Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 15th May, 2018

Wowzers! It’s been one hell of a rollercoaster ride with the energy and so I thought it was timely to do an update on what’s happening with the energy.

More emotional than physical over the last week or so and some of us have noticed all of our demons rising up to the surface in a way that enables us to really see ourselves in a different light. The light being shone is brutally honest and so we are starting to see the good, the bad and the ugly in ourselves. It can come as a bit of a shock, and the revelations are set to keep coming. All the things that we have been battling against have been in our faces in a way that really allows us to see the choices that we have been making. I use the past tense because there is a sense of bringing things to light in order to make different choices for ourselves.

By showing us what we need to see at this time, this energy has been taking us downwards and deeper in to the work that we need to do on ourselves. It has been like taking a bird’s eye view, out of body perspective of our life choices and seeing it is a wake up call to choose what really matters. It allows us to understand self-sabotage and watch it while it is happening knowing that we are changing and that we have the power to choose differently.

Although intense and often painfully honest, if you can maintain the bird’s eye perspective and harness this energy, it is truly liberating. There is something fresh and exciting about making different choices. The energy itself feels heavy and although we may decide to choose differently, there is a sense of being pulled back in to old patterns.

Ride the storm as it is going to be changeable. It’s likely that where you have chosen to do something differently, that old 3D energy will pull you back and dilute your determination. This is simply coming to show you that change happens slowly and it takes time for patterns to change.

There is an excitement that comes with this energy, especially when you see the possibilities of what can change if you can change and do things differently. This energy can be empowering, but like with anything has it’s shadow so it’s being aware that if it feels debilitating, it is only temporary.

We are shifting through to something better, and it can only be good for us. Everything is good for us, if only we could see it when we go through it! The beautiful thing about this energy is that we are seeing ourselves going through it, healing from it and really trying to make the most of living.

Feelings will come and go, but live needs to be lived regardless because it is temporary. I think the weather is showing that. All the signs are there, we just need to listen and pay attention and allow ourselves to be guided through.

If anything, this energy is showing us how to navigate life. 3D/5D doesn’t matter so much anymore. None of that matters. Do YOU that’s all it is teaching you to do. Learn YOU and do YOU in the most authentic way that you can.

Peace and blessings, and enjoy the ride!

Love Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 11 – Al-Musawir – Designing and Training

 

Now this pathway I found really interesting for where I am in my life. I have just been away to Istanbul. My second visit to what I consider in many ways to be a spiritual home.

I was called the first time, and fortunate enough to be called again. The first trip triggered a long process of cleansing and clearing, and those experiences led me to where I am at now. All the good, the bad and the ugly that needed to be raised to make me who I am was as a result of that trip and I’m certainly grateful for it. Although at the time, I had no idea that it would be the catalyst for such massive change.

I feel as if everything that I had asked for on that first trip had been achieved so going back felt like closure in a way. A feeling of peace and gratitude, but also space to shape the next phase of my life.

This pathway gave me just that. It is about shaping our lives, but also allowing ourselves to be shaped through our experiences. It highlights that the Divine shapes and moulds us in to what we are through our experiences and that process is one of continuous evolution.

For me, this pathway made me think again about who I want to be. I felt like I have grown in to the person I wanted to be, but sometimes when that process is complete, there is a void to fill.  The pathway shows us that we are being moulded and kneaded in to shape all of the time. This can either feel like we want to escape life or embrace it – and it very much depends on how much we are able to surrender to the process.

While I was away, I had some magical experiences and moments of insight and wisdom. You know when you cross paths with strangers and the words exchanged are just what you needed to hear and the answer is clear? Those sorts of experiences that I will cherish and never forget. Accidental happenings that answered the questions I was seeking answers to.

Practicing this pathway made me realise that the route to getting here was a long journey of many steps, yet I was feeling so impatient about knowing the answers and for me, it showed me that the answers keep revealing themselves. Sometimes you just have to relax and it becomes crystal clear.

The first stage is this concept of surrendering and accepting that I do not know best. It’s funny that when you allow yourself to be guided, everything becomes a message from the Divine and you can feel your heart talking to you and leading you to where you need to be. For me, surrender has always been challenging and I am still working on it. I noticed pretty much straight away how much expectation plays a role in my suffering and sense of control. Surrender means acceptance of everything, good and bad and saying I am happy with this. I thought I had this down, but exploring this pathway made me see my inner control freak in full blown technicolour. It also made me look at my Ego in a different way, and helped me to see aspects of my shadow that I had been avoiding looking at.

This places control in a different light in that we try so hard to avoid confronting the shadow aspects of ourselves. We feel guilt and shame for feeling the way we feel about certain things, and this is something that we hold. Using this pathway, surrendering those feelings simply by acknowledging that they were present within me gave me a sense of peace. It also gave me permission not to be in control, and a realisation that I could experience this shadow aspect without causing any harm to anyone else.

