99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 17 – Al-Matin – Step by Step Persistence

There’s some pathways you come across where you know that there’s a life lesson involved and there’s pathways that show you just how far you’ve come. This was a bit of both for me.

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to connect with the sacred qualities of practicality and deliberation, of small steps taken over a long period of time.”

I know there’s been a massive gap between the last pathway and this one and that’s because there has been a lot of learning and integration that has taken place in the time in between.

In the last pathway I talked a lot about shadow work and learning to take responsibility for the parts of yourself that are difficult to own. I feel that this pathway has taken me in a lot deeper and shown me how shadows work on a whole new level.

The pathway talks about step by step persistence. It says, “Love also demands this type of persistence, especially when a relationship has begun to mature beyond attraction, in to something deeper.”

This is what I’ve been exploring on a number of levels within myself since I last posted on my journey with the pathways. Self-love is something that I’ve been learning to cultivate for a long time and one of the biggest realisations was just how much deeper I needed to go with this.

I feel like my relationship with myself and also with my work has reached that level of maturity that the pathway talks about. I relate it to my own journey. When I first discovered energy healing, it led me to create an idea of who I wanted to be and the work I wanted to do. As I travelled on this path, I started becoming that woman I always saw myself to be and doing the work I wanted to do. I saw myself making the difference I wanted to make and I am achieving that.

I look upon that now as the honeymoon period when I started to fall in love with myself, or at least this idea of who I wanted to be. I put all my effort and energy in to pursuing this dream. I worked hard to become that person and find what needed to be healed.

As my relationship with myself and the love I have cultivated for myself and my work starts to mature and deepen, I find that there are challenges and it doesn’t get easier. The more we uncover about ourselves, the more we are challenged to love our imperfections. The more we are challenged, the deeper in to ourselves it takes us.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve really been paying attention to what’s happening in my life. I’m observing what I’m doing and saying. I’m observing what other people are doing and saying and I am learning a great deal. To be able to watch without judging, that is a labour of love. To love without attachment, that is an art in itself.

I find I’m not the woman I fell in love with. I’m not willing to be defined that way or any way but I’m finding I love myself anyway. Who I am, just like any long term relationship, has morphed and changed. It just is what it is and doesn’t need defining anymore. When that happens, that relationship really doesn’t look like what you thought it would. When you get to this place, you realise that kind of love takes strength. It takes persistence and courage. It takes a conscious decision that even though it isn’t what you thought it would be, you’re choosing to love it anyway.

My path over the last few weeks has been a rollercoaster on a personal and emotional level. I’ve had some really tough challenges and I’ve had to really make a decision about how I feel about myself and what I’m going to do for myself out of love for myself. It’s meant shutting down for a while. It’s meant standing my ground. It’s meant not allowing anyone else’s opinion to cloud how I feel. It’s meant reaching in for my own truth. It’s meant expressing, sharing and really pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

The detail of what I’m facing is irrelevant but suffice to say that there will always be people who try to bring you down. Some with their words and some with their actions. I say this because with the last pathway we talked about being responsible for ourselves and our projections. I’m also learning to discern my own truth and that means that rather than own everything, I’m recognising that people play out their own pain by throwing it at other people. This is what I mean when I say “To be able to watch without judging, that is a labour of love. To love without attachment, that is an art in itself.” I’m not willing to own someone else’s pain. I bless their journey but I know what’s mine and what’s not.

If you allow anything to cause doubt within yourself, you lose. When you love another, you trust them with your whole heart and you don’t doubt if they are true. When you love yourself, you must see it exactly the same way. I’ve learnt this and it’s unearthed a massive strength in me.

Persistence means that you have to fight for yourself. As an empath, I’m great at fighting for others but maybe not so good at fighting for myself. One of things that this pathway has shown me is just how much I love myself and love my work. When push comes to shove, if my ability to do my work is threatened, I will fight to the death and I will win. Nothing is going to bring me down and each time it tries to take me down, I come back a hell of a lot stronger. That’s because I know what I bring to this world is important. I’m fighting for me but I’m also fighting for all of those people who benefit from what I do.

I think the most beautiful thing that’s come alive for me is this fire that I know I’ve always had in me. I think as you reach in to spirituality, you almost believe that you need to put that fire out for the sake of love and light. That fire is courage in adversity. That fire is fighting for what you believe in. That fire is a relentless amount of self-assuredness. That fire must never be diluted, especially for those that are making a difference in this world.

None of this comes without persistence. None of this comes without a fight. None of this comes without being challenged. For me, I didn’t realise it but this is what I’ve been building step by step. I couldn’t see it at the time, but everything leads you to the moment where you’re at right now. Perhaps you need to be challenged for you to find your strength? Perhaps you need the darkness to come at you for you to overcome it?

