Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 15th July, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. Apologies folks but I’ve had a lot going on recently that has taken me away from work. All in a good way, of course. It’s time to get back to work and it feels a bit rusty!

What’s going on with the energies? Well the last couple of weeks there’s been a sense of renewal energies coming through. A strong reassuring energy of everything being ok.

One of the deepest paradoxes with these energies is that on the one hand we get this bouncy, optimistic sense of all good things being on the horizon yet at the same time, this stands opposing an almost disbelief of what’s actually possible. Certainly for me on a personal level, it has been a time of major breakthroughs.

Post Eclipse and between now and the full moon tomorrow the energies are intense. There is a spiralling energy which feels like it could go either way and it definitely is up to us which way this energy takes us.

The Eclipse did that thing where we plummet in to the depths of anguish and sorrow. When we’re in these moments, the contrast is so start that it’s hard to regain composure and understand that the contrast exists for a reason. There is nothing to be afraid of.

For most of us, we are starting to re-learn the cycle of life from a place where it is non-threatening. Empaths have a unique journey when it comes to navigating planet Earth and for most, the defenses they create and the need to protect themselves from this world are kind of the default.

As we enter New Earth and as we deepen our sense of commitment to being here, we understand that although it feels like shit at time, although life is a mixture of suffering and joy, although it feels like an ongoing assault on the senses – it is a sensory experience that we are having. It is one that we signed up to and to approach all of it with the intention of simply experiencing it goes a long way towards an acceptance of being here.

The energies feel a lot less turbulent today coming up to the moon and it’s much needed respite. It is the optimum time to re-think goals, plans, commitments. Remember that everything you thought you wanted looks different as we approach 5D Earth. You can see quite clearly that you wanted it because it’s what you thought you should want.

What you really want is something completely different. Remember when you created those “wants” you may still have placed limitations on yourself. When you look at the things that you are striving for as a result, you get to a place where some things just don’t make sense to drive for anymore. And even that’s ok.

We have dropped so much of our old identity that of course it is going to feel confusing. There’s something very distracting about this energy. It’s unsettling and I know on a personal level, up until today I have been doing everything I possibly can to avoid sitting still with it because there is a lot of old wounds being opened up as a result.

We do need to begin facing and embracing the hurt that is still there. One of the realisations that I had this morning was that for as much light that there is within me, there is just as much darkness. Sometimes we create the illusion of light because it’s easier for the world to accept us or it’s easier for us to operate on that level.

Life isn’t about what’s easiest for everyone else or for yourself. It’s about understanding the masks that we create and with this Eclipse energy the masks are falling off. There is a need to breathe, fully, deeply and be ok to be seen taking this breath.

After all, we are human. We have our sorrows, we have our pain, we have our darkness. Most of which we experience behind closed doors because this world is polarised to the light, the positive and our natural survival instinct is to simply pretend that everything is OK.

But it isn’t and actually that’s also OK. Let the energies bring it all to the surface. Allow yourself to see what you were masking over before. Yes, we judge through our own lens and projection but in the space between the eclipses, we are realising that perhaps those “judgements” were accurately placed. Perhaps they weren’t judgements. Perhaps they were intuition. Perhaps you now have the evidence. Perhaps you’re still in denial. Perhaps it was this wanting to always be in the light that caused you to believe it was you that needed healing for making that projection or judgement.

Unfortunately, we can’t just withdraw from life because it’s too painful or confusing. We can take a step back and decide how we’d like to go forward. This is where the power is.

And with this moon, there is power. There is revelation. There is darkness and there are storms.

We’re definitely on the road to somewhere with this. We are changing on the deepest level and it’s beginning to show on the surface. The world may not like it, but the world is going to have to get used to this new level of honesty.

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 22nd May, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been a week of acceleration and things seem to be moving pretty fast at the moment. It’s an amazing time for Lightworkers because it feels like things are really starting to push them towards stepping up and stepping out of their comfort zones, myself included.

It was intense leading up to the full moon and physically tough for many of us as we receive our light upgrades. If you’re tuning in, the frequencies are changing. This can be felt as ears ringing and for those of you who are more sensitive, you’ll notice that it’s different frequencies at different pitches. The only way that I can describe it is like one of those old music boxes that you wind up with the different perforations inside the roll that produce the different notes.

