Healing

Ascension Energy Update 8th October 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. There are a couple of major themes that we are working with at the moment and the energies feel extremely stagnant. It isn’t non-movement per se. It’s more that there is a depth to the energies that are coming in that takes us to places that we might not want to go. It’s more that we are avoiding going there.

The Heart Chakra takes centre stage within these energies. This has certainly been one of the biggest themes in the healing room this week. Hearts are opening. Hearts are clearing. Hearts are holding. Hearts are hiding.

Alongside the depth comes the intensity of the energy. It feels as if we are having to stare down the barrel of the gun for a very long time. There’s tension in the air. There’s paralysis. There’s the need to reassure ourselves using the mask of love and light.

Beneath all of this are real vulnerabilities that are needing to come to light and the sooner we look at these, the sooner we can begin making our way through what’s being manifested as a result.

Spring is traditionally the time for a clear out but these Autumn energies are pushing the need to cleanse and heal. The deepest of deep wounds will surface and the heart wants to hold and pour out all at the same time.

We are being asked to face things and sometimes to face things we have to look them dead in the eye. It takes a while before we get to that place though but October’s energies feel like they’re taking us there.

Alongside the heart chakra cleanse, the other big theme that we’re working with is overcoming the distraction. There is a pull inwards and a need to focus on ourselves and our own direction. To do this, we have to be able to see our own light. Others may point it out, but until we see it in ourselves, we are unable to access the power that it affords us.

They say you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink. Look at where you are being led and make use of what’s there so you begin to drink it all in. We can have everything in the world and we know what it’s all worth. It’s only when we begin using it that we begin extracting value from it.

This is what we are being asked to look at. What have we got? How are we using it? And can we use it in a different way so that we can really begin to take advantage of its value?

Remember everything you have has been given to you for a reason. It’s up to you to make the most of it.

Until next time,

Love Hafsa xx

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 15th July, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. Apologies folks but I’ve had a lot going on recently that has taken me away from work. All in a good way, of course. It’s time to get back to work and it feels a bit rusty!

What’s going on with the energies? Well the last couple of weeks there’s been a sense of renewal energies coming through. A strong reassuring energy of everything being ok.

One of the deepest paradoxes with these energies is that on the one hand we get this bouncy, optimistic sense of all good things being on the horizon yet at the same time, this stands opposing an almost disbelief of what’s actually possible. Certainly for me on a personal level, it has been a time of major breakthroughs.

Post Eclipse and between now and the full moon tomorrow the energies are intense. There is a spiralling energy which feels like it could go either way and it definitely is up to us which way this energy takes us.

The Eclipse did that thing where we plummet in to the depths of anguish and sorrow. When we’re in these moments, the contrast is so start that it’s hard to regain composure and understand that the contrast exists for a reason. There is nothing to be afraid of.

For most of us, we are starting to re-learn the cycle of life from a place where it is non-threatening. Empaths have a unique journey when it comes to navigating planet Earth and for most, the defenses they create and the need to protect themselves from this world are kind of the default.

As we enter New Earth and as we deepen our sense of commitment to being here, we understand that although it feels like shit at time, although life is a mixture of suffering and joy, although it feels like an ongoing assault on the senses – it is a sensory experience that we are having. It is one that we signed up to and to approach all of it with the intention of simply experiencing it goes a long way towards an acceptance of being here.

The energies feel a lot less turbulent today coming up to the moon and it’s much needed respite. It is the optimum time to re-think goals, plans, commitments. Remember that everything you thought you wanted looks different as we approach 5D Earth. You can see quite clearly that you wanted it because it’s what you thought you should want.

What you really want is something completely different. Remember when you created those “wants” you may still have placed limitations on yourself. When you look at the things that you are striving for as a result, you get to a place where some things just don’t make sense to drive for anymore. And even that’s ok.

We have dropped so much of our old identity that of course it is going to feel confusing. There’s something very distracting about this energy. It’s unsettling and I know on a personal level, up until today I have been doing everything I possibly can to avoid sitting still with it because there is a lot of old wounds being opened up as a result.

We do need to begin facing and embracing the hurt that is still there. One of the realisations that I had this morning was that for as much light that there is within me, there is just as much darkness. Sometimes we create the illusion of light because it’s easier for the world to accept us or it’s easier for us to operate on that level.

