99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Maintaining and nourishing yourself

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a very steady yet powerful state of awareness in your being that maintains and nourishes you and others.”

This is the pathway that I’ve been reflecting on this past week and it is one that presents plenty of challenges for me. Embodying a steady state is something that I have been working on for as far as I can remember. For me, there is a juxtaposition here with being a free spirit.

This pathway requires pulling yourself inwards whilst you experience life. Being a free spirit, it’s easy for my heart to be called elsewhere. I want to talk about this because for me it is one the most challenging aspects of who I am as a person. This is where the conflict lies and I’m noticing that it is how my power escapes sometimes.

I know I have this immense reservoir of love within me and the capacity to nourish and give to others. This pathway takes me further in to using this source to help maintain myself and it is this very thing that I have been trying to do for a long time. This pathway has helped me to uncover a whole other level and given me an awareness and perspective that goes deeper.

For those of us that are empathic, it’s very easy to relegate our own needs in order to serve others. We think that this is why we came here – to serve. That’s part of it but not the whole of it.

This pathway really made me look at the way I give and the expectations that I have created from others around me. When I began to pull it back and go within, what struck me is how very little I have given myself. With a reservoir so large, it’s almost as if I think can survive on a lot less from the pot so rather than taking from it, I put in to it. This brings up feelings of guilt and feeling selfish. At the same time, I look around me and notice that perhaps I feel this more because of the belief that I came here to serve. There are deep set emotions here about worthiness attached to this and whether I deserve to take when I can give so much. It became obvious to me that there was very little balance in my life when it came to this.

It’s been a really challenging week and working with this pathway has actually made me feel really sad. I have to be raw and honest about how I feel. That’s what this space is for and it needs to be expressed.

The pathway also reminds me that I must not overextend myself. This is what occurred to me and I can see clearly where I am doing this. I can blame being an empath to some extent but the truth of it is that I have plenty of fleeting whims and distractions all created by my ego to prevent me from embodying this state. I can see that very clearly. I realised that I can’t hide behind anything anymore. Especially not when it has been shown to me this clearly. When you realise how little you have given yourself, it brings up anger and resentment and I’ve had to spend a lot of time working with this. I’ve allowed this and I forgive myself. I can change and that is what I am doing. Easy statements to make but if you’ve ever gone through this, you’ll know the raw emotion it brings up.

This idea of sacrifice comes with this type work and it’s something that keeps coming up for me to clear away. The idea that being in service should be at the expense of your own self simply isn’t true. I am entitled to a life just like everyone else. There’s a paradox here as the “service” is actually what I have chosen to do. It’s my own path I’m creating so it is as much for me as it is for humanity. The ego makes you choose one or the other and we are conditioned to believe that choosing service to others is the better thing to do. In actual fact, we can have both but it takes a lot of unlearning which I am still learning to do.

When I call the ego out on this, the contradictions are so very obvious. There is so much pain in saying goodbye to old ways of being. I’ve always tried to be conscious of what my ego is doing and exploring the pathways has brought up a lot of wounds that need to be healed within myself.

It isn’t easy getting the balance within yourself between serving others and serving yourself. We are brought up with conditioning that tells us that putting ourselves first is selfish. We’re taught a linear way of thinking that suggests that if we think about ourselves first, it means that we don’t care about others. It’s difficult to shift to a way of thinking that enables you to be equal to others and there’s a perception that to consider yourself equal equates to being egotistical. It gets really complicated because you can think this logically in your head but when the feelings of guilt show themselves, your heart gets pulled straight back. This is what I’m grappling with.

I’m always banging on about self-worth and I’m a work in progress but what I am learning here has come at a critical time for me. My life is interesting because of the demanding nature of my work. I get phone calls and text messages all the time asking me all sorts of things. I’ve always felt the need to answer and help and I don’t regret helping. I do sometimes resent the demands and that’s me being really honest. I take full responsibility for this now where in the past I’d have blamed others. I’ve created and met these expectations without even thinking about it and it’s difficult to undo without experiencing emotional turmoil. Meeting demands is what I’ve been looking at taking a step back from because there is a line where my work ends and I begin and that can get blurred very easily. Even though boundaries have been set, a plea for help is a plea for help and my heart isn’t one that can ignore it easily. So it’s been an emotional time because for each time that has happened, I’ve had to ask myself who I am putting first. I’m learning to deal with the emotion that comes with it and I can tell you it isn’t easy but it is necessary. This is a spiritual lesson that needs to be learned.