I believe that this is all the alchemy of the Universe at work. Every action is a small step towards something greater. I sometimes forget there’s a bigger picture and get bogged down in the detail of it all but I’m human. It sometimes takes adversity to show you just how far you have travelled.

I take great strength from this pathway. It’s a long journey full of twists and turns, full of challenges but look how beautiful it can be. It’s designed to help you find yourself and if you can see that, you’ll keep at it.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 18th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and oh my does it feel like the ground is moving from under our feet! Before I begin this update, I just want to say that my updates are NOT astrological. They’re purely based on tuning in to the frequencies. I include what I know may be happening with the moon and planets if it’s relevant. Mostly, I’m sharing what I’m experiencing as well as collective themes that emerge from the healing room that are tied in to these themes.

I’ve not done an update for a while as I’ve been processing this very heavy energy that’s around. Those of you who follow my Facebook posts know that I’ve been keeping an eye on the Schumann Resonance. Check out this link: https://www.disclosurenews.it/en/schumann-resonance-today-update/

The spikes have been noticeable as the frequency rises and I’ve been feeling it all quite physically. It’s worth checking out if you’re feeling a bit odd and wondering what it is that’s setting you off!

Energy wise, as always, there’s a lot going on. Although the last few weeks have felt quite still and stagnant. There’s been a feeling of “nothing seems to be happening.” Hold on tight because the energy is taking us higher and higher.

There’s a full moon Tuesday 19th and the energy is building around that. It doesn’t feel as intense as previous moons. With full moon energy, usually the shit that needs to clear comes up and hits you square in the face. This moon has a gentler energy. It’s calmer and it feels like a real magnetic pull towards something bigger.

One of themes we’ve been exploring in the healing room has been growth. Growth happens on a number of levels. Emotional and spiritual growth is what I support people with. It’s been noticeable just how much people are starting to become aware of energy and it’s impact on daily life. I’ve been doing this kind of work for the last 5 years and I’m really seeing the landscape changing in terms of awareness and expansion on a spiritual level. Everyone knows about energy – regardless of whether they believe in it or not. It’s becoming a mainstream thing to talk about energy and that can only be a good thing.

This weeks energy is about expansion and I feel that really strongly. The thing to remember about expansion is that when it’s happening, the first thing we do is resist. This makes us contract (not expand) and there’s a certain amount of pressure that falls on us in order for us to get to a point where we burst forth from it. I’ve certainly been feeling this way over the last week or so. It’s tough to remember when you’re going through it that the time you feel pressure is the bit that’s going to make you grow and expand.

Times like these are perfect to show you what you’re made of!

Another theme in the healing room has been around asking for what you need. Whether that’s setting boundaries, asking for help or just being able to take time out. We seem to be learning some really big lessons around that. This week’s energy is asking us to choose wisely and to include ourselves in our choices.

We are inextricably linked to the past but we forget that we are also linked equally as strongly to our future. The present is where these timelines meet and that is something to be really conscious and aware of as we are manifesting our future. We can do this consciously or unconsciously but simply to be aware of it seems to be a big message from the universe.

I don’t know where you’re at but I seem to be doing a lot of watching. I’m observing myself. I’m observing others. I’m also finding that a lot of the questions I’m asking seem to be answered through this observation. I love this way of working because I’ll reach out to the Universe and say “show me.” This is even more awesome if you remember that you’ve asked because being human, we often forget and then when the shits hitting the fan, we wonder what hell we’ve unleashed! I’ve started getting in to more of a conscious habit with the words, “show me regardless of whether I like the truth or not” and then I let go. This is the critical bit because you really do have to accept what comes rather than influence the outcome!

The pull from the moon is a big one and there’s something very reassuring about this moon’s energy. I’m feeling a different vibration with this one. It’s almost like the energy of “home” wants to come in and sit with us. I like this feeling. For those of you who are on this path, you’ll know I’ve talked about this feeling before. This feeling of wanting to go home. I feel the energies of this place are with us. I can’t sense whether it is galactic star energy or whether the energy of the ancestors is coming through more strongly with this moon. It’s a nice feeling this glow though because either way, the message I’m getting is “You are not alone. There are many more out there like you.”

For me, this moon is significant as I turn 40 in a few days. They say life begins at 40 so perhaps I’m also feeling the energy of my own rebirth from this star flooded universe. Who knows?

If you need help with any of the themes in this post, please do get in touch.

Until next time….Love and Light,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 4th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. Hasn’t it been an interesting few weeks? We’re working with a couple of major themes and so I thought it was good timing to write an update today.

Revisiting the Past

The first major theme I want to cover is this idea of revisiting the past, or rather as it has been over the last few weeks is the past coming to visit you. For many of us, some ugly things have raised their heads from as far back as 2017. However, what we’re finding is that rather than it toppling us in the same way that it did before, it all seems to be showing us how much we have grown. This is all positive in my view. What you’ll notice when you’ve been working on yourself is that your responses begin to change. There is more of a sense of “I’ve got this” or “The Universe has got my back.”