Life isn’t about what’s easiest for everyone else or for yourself. It’s about understanding the masks that we create and with this Eclipse energy the masks are falling off. There is a need to breathe, fully, deeply and be ok to be seen taking this breath.

After all, we are human. We have our sorrows, we have our pain, we have our darkness. Most of which we experience behind closed doors because this world is polarised to the light, the positive and our natural survival instinct is to simply pretend that everything is OK.

But it isn’t and actually that’s also OK. Let the energies bring it all to the surface. Allow yourself to see what you were masking over before. Yes, we judge through our own lens and projection but in the space between the eclipses, we are realising that perhaps those “judgements” were accurately placed. Perhaps they weren’t judgements. Perhaps they were intuition. Perhaps you now have the evidence. Perhaps you’re still in denial. Perhaps it was this wanting to always be in the light that caused you to believe it was you that needed healing for making that projection or judgement.

Unfortunately, we can’t just withdraw from life because it’s too painful or confusing. We can take a step back and decide how we’d like to go forward. This is where the power is.

And with this moon, there is power. There is revelation. There is darkness and there are storms.

We’re definitely on the road to somewhere with this. We are changing on the deepest level and it’s beginning to show on the surface. The world may not like it, but the world is going to have to get used to this new level of honesty.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, June 2016

This is your ascension energy update for June. It’s going to be a short update as I’ve just recorded a video so you can watch that instead.

I tuned in and channelled this a few days ago and the video expands on these themes.

Channeled Message: 26/05/2019

Feel the fire as the energy rises and we’re soaring in way that we’ve never done before.

For some, it is terror and fear of plummeting and for others it’s a sweet release and freedom.

These sensations carry the same frequency vibration of determination. Determination not to fall and determination to be free.

Everything is within your grasp and you can hold the illusion that serves you best. Create this. Choose. And then choose again.

We’ve activated the *Labyrinth energy within the collective. (I have asked to be shown more and will post in due course as information is received)

Do you feel it too?

*A labyrinth is an ancient symbol that relates to wholeness. It combines the imagery of the circle and the spiral into a meandering but purposeful path. The Labyrinth represents a journey to our own center and back again out into the world.

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Ascension Energy Update, June 2019
Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 5th May, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. This week we’re on new moon energy and planets in retrograde – Saturn in particular bringing the fire!

What the f*** just happened there? I thought I’d do my update a couple of days earlier because since yesterday, there’s been a remarkably noticeable shift in the energy. That fire though…!

So the energies were relatively calm yesterday up until late afternoon and then it felt like an almighty drop in the signal. Sudden fatigue, ears ringing and the kind of tiredness that just makes you drop. I had to stop what I was doing and take a moment. This hasn’t happened in a good while so I’m curious.

Something is definitely going on. Change feels like it’s on the horizon. Looking around to see what I could find, there’s plenty on Saturn being retrograde and clearing karmic patterns. It was like BOOM!

I went in to meditation to tune in to what’s going on. There definitely feels like we’re going to have to keep balancing and re-balancing through these energies. I’ve read a lot about May bringing all the good stuff but I always think it’s good to know that you might have to go through some shit to get there.

The rest of yesterday became a thunderstorm and a whole host of turbulent emotions. There really is a sense of what’s acceptable to you and what’s not. What do you stand for? Are you going to articulate it? Do you even need to explain yourself?

There’s something pushing us to stand our ground and be a lot more discerning about what we tolerate from others. We can deal with it or we can walk away. I get this mental image of a movie scene – that shot where the heroine is walking away calmly with the massive fireball explosion in the background.

That image captures it all for me yesterday. We don’t know where she’s walking to. All we know is that she’s walking away from it. There’s little softness to this energy and so if you’re not ready for it, it’ll catch you by surprise. I think May is going to be full of surprises.

There’s a sense of being at war with ourselves. My sense is that we’re going to see this reflected in our outer world, in politics and played out on the global stage.

There’s a strength to this energy that’s different though. It isn’t just about blowing things up and walking away. If only life was that simple! There’s a hardiness that can be felt and it comes to strengthen us spiritually, mentally, physically and emotionally. Although there is a harsh finality to it and I think a lot of us will be feeling this, there’s also a sense of it being needed.