A strong feeling of discomfort comes from taking a step back. It’s like going against what your heart is telling you when you don’t reply to a plea for help but I had to explore this feeling for myself. It feels as if people are relying on me. It feels that there is an urgency for them that I am ignoring and that somehow makes me a bad person. Again, this linear way of thinking is one I’m learning to undo because a lot of that conditioning simply isn’t true.

What I have realised with this pathway is that I go deep and I do have a lot to give. My priority has become to maintain that within myself. Embodying a steady state of awareness and power is important but I didn’t realise how important it was for maintaining and nourishing myself. I thought I was doing that and I know now that I am not doing enough of it. The reason for this is the raw emotion, the guilt, the anger, the feeling selfish that I’m still learning to overcome. And all this just to feel equal to others! It’s mind blowing because I thought I was overcoming myself in terms of self-worth but there’s always more I need to be shown and more I need to do.

It’s interesting because although I do take a lot of time for myself and I switch off when I have to, I’ve developed some sticky habits when it comes to work. It’s the belief that work overrides everything because of it’s nature. It doesn’t though. What overrides everything is my state of being and my ability to maintain and nourish myself and I’m starting to look at that as often as I can in response to meeting the worlds demands on me. I’m taking it one moment at a time and seeing how it feels to choose me.

Just when you think you’ve got the self-worth thing down, the universe throws you a massive curve ball. With things changing as rapidly as they are, this is a very valuable lesson that the universe is giving me. I’ve noticed how quickly it can become about everything else. I’ve noticed how my free spirit slips away under the mask of empathy.

Old beliefs and old habits are dying hard. I’m working hard on taking the shame out of “I’m putting myself first.” It’s one I think a lot of us can relate to. If nice people finish last, I’m not ok with that and so I’m determined to prove that wrong.

I am just as important as everyone else and I’m determined not to forget it!

Energy Updates

Weekly Ascension Energy Update 20th September, 2018

Weekly Ascension Energy Update

Has it been chaotic for you too? Ascension energy this week has had us rockin’!

The last few weeks have been what feels like an uprising of the old coming to the surface to be cleared and there is a hell of a lot of shit to be cleared. The ascension energy is throwing us around so fast that we don’t know whether we are coming or going at the moment. All we know is that we are NOT who we used to be and we will not settle for what we used to.

There’s a lot to take in and for many of us, the last couple of weeks have taught us where we stand. There’s been some tensions but finally we can acknowledge that it is OUR own journey that we need to be responsible for. Everything else is needing to take a back seat at the moment.

Sometimes in life we need others to hold space for us. Just to listen. Just to be there. The ascension energies have been rampant and what many are finding is that their NEED is not being met by the people around them. This leads to a conscious decision to go solo. It has also led to many of us taking a step back and really beginning to evaluate the connections and what they add to our lives and our sense of wellbeing.

It’s no bad thing all this taking a step back. It’s been so intense this year that we haven’t had the time to ponder and reflect. As a result, we’ve carried elements of the old in to the new and we’re really starting to understand which relationships are actually maintenance work and therefore draining our energy.

September’s Energy

September is the holding space and use it to tie up loose ends and cut loose the straggly bits. My advice is do this with no apologies. Yes there will be casualties as you undertake a massive cull but this is all to bring you in to alignment with who you are and where you’re heading. All of this is about you now.

A lot of us are reaching that crossroads where we need to choose between ourselves and others. Choose YOU! Period.

It’s tumultuous to say the least but now is not the time to settle for what was. Now is the time to create. The ascension energies are ripe for it. We have the Equinox on the 22nd and a full moon on the 24th. What we create now is what will harvest for us.

A friend of mine pulled a card for me the other day and it was Cornucopia. I think it captured what’s to come. The harvest really is on it’s way but this bit of the journey will take balls.