There are so many different light codes coming down at the moment and as a result it has produced this feeling of not knowing whether we’re coming or going. We’re being spoken to in different ways. Gone are the days where we just look to what’s around us or within us for the information. The way that the ascension waves are travelling now is completely different.

I feel strongly that a big shift has happened and these waves will continue to work. It almost feels like a new wave is coming but this one has to do it’s work first. It’s an important time for the planet.

Even in the world of spirituality, the idea of the “Guru” is beginning to fall away. There is a new generation of spiritual speakers and although they are conveying messages that are in sync with these waves, there is a depth that is missing. There’s an opening here and it feels like people are seeking the old world wisdom, reviving ancient ideas and seeking knowledge that resonates with their soul.

With all of this, it feels like authenticity is the theme. Not only being true to yourself but the messages that you carry. Remember that we are all carrying Spirit’s messages through us in different ways. And one of the reasons why it feels as though the depth is missing with some of the spiritual messages we are hearing is because timelines are being reconfigured.

We are all old souls and the messages that we bring come from the places that we have been. The over-riding message is love but the messages from each previous civilisation is different and the carriers of these messages are only conveying their truth. I feel there will be a time when these messages cross timelines and align bringing all of this together.

There isn’t even time to process. It is just happening and it is happening extremely fast. At the same time, our ideas of time itself are being challenged. You’ll notice that the first 3 months of this year felt like the longest ever and from April onwards, time has quickened. Even though things are going really fast, time is slowing down at the same time. That may or may not make sense but this wave of consciousness brings with it a deeper awareness of time and an ability to bend it at will. It’s interesting for sure.

I’d love to know what’s going on in the wonderful world of you!

Until next time,

Peace and blessings of Oneness be with you,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 5th May, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. This week we’re on new moon energy and planets in retrograde – Saturn in particular bringing the fire!

What the f*** just happened there? I thought I’d do my update a couple of days earlier because since yesterday, there’s been a remarkably noticeable shift in the energy. That fire though…!

So the energies were relatively calm yesterday up until late afternoon and then it felt like an almighty drop in the signal. Sudden fatigue, ears ringing and the kind of tiredness that just makes you drop. I had to stop what I was doing and take a moment. This hasn’t happened in a good while so I’m curious.

Something is definitely going on. Change feels like it’s on the horizon. Looking around to see what I could find, there’s plenty on Saturn being retrograde and clearing karmic patterns. It was like BOOM!

I went in to meditation to tune in to what’s going on. There definitely feels like we’re going to have to keep balancing and re-balancing through these energies. I’ve read a lot about May bringing all the good stuff but I always think it’s good to know that you might have to go through some shit to get there.

The rest of yesterday became a thunderstorm and a whole host of turbulent emotions. There really is a sense of what’s acceptable to you and what’s not. What do you stand for? Are you going to articulate it? Do you even need to explain yourself?

There’s something pushing us to stand our ground and be a lot more discerning about what we tolerate from others. We can deal with it or we can walk away. I get this mental image of a movie scene – that shot where the heroine is walking away calmly with the massive fireball explosion in the background.

That image captures it all for me yesterday. We don’t know where she’s walking to. All we know is that she’s walking away from it. There’s little softness to this energy and so if you’re not ready for it, it’ll catch you by surprise. I think May is going to be full of surprises.

There’s a sense of being at war with ourselves. My sense is that we’re going to see this reflected in our outer world, in politics and played out on the global stage.

There’s a strength to this energy that’s different though. It isn’t just about blowing things up and walking away. If only life was that simple! There’s a hardiness that can be felt and it comes to strengthen us spiritually, mentally, physically and emotionally. Although there is a harsh finality to it and I think a lot of us will be feeling this, there’s also a sense of it being needed.

Off the back of that, we learn tough love and the toughest love is when we apply it to ourselves. Where we have become too passive, things are about to change. I don’t know about you, but I would much rather make my own changes than have them imposed upon me.

I think the soul searching phase is over and it really is about asking for the Universe to “Bring It On” in the nicest possible way. There’s internal conflict on the one hand we’re being tentative when on the other hand we want to go all guns blazing. I think we all have different approaches and that’s the beauty of it. I’m in the tentative phase personally but that’s changing rapidly. I think the key is discernment and knowing yourself enough to know where your risk level lies. I certainly feel a sense of “All In” and single minded focus.