I think as human beings, we have an idea of what a “good” person should or should not think or do and when we have emotions that conflict with this, it becomes difficult to deal with because we feel like it makes us a bad person and it is shameful. Through this pathway, I felt like I was learning all over again to be responsible for everything I was feeling and to really own it. It is difficult to own your Ego and overcome shadow feelings. Sometimes we feel bitterness, resentment, irritation, anger, impatience, envy, rejection, sadness, misery but we think we can not feel it fully because it has an impact on the people around us. Sure, people may notice that you are not yourself, but you can not harm them with what you are feeling. You only harm yourself by not honestly facing what is there.

This pathway about designing and training is about living honestly and understanding the contrast that the shadow aspects of yourself allow you to see. By avoiding the shadow, there is a clear message that these are emotions you do not want to feel. This resistance is also a resistance to allowing the Divine to shape you. It contradicts acceptance and surrender to all things that are bestowed on you, regardless of how it all feels to you.

By knowing what you don’t want, ultimately you understand what you do want. I felt like the counter emotion to all these shadow aspects I was discovering is Love. When I asked myself, “How do I want to redesign my life?” the answer is with Love. To work through your shadows, you need Love. To ensure your reality feels good to you, you need Love. To surrender, you need Love.

The pathway is about continuous evolution and the way Creator changes us over time, and in our darkest moments we forget that even that is out of Love. This whole process of being human with all it’s intricacies is made easier with Love.

I remember how it used to be before I came to this path. I always used to think “Why me?” when I recalled all the moments of darkness, all the painful experiences, all the suffering I felt I had to go through. It all makes perfect sense though when I think about it because I needed to go through all that to be here doing this. You never grasp it at the time, but there are some experiences that are absolutely necessary as without them, you can not appreciate the fullness of your gifts here on Earth.

Finally, for me this pathway was very much about getting out of my own way and almost disappearing to allow the life force to work on moulding me. The trouble with the human mind is that it always has an opinion on what is happening! This pathway has taught me neutrality in it’s purest sense and given me a sense of curiosity. It taught me that I can set an intention and ask for something and it will be received. However, the way I receive it and the timing are not things I have any control over. It allowed me to pose the question, “What happens if I do nothing?” and I was finding clear guidance and signs and synchronicities as a result. It gave me confirmation that there are signs, and the path is lit up, but we are so caught up in trying to control and mould our own lives that we forget that there is a bigger picture. This higher plan will play out regardless of whether we do or we don’t.

From this, I took away something very important and that is the feeling of peace that comes with accepting the good and the bad and being happy with all emotions. Although we may not entirely be convinced that what happens to us is for the best, if we can see that it isn’t the end point and take the lessons that it brings, it gives us peace. Where my Ego would say that’s passive, it makes sense to just drop it and get out of my own way by saying, “Yes ok – thank you because I know this is leading me somewhere.” The critical learning is that in that moment of GRRRR – it isn’t the end point yet your ego will make you feel like it is. Continuous motion, continuous learning and continuous evolution. If you grasp this, life becomes something very different and the joy comes back. It is, in itself, a way of connecting and staying connected through the pain.

When you reject a situation, you become separated and disconnected from Source and it feels that there is no help and support. Why would Creator do this to you? As Rumi said, “The cure is in the pain.” In actual fact, it is an opportunity for you to accept and be the closest that you can be to Creator. Those painful emotions are a way of bringing you closer to the Truth but it is only through facing those shadows that we get there.

The pathway recommends that we get a feel for the design of our lives even if all the steps are not clear yet. It also suggests that we look at what’s going on inside us with love and discipline to clear and dissolve. It shows us that there isn’t an end point. Nothing is good and nothing is bad. It is all purely experience that shapes us.

It may not make sense at the time, but it will one day. For me, it is stepping back and allowing these experiences to support personal perfection, learning and growth. It is not judging the feelings and experiences and it is understanding that Love changes and moulds everything.

Energy Updates

Energy Update 17th April, 2018

What a build up to the New Moon, eh? Mercury has finally gone direct although things are slow this week energy wise. More time for integration.

I don’t know how you’re feeling, but the build up was so intense that I feel it hasn’t fully set in and feels like an anti-climax! Last weeks energy was draining, but there was air of excitement.

This week, I’m feeling a serious edge to the energy. It’s time for us to sit with that seriousness and for those of us that find it difficult to take things seriously, and I mean me, that is really something to contend with.

It’s reflective of the inner battles that we are facing and this week, the energy is showing us exactly what it is that we are fighting. It’s also bringing up where the conflicts and paradoxes lie in our belief systems. It’s deep and intense work, and I feel that we’ve had a break from working on ourselves. It feels like although there is a need to go back in, there is avoidance.

The biggest battle is with the unknown parts of us that are now starting to rise to the surface. What is it that you want to find in yourself that you feel you have been lacking in? This question is being answered with the energy this week, and yes it is pushing us to sit with it.

On a personal level, I’m back to needing solitude to just with myself and facing the shadows. On one level it doesn’t feel like it’s time. On another level, it feels like there is nothing to do except just sit with whatever is coming up..

In the background, there is a fire burning but it’s a slow burn. At this time, we are being required to use the energies of all the Elements – Fire, Air, Water, Earth and I feel that we are learning what our unique balance of these energies are. We are starting to come to an understanding of what we need to draw from these elements to make up our unique signature.