It goes deeper than just growth though. This is all part of cultivating faith and trust in what’s meant to be, which leads me nicely on the the next theme.

Letting go

One theme that we will always be working with is this idea of letting go. Certainly in the healing room and for me on a personal level, it has been about exploring the mindset that keeps us locked in. Once we realise that it’s our thinking that keeps us in the same place, we can consciously move from that place to the next level.

One of things that helps is to become aware of the stories that we tell ourselves. For me, it’s going over old journals and things that I’ve written and that really helps me to see the story that I am telling myself. It isn’t just the story on it’s own though. It’s about what that story says about you and asking yourself if that’s who you want to be. This is challenging because if the answer is no, it means you’re going to have to do the work to change it!

This is when we start to let go of the ideas that we’ve been locked in to. Old you has been trying to keep pushing itself back in, but I find that baby steps are the best way to easing your way to carving a new place for yourself.

Advice going forward

The thing that works best for me when I’m transitioning in to a new version of myself is to take one day at a time. Watch for signs of old you because they’ll creep back in. The way that self-sabotage works is through the thought process and it’s challenging to keep on with things. This is something that I’m working with and the way through it is to ask yourself “What happens if I keep going with this?”

There will always be a pang of fear, but keep going nonetheless because fear can’t kill you. It can harm you and cause you to do things to your detriment, but even those things you learn from.

You’ve just got to keep on keeping on. Healing is there to help you so if you find you’ve hit a stumbling block and can’t move past a certain phase in your journey, please get in touch. I love helping people progress so hit me up!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 30th November 2018

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been a little messy since the full moon, hasn’t it?!

Many of us are finding that the lessons are coming in thick and fast and with Mercury has been in retrograde since November 16th. It goes direct around the time of the new moon on the 7th December and there’s refreshing changes on the way. Well that’s the least we can hope for.

Expect between now and then to be messy. There is much coming up to heal and one of the things that will really hit you is that one same lesson that you’ve still not learnt. I know I’m feeling it in many areas of my life at the moment and it really is time to gather your wits about you!

The best way to handle it is to take that time out for yourself. Reflect. I mean really reflect and ask yourself what are the things that you keep experiencing time and time again. There’s your big clue. Whether it’s feeling hard done by or whether it’s a feeling of stop/start – just take time to sit with it.

The next step is to ask yourself, “What am I doing that’s keeping it the same?” Therein lie a lot of the answers.

Remember there are some things that are programmed in as subconscious patterns and so they’re not that easy to shift on your own. If you want to give me a call, I’d be happy to help you with this.

Think about what you want to do differently. I can’t remember who it was that said that it’s an act of madness to do the same thing again and again and expect a different result. It might have been Einstein but he was right.

It is really heavy right now but it’s all about getting us to take a real good look at where we have come from and how we want to change. Mars, the planet of action, is also on the move so this will make it easier.

I would say take some time to reflect. Sometimes we can want change so badly but the actions that we are taking really aren’t in alignment with what we want to achieve. It’s time to work it all out so that when you do take action, it’s with intention and is fruitful for you.

I know my own personal way of doing things is haphazard and so sitting down and working things out is something I’m not used to doing. I kind of follow my heart on a whim and a prayer and structure and discipline are completely alien concepts to me. This wave of ascension energy has really forced me to slow down, take stock and plan.

My challenge now is trying to stick to the plan!

One thing I do know is that this year has been start/stop energy for many of us. It has brought up so much for us to heal and I know that many of you are going through a messy time right now.

I’ve been doing my own Emotion Code sessions to help me shift out of these old patterns because I know it isn’t me that doesn’t want to take action – it’s my subconscious hindering me. As a result, I’m noticing the changes in myself on a massive scale. I think those of you who have been following my social media have also noticed how much I’m changing.

It’s important that we tune in and believe that we are not hopeless in our endeavours. Healing is here to help you. If you’d like to have a chat, please get in touch. A consultation call is completely free.

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Healing, Inspiration

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it. Lately, I’ve been working to try and reach more people and that’s because I know I can really make a difference. I know there’s more to do and I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of this so I thought I’d share my thinking on this with you.

So I know that I have a real impact on people’s lives. I know that healing has helped make massive leaps for people’s careers. I’ve helped people come back from absolute rock bottom. I know that there’s some clients who literally trust me with their lives. I know that I’ve helped people avoid being on prescription drugs and even helped some people to come off them. I know I’ve helped people become confident and assertive. I know I’ve helped people overcome their fears of intimacy. I know I’ve helped people make sense of their spiritual journey and taught them how to work on themselves. I’ve seen people grow and blossom in front of my eyes. I’ve helped people to take charge of their own destiny and given them the perspective that’s helped them to believe that everything is possible.