Off the back of that, we learn tough love and the toughest love is when we apply it to ourselves. Where we have become too passive, things are about to change. I don’t know about you, but I would much rather make my own changes than have them imposed upon me.

I think the soul searching phase is over and it really is about asking for the Universe to “Bring It On” in the nicest possible way. There’s internal conflict on the one hand we’re being tentative when on the other hand we want to go all guns blazing. I think we all have different approaches and that’s the beauty of it. I’m in the tentative phase personally but that’s changing rapidly. I think the key is discernment and knowing yourself enough to know where your risk level lies. I certainly feel a sense of “All In” and single minded focus.

However you choose to tackle what life throws at you, there isn’t a right or wrong way. It very much depends on you and the experiences that you’ve had. Just don’t be surprised if you find yourself doing a complete 360 in the way that you do things. You might find your hand is forced and it’s only by cracking a nut you get to taste it’s sweet fruit.

Hold on to your hats people and get ready for the ride! It’s time to up-level, upgrade and up the ante.

I don’t know about you but I kinda love when things get disrupted in this way so I’m really excited about all this nut cracking. I feel it’s about time we changed up again. This isn’t going to be subtle. It’s going to be full on and it’s going to be pushy energy. There’s nothing to be afraid of…Game Face on!

Until next time….

Keep vibing high,

Love Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 29th April, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been another relatively calm week but I’d say it’s the calm before the storm and May is going to be a blinder of a month on all fronts.

I feel like we are on the edge of a new era with new timelines being activated. Some have been awaiting New Earth. My sense is that we are in the activational stages with more and more people waking up and challenging the status quo. We’ve seen that clearly in the last couple of weeks with the Extinction Rebellion movement. We’ve seen and heard the voice of a new generation, Greta Thunberg – passionate, strong and determined to make a difference. It’s symbolic of the way that we are beginning to really own ourselves. The New World challenging the old world and a theme that’s also playing out on an individual level.

It’s almost as if I can feel the Universe’s immense cogs turning in the background. Momentum is building leading up to May. I’m not sure if we’ll get the big drop of energy as quickly as we’d like. It feels like we’re being asked to get in to the momentum and master the consistency of our actions.

It has felt a little push and pull under the surface. It’s like you know what your priorities are but you keep getting pulled away in to other things. I certainly feel like we’re being asked to prioritise and stay focused on the one thing that matters with consistency. Where we are being pushed and distracted, it’s up to us to keep pulling our focus back to where we want it to be.

This week’s theme is growth. We’re no longer looking at the outside trying to acquire. We’re building from the inside out. We’re facing the home truths and exercising a new found sense of honesty about what we find. There is a need to go inward. A craving for silence and stillness. A pull back to the inner world.

It feel like the deep reset switch has been activated and we’re just waiting for the re-start to get underway. The level of chaos from last month seems to have enabled us to manage our way in to a different yet faster pace which feels a lot easier than previous times. Time feels fast and slow all at the same time.

Alongside this, we’re really starting to think about what makes us feel centred and full. We’re looking at the outside world realising that is isn’t the source. With this feeling come a need to have full conviction in what you’re trying to see through to action. When our energy matches our words and our actions, that’s when things will start to move. We’re building up that and the consistency that we’re developing is much like a dress rehearsal.

The “old me, new me” theme of last year is being played out again. It’s like we are again demolishing one version of ourselves and transitioning through to another. This new version feels like it needs to be a much more polished version. That rawness needs to be worked on as the edges are softening. The difference is that we ‘re being asked to incorporate the sharpness of our character in to this new version. We can’t be soft and fluffy – we need to have the sharp edge of our personality too.

For some, these times are a feeling of being diluted in to love and light. As we transition, rather than dissolve in to existing ideas, we start to develop our own. These are our own individual markers. I’m finding more and more that those I encounter on myself who are on the path begin with absorbing every philosophy there is out there. This is what I mean by being diluted and dissolving in to existing ideas. We need this part of the journey to soften. Like an egg, once we get over-cooked with these ideas we become harder and harder. Some will reject all ideas at this point and go in search of something new.