The situations that are created for us to be able to experience this shedding mean that we have to stop being pansies and grow a pair. For empaths, the most difficult bit is this. We can go all gung ho cutting people loose but our hearts will always get called back to helping and this becomes the trap.

Tips for getting through these energies

My advice is CHOOSE YOU. Period.

On a practical level, start evaluating each and every relationship for what it is. Is there a balance? Is there a fair exchange? Are you giving willingly or do you feel like you’re being taken from?

If there is balance and you’re getting as much as you give, keep it. Your bones will tell you what and who doesn’t feel right and you take responsibility for dealing with that. It’s not that you’re cutting people out forever. It’s simply right now you need all your focus and energy for yourself. If we don’t do this, we have to deal with the feeling of being left behind. That’s a low vibration and certainly not one that we want to be in if we are creating our future.

Everything is temporary. Nothing is forever. This is the big shake up and it’s time to put your money where your mouth is in a lot of ways. Times will test us, but that inner knowing will never let us down.

I would even go so far as to say that the next couple of weeks are pivotal and we need to be really mindful and aware of what our energy is doing. Pay attention to what’s within. Pay attention to what surrounds you. If there is a mismatch, do what you need to in order for there to be balance.

If all else fails and you can’t see the wood for the trees, one of my favourite tools to use is Raw Black Obsidian. This will bring anything negative to the surface quickly and enable you to deal with it at the root. You may find it unleashes chaos but if you’re craving change and you know it needs to be in your face for you to do something about it then Obsidian is the catalyst.

Stay present and just watch it all unfolding for you. Look at the bigger picture. Play the long game.

We’re in exciting times and the light downloads are intense and heavy. Keep riding it and if you need help, you know I’m here!

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Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 4th September 2018

Well here we are and it’s been heavy and intense the last week. There is a hell of a lot of crap being pushed up to the surface and we are healing and doing more healing and continue healing!

Physically, the symptoms have been a thick or foggy head including migraines and headaches. Ears have been ringing. Dizzy spells have been common. Generally a feeling of being ungrounded and uprooted.

With this, there’s been unrest. A lot of emotional restlessness. An impatience for things to start moving again and an unwillingness to back down. Sound familiar?

It really is taking it’s toll this week. I know on a personal level, I’ve had to take some time out to just shut down and recalibrate the systems! This intensity will continue although the flow of it seems to be getting easier as we work through the lessons.

It feels as if we just have to master letting go of expectations. That’s pretty difficult because to manifest what we want, we have to expect that it will materialise. What I’m talking about is getting yourself in to focus and in to a headspace where the outcome is irrelevant. This period of limbo is about building full trust and faith and allowing yourself to be led.

The Universe always has your highest interests at heart and the stagnancy that we have felt of late has created a wishy washy kind of energy. It’s important that we don’t stay in this for too long. It has been heavy and it has been difficult to keep moving. More than ever, we are being required to push ourselves a little bit further.

You’ll have noticed in the midst of all this that you are starting to get really clear on what resonates with you and what doesn’t. It should be starting to become really clear to you what needs dropping from your life because it seems as though the triggers are everywhere.

The thing I am finding the most difficult at the moment is the balancing act between ourselves and other people. We have to choose to put ourselves first.

In the spiritual journey, there will be times when you feel so far apart in your way of thinking from those that you are closest to but know that that is ok. Your truth will continue to evolve and as it does, you may find that you judge those with a different perspective, or you feel judged by them. This is all experience and it is teaching us real detachment with love. It can be difficult to stay in love and compassion with those closest to you if they can’t understand your need to process in a different way to them. This is all part of working out your place in the world.

We are coming to the cross roads and the new moon on the 8th should be bringing us some unexpected surprises. My feeling is that we are heading towards having everything we want but something tells me that it won’t look anything like we planned it to be. Therefore this time is a time of opening up and acceptance of things as they are.

There is a great deal of courage required as our old belief systems fall away. It can feel as if the world is breaking off in fragments right before your eyes. It is the collapse of the old ways of thinking.

If there is one thing that helps me more than anything it is holding on to this affirmation.

I AM LOVE. I CAME HERE TO BE LOVE AND BE LOVED.