The list is endless and you’d think that this would be enough evidence for me to believe in myself, right? Well, I’m going to be really honest here and say that I’ve only just started to understand the difference I make to people’s lives and I’m still battling with this. Empaths start on a much lower self-worth level to others in my opinion and it takes a lot to climb to that place where you truly believe in your gifts.

I had a lovely client come in the other day and something he said will stick with me forever. He said, “You can say that your work is rewarding and real satisfaction and that you make a real difference. People will remember you for what you did for them.” I tried to stay cool, but inside my heart dropped a little because I’d not taken that perspective. I usually just bumble along, shrug off the praise and get on with the job. I hadn’t really been listening or taking on board the nice things that people have said because perhaps I didn’t feel that I truly deserved it. I always focus on what else there is left to do and this made me stop and take stock and really appreciate what I have.

I know that when people tell me how much I’ve helped them with the sessions we’ve had together, I still have a hard time accepting the praise. It’s like I still can’t quite believe that I’m doing this.

It takes an awful lot to step up and accept all of who you are. I’m finding this as I battle my way through it. I talk a lot about working with the shadow aspects, but this is like another form of shadow that we also need to work with. Being able to see and accept what you’re putting in to world and the positives it brings is a beautiful thing. What happens is that we think of this as Ego and retreat in to being humble. I know this is what I’ve been doing and actually as a result, I’m not getting what I truly deserve because I don’t truly believe I deserve it.

This is one of the things that I’m trying to set about changing in myself because it’s part of my self-sabotage pattern and I know I’m fed up of living that pattern. In my bones, I feel that it’s time to step up and really be visible about the work that I do. I’m building my confidence. I’m getting better at accepting praise and I’m really listening and allowing the evidence to show me that this journey is well worth the graft. Look at what I can do – it’s magical but in the daily grind, the magic gets lost and forgotten. I want to be the person that still believes in the magic!

It can be overwhelming, but I’m learning that actually praise and kind words are how people are showing love and appreciation. I have to keep my heart open to this love. It doesn’t mean it’s going to my head and it doesn’t make me any less humble. It’s quite a difficult and new concept to me to be able to celebrate the good things that I have put in to the world and be proud of what I have achieved. It’s actually quite scary!

I’m conscious not to take anything for granted because I know where I came from. At the same time, I understand that if I am overwhelmed by it, I’m not in complete acceptance of it. It’s an interesting dilemma because the Ego is shouting “Be humble!” and at the same time you’re at the point where you can’t deny the evidence that’s put before you.

The trick is to define your own sense of identity because there is strength in having that sense of self. The Ego is the false identity and when it screams “Be humble!” at you, it is one of the ways in which it is holding you back and keeping you in the limitations that you’ve been taught.

I never really recognised this fully before now and working with it has been really challenging. I can say in my own mind I believe I make a difference and I’m starting to accept the evidence as real. Remember how deep set the ego ideas and beliefs are.

Defining your own sense of self takes time. I’ve been on this journey a while and I’m still finding false selves and as each mask falls away, it enables me to become more authentic, more real and more confident in my own definition of who I am.

I don’t want to be what I’m taught I have to be in this world. I don’t want to have limitations and restrictions placed on me.

I want to be able to share and celebrate the fullness of who I am. I want to believe that I can attract what I deserve. I want to believe that I truly deserve it.

If any of this resonates and you’re on the path trying to find ways to become who you came here to be, please get in touch with me. I love working with opening hearts and minds to all the possibilities!

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Being an “Old Soul”

Pathway 15 – Al-Muqaddim – Preparing the way

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to acknowledge the part of your being that feels “oldest,” and prepare the way for power to flow through your life.”

So this is the pathway that I have been exploring and it started with a healing transmission that I did at the beginning of November which started a profound shift for me in terms of accessing the oldest parts of my being.

Power is an interesting concept, particularly for me. Since I began on this journey, everything has been about stepping in to my power and continuously I’m finding newer ways to do this. I had some funny ideas about power when I first started on this journey, but as I’ve grown, I’ve come to see it as a positive force in my life.

The pathway really is about delving in to who we are. Our souls were created long before our bodies were and so that part of us has lived and acquired a great deal of wisdom.

One of the things I noticed as soon as I started work with this pathway was the number of references made in relation to me being an “old soul.” The first time I heard that phrase I must have been about 17 and I’d sneaked away to London for the day. I went to Camden Market and was mooching around. I met this guy who looked like an old sage and he was full of love and life. I can still see his face. We ended up chatting for a long while. He caught sight of the palm of my hand and asked if he could have a look. I felt a bit hesitant but I agreed. He told me I was a very old soul but it wouldn’t be later in life until I realised what that meant. I’d completely forgotten about this experience and now that I’m writing about it, it brings it all back for me.