Spirituality is heading in to an interesting time. The love and light movement has played an important part in getting us to accept everyone and their beliefs as they are. This is the magical aspect of new spirituality. We challenge everything. We’re ok with the harsher aspects. We understand that peace and conflict can co-exist in the same place and we don’t have to stop moving as a result.

Interesting times we are living in and on the brink of change within and change without.

Until next time…

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 22nd April, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and wow what a week it’s been. The energies have been ever so kind to us this week.

The big theme in the healing room is Rebirth, synchronistically with Easter. There has been a great deal of tension of late. A lot of chaos and then making sense of the chaos.

The pieces are finally landing. Not with a big bump but there is definitely a sense of things beginning to fall in to place. This makes us realise just how much chaos is actually an essential part of the change process. The pushy energy has subsided and we’re getting a warm, calm glow at the moment.

There are still things that feel like they’re not completely resolved but even that feels like it will iron itself out. The pieces of the puzzle are beginning to fit together and it’s as if we can just about see the picture taking shape. It still looks a little blurry but the most challenging part of it is definitely over.

This is a time for refinement and fine tuning. It’s a time for thinking about the fluorishes that we would like to add and all the bonuses we’d like. It feels like an awesome time for manifesting.

A good friend of mine always says, “Speak it in to existence” and with these energies, it’s definitely a time to visualise what you want and verbalise that to those around you that you can share it with. There is definitely a great deal more clarity than there was last week.

We are learning that it’s perfectly ok to have the meltdown – officially giving yourself permission with the knowing that you’ll just pick yourself up and keep going. That feels much easier with these lighter energies. It doesn’t feel as intense as it did 3 weeks ago.

A time of good fortune and abundance is on the horizon but don’t rest on your laurels just because it feels calmer. If you can harness this energy and channel it towards what you want, it’ll feel like you’re riding the crest of a wave.

There really is magic in the air!

Until next time,

Love and Blessings,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 15th April, 2019

This is your Ascension Energy Update for this week. It feels like the calm before the storm. I know in the previous update we talked about chaos. Following that the theme has been “letting go.” Surprise surprise!

It has been a period of change for many. It isn’t necessarily letting go that we’re working with. It feels like a deeper energy. Following the chaos, this week is sombre, quiet, moody. It feels like the calm after the storm.

The storm has happened and now we are dealing with the aftermath. It feels like there has been a massive shift but everything feels like it’s on hold. It’s almost as if we are all grieving for what we have lost through the storm.

It’s an interesting energy this one. It comes in waves and it seems to be pulling up reminders of what has gone before. It has a distinct and determined feel to it. A sense of knowing that the lesson must be learnt in order to progress forwards.

There have been two major themes in the healing room. The first is grieving for the old you. Reflecting on the lessons of the past and realising that you are just not the same anymore. The chaos has changed you for the better and a feeling of not being done with just yet.

The second major theme in the healing room has been this experience of two extreme emotions and an awareness that they can exist in the same timeline. We can be grieving for one part at the same time as looking forward to the future.

The energies are working with us to really help us to understand this idea of Unity Consciousness. Although our experiences may be extremes of one emotion or the other, we are being shown that these polar opposites can exist at the same time in the same place and realising this actually helps us to move forward. For example, experiencing amazing success at a time as grieving for a loved one about to leave. Although it may feel that one taints the other, it’s understanding that there is much to be gained from both experiences.

The calm sets in to invite you to reflect. It feels like much has been overcome and this empty space feels like a void. A big, open expansive place. We are in another holding place awaiting another big shift which I feel will follow mid May.

This is a time to take stock, stop and smell the roses.

Amidst all of this reflection, take time for gratitude. We may have lost things and people that have been dear to us but we need to focus on what we were grateful for. When we lose something, we appreciate it’s value in our life and what it taught us. Whether it is a lesson, a person, an experience, the ascension process is calling us to understand gratitude at a whole new level.

Everything will change. I smell that in the air. Now is the time to be asking yourself what is it that you want to create for yourself? What is it that you want to manifest? How can you prepare for it? What else needs to be lost so that the real you can be found?

The next few weeks will be a period of evaluation as there is certainly more shedding to be done. It feels like it’s going to be a more practical shedding though. Well, it is spring cleaning now. It’s the mental and emotional spring cleaning that is much needed at this time.