This is all. Just keep remembering this and you’ll ride this storm. New Moon New Start is  how I’m feeling the energies at the moment so I’m using this time to get things in order. It’s time to really start thinking seriously about where things are going and how you can direct them.

 

Energy Updates, Healing

Why am I feeling so wierd? Energy Update 27th August, 2018

Why am I feeling so wierd? That’s been the theme in the healing room this week and if you’re asking yourself the same question, the answer is in the energies that are around at the moment.

It’s like a dead weight and everything that we were trying to get off the ground in June and July seems to be moving ever so slowly. There’s been planets in Retrograde. Mars and Mercury have both gone direct now and there’s been a full moon, 3 Eclipses, solar flares and Geomagnetic storms not to mention the meteor shower.

So when you take all of that in to consideration, of course you’re feeling wierd. We are all connected to the heartbeat of the Universe and when it moves and shifts, we feel it too.

The energies have been dense and heavy. Like a dead weight. Nothing seems to be moving. After much unrest, it’s like we are covered in a blanket. A littler period of hibernation is kind of what is happening right now and hopefully we will open our eyes to an easier and lighter September.

It’s not been an easy 6 weeks energetically and a lot of us have felt upheaval and restlessness. For some it’s been time out, for others it’s been working through the energies. However it has been for you, you’ve felt it. The lethargy and the numbness has been a theme for all. There have been sparks of clarity followed by periods of massive uncertainty.

Things are certainly changing though and we are feeling it. WE as a collective are changing rapidly and there is a whole movement towards letting go. This “new me” stuff is really starting to take shape and there’s yet more layers to shed. All of the conditioning, fears and limiting beliefs seem to be rising to the surface for us to see more clearly and as always, there is healing to be done!

It will settle, but the pace, depth and intensity of the energies is something that we are going to have to start getting used to because it feels like it’s going to stay like this for a while. It feels like we’re being pushed and shoved in to places that are creating expansion for us.

I think it just got interesting!

If you’re struggling with the energies and you’d like some help, please get in touch x

Energy Updates, Healing

The Rise of the Divine Feminine

The Power of the Divine Feminine

It’s been an interesting week this week as the energies seem to be ramping up. I remember towards the end of last year we were talking about the rise of the Divine Feminine and wowzers has that had an impact.

I don’t know if its just me and because I work with women, but there really does seem to be some fine tuning going on with the way that we are connecting with the Divine Feminine. It’s causing a bit of a clash between the different aspects of this energy.

On the one hand we have the softness, vulnerability and opening. On the other hand we have the wildness, the strength and the power of Femininity.

My view is that we are learning to be unashamedly ourselves and embrace whatever combination of these qualities that we hold. We are learning to harness and use these energies for ourselves and it is enhancing our power to create.

More than ever over the last few weeks in the healing room have seen a rise in the Kundalini energy and I’m working with more and more women who want to clear sexual trauma and explore their creative life force energy. The power of this energy for healing us in incredible and learning to use it is even more incredible.

Where the #metoo movement gave rise to an awareness of the power imbalance, the residue of this has been a real awakening of power for women as a collective. There really is a “Don’t take no shit” attitude at the moment and it isn’t directed at the opposite sex. There is a balance to be gained between feminine and masculine forces within us and it feels like we have to come full circle and experience these energies for us to come to balance within ourselves.

When you’re nailing it, it feels like intense creative flow, passion and alignment combined with purpose, intuition and what I can only describe as a recognition of our own resilience and “sturdiness.” Above and beyond anything, although this is a spiritual process the impact is in a very human way and it is helping us to navigate between the different dimensions and realms.

This creates movement and that’s been reflected in the shifts that clients are experiencing as a result of sessions. There really is a big change in the air and a redressing of balance when it comes to power.

Bring it on I say!!!

Energy Updates, Healing

No time for fake ones – Energy Update 28th July, 2018

Yo! Feeling a bit Gangsta Rap this week and the energies are seriously ramping up. If you’ve struggled with sleep and you’re feeling tetchy around people that are not authentic, welcome to New Earth! The energies around are about being real, saying it exactly how it is and unapologetically taking what’s rightfully yours. Entitlement, Power, Ownership. This is some strong ass energy coming through and it’s opening us all up to new experiences and new ways of thinking about the world. Personally, I bloody love this wild, wolf like sass that’s being unleashed. It’s bold, it’s brazen and it’s empowering. It’s about change and this is the crux. Change is inevitable and our experience of these energies is influenced by our willingness to accept change.