However you choose to tackle what life throws at you, there isn’t a right or wrong way. It very much depends on you and the experiences that you’ve had. Just don’t be surprised if you find yourself doing a complete 360 in the way that you do things. You might find your hand is forced and it’s only by cracking a nut you get to taste it’s sweet fruit.

Hold on to your hats people and get ready for the ride! It’s time to up-level, upgrade and up the ante.

I don’t know about you but I kinda love when things get disrupted in this way so I’m really excited about all this nut cracking. I feel it’s about time we changed up again. This isn’t going to be subtle. It’s going to be full on and it’s going to be pushy energy. There’s nothing to be afraid of…Game Face on!

Until next time….

Keep vibing high,

Love Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 29th April, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for the week. It’s been another relatively calm week but I’d say it’s the calm before the storm and May is going to be a blinder of a month on all fronts.

I feel like we are on the edge of a new era with new timelines being activated. Some have been awaiting New Earth. My sense is that we are in the activational stages with more and more people waking up and challenging the status quo. We’ve seen that clearly in the last couple of weeks with the Extinction Rebellion movement. We’ve seen and heard the voice of a new generation, Greta Thunberg – passionate, strong and determined to make a difference. It’s symbolic of the way that we are beginning to really own ourselves. The New World challenging the old world and a theme that’s also playing out on an individual level.

It’s almost as if I can feel the Universe’s immense cogs turning in the background. Momentum is building leading up to May. I’m not sure if we’ll get the big drop of energy as quickly as we’d like. It feels like we’re being asked to get in to the momentum and master the consistency of our actions.

It has felt a little push and pull under the surface. It’s like you know what your priorities are but you keep getting pulled away in to other things. I certainly feel like we’re being asked to prioritise and stay focused on the one thing that matters with consistency. Where we are being pushed and distracted, it’s up to us to keep pulling our focus back to where we want it to be.

This week’s theme is growth. We’re no longer looking at the outside trying to acquire. We’re building from the inside out. We’re facing the home truths and exercising a new found sense of honesty about what we find. There is a need to go inward. A craving for silence and stillness. A pull back to the inner world.

It feel like the deep reset switch has been activated and we’re just waiting for the re-start to get underway. The level of chaos from last month seems to have enabled us to manage our way in to a different yet faster pace which feels a lot easier than previous times. Time feels fast and slow all at the same time.

Alongside this, we’re really starting to think about what makes us feel centred and full. We’re looking at the outside world realising that is isn’t the source. With this feeling come a need to have full conviction in what you’re trying to see through to action. When our energy matches our words and our actions, that’s when things will start to move. We’re building up that and the consistency that we’re developing is much like a dress rehearsal.

The “old me, new me” theme of last year is being played out again. It’s like we are again demolishing one version of ourselves and transitioning through to another. This new version feels like it needs to be a much more polished version. That rawness needs to be worked on as the edges are softening. The difference is that we ‘re being asked to incorporate the sharpness of our character in to this new version. We can’t be soft and fluffy – we need to have the sharp edge of our personality too.

For some, these times are a feeling of being diluted in to love and light. As we transition, rather than dissolve in to existing ideas, we start to develop our own. These are our own individual markers. I’m finding more and more that those I encounter on myself who are on the path begin with absorbing every philosophy there is out there. This is what I mean by being diluted and dissolving in to existing ideas. We need this part of the journey to soften. Like an egg, once we get over-cooked with these ideas we become harder and harder. Some will reject all ideas at this point and go in search of something new.

Spirituality is heading in to an interesting time. The love and light movement has played an important part in getting us to accept everyone and their beliefs as they are. This is the magical aspect of new spirituality. We challenge everything. We’re ok with the harsher aspects. We understand that peace and conflict can co-exist in the same place and we don’t have to stop moving as a result.

Interesting times we are living in and on the brink of change within and change without.

Until next time…

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 18 – Al-Ghani – Tending Your Garden

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel your heart as a garden in which everything you need is growing. See yourself living in this garden.”

It has been a while since I wrote on another pathway. With this one, I’ve been exploring and exploring and now it feels like the right time to write. One thing I will say is that I thought I’d do a pathway every couple of weeks – that was the plan but they don’t work in a linear way. It’s always the way that I choose one and it becomes the theme for my inner work and observation. Rather than rushing, it feels much better to explore in my own time and share when there is real wisdom that emerges. That makes it more meaningful for you and for me.