It feels like we are going to become acutely aware of the resonances of old energy that are lingering. Time to dot the I’s and cross the T’s and tend to any unfinished business by facing it head on. It may feel difficult, yet necessary for you to move on in peace.

Challenges do lie ahead but enjoy this rest period while it lasts! Mercury is out the shadow phase from the 16th and that creates some more freedom of movement with your emotions. Don’t be surprised though if it feels like nothing is happening. Just keep plodding away with the inner work as there’s plenty happening upstairs that you’re probably not seeing. The inner work will pay off though.

And to manifest, you have to start as you mean to go on. Begin by taking action, even if it’s one thing that you change. Whether that’s a 10 minute meditation or some fresh air every day. The Universe needs to see you start to live like you believe it!

It is a great time for manifesting though so get on it! Make that vision board and lose the expectation of how you think it will be delivered. There’s a plan greater than yours. Be open to it!

Until next time…stay in your own vibe!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 4th April 2019

This is your Ascension energy update for the week and what a week it has been. In fact, it’s been a couple of weeks since I last did an update and that’s because I’m going through my own upgrading process at the moment and trying to keep up with everything has been a bit of a challenge!

I daren’t speak too soon but I do feel like we have all made a massive leap over the last couple of weeks. It’s not a noticeable leap, but that heavy energy has shifted. Some of us may still be working our way through it but bear with because it’ll lift.

There has been a big shift and the most noticeable thing is that it isn’t what we thought it would be. We have these ideas about what moving from one dimension to the other will feel like. The surprise element is that it still feels like being human!

Yes we are evolving through this Ascension process. In the third dimension, life is about just life and nothing beyond. The 4th and fifth dimensions teach us that there is more to life than what we see. We will always hold the perception that as we ascend up through the dimensions, by some miracle we will no longer have the human experience or that we will be bothered by nothing. The irony is that the very idea is your human speaking.

We are always back and forth between the different dimensions because the bulk of the healing takes place here and now in the 3D world. This is where you have the experiences. This is the playground, the simulation and as you learn your lessons, you get deeper in to the other dimensions but still, you experience them in this reality, in this physical realm.

It feels like we have been in the treacle like thickness of chaos over the last couple of weeks. One of things that we are learning about is our capacity to hold the energies. Learning to hold your own energy is essential because it allows you to do more and more and deliver your purpose.

The chaos has felt overwhelming but it seems that we are beginning to find our own rhythm with it all. For a lot of people, it’s pulled them towards healing or meditation and the theme seems to be very much around self-healing.

One of the big things that chaos teaches us is that we need to be responsible for ourselves. I’ve seen this massively in the healing room this week. What can I do to own my choices? How can I be at peace with this much responsibility? How can I trust my own decisions. I’ll be exploring all these in the videos that I’ll be doing over the coming weeks.

We all seem to feeling that deeper pull of what we love. Resistance seems to be another big theme. There is still much to be discovered in the shadows. What’s interesting is that this idea of love and light, rainbows and unicorns fast loses it’s appeal when we start getting real. It seems that the Universe is showing us how to get real by hitting us in the face with what life is throwing at us.

For myself and for many of my clients, the last couple of weeks have been about getting real. Not just getting real and facing the deep dark truths that we want to run from. The reality of where we are at right now, regardless of whether that’s our ideal situation or not. We see a glimmer of possibility shining on the horizon as we move through this big shift, but all that glitters comes with some life lessons and don’t we know it.

It feels like a pushy energy but in fact it is pulling us more towards what we want and giving us situations that show us the contrast. It feels like make or break time.

The future is in your hands. You just need to decide what it is and go after that on the understanding that it may not look like what you expected!

I feel April will bring many happy surprises though! A playful energy is in the air and this brings with it a need for joy. We create this through surrendering the resistance, through being truly grateful for what we have and most importantly, not taking it all too seriously.

The heaviness is passing…like a kidney stone…but it really is shifting. The dawn of a new era awaits and it’s full of exciting possibilities. Isn’t that what spring is all about?!

I’m off to leap in the meadows…proverbially of course!