The pot is being stirred, slowly. An earthenware pot, heated by a wood fire, full of water, releasing magical vapours. We don’t know what will be left. We’re just trying to keep it all in balance before we are shown what’s on the horizon.

The magic of the New Moon is creation and I do sense that once we’ve worked out just what it is that we want, it will manifest. The trick is working through being boiled at the same time as sensing what it is we want.

One thing is very clear though and this is the sureness of knowing what we do not want. This provides us with contrast and so take that as a helpful sign. If it is not serving you, it needs to go and there is now space to release and let go.

It’s an odd energy and in Ascension terms, it feels like another transitional phase where adjustment is required. We are losing more and more of what we thought we were and this can be challenging when we live in world that requires identity. Particularly more so when we have a mind that needs to make sense of it all.

Feel your way through this phase. It may feel more and more pressured, but just as the diamond, the compression will make you shine.

If you need any help and support, or feel like you’re being squeezed, please do give me a call if I can assist.

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 10-Al-Muqtadir – Embodying Power in Action

This is an interesting pathway and it found me on a day where I received some very deep and sincere messages of thanks and praise from clients. I’d read this pathway in the morning, and simply it’s reading was enough to echo within me when I received the messages. I was reminded of the Tao Te Ching where Lao Tzu says, “Once the work is done, it is forgotten.” And the significance of remaining humble in the face of praise.

This pathway talks of the role of the spiritual guide, and also the idea of being unassuming with the use of our power. It first explains through a story that spiritual guides sort of come in, use their power to help a situation and then leave as quickly as they entered the picture not stopping for thanks. I loved this analogy because it resonated very deeply for me. I love this way of working because it allows me not to get distracted by what people think – whether it’s good or it’s bad makes no difference. You go in, do the work, get out and move on the next person. Best way really to stop your ego getting in the way of the work.

The pathway then talks about the Author’s experience of someone who was a great example of this unassuming power. The person in question, “expresses an example of divine power in action, without spotlight or publicity.” This was a very learned and spiritual man that he talks about, and by speaking to him you would never know it. He came across as just a regular guy. I love this because that’s how personal spirituality is and maintaining it this way for me is inspiring.

When you do “Spiritual” work I think there is almost a stereotype of what a “spiritual” person should be like. If you know me, you know I don’t go in for all that claptrap because I think firstly that you should be yourself (warts and all) and secondly, it’s such a personal thing! I think it’s very easy to make assumptions about what a person should eat, pray, live like in this field of work, but at the end of the day, we are all human. And the more human you are, the more it matters in this work. It’s one of the reasons I veer away from spiritual communities as such because I believe in being peers and not in a hierarchy.

I started thinking about the role of the Teacher or Guide in all of this. After all, that’s sort of how I see myself although I’m not entirely comfortable with the labels and the titles. I’ve come across many teachers and guides. Some good, some bad – My view is that it is all experience where at the time I did judge it this way. I wrote a piece a while back on the importance of taking what resonates with you rather than allowing yourself to be led on a merry dance by a guru. I tread cautiously in this field and feel like I’m exposing vulnerability in saying this to you, but to acknowledge you have influence is humbling and to be honest, overwhelming.  I remember when I first started writing this blog and I had no idea who was reading it. I did it purely for myself and even now when I write, it is purely for myself but I’m conscious that you take in what I say which is why it comes with the health warning! You’re not going to agree with everything and that’s cool. We may outgrow each other and that’s cool.

HOWEVER! You know when someone points a camera at you and says, “just act natural”…? Well, I liken my experience to this. I am aware now that people are reading and that really pushes me to remain in authenticity and I think that’s a good thing. I could quite easily spout shit about how perfect I am and how my life is so wonderful, but it isn’t about that. As well as being a teacher, I am also a student of life. Sure I have life credibility and wisdom, but I still have so much to learn and I am still finding my voice.

I think when you first get in to this kind of work, you feel as if you are sacrificing a great deal in order to “save humanity”. I certainly used to feel this way, but this is all ego based and sort of playing the martyr and wanting recognition for the work. When you’ve been doing this work for a while, you begin to understand that it really isn’t about the appreiciation or the praise. It isn’t about being validated in this way. Neither is it about the criticism or fear of being different. Those are all things that are external to you and take away from the real reason why you do what you do.

The reason why I do this work is because it is an expression of the beautiful gifts our Creator has bestowed upon me. I feel that the situations I’ve experienced were placed in my path and the choices I made led naturally to this work. The beautiful by product of expression is the ability to help people simply by that gift flowing through me. It all sounds so perfect and wonderful, right?

Of course I can say that now! At the end of the day, we are all human and human beings have a need to be needed because it gives us a sense of belonging.

If you’ve come across this by Rumi, then you’ll understand perfectly.

“Knock, And He’ll open the door
Vanish, And He’ll make you shine like the sun
Fall, And He’ll raise you to the heavens
Become nothing, And He’ll turn you into everything.”

Essentially, for me this pathway is about surrendering your ego. I think this can be challenging sometimes because the human in us really wants to take credit for the feats that we’ve accomplished. That’s ok and we need to be aware when this is happening. When all is said and done, we are an expression of the Divine energy. It moves through us and it is surely through it’s grace that we are able to influence positive change in others. It is this energy that is expressing through us and our work. It’s beautiful but being the flawed humans we are, we have a tendency to get in our own way when it comes simply allowing it to flow. There’s ego’s to battle, and fear to overcome, and all sorts of healing interspersed between the moments of pure magic. It would be boring if it wasn’t this way!

