enable you to deal with it at the root. You may find it unleashes chaos but if you’re craving change and you know it needs to be in your face for you to do something about it then Obsidian is the catalyst.

Stay present and just watch it all unfolding for you. Look at the bigger picture. Play the long game.

We’re in exciting times and the light downloads are intense and heavy. Keep riding it and if you need help, you know I’m here!

For previous ascension energy updates, CLICK HERE