Expect all your old perceptions to be challenged on the deepest level that you can manage and remember the confusion is temporary. This is the bit where you start working it all out. This is when the pennies start to drop. The energies around us are helping us even though it seems like more of a hindrance because of the frustration or fear of change. There’s a lot of work around “old me” and “new me” and it’s uncomfortable. To the max – UNCOMFORTABLE but it’s necessary. Progress is found in the Dis-Comfort Zone so expect to be challenged and expect to feel uncomfortable. Style it out and see how the different aspects of “new me” feel to you. You’ll know quite quickly what’s authentically you and what’s not. I like this experimental aspect as it has a really open feel to it. It feels ok to explore and discover. We have this gateway open to lead us to who we are becoming.

The portals have opened up and Lightworkers are starting to gain clarity on their purpose and mission here on Earth. There really is no time to waste at all. The energy for action is there to be harnessed and it really is driving us forward without giving a shit about what’s logical. Heart led work and dropping all the old ideas and expectations of what we thought our work would be. The work is just the work. You’re delivering something a lot bigger than yourself but ironically this time is all about you. This is about what you can create. With planets in retrograde, people tend to think that they are being slowed down. That’s true to an extent, but it is a perception. The Universe is going at it’s own pace and it always will. It’s the pace of our progress that we need to understand and to take ownership of the fact that it is not dictated by external forces. The pace you work at within is the same pace as the Universe. Staying connected is literally all you need to do to align and get in to the flow. Allow the flow and keep moving inwards through connection. Even when we stand still, we are still moving. Our thoughts are still creating. Our ideas are in the process of manifesting. The key thing is the action that pushes through this energy and that’s where we are standing still as it feels like there is more confusion than clarity.

Remember that confusion is the process that leads to clarity. One simple way to work out the direction is to make a list of what you don’t want. Then take each item and find it’s opposite and that gives you a list of what you DO want. Simple…kind of lol but that’s just the starting point.

For me, the energy is wild and ready to be harnessed for forward movement. There have been a lot of bombshells dropping as a result of the Eclipse season. The mask has literally dropped off and there is no time for any bullshit. You can take things at face value or you can go deeper. You’re seeing what you didn’t see before and it is eye-opening.

As a result, you’ll be finding that you’re irritated and impatient around people that are not willing to take responsibility for themselves. Anything that doesn’t feel real and authentic will jar. Be more concerned with you than them and don’t be overpowered.

The theme in the healing room this week has been all about taking action. Ideas can stay ideas. To make them manifest, the energy needs to move through action. These energies are causing restlessness. If you don’t know what action to take, this makes it even more frustrating.

This energy feels like a pushy parent and I am certainly feeling it driving me and whipping me in to shape. It’s tough but its what’s needed.

All for the greater good knowing we have to go through what we have to go through to get to where we are going to.

Enjoy the ride!

Energy Updates

Opening the Heart Chakra

The Heart has been the focal point this week and the healing room has seen a great deal of anger and self-criticism trying to shift it’s way through clients. It seems to be that these are the things that we are working on collectively and there is so much in this that I had to write about it to take a closer look at what is the happening with the energies.

It is a time for change and I definitely feel that for myself and for all of my clients. Like I wrote in my last update, we are losing “old” version and integrating this newer updated version of ourselves. The way in which this is most noticeable is in our reactions and the way that we deal with things. Opening your heart up to loving yourself is one of the most challenging things to do. We find that we are often quite harsh on ourselves and developing that love and compassion towards ourselves is something quite alien. It’s almost as if we don’t even realise how much we are berating ourselves for the smallest things.

We are realising that we deserve so much better in all things. We are realising that with this build up of love and power, all things are possible as we learn to hold this new energy. I had one client who simply said, “Grrr! Why are you right?!”