The story came back to me because I’ve only just realised that what he set in motion has resulted in this here today and I believe he knew exactly what he was doing. In this work, I am fortunate enough to be deliberately and consciously setting in motion change for those I work with.

It made me look at how I work with people and what I’m able to access. The pathway drew me to connect even deeper within myself. We spend life trying to define who we are in this world when really who we are sits within our soul. Once we start connecting to that deeper sense, everything in life starts to move around us for us to be able to fully understand and return to that original soul self.

The pathway is about returning back to our original image and this journey here in this world is what creates the means for us to do this. Life teaches us the nature of who we really are on one level. I’m talking about going beyond that. I’m talking about being from a place that you can’t access in a physical way.

For those of you who have read previous blogs, you’ll know that I talk about “going home” and by that I mean that place where we came from that’s before this world or any other world. It always seemed separate from me until I started to understand how to channel it in this world. I have more of a sense of belonging now that I ever have.

The adventure with this pathway was to learn how to go deeper within and I have found that connecting with this idea that I have been this energy for much longer than the 39 years here on earth has had a profound shift in my energy. I understand power on a much deeper level and it really is having an impact on the way I’m choosing to live.

The whole world looks different to me as a result. I’ve always been seeking to find my place here on Earth and each time I find it, I find new levels of understanding it. It’s not possible, I don’t think, to understand your place here unless you also understand where your soul has been.

I’m blessed to be an old soul and it really is becoming a distinct part of who I am. It gives me a uniqueness as a person. It has also made me curious enough to delve deeper. All of this enquiry is for a reason – this I know for certain. Synchronistically with this pathway, I’ve discovered aspects of my ancestry that have helped me to understand my spiritual gifts on a much deeper level. When healing is literally in your blood, you have no choice but to accept that’s who you are. It’s beautiful and it’s taken my sense of belonging to another level which is great for me and for the world!

I think the most amazing aspect of this pathway though is allowing yourself to open up and letting the power of YOU flow through. The more you access this part of yourself, the more you are preparing the way for what’s to come next. One of the beautiful things about this pathway is that it opens you up to wonder. I always talk about potential and fulfilling that potential but this is on a whole other level. It’s like you’ve got back up and support and everything you need. It’s like you are that potential in every moment.

With this pathway being so profound and deep, I’m actually having a challenging time in articulating how it’s making me feel. Suffice to say though that like all the other ways, it is changing me for the better. The closest phrase to describe how I feel is that “I am really coming into my own.” That sort of captures it.

The feelings you get when you’re accessing this are out of this world. Phenomenal. I wish I could tell you how or what to do to get there because everyone needs to feel this. I’m still integrating and working that out but when I have that in a practical form, I will share it. There is a sense of pride that comes from knowing yourself in this way. It isn’t an ego thing, simply a sense of contentment and being sure about who you are. This may not make much sense but if you know, you know.

There is a whole other world and worlds within worlds to discover. Such is the beauty of connecting to yourself, your power, your lineage, your ancestry, and the source of all that power.

“This is love.

To fly toward a secret sky,

to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment.

First to let go of life.

Finally, to take a step without feet.”

Rumi

Energy Updates

11:11 Energy Portal, 2018

If you keep seeing 11:11 and you understand it’s significance, keep reading. November has arrived and it feels like I’ve been waiting for this! It’s a really interesting time. The 11:11 portal has opened. We are now in full blown ascension energy. This wave has activated a new set of energies from within. I’ve certainly felt it and it is a lot deeper than previous waves.

October’s energy was pretty intense. One of the biggest themes was letting go. New Earth. New Me. It was as if we were preparing for something more intense. It has arrived although I don’t quite know what it looks like. I just know that its in the same place as I am.

I was fortunate enough to visit some sacred sights. On Halloween, I was at Avebury Stone Circle and then went on to Glastonbury Tor. It was a sacred and magical experience. Wednesday evening saw massive waves of energy coming in as the portals opened.

I felt quite blessed to be in Glastonbury, at the Heart Chakra of the world and spent quite some time with the energies there to cleanse and clear. I’m still processing everything that happened within on my journey and don’t quite feel ready to share as one piece of writing. There was far too much, but I feel the activations I received will have a major impact on my work.

The energies are driving us forward at the moment. My sense is that November is about clarity in terms of purpose and mission. November is also about being unafraid to change direction. It is about intuition and heart led intelligence. It also feels like it’s about being awake. I mean literally being awake – sometimes all night in my case!

The beauty of intuition is that there is no need for any physical and tangible evidence. When we intuit, it doesn’t matter what’s around us. All that matters is what is within. These energies are showing us that whatever is within us is clearly manifesting outside out us. The thing to grasp with this idea is that you have the power and you are able to drive and direct your reality. Tune in to your higher heart and let it guide you. The energy is making it easier for you to do this. You’ll find you have ideas, hunches and flashes of inspiration and you need to take action. You need follow the call.