This growth comes in the form of our nature, our character, our actions, our words, our behaviour. The way we carry ourselves is all important, and humility is sacred. It isn’t about playing small, because you have the greatest force moving through you. It’s recognising it’s the force and your ego has an influence on how you use the power you’ve been given. I learnt this early on in my career and with power comes responsibility. And we can only be responsible for ourselves.

They say empty cages rattle the loudest. I remember in the early days of running my business, I was at a mind, body, spirit fair. I’d just qualified as a Reiki practitioner and was there talking to people about Reiki. I love meeting and chatting to new people so I was going round talking to the other stall holders, as you do.

I met this woman on a stand who was a healer and Reiki Master. Having recently qualified and being as enthusiastic about energy healing as I am, I could feel my hands tingling. So I said to her, “My hands are starting to tingle.” Her response was one that made me realise the importance of humility early on in my career.

She said, “Yes. It’s because I’m extremely powerful.”

Erm…right. That floored me and I didn’t really know what to do with it. All I knew was that it made me feel uncomfortable and awkward, and didn’t leave me better than it found me. I’m sure she was powerful, but I remembered this incident when reading through this pathway. The Power isn’t something that belongs to us, and so is never taken for granted. It’s a blessing that it flows through us. It isn’t something that needs to be announced to others. It isn’t something to be proven or imposed upon others. It resides in all of us. It makes me uncomfortable to a degree when attention is drawn to it. Balancing this acknowledgement of what you’re capable of with and surrendering your ego is where it’s at for me. In Sufism it is called Nafs, and this is the first battle.

“When we find ourselves in situations involving healing or another outward, obvious use of power, others can project the archetype of hero or heroine on to us. If we accept this, it is a big step towards forgetfulness.”

It isn’t that we are not accepting of praise. It is more the acknowledgement that we would not have this were it not for the grace of God. Regardless of whether it is praise or criticism we receive, it should not affect us. On a personal level, I find it really challenging when people are singing my praises because from a young age I was always taught that all praise is to the Divine. That, and I struggled with self-worth for a long time and so of course that’s a comfortable idea to me!

As we work on self-worth and acknowledgement of who we are and the gifts we bring with us to this world, we learn to accept praise so that we know our value and our contribution. We surrender our ego and remain in gratitude that this power has been bestowed upon us. We humble ourselves in that we recognise that we will always be learning how to use it. We work on healing ourselves so that we can be the purest channel for that beautiful energy and we focus on our intention simply being the expression of our true selves for the highest benefit of all we encounter, including ourselves.

When I teach, I make it really clear that we as healers are not doing anything at all. We are simply observing the power at work through intention. The intention is always for the highest benefit of the person we are working with. It has nothing to do with us. We place our trust in the energy, in Source and know that the power of this is greater than anything we can do as human beings or even spiritual beings.

I love this pathway as it serves as a reminder that “We are as the flute and the Music in us comes from Thee.” Rumi, again!

Energy Updates

Energy Update 10th April, 2018

I told you it was going to get messy! We are in the release phase of this latest energy shift and many of us are feeling weighed down by this energy. There is a feeling of heaviness in all things, especially on a physical level. It feels like we are in a deep deep slumber. You know that sort of sleep that is so sweet and comfortable, it’s cosy and it’s warm and there’s a reluctance to want to get up.

So many that I’ve spoken to over the last week or so have said how they haven’t slept this well since they were teenagers. There is an air of being almost drugged by this energy, and a waiting for it to wear off but instead of a comedown, I feel like there is about to be a burst.

Stagnation is one of the themes, and a reluctance to wake up because although the world is still the same, you’ve changed. You’re changing. You’re expanding and you’re growing. There’s a sense of loss that is experienced from losing your old patterns and your old identity. It feels like disorientation and so sleep feels like a good solution.

The air is thick and heavy around us. A feeling of pressure that’s holding us down. This in itself causes resistance when we try and move. Stay still and let it pass. It’s almost as if we are in the vortex in the eye of the storm. Spinning in tiny tiny circles.

This time feels ripe to practice keeping our vision in tact. With so much swirling, it’s as if we can not even see where we are going, but there is a deep sense of knowing that we are heading towards something new and exciting. Always this way, just riding this heavy storm feels quite burdensome.

There are more questions than answers, and my sense is that the new moon will be the beginning of a phase of those answers emerging for us all. We don’t have long to wait and so keep riding it out. Keep sleeping and resting. It isn’t time yet, but don’t imagine that the time won’t ever come. We are in the midst of something brewing. It feels unfamiliar and uncomfortable but this too shall pass.

It’s ok to be in hibernation a while longer while this wave works it’s way through. There’ll be bursts of progress, and then back to hibernation I feel and that’s ok. The most important thing is that you honour your body, mind and soul by giving in to what it needs. If that’s simply to rest, then do that.

Take care, and if I can be of assistance to you, get in touch.