It’s quite a big thing when you realise that you really aren’t the person that you thought you were. It’s even bigger to understand that you’ve got to try and love yourself anyway. Even if it feels like you don’t really know that new you that well. Your instinct is different and your reactions are different. It feels that we are in a place of spiritual limbo energetically because between losing the old you and becoming the new you, there is a void. One thing it is pushing us to do more and more is to be unconditionally loving towards ourselves and be ok with the not knowing what that final product (if there ever is one) looks like.

The void is an interesting energetic space because in it we find the anger, the self-criticism and the sense that we aren’t quite there yet. It is a frustrating space. I know first hand because I’ve really been feeling it, especially yesterday. There is no sound basis for the way that we feel and actually what we find is that we can always find a donkey to pin the blame on.

In actual fact, when you break it down, you realise that you are in a transitional space and transitional energies can seriously mess with your head if you don’t come back down to earth and stay grounded. The situations in our lives become the reasons for the way we feel because it makes us feel better to have some rational explanation for how we feel.

It could be anything and everything that you blame. When you ask yourself how you really feel about that situation, it opens you up to acceptance. What’s actually happening is that heart chakra is being wrenched open and all the emotion is pouring out of it. Can you be ok with that?

The Heart Chakra has really been the focal point for the healing room this week. It feels like all of our hearts are opening to self-love more than anything else. With this opening, we are beginning to release old feelings of being unworthy, of loss, of grief, of sadness. With the Heart Chakra opening comes a renewed sense of purpose and being which feels refreshingly different.

Since the beginning of the year, the focus has been on authenticity and getting real with yourself and the people around you. It has been about finding yourself, shedding what no longer serves you and letting go of the past. Now that the bulk of that work has happened, it’s like the words “What now?” are flashing in front of you and there is a need to know and have it all worked out.

We are still releasing and the picture will take a little longer to emerge. The thing that helps me the most is remember that this is the creation phase and so the energies that we bring in to this space matter. If we can see the clearing as a positive thing, it helps us to stay focused on the purpose. Clearing is a good thing. It is releasing from a heart centred place.

We are learning to hold the energy of joy from the heart. Whereas before it has been suffering that we held in the heart space, this energy is one that feels like it’s bobbing up and down and making us feel motion sickness. It’s acclimatising to the feeling of joy and being able to hold that. We’re bound to feel a little sea-sick with it but breathe it in and hold it and brace yourself for what’s coming next.

It really does feel like great hope on the horizon. I know many of my clients are at that stage in the healing cycle where they are learning to hold their own energy and learning to fly can be tricky!

All things now seem possible…hold tight!

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 12 – Al Muhsi – Assessing What Is

I started this pathway at the beginning of Ramadhan and now feels like a good time to write about it.

“When you are drawn to this pathway, take the opportunity to stop and look through the eyes of Divine clarity at your life as it is right now.”

If this Ramadhan has taught me anything at all, it is mindfulness and being present. A lot of crap has been happening and a lot of good things have been happening too. I’ve been looking at the way I manage myself through these situations.

As someone who suffers from anxiety, this pathway again has taught me acceptance of things as they are now. I’ve said this before but you don’t necessarily have to like what’s happening to accept it. When you reject it, it creates a whirlwind of anxiety and feels overwhelming.

Sometimes you have to cut through the crap of what you want things to be or how you think things should be. At the root of it is what is happening RIGHT NOW and often we look at situations through a different lens. We stay in disappointment when we focus on as we want it to be. Nothing in life is going to be that picture perfect. Every moment is leading you to the next moment and everything is temporary and transitory. It’s very much what you choose to believe that has an impact on hardening or softening your anxiety.

The perfection is in this present moment. Accepting what IS can be really challenging because it involves surrendering. This is the ego as it starts to fall away. The ego is what you believe to be true and when that goes, parts of your identity start falling away with it. I could go a whole lot deeper with this idea, but I will save this for another post! Suffice to say that we are working with what we believe to be true in so many ways and the way we assess “what is” has a lot to do with what we believe to be true. It is always laced with judgement about our current situation.

It’s amazing how much stress falls away when you bring your mind to what is happening right now as if that is all there is. It is one of those things that you have to keep reminding yourself of. One of the things that I have been doing that has really helped me this Ramadhan is to try and be in this state of continuous dialogue with my Creator.