As within, so with out is an age old idea that many have written about but there is some certainty and conviction about it’s truth in a completely different way now. It feels as if there is nowhere to hide with the intensity of how the truth is placed at the forefront of our awareness. We have no choice but to follow the signs. It isn’t about looking back at the breadcrumb trail that led you here. It’s about looking ahead to your next destination and lifting your foot to take that step.

Acknowledging the truth that we are seeing now gives us a justification for letting go. It is easier when you can see why you’re doing what you’re doing. The world looks and feels completely different when you are seeking truth. I certainly feel like I’ve been to the opticians and got new glasses because what I am seeing around me appears completely different. It is like we are being installed with a completely new operating system. I feel like the old one has been wiped out.

I feel very much that I am feeling my way through a new way of being. People I know are feeling like complete strangers to me at the moment and it is disorientating but I can feel that something is definitely changing. I’ve often said that this world is a simulation. It is a way of experiencing your true nature and delivering your soul’s mission in a physical way so that you understand the wholeness of being. This simulation is likened to the Matrix and I’m definitely feeling that analogy with these energies.

This is a time of massive energy shifts and it is important to harness this and use it to drive you forward. Seek clarity on your purpose and mission by simply asking for it. There are so many signs if you’re looking. The sky tells you stories. Nature gives you messages. Pay attention to what is happening around you and stay open to change course at any moment.

Yes it is disorientating but don’t let that phase you. It feels like a very special time and learning to harness the energy and allowing it to direct you feels like the right thing to do. It feels like this update has been a bit of a mish mash of ideas with no coherence but that tells you a lot about what’s going on! I’m still processing, but I wanted to get something out because it may help some of you.

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Maintaining and nourishing yourself

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a very steady yet powerful state of awareness in your being that maintains and nourishes you and others.”

This is the pathway that I’ve been reflecting on this past week and it is one that presents plenty of challenges for me. Embodying a steady state is something that I have been working on for as far as I can remember. For me, there is a juxtaposition here with being a free spirit.

This pathway requires pulling yourself inwards whilst you experience life. Being a free spirit, it’s easy for my heart to be called elsewhere. I want to talk about this because for me it is one the most challenging aspects of who I am as a person. This is where the conflict lies and I’m noticing that it is how my power escapes sometimes.

I know I have this immense reservoir of love within me and the capacity to nourish and give to others. This pathway takes me further in to using this source to help maintain myself and it is this very thing that I have been trying to do for a long time. This pathway has helped me to uncover a whole other level and given me an awareness and perspective that goes deeper.

For those of us that are empathic, it’s very easy to relegate our own needs in order to serve others. We think that this is why we came here – to serve. That’s part of it but not the whole of it.

This pathway really made me look at the way I give and the expectations that I have created from others around me. When I began to pull it back and go within, what struck me is how very little I have given myself. With a reservoir so large, it’s almost as if I think can survive on a lot less from the pot so rather than taking from it, I put in to it. This brings up feelings of guilt and feeling selfish. At the same time, I look around me and notice that perhaps I feel this more because of the belief that I came here to serve. There are deep set emotions here about worthiness attached to this and whether I deserve to take when I can give so much. It became obvious to me that there was very little balance in my life when it came to this.

It’s been a really challenging week and working with this pathway has actually made me feel really sad. I have to be raw and honest about how I feel. That’s what this space is for and it needs to be expressed.

The pathway also reminds me that I must not overextend myself. This is what occurred to me and I can see clearly where I am doing this. I can blame being an empath to some extent but the truth of it is that I have plenty of fleeting whims and distractions all created by my ego to prevent me from embodying this state. I can see that very clearly. I realised that I can’t hide behind anything anymore. Especially not when it has been shown to me this clearly. When you realise how little you have given yourself, it brings up anger and resentment and I’ve had to spend a lot of time working with this. I’ve allowed this and I forgive myself. I can change and that is what I am doing. Easy statements to make but if you’ve ever gone through this, you’ll know the raw emotion it brings up.

This idea of sacrifice comes with this type work and it’s something that keeps coming up for me to clear away. The idea that being in service should be at the expense of your own self simply isn’t true. I am entitled to a life just like everyone else. There’s a paradox here as the “service” is actually what I have chosen to do. It’s my own path I’m creating so it is as much for me as it is for humanity. The ego makes you choose one or the other and we are conditioned to believe that choosing service to others is the better thing to do. In actual fact, we can have both but it takes a lot of unlearning which I am still learning to do.

When I call the ego out on this, the contradictions are so very obvious. There is so much pain in saying goodbye to old ways of being. I’ve always tried to be conscious of what my ego is doing and exploring the pathways has brought up a lot of wounds that need to be healed within myself.