Love Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart, Healing

Pathway 9 – Al-Qadir – Holding the Center

So some of you may be aware that I’ve started writing regularly on the Ascension energies and as I’m beginning to really commit to living that experience and sharing what I’m finding, these pathways seem to be another way in which the road is being lit up for me. Holding the Center for me is about how I hold my own energy whilst feeling everything inside and outside of me. It’s about knowing that there is a constant for me and that constant is Creator.

As humanity evolves, we experience changes. We are connected to everything, and everything is connected to us. As the world changes, we are required to strengthen from the inside out in order to play our part in supporting the evolution of this great planet that we are on.

Ascension, the way I see it, is the growth and purification of your soul. All souls are experiencing growth and purification in this physical realm. This comes to us as life experiences, emotions and connectedness. We are all at different points on the same trajectory and as our awareness grows, we expand. We become aware of this energy that we are and we begin to take responsibility to consciously experience this expansion, whatever it brings. We know that we are more than just a body. We are a soul travelling, experiencing this reality physically in order to grow, learn and purify. As we awaken and become more aware, this process is one that we willingly and deliberately undertake. We become conscious of what is happening and become curious as to how. We don’t begrudge feeling it because we know that it is part of our spiritual path. There’s millions of people across the planet all experiencing similar themes and evolutions and so for me, it confirms that we are connected and that collectively we are moving through the different energetic stages required for our transition in to the next life.

My belief is that the soul has lived for eons before the physical body has. It has it’s own route map and contains the blueprint for this physical life. This connection with your own soul allows you draw down the information you need for this physical realm. Some of it we’re aware of and some of it we are not. We have our own individual blueprint, but we also have the greater blueprint which is for the collective. This is why when we are ascending, we will be dealing with our own issues as well as dealing with collective issues. I could write a whole book on this so bear with. If you are interested, there’s a few people I can recommend that you follow. Vaz Sriharan and Amanda Lorence are the key people I follow because they are genuine, authentic and what they say resonates. Find who feels right for you.

I’m really starting to feel a real connection and synchronicity between choosing to explore these pathways and the Ascension energies that I am experiencing. It feels that every time I reach for a pathway, it corresponds with what I’m feeling energy wise with this collective ascension as well as on a personal level. It’s curious, and interesting and I wonder if it will always be this way or whether it is coincidental. I do believe that there are no coincidences though, so only time will tell. It all seems to be fitting really well together for the moment, so it’ll be interesting to see where this goes!

Moving in to this pathway, it talks about “power” and this power is different from life force energy in that it “actively changes manifested reality.” Again, I feel great resonance and power with this because it is active exploration of the pathways that is supporting my evolution on a very practical level. This isn’t something I am doing necessarily on purpose. Creator is at work in all things and when you see everything as a manifestation of Creator at work, it allows you to move with the flow and with more ease of action. You feel as if you are being directed towards your path and you feel lightness and speed when you act. Maybe that’s Divine inspiration. All I know is that the actions that are Destiny Driven feel effortless. The heaviness is not felt so much with these actions and so this creates joy.

It’s funny because I still stand by what I’ve said about not really knowing where this is all going. None of that even matters. I do what feels good for me to do and it leads me to the next thing. When I listen, I am guided and very much driven deeper in to this path. It is the joy of exploration rather than having any expectation of any outcomes. This is a very different experience to the resistance from the past. I feel as if I am beginning to understand what it’s all about and the key is the learning. Yes, sometimes you do need to move through the heaviness, but even that is a gift from Creator. You learn to feel the difference between that Power at work your own forging of the path. It’s just a knowing and a drive to do something, even when you feel terrified. There’s a power that’s taking you through it, pulling you through.

As you read the pathway, it tells the story of a Dervish who was out one day observing nature and could see how Creator provides for each living creature. He resolves to go home and wait because surely the Creator will provide. This waiting comes to nothing, and he realises that it is action that activates the power of Creator to provide.

This ties in to this idea of expectations. We have an expectation or a feeling, and then it doesn’t transpire. Action is the key ingredient to being able to see this power in action. The same applies to manifesting in the physical form. Without action, there is no direction. There is no activation of this Power energy. This is something that I am learning in so many ways. My own healing sessions have brought up this energy strongly, and everything that I am learning and doing reinforces this idea of acting on what feels right rather than waiting for something to be revealed.

Expectation can be challenging as it takes us out of the learning and in to an idea of how something may appear to us. As we know, nothing in life is like this and so when we focus on wholeheartedly committing to the action, without any expectation of where it will lead, we suddenly open up this space of acceptance of all possible outcomes. There’s something quite magical about that revelation for me. It is about doing for the sake of doing, for the love of doing and for the joy of doing. There is no transaction here as there is no expectation. This has it’s own rewards and as you experience this pathway you’ll learn that there is so much to be gained from this realisation.

The human mind will always have an attachment to outcome and sees everything as transaction or exchange. The trick is to focus on the joy and the love of what we do with no expectation. That is how we direct the powerful force and see it at work for us.

“In all cases, this pathway helps us to remember that it is really the One Being working through us that accomplishes what needs to be done.”