If you need help releasing your resistance, please give me a shout!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 12th March, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week. I sort of get the feeling you get when you’ve stepped off the rollercoaster and you don’t know whether you’re coming or going. All you know is that you’ve had a massive rush of blood to the head and you’re still spinning!

It’s been a strange few weeks, almost surreal for a lot of us. The energies have been ramping up for the last month or so and it feels like change is on the horizon. For many of us, 2018 was a chaotic year full of life lessons. 2019 feels a lot calmer and time has slowed down significantly.

Collectively, I feel that reflection is a theme in all senses of the word. We’re looking back and looking forward simultaneously. We’re also really starting to open up in terms of what is being reflected back at us. There may be more lessons for some of us and for others, there may be pure gold that dazzles and blinds us. I feel it’s back and forth between the past and future dimensions quite rapidly to navigate these energies.

It’s difficult to keep up when you’re working deeply with your past but at the same time looking forward to your future. We are always creating from this present moment and it feels like we are learning something quite unique at the moment.

Just as when you learn to drive, you have to multitask – the energy feels a bit like that. It’s overwhelming at first but when you realise that this is how it’s going to be from now on, you begin to start working with it.

In the beginning it takes a lot to shift your attention from one thing to the other and back again but trust this process because it really does feel like it’s going to be fruitful.

It’s a lot to work and deal with and we are all learning to get to grips with this new dimension. I say that because it really is a new dimension that we are entering.

One of the biggest themes, and this is one that I feel is going to be coming up quite a lot, is identity. How we currently define ourselves, how we want to define ourselves and how the past has defined us. We are in a position of choice which can feel pretty overwhelming. That combined with this constant flipping motion between dimensions and at the same time getting to grips with reality can make you feel a bit nauseous. I take you back to the rollercoaster analogy that we started with.

As we work towards this “who we are” and grapple with the constant moving parts, we feel uncertainty looming. It’s important to get to grips with this because it is a given. It’s not as easy as it sounds so if you need help with this, give me a shout.

Many of us have faced a total breakdown of identity. Many of us are holding on for dear life because we don’t know what’s replacing it. I think 2018 was teaching us about letting go and we go deeper in to this lesson now. For many of us, the experiences of 2018 are proving to be a training ground for this new dimension that we are entering.

We find ourselves remembering and forgetting those lessons in order to go deeper in to them. We also find ourselves fighting to keep what we hold dearly and lose what doesn’t serve us. We continue to do the inner work but there’s a sense of outcome being quite a distance away, almost as if we’re not meant to see what it is yet because seeing it will just be a spoiler.

Trust, faith and hope. Of these three, the dominant feeling is one of being hopeful which is a far cry from previous months when we were in the thick of it.

A sparkly new you starts to emerge. One that you may not even recognise as you step off that rollercoaster in your own time and get your breath back. Now is the time to rethink and revisualise. The hardest thing will be accepting a total 360 in direction for some of us and for others, a need to disrupt the flow in order to influence this change.

One thing I can say is that it is a very exciting time. The energies are thick and dense so even though there is excitement, there is also much work to be done. It feels like being on the red eye, drifting in and out of sleep and waking up to find a blanket of snow and silence all around at your target destination.

Don’t feel lost just keep on going. It will all make sense soon.

Until next time…

Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 17 – Al-Matin – Step by Step Persistence

There’s some pathways you come across where you know that there’s a life lesson involved and there’s pathways that show you just how far you’ve come. This was a bit of both for me.

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to connect with the sacred qualities of practicality and deliberation, of small steps taken over a long period of time.”

I know there’s been a massive gap between the last pathway and this one and that’s because there has been a lot of learning and integration that has taken place in the time in between.

In the last pathway I talked a lot about shadow work and learning to take responsibility for the parts of yourself that are difficult to own. I feel that this pathway has taken me in a lot deeper and shown me how shadows work on a whole new level.

The pathway talks about step by step persistence. It says, “Love also demands this type of persistence, especially when a relationship has begun to mature beyond attraction, in to something deeper.”

This is what I’ve been exploring on a number of levels within myself since I last posted on my journey with the pathways. Self-love is something that I’ve been learning to cultivate for a long time and one of the biggest realisations was just how much deeper I needed to go with this.