It helps because it means that you are talking to your Creator as if you are talking to yourself which makes you more conscious of the things that you are saying. It means that you can continuously ask for the help that you need in every moment. It also means that you can spend a lot more time in the here and now. When the worries come up, you can ask for help with them and then go back to noticing what is around you and expressing gratitude for it. It alleviates a great deal of stress for me!

It’s funny but what prompted me to write this post makes me chuckle now. I’m sat at Bru on my laptop as I write this. I’m waiting on a call from the garage because I took my car in for a service this morning. They’ve called me once already to tell me there’s work to be done and it’s going to cost me more than I thought. I felt a slight panic as I don’t actually have the money for it. That’s what credit cards are for and I’m grateful that I can defer payment but as the time comes closer to paying that bill, I can see the panic setting in. So as always, I have asked God to find me a way and holding on to that Golden Thread because everything happens for a reason.

Now, in this moment, I have two choices. I can either worry that I won’t have the money or I can trust that it will come from somewhere. I know what happens when I go in to worry. It means that I am not being present and I can get taken off on a tangent. The other option is to stay in the moment and focus on what I am doing right now which is to keep writing this post. Keep writing and just not think about something that hasn’t happened yet.

Now I know how my mind works and I will be back and forth from this thought about how I’m going to pay that bill but if I allow it to distract and then consume me, I am not going to be able to focus on getting anything done. Do you see how it works?

I have to accept that it has happened for a reason and use it to keep me focused on what I am doing. That is the clarity that this pathway talks about. It is clarity about my purpose. There’s something very magical about this present moment. It is a state of empowerment and clarity. It is a place of self-mastery. It’s understanding that you can deliver your purpose and all you need to do is stay focused on the actions that will help you to do this. I know for a fact that is all I need to do. Everything else is taken care of. Sustenance and provision is something that comes from that same Source. Creator provides. One way or another, I know it’ll be taken care of and so when I think of it like that, the worry begins to melt away.

Life is one of those things that is unpredictable. That’s a given. There is always uncertainty and that’s a given. However, if we embrace it and see where it takes us, it can feel expansive and exciting. If we worry, our energy contracts and we can’t see past the end of our own noses.

Life as it is right now.

What does that mean? It means looking around for things to appreciate. It means being thankful that the help is there. One of the big things for me working with this pathway is being able to see that some things happen so that other things can happen. We don’t always realise at the time, but what will happen for us in the future is dependent on what is happening now.

So if I look at this bill, perhaps this is what will create abundance for me. I know it’s money going out, but it is an opportunity to keep wealth circulating and by doing that I have contributed to the way the world goes round.

Everything is a dependency. I may be a speck in the grand design of this Universe, but I am a deliberately designed speck with a purpose. If we focus inward, we can create a sense of inner stability that we ride on when there is nothing certain in outer world. It is knowing that we are part of something greater and that there are other things that are dependent on us. Therein we do not exist in isolation, even when the world’s problems are beating down on us and it doesn’t feel like there is a way out. What happens next is dependent on this present moment.

Cultivating inner stability allows you to grow and change. I know even a year ago, this bill would have pushed me over the edge. It comes down to our outlook and belief that things are always getting better for us. Whatever is sent for us is good for us. This is an opportunity to trust in abundance even if things don’t look the way I want them to look right now. At least I have a car that is roadworthy and it’ll keep me safe.

ENABLING yourself with these beliefs is the way to create the way you want to be feeling right now. The way you feel is what creates the next thing. That is Law of Attraction in a nutshell.

If you can look around and be happy with what you have and be in acceptance of all of it, it helps. It is understanding that as you look around, everything is already changing because everything is temporary. Sometimes, it can feel as though nothing is really happening but life and the whole Universe is in continuous motion. When I think about this, it blows my mind. You can sit still and watch the whole Universe moving around you know that you too are moving even if you don’t feel it. It’s crazy!

I’ll conclude this pathway by asking you to take a moment today to sit still and notice at how much has moved for you. Think about the things you can’t see and the things that you can. Understand that you are in constant motion. Take a breath and allow yourself to catch up with THIS present moment.

Let me know how it feels!