Energy Updates

Energy Update 2nd April 2018

It’s about to get messy again! Not just yet though. The last couple of weeks have been mega intense for a lot of us. Plenty of churning out of the old and making space for the new. April brings with it excitement and fortitude, but not without a fight.

The beginning of this week is calmer in the etheric realms. I believe we have a rest and reconfiguration period this week, so take the rest and enjoy it while you can. This is a period of integration for some of us. For others, it is a holding space while we work it all out. We find ourselves wanting to do so much and the ideas are really starting to ping, but physically we’re too wiped to move forwards. Patience is definitely something that I’m working with! Also the idea of getting the perfect balance of allowing it to unfold and pushing for what you want. It has been immensely tiring, and to try and push while the energy is this dense is demanding and challenging. Giving birth almost, and knowing that the contractions come in waves to allow us to gather strength and momentum.

It is Spring. Rebirth. New Beginnings. The energy is so strong around those themes, but let’s not forget ourselves and the care that we need during these processes. Physically we are craving food and water to keep our strength up. Mentally and emotionally we are seeking comfort, encouragement and reassurance that everything is going to be ok. The last couple of weeks have shown us what it truly means to be vulnerable. This in itself is agreeable and disagreeable depending on where you are in your journey. It is a difficult thing to accept vulnerability. On a personal level, I’m finding that committing to this journey and to this life and sharing what I’m experiencing to help others to grow is what makes me feel vulnerable. I’m trying not to hide from it, but sometimes it can’t be helped.

The Earth energy is stronger than anything at the moment. We feel heavy and for me it is an indication that being on Earth is perhaps the thing that I need to work mostly with. It’s a strange sensation for me. I’ve always found the energy of other dimensions easier to tap in to and work with so I’m on a massive learning curve just dealing with this. I’m really feeling Earth energy, and I’m embracing it rather than running from me so that in itself is giving me my own challenges. Those of you that feel like you’ve always wanted to “go home” without being able to explain where home is will relate to this. I’m being called to write more on this and will do in due course.

You may have noticed that you are changing. You are no longer tolerating what you used to. You are more focused on what’s bringing you what you deserve. With all the changes comes a sense of loss and my sense is over the next couple of weeks, this is what we’ll be dealing with.

It feels like a huge void has opened up for some of us and for others, they know the changes are leading up to this same space. It is intense and it is interesting. There’s a feeling of losing touch with reality, of losing touch with people. Ironically, also a sense of losing touch with our actual lives here on here. It’s as if we have to leave and come back to things. More and more out of body experiences, but feeling these while we are in our actual bodies.

Fear is a theme that we are all working with ongoing.Fear is down to perceived consequences. When we shed our skin and transition to an improved version of ourselves, our main concern is how the world perceives us. Even those of us who say we don’t give a shit what the world thinks still have some consideration of this. We may choose not to care, but experiences that test this belief are what is coming up over the next few weeks.

At the moment, it feels like we are standing still. I think the real movement won’t be arriving until May but this energy feels like it is the build up. I’ve said this before but it feels like the big bad bassline drop is coming in May. Right now, we just need to get used to the volume and the beat being what it is.

The beat is slow this week. Physically, we are tired! There has been such an influx of new energies and we are being required to work in a different way. I can’t articulate this in the way that I’d like to as I’m only just beginning to receive this information. I feel it will get clearer, and when it does I can share more with you.

Recalibration and preparedness for what is to come. The rumble in the jungle. Seeing your true nature. Understanding solitude and independence and balancing with fair exchange and interdependence. It’s all about to get messy again so hold tight.

For this week though, rest and relax. Enjoy it before we’re shaken up again!

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99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 8: Sacred Surprise

Pathway 8 – Al-Awwal – Sacred Surprise

 

So I pick up this series again, and as the pathways always surprise me and give me what’s relevant, it’s no surprise that the book opened me up to this pathway. The pathway is all about being open to the unexpected, and it is fitting for me at this time.

You’ll have noticed quite a long breather between pathways and that isn’t for lack of trying. I’ve been thinking about delving in and writing quite a lot, but the timing for picking it up again just hasn’t felt right, up until now. Spring Equinox has helped. Bringing in the light and I feel like I’m slowly waking up and getting ready to burst in to action! It has been an intense period of hibernation and hermitting!

The words that hit me when I read the pathway was, “You thought you were going in one direction and toward a specific goal, but a mysterious doorway has appeared that seems to lead in a new direction.” This made me think…

It’s interesting this, especially for me. I’ve never really known what I wanted until the moment it came upon me. I have vague notions of a future that includes a few things that I can think of, but if you asked me the question, “What is it that you want?” I would respond with something as general as World Peace. (I do want that!) If you asked me what I wanted for my own life though, I’d have trouble articulating this to you. I don’t know unless I can feel it, or it comes to me in a vision and it feels like I’m being pulled to pursue it. The not knowing helps with the element of surprise!

There are some things I know and feel absolutely certain about. My work – I know I’m doing what I’m meant to be doing although even that is bringing me unexpected surprises and veering off in different directions. My purpose – I know why I’m doing what I’m doing and I’m feeling more and more connected with a sense of belonging to this world in a way I’ve not felt before. My contribution here on this planet – I know what I am putting in to the great vortex, and the sacred surprise on some levels is showing me all that I’ve put in coming in to fruition. I have no idea what it will produce, and so this pathway leads me to just enjoy the element of surprise.