I feel like my relationship with myself and also with my work has reached that level of maturity that the pathway talks about. I relate it to my own journey. When I first discovered energy healing, it led me to create an idea of who I wanted to be and the work I wanted to do. As I travelled on this path, I started becoming that woman I always saw myself to be and doing the work I wanted to do. I saw myself making the difference I wanted to make and I am achieving that.

I look upon that now as the honeymoon period when I started to fall in love with myself, or at least this idea of who I wanted to be. I put all my effort and energy in to pursuing this dream. I worked hard to become that person and find what needed to be healed.

As my relationship with myself and the love I have cultivated for myself and my work starts to mature and deepen, I find that there are challenges and it doesn’t get easier. The more we uncover about ourselves, the more we are challenged to love our imperfections. The more we are challenged, the deeper in to ourselves it takes us.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve really been paying attention to what’s happening in my life. I’m observing what I’m doing and saying. I’m observing what other people are doing and saying and I am learning a great deal. To be able to watch without judging, that is a labour of love. To love without attachment, that is an art in itself.

I find I’m not the woman I fell in love with. I’m not willing to be defined that way or any way but I’m finding I love myself anyway. Who I am, just like any long term relationship, has morphed and changed. It just is what it is and doesn’t need defining anymore. When that happens, that relationship really doesn’t look like what you thought it would. When you get to this place, you realise that kind of love takes strength. It takes persistence and courage. It takes a conscious decision that even though it isn’t what you thought it would be, you’re choosing to love it anyway.

My path over the last few weeks has been a rollercoaster on a personal and emotional level. I’ve had some really tough challenges and I’ve had to really make a decision about how I feel about myself and what I’m going to do for myself out of love for myself. It’s meant shutting down for a while. It’s meant standing my ground. It’s meant not allowing anyone else’s opinion to cloud how I feel. It’s meant reaching in for my own truth. It’s meant expressing, sharing and really pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

The detail of what I’m facing is irrelevant but suffice to say that there will always be people who try to bring you down. Some with their words and some with their actions. I say this because with the last pathway we talked about being responsible for ourselves and our projections. I’m also learning to discern my own truth and that means that rather than own everything, I’m recognising that people play out their own pain by throwing it at other people. This is what I mean when I say “To be able to watch without judging, that is a labour of love. To love without attachment, that is an art in itself.” I’m not willing to own someone else’s pain. I bless their journey but I know what’s mine and what’s not.

If you allow anything to cause doubt within yourself, you lose. When you love another, you trust them with your whole heart and you don’t doubt if they are true. When you love yourself, you must see it exactly the same way. I’ve learnt this and it’s unearthed a massive strength in me.

Persistence means that you have to fight for yourself. As an empath, I’m great at fighting for others but maybe not so good at fighting for myself. One of things that this pathway has shown me is just how much I love myself and love my work. When push comes to shove, if my ability to do my work is threatened, I will fight to the death and I will win. Nothing is going to bring me down and each time it tries to take me down, I come back a hell of a lot stronger. That’s because I know what I bring to this world is important. I’m fighting for me but I’m also fighting for all of those people who benefit from what I do.

I think the most beautiful thing that’s come alive for me is this fire that I know I’ve always had in me. I think as you reach in to spirituality, you almost believe that you need to put that fire out for the sake of love and light. That fire is courage in adversity. That fire is fighting for what you believe in. That fire is a relentless amount of self-assuredness. That fire must never be diluted, especially for those that are making a difference in this world.

None of this comes without persistence. None of this comes without a fight. None of this comes without being challenged. For me, I didn’t realise it but this is what I’ve been building step by step. I couldn’t see it at the time, but everything leads you to the moment where you’re at right now. Perhaps you need to be challenged for you to find your strength? Perhaps you need the darkness to come at you for you to overcome it?

I believe that this is all the alchemy of the Universe at work. Every action is a small step towards something greater. I sometimes forget there’s a bigger picture and get bogged down in the detail of it all but I’m human. It sometimes takes adversity to show you just how far you have travelled.

I take great strength from this pathway. It’s a long journey full of twists and turns, full of challenges but look how beautiful it can be. It’s designed to help you find yourself and if you can see that, you’ll keep at it.