The pathway starts with talking about what happens when the heart begins to expand and seeing ourselves in others. This pathway continues to teach me the good, the bad and the ugly of who I am and this is through what I see in others.

I feel like I’ve gone through one of the biggest and deepest expansions spiritually over the last few months. I’ve had external help to guide and push me over my comfort zones and that has been amazing. It really reinforces that we can’t do everything ourselves. I’ve also been connecting more with my guides in the etheric realms and receiving deeper wisdom and guidance. I’ve been working a great deal with my power centres – the solar plexus and the sacral.

One of the biggest learnings I’ve had is understanding my place in the whole grand scheme of things, my place in the Universe. If we are all dots that are connected, I’m really starting to see that I am one of those dots and the connections that I have to the other dots and the ripples I send out by working on myself and sharing my wisdom. It takes this idea of seeing all beings as yourself to a whole other level and it’s really helped to me feel supported with what I do. Understanding that my story is part of an even bigger story and without my character, the story would change. It simply wouldn’t be the same.

Another aspect of the pathway talks about the connection between action and the vision that you have. For a long while, I’ve had a vision but for one reason or another, I just wasn’t moving very much. Deep down there plenty of fears of where it would take me. This extended the way I looked at the good, bad and ugly within myself. I realised that I was limiting myself and really not seeing the possibilities. Sometimes taking action is the thing that leads to even deeper growth. We can learn and teach wisdom but to live that wisdom enables your heart to grow. We can be authentic but we are always finding the masks and learning to continuously uncover even more authentic parts of ourselves. I did have to stop and think about this seriously and that made me realise just how much I was taking for granted. When you uncover all this wisdom, you realising that you’re not even sharing a fraction of what’s in there. Once you begin, things start to change and grow.

Tending your garden is one thing and I feel that I have planted so many seeds. With watering and nurturing, I’m beginning to see these seeds grow. I find myself changing yet paradoxically at the same time becoming more myself than I have ever been. When that seed starts to sprout a few leaves, you get excited and you know that there’s flowers to come and it’ll be glorious and beautiful. It’s being grateful that By God’s grace, the seeds we plant grow.

The pathway uses the example of the garden of life. We plant everything that we need in our life and plenty of other things that we don’t need. This garden is also a metaphor for the heart. The heart is where the truth sits. Part of the process is weeding out what’s not needed or what’s taking up space preventing other things from growing. There are plenty of distractions and reasons not to do things and the more I think and ponder, the more I procrastinate. I decided it was time to pull these weeds out and call them out. It involved a lot of harsh truths but at the end of the day, they’re blocking my sunshine. It doesn’t matter how much you water and nurture yourself, without the sunshine you’ll wither. I liken this to what I’ve been through. I’d found my inner light but I was afraid of shining and now I really am facing that in a big way, things are really starting to change.

It’s only been a couple of months, but I am really not who I used to be. I feel myself shining, confident and bursting with colour. It makes the old me look like a dull hum in comparison. Now I’m conducting a whole orchestra making magical, harmonious sound frequencies. This is the power of tending your garden. This is the power of tending to your own heart.

I have found that even being open, warm and loving as a person, I was still quite guarded and I had the fear of trusting. When we look at the garden of our heart, we also look at the boundaries. Do we want to limit how big our garden gets? That’s something that I was not even conscious I was doing and bringing it to light has really helped me to make a shift. With this, belief is also key. It’s fine to say “I’m not going to limit myself” but it’s an even deeper shift when you say, “I’m willing to accept the reality that all things are possible for me.” We can protect ourselves as much as we want to but at the end of the day if we don’t believe that we are protected by a Source greater than ourselves, we form barriers to love and limitations to growth. There is an even greater plan for me than what I can imagine for myself. The possibility of that being true brings infinite other possibilities and the beautiful part is not being afraid of those possibilities anymore.

 “Another message of this pathway is that everything need not be done in the spotlight. Let the One veil you (another type of enclosure) and keep your secrets as you get on with your purpose in life.”

This is apt and it’s kind of been happening behind the scenes. I’ve been working on the business, in the business and on myself in this way. It’s only now I feel like I’m beginning to consolidate and share.

Deep changes and even deeper transformation. I really feel like the adventure has officially begun!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update, 22nd April, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and wow what a week it’s been. The energies have been ever so kind to us this week.