It isn’t easy getting the balance within yourself between serving others and serving yourself. We are brought up with conditioning that tells us that putting ourselves first is selfish. We’re taught a linear way of thinking that suggests that if we think about ourselves first, it means that we don’t care about others. It’s difficult to shift to a way of thinking that enables you to be equal to others and there’s a perception that to consider yourself equal equates to being egotistical. It gets really complicated because you can think this logically in your head but when the feelings of guilt show themselves, your heart gets pulled straight back. This is what I’m grappling with.

I’m always banging on about self-worth and I’m a work in progress but what I am learning here has come at a critical time for me. My life is interesting because of the demanding nature of my work. I get phone calls and text messages all the time asking me all sorts of things. I’ve always felt the need to answer and help and I don’t regret helping. I do sometimes resent the demands and that’s me being really honest. I take full responsibility for this now where in the past I’d have blamed others. I’ve created and met these expectations without even thinking about it and it’s difficult to undo without experiencing emotional turmoil. Meeting demands is what I’ve been looking at taking a step back from because there is a line where my work ends and I begin and that can get blurred very easily. Even though boundaries have been set, a plea for help is a plea for help and my heart isn’t one that can ignore it easily. So it’s been an emotional time because for each time that has happened, I’ve had to ask myself who I am putting first. I’m learning to deal with the emotion that comes with it and I can tell you it isn’t easy but it is necessary. This is a spiritual lesson that needs to be learned.

A strong feeling of discomfort comes from taking a step back. It’s like going against what your heart is telling you when you don’t reply to a plea for help but I had to explore this feeling for myself. It feels as if people are relying on me. It feels that there is an urgency for them that I am ignoring and that somehow makes me a bad person. Again, this linear way of thinking is one I’m learning to undo because a lot of that conditioning simply isn’t true.

What I have realised with this pathway is that I go deep and I do have a lot to give. My priority has become to maintain that within myself. Embodying a steady state of awareness and power is important but I didn’t realise how important it was for maintaining and nourishing myself. I thought I was doing that and I know now that I am not doing enough of it. The reason for this is the raw emotion, the guilt, the anger, the feeling selfish that I’m still learning to overcome. And all this just to feel equal to others! It’s mind blowing because I thought I was overcoming myself in terms of self-worth but there’s always more I need to be shown and more I need to do.

It’s interesting because although I do take a lot of time for myself and I switch off when I have to, I’ve developed some sticky habits when it comes to work. It’s the belief that work overrides everything because of it’s nature. It doesn’t though. What overrides everything is my state of being and my ability to maintain and nourish myself and I’m starting to look at that as often as I can in response to meeting the worlds demands on me. I’m taking it one moment at a time and seeing how it feels to choose me.

Just when you think you’ve got the self-worth thing down, the universe throws you a massive curve ball. With things changing as rapidly as they are, this is a very valuable lesson that the universe is giving me. I’ve noticed how quickly it can become about everything else. I’ve noticed how my free spirit slips away under the mask of empathy.

Old beliefs and old habits are dying hard. I’m working hard on taking the shame out of “I’m putting myself first.” It’s one I think a lot of us can relate to. If nice people finish last, I’m not ok with that and so I’m determined to prove that wrong.

I am just as important as everyone else and I’m determined not to forget it!

Healing, Reiki Training

Does Distance Healing really work?

Does Distance Healing really work?

Curious about distance healing? Well let me tell you how it works!

Everything is made of energy – that’s a scientifically proven fact. Particle physics says that each particle can positively or negatively influence it’s immediate surroundings. That’s why when you have Reiki, it’s these waves of energy that are having an impact on your energy field to create a sense of wellbeing.

Now remember we are all particles of energy. We are all made of the same stuff and connected to the same life force energy. Energy doesn’t have physical boundaries, nor does it have any time boundaries. This is why we are always connected to our past, present and our future. Our mind can navigate these places and time travel between them without any physical movement. This is magic and in essence if we can recognise that we only have to generate positive thoughts for good things to happen, then we’re on the way to something really powerful.

Our physical body is the densest bit of our energy field and this is why it is visible. It is made of particles of solid matter. Things and people are made of this and so that’s why the mind recognises them as “real” objects.

We also have energy around us. This is the auric field. It’s the energy ball that surrounds us and it is filled with our own personal energetic vibe. When you meet someone, this is the first thing that you’ll sense even though it isn’t a tangible and visible thing.

Places and people all have their own energetic signature. When you walk in to a place, you immediately sense whether it feels good or not based on it’s energy. We all have this ability and we can use it inform us what feels right or not.

Thoughts generate energy. We only have to think about bad memories for us to start feeling low, even if we are nowhere near the person that may have caused them. This is because what we have generated is charged with the energy of emotion. For more on releasing emotional blocks – click here!

How does distance healing work?

Energy has an impact regardless of time, space and physical proximity. The premise for distance healing is simply that we are all connected to the same source of energy and so therefore to each other. Energy follows intent and so you can energetically connect with anyone, anywhere and send them positive energy and healing vibes simply by making the intention to.