I’ve never been one for planning. I think I may have mentioned this in a previous blog. I’ve managed to reluctantly insert some semblance of structure in to my day, but I’m a fly by night, flaky, free spirit and by the way, I see that as something to be celebrated. Rules, structure, discipline – even the words send a shudder down my spine! It took me the first two years of being self-employed to get my energy out of that structure, and lo and behold, the Universe is taking me back there, surprisingly!

I’ve had a battle with structure and organisation for most of my life. I know when I’m driven by feeling something is absolutely right, it will get accomplished. I work quickly and it’s done. There’s other things that I know I avoid for months, and they take me an hour to do. It’s the wonder of the Universe, and it’s the power of motivation. There’s an energy that drives you in a certain direction, and the pull of it is difficult to resist. It may lead you to somewhere unexpected. It’s what you do when you get there that matters and how you see it. This is what I’m about to delve in to.

I don’t have any real plan which may come as a bit of a shock. I’ve surprised myself at getting this far in life without a plan. I’m not even sure if I have a direction. Being an “in the moment” kind of person, I go with the flow but then get frustrated because there’s little progress to be seen.

Life is nebulous at the best of times, and this pathway offers an inspired way of approaching the unexpected. To see it as a redirection of focus and above all, to understand that this unexpected doorway is dragging you to the next place. You can go willingly, or you can go kicking and screaming. There’s always a choice!

I like to think I go willingly, but meditating on this pathway I couldn’t help but laugh at myself because I know that I resist change. Change can be difficult for all of us. I feel like I’ve undertaken a massive transformation over the winter months, and for me seeing whatever comes and going with whatever I am inspired to do feels like the best way forward. I am working on not holding any expectations, and for me this pathway is an opening to being able to see and read synchronicities, as well as accept them. It’s following through with action – that’s the kicker!

For the logical and rational, it is difficult to follow the signs. If you’re mind brain orientated, it’s sheer foolishness to live by the breadcrumb trail. This is life we are talking about, and to put faith to the test, what better way is there than to follow the signs? It’s one way of doing it, and a way that’s as plausible as any other suggestion for how you live your life. So I decided to put this to the test and see everything that happens over the course of a week as a pleasant surprise or a redirection of focus. As the book says, “Suddenly, like Alice in Wonderland, you are in an entirely different Universe.” Interestingly, I re-read the pathway after I wrote those words, and the sentence after it says, “Or, perhaps through sudden inspiration you feel called upon to initiate some process or to start a project totally unlike anything you have done before.”

Now although I kind of live my life like this, I’ve not really done it on purpose before and so this will be an interesting experiment!

My first unexpected was finding a video testimonial for my meditation course and so I shared it. I found myself starting a new project to rewrite and relaunch the course. Hmm…ok so that’s not mindblowing but what happened over the next couple of days really was.

It was as if I was waiting for the fog to lift. I know for the last couple of months I have been hiding behind the clouds just doing what’s necessary and looking for something that felt just right. That’s one of the reasons I wanted to pick up on these pathways again because they assist my growth and help me to explore my understanding of life and the Universe.

I meditated on this pathway. I took it with no expectations and just went with what I felt like was the right thing to do. I noticed certain words in conversations that linked to things I had seen or taken notice of earlier. For example, I was on a FaceTime call to my dear friend Tomasz in Poland and he told me “Pisces season is over honey and you have to stop being a hermit now. It’s time for action!” In front of me in my journal, I had written the exact same word – Action. I took this as a signal that it was time, but then I went to sleep accomplishing nothing that day.

I woke up a little more energised the next day, and found myself ordering a planner. How very unlike me? Go with it, Hafsa. I meditated on the pathway again, and I found myself moving operations to my desk. My habit is to get all snug and cosy on the sofa with my laptop when I work, which of course means that I am surrounded by distractions and although some stuff gets done, it’s not the most productive place to work!

The next day I found myself out and about, and rather than looking at my desk, I made a Green Tea, topped up my water bottle and found myself at my desk writing. “I have arrived!” I thought. The desk has been ready for months, and rarely gets used so I freaked myself out a little. Sitting here working for some reason feels different – different good though.

Sacred Surprise indeed! Trusting that you’ll move when the time and energy feels right is a beautiful thing. Actually  moving and doing that thing feels amazing because it is a follow through and a release of resistance. At least that is how it feels for me.

The flip side of this is understanding that all that procrastination, all that resistance is there for a reason. Sometimes, sacred surprise comes in a way that feels like it is literally the end of the world. When these things happen, it’s much harder to keep that same perspective.

As hard as it is to believe, even the shitty experiences are for our highest benefit. Without them, we wouldn’t be led to the good places. I can see this and an essential part of the pathway for me is this idea of taking the good with the bad. Seeing everything as merely experience for your highest benefit is a good way of looking at things. It’s quite a challenge when it’s falling apart, but we always come through it and we are always where we are meant to be.