Healing

Surrender is the Frenemy

The Goal of Faith is Surrender

One of the things that has really struck me whilst I’ve been fasting is the way in which our faith can drive us in a way that is unexplainable. Faith brings motivation to do the unthinkable. It powers us to accomplish otherwise difficult actions with ease. Quite a phenomena…I started thinking about this.

On a normal day, going without food and water in the same way would be really difficult, but there’s something about giving it up willingly that makes it easier. It’s difficult to articulate because I don’t want you to think that it is easy to do, but at the same time I want you to understand that it is made easier when backed by faith.

For me, this faith is based on surrender. What you notice when you’ve surrendered is just how easy it feels. That is because you are choosing this for yourself. You own that decision and you are fully in alignment with it. You’re not complaining about it. You’re simply getting on and doing it.

This works when it is decisions of our own choosing, but when life happens and the chips are down, that is when we really start to work with surrender. It’s a Frenemy for a lot of people. If you believe that there is a higher plan and that everything happens for a reason, it makes surrender easier. Having said that though, the human mind will need to go through it’s own reasoning and rationalising process. This is otherwise known as resistance.

Surrender is one of the most difficult things because it involves loss and ego. When we surrender, we give up a part of our identity and we are so attached to our identity that it causes us to grieve and feel like we’ve lost something.

In life, sometimes we fight and sometimes we surrender. It is knowing which will serve our highest good and going with what feels right in the moment.

In the healing room, we help you to surrender to what you can’t change and fight for what you can. It’s about untangling yourself from what holds you so that you can walk through life with the freedom and power that comes from doing things willingly.

If you’re having trouble untangling yourself, please get in touch. I’d love to help you.

Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 28th May, 2018

Hey hey!! It’s an interesting time energy wise. I was teetering on the edge of whether or not to do an energy update this week. I’m fasting at the moment and so my energy has been all over the place while I adjust. I decided to put off doing an update until I felt in a place where it wouldn’t be clouded with the distortion.

It got me thinking though in the sense that we are never separate from everything else that is happening in the universe and so maybe the collective is experiencing the same distortion? I know there are millions of people fasting around the world and it is a time for conscious reflection and inner change. This is a Universal theme and one that we are all working with. I certainly feel that fasting has given me an accelerated feeling in terms of this inner reflection and change and there is a lot to be said for the growth that comes as a result.

There is a full moon tomorrow and that explains why I’ve been grumpy and inwards the last couple of days. This new moon feels intense and serious. It feels like it is consolidating change and for those of you who have been feeling the build up, it feels like this is about setting in the changes of the past few months. It hasn’t been an easy trip, but it is lovely to feel at the point where we are integrating lessons.

Sometimes we are receiving lessons and that’s when everything is changing around us and it moves so fast and we have to deal with things whether we like them or not. And sometimes, you get this lovely energy of integration. It still pushes us, but in a very different way.

The theme of the last couple of months has been this idea of being aware of your part in everything and so with this knowledge it feels like we are beginning to learn how to direct our own lives and guide ourselves towards our future.

Try as much as possible to notice the inner changes. Who have you gone off? What are you finding difficult to tolerate? What’s starting to wind you up and why? Pay attention to the answers. Look at where you’re blaming others and when you’re blaming yourself.

There’s a tricky aspect to this energy in that it is breaking down the Ego and the sense of identity to the extent where we are experiencing such a massive void that we feel lost. In that place, any sense of purpose or belonging goes out of the window. You need to feel lost in order to find your way. If anything, it will tell you whether you continue on the same path or change direction. There is nothing finite in the decisions that we make for ourselves and it is ok to change to something that feels better for us if that’s necessary.

You may find that some things just don’t seem to want to work out and you may just have to accept that it isn’t the right time. It’ll keep and come back around when the time is right.

All in all, really interesting energies this week. Personally, I’m feeling pulled inwards and will likely stay there until the Full Moon has passed. Full moons are usually a deeper cleansing so a lot of us are going to really be feeling it. Expect to be a little mardy…it’s all good.

It does feel like victory is just around the corner though so hang in there. Personal battles fought and won is the theme of this moon for me. Hang tight and see you on the other side!