Distance healing is a bit more than that though. It can be just as intense as having a Reiki session in person. You can watch this video if you want to see someone’s first experience of Reiki. It’s really old from when I first started out, but definitely worth taking a look at. Click here to take a look!

I’m connecting to your energy in the same way as I would if you were here. I’m channelling the energy in the same way that I would if you were here. The energy is working in the same way as it would if you were here.

There is no separation between you and I in the healing space. For most people who have distance Reiki, they feel everything as if they would in person and this is always a surprise for them!

I want to encourage more people to try distance Reiki because it’s an experience!

It’s definitely worth trying!

If you’re up for it, give me a shout!

Healing, Reiki Training

What is Reiki Training?

When the word Reiki comes to a person’s attention, it’s like a magic bean being planted. Reiki Training is the start of you becoming the person you came here to be.

I do a lot of Reiki Training which is all about teaching people how energy healing works. I also teach them how to use it to work on themselves and others. When I talk to people about how they got to Reiki, a lot of them will say, “I kept hearing the word Reiki” or “A few people have told me I should learn Reiki.”

At that stage, some people don’t really know what it is. Some have done a little bit of research online. I thought I’d give you my definition of what Reiki is and how it can help you transform your life.

What is Reiki?

In essence, Reiki is energy healing. The energy that we are using is the same energy that we are all made of…Life Force Energy or Chi or Prana – however you know it. We are all made of energy and we all come from the same source of energy. Reiki is when you connect to that source of energy and channel it for the purpose of healing yourself or to help someone else to heal themselves. The person channelling the Reiki will be attuned to the energy and will have learnt how to do this in a safe way. This is what Reiki training teaches you.

How can Reiki help me?

Reiki is an amazing tool for personal development and spiritual growth. It can help you access so much more within yourself and really change your life. Before I came to Reiki, my life was chaotic to say the least. I felt lost and like I didn’t really belong here. Many of my students can identify with this feeling of “wanting to go home” but not really knowing where home is. It’s a deep sadness that I think is felt by many on the spiritual path. I think Reiki really helped me to come to a better understanding of what it means to be on this Earth. It also helped me to find my purpose in life and gave me the opportunity to help others.

I remember on Day 1 of my Reiki training, my teacher said to me “You’re going to be teaching this one day.” I laughed out loud. Sure enough though, she was right and it has been the most rewarding journey of transformation and expansion. Tough in places, but well worth it. I’m now in a position where I can teach others and watch them grow and its like planting magic beans!

I wish I’d learnt it sooner – Check out my Blog post on what Reiki can teach you that school never did!

What is a Reiki attunement?

Now there’s some teachers out there who will attune you to Reiki. An attunement or empowerment is when a Reiki Master passes the blessing of Reiki on to a person so that they are able to use the energy more effectively for themselves. I think you need more than just an attunement though. I think you need to be taught how it can be used so that you can get the most out of it for yourself.

The way that I teach Reiki is based on it’s practical application to everyday life. It’s your tool and you want to be able to use it for yourself, in your own way for your highest benefit. For me, this is important because not only are we interested in expanding ourselves spiritually, we also need to remember that we are human and live a human life with real human experiences. Being spiritual is great but so is understanding your human-ness.

Reiki Level One

Reiki Level One is open to everyone who has an interest. It will teach you the basics of energy healing and it’s application to everyday life. We learn about the history of Reiki so you can connect to where it came from but also learn about it’s journey from East to West. The Reiki precepts (principles) are the foundation of Reiki practice and we also learn the daily energy meditation – another key element. We also learn about mindfulness, self-healing and cover what happens as you’re energy begins to change. I think that’s important knowledge if you’re learning to master yourself! There is also a practical at the end of the 2 days training so you’ll be taught how to give Reiki to friends and family should you wish to.

I’ve met quite a few people who have had Reiki attunements but haven’t been taught the foundations of practice for them to get the most out it. I think that’s a real shame because Reiki is the most amazing personal development and transformational tool there is out there.

If you’re open to mastering yourself and getting in control of your own life, Reiki is a great option. Not only does it help you to understand yourself, it also gives you a way of understanding the world so that you can find your place in it. It helps you to connect to yourself, your source of energy and the world around you.

That to me is the golden thread for alignment. Magical things begin to happen when your energy starts to change.

You’ve got the power within you. Reiki training simply helps you to access it!

Sounds interesting?

If you are interested in Reiki training, please do get in touch with me. Lets see if we are a good fit to work with each other. It’s really important that you connect to the person teaching you as this will be your guide for the journey. If you are local to Leicester, I run Reiki courses at least once a month. I also teach 1-2-1 via Zoom (Video Conferencing). It doesn’t matter where you are in the world, you can still learn Reiki with me.