What if the Universe is always leading you and guiding you? Of course it is but how often do we take that seriously. It’s easy to get caught up in life. I believe in this idea, and I think although I live, work and teach this – being human and having a mind gets in the way. I think it’s part of self-mastery and I’m gutted to think that for the  most part, I’ve missed the signs and signals but fate is such – it had to be that way. My lesson with this pathway is definitely to always be reminding myself that the signs are there – I just need to look and follow through.

To surrender in order to be guided is a challenging aspect of self-mastery and one that I know I am always working on. We are human at the end of the day, and we will forget and slip in and out of awareness.

The most important thing for me though, and I wish this for all of you too, is that we find wonder and magic in Sacred Surprises, knowing that all the dots are joining up even when we can’t see them!

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Energy Updates

Energy Update Spring Equinox 2018

Well…it feels like we are coming through the other side of this major energy shift with things feeling a little brighter and a little clearer.

The last week or so has been intense. The theme in the healing room has been “What are you over and done with for good?” A lot of what has been coming up for us as a collective is noticing what we have allowed. As we absorb more energy in light form, it illuminates or magnifies what needs to be cleared within us. We notice where we have been harsh on ourselves. We notice where we have allowed others to walk all over us. We realise it needs to stop. We realise that we are responsible.

The big theme over the last month or so and continuing onwards is “Responsibility” and realising that we hold the keys to our own happiness (or unhappiness). In previous times, the focus would be on the positive, but it is time to start looking at the negative and what it tells us. I know that sounds counter-intuitive but it feels important right now to look at what’s within us – all of it. Positive and negative are a continuum and imply judgement. It is our own judgements that we are working with at this time.

The heart is like a mirror and if people are rubbing us up the wrong way, it is only showing us what we have inside that needs to be cleared. There is more and more energy blasting in, and it is relentless. It has been bombardment on all levels, strengthening us from the inside out. Yes it can feel pretty shitty, but if you can think of it as expansion, it helps! The Universe has a sense of humour – there’s no reason why we can’t either.

The start stop energy of the last couple of months seems to be settling down a lot more now. Another thing that is noticeable is that we can get so caught up in doing the “inner work” and analysing it to death that there seems no time to live.

Things feel like they’ve got very serious, and the release comes when we stop taking everything so seriously. Life is a game to be played. We’re always winning and if we’re not winning, we’re learning and growing. There’s always time for silliness and laughter because without that, there’s no relief or respite. This process is happening to us, and it will keep happening. Finding ways to enjoy it is a bonus, and it makes it a lot easier.

Spring brings with it renewal, nourishment and fulfillment and I see these as themes going forward. Things are start to feel fresh and sparkly. Although there is still work to do, I feel the next week or so things will slow right down as we integrate the lessons of this latest wave.

So wherever you are, whatever you’re doing – make time for some silliness today. Laugh. Release.

Just for today, enjoy everything for what it is. You are here!

Energy Updates

Energy Update 13th March, 2018

It’s been an interesting week in the etheric realms…

On Friday, we were hit with a really interesting wave of energy that knocked a lot of us out in a number of different ways. For some, it was way too much and sent us straight to bed. Know that leading up to new moon on the 17th March, expect a rocky ride. This is endings and beginnings on a colossal scale, and for many it has involved a hell of a lot of shedding away of the old.

It really is time to herald the new as we come in to a new wave of awareness. For those on the ascension path, know that this is a time for deep and intense healing. You’ll be feeling old wounds coming to surface. You may even notice those old flames and situations visiting you one last time giving you the opportunity to choose what you carry forward.

One of the themes of this new moon is being able to see the big picture. Remember where you are now is what you have manifested. I am where I am and I am happy with where I am. My sense is that we are heading in to being able to see the contrast and discontentment at the same time having gratitude for what has come as a result. It is an interesting perspective.

Certainly for me, the big energy wave last Friday has taken me in to a real bird’s eye perspective of life and the universe. When that big wave hit, I was inside my body and outside of it all at the same time.

We can be in our past, our present and our future all at the same time. My sense is the big picture stuff will help us to see how we have created what we have and what we need to do to create what we want. It is a great time for manifesting if you can keep hold of yourself.

We are likely to feel we are being taken off track when the energy feels this strong. Remember that the Universe is pulling you to wherever you need to be. Try not not resist it, even if it brings old wounds. Know that these will heal in time.

These energy changes are teaching us mastery over our own being. The Universe is showing us that we each have our unique contribution to make. We each have our own path and journey to travel and we each have our wounds to heal.

Whatever it takes, allow it to unfold is the message of this energy update. Nothing makes sense right now and coming up to New Moon it won’t. Don’t worry if you don’t know what you want to manifest. Simply ask for the feelings that you want to have manifest for you.

It is a really odd time and I’ve never experienced anything like this. It is as if we are starting to become familiar with uncertainty as our only constant and the Universe is teaching us to move with it. It matters not if we resist or allow really. At the end of the day, if we believe we want change then this becomes the intention. The intention alone set with sincerity is enough to spark the changes that lead you to where you want to be.

Hold on tight!

Remember if you need healing to help you with your clearing, you can book in an appointment with me. I am starting to work more and more with people on the ascension path and I would love to work with you.