The big theme in the healing room is Rebirth, synchronistically with Easter. There has been a great deal of tension of late. A lot of chaos and then making sense of the chaos.

The pieces are finally landing. Not with a big bump but there is definitely a sense of things beginning to fall in to place. This makes us realise just how much chaos is actually an essential part of the change process. The pushy energy has subsided and we’re getting a warm, calm glow at the moment.

There are still things that feel like they’re not completely resolved but even that feels like it will iron itself out. The pieces of the puzzle are beginning to fit together and it’s as if we can just about see the picture taking shape. It still looks a little blurry but the most challenging part of it is definitely over.

This is a time for refinement and fine tuning. It’s a time for thinking about the fluorishes that we would like to add and all the bonuses we’d like. It feels like an awesome time for manifesting.

A good friend of mine always says, “Speak it in to existence” and with these energies, it’s definitely a time to visualise what you want and verbalise that to those around you that you can share it with. There is definitely a great deal more clarity than there was last week.

We are learning that it’s perfectly ok to have the meltdown – officially giving yourself permission with the knowing that you’ll just pick yourself up and keep going. That feels much easier with these lighter energies. It doesn’t feel as intense as it did 3 weeks ago.

A time of good fortune and abundance is on the horizon but don’t rest on your laurels just because it feels calmer. If you can harness this energy and channel it towards what you want, it’ll feel like you’re riding the crest of a wave.

There really is magic in the air!

Until next time,

Love and Blessings,

Hafsa

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 18th February, 2019

This is your ascension energy update for this week and oh my does it feel like the ground is moving from under our feet! Before I begin this update, I just want to say that my updates are NOT astrological. They’re purely based on tuning in to the frequencies. I include what I know may be happening with the moon and planets if it’s relevant. Mostly, I’m sharing what I’m experiencing as well as collective themes that emerge from the healing room that are tied in to these themes.

I’ve not done an update for a while as I’ve been processing this very heavy energy that’s around. Those of you who follow my Facebook posts know that I’ve been keeping an eye on the Schumann Resonance. Check out this link: https://www.disclosurenews.it/en/schumann-resonance-today-update/

The spikes have been noticeable as the frequency rises and I’ve been feeling it all quite physically. It’s worth checking out if you’re feeling a bit odd and wondering what it is that’s setting you off!

Energy wise, as always, there’s a lot going on. Although the last few weeks have felt quite still and stagnant. There’s been a feeling of “nothing seems to be happening.” Hold on tight because the energy is taking us higher and higher.

There’s a full moon Tuesday 19th and the energy is building around that. It doesn’t feel as intense as previous moons. With full moon energy, usually the shit that needs to clear comes up and hits you square in the face. This moon has a gentler energy. It’s calmer and it feels like a real magnetic pull towards something bigger.

One of themes we’ve been exploring in the healing room has been growth. Growth happens on a number of levels. Emotional and spiritual growth is what I support people with. It’s been noticeable just how much people are starting to become aware of energy and it’s impact on daily life. I’ve been doing this kind of work for the last 5 years and I’m really seeing the landscape changing in terms of awareness and expansion on a spiritual level. Everyone knows about energy – regardless of whether they believe in it or not. It’s becoming a mainstream thing to talk about energy and that can only be a good thing.

This weeks energy is about expansion and I feel that really strongly. The thing to remember about expansion is that when it’s happening, the first thing we do is resist. This makes us contract (not expand) and there’s a certain amount of pressure that falls on us in order for us to get to a point where we burst forth from it. I’ve certainly been feeling this way over the last week or so. It’s tough to remember when you’re going through it that the time you feel pressure is the bit that’s going to make you grow and expand.

Times like these are perfect to show you what you’re made of!

Another theme in the healing room has been around asking for what you need. Whether that’s setting boundaries, asking for help or just being able to take time out. We seem to be learning some really big lessons around that. This week’s energy is asking us to choose wisely and to include ourselves in our choices.

We are inextricably linked to the past but we forget that we are also linked equally as strongly to our future. The present is where these timelines meet and that is something to be really conscious and aware of as we are manifesting our future. We can do this consciously or unconsciously but simply to be aware of it seems to be a big message from the universe.

I don’t know where you’re at but I seem to be doing a lot of watching. I’m observing myself. I’m observing others. I’m also finding that a lot of the questions I’m asking seem to be answered through this observation. I love this way of working because I’ll reach out to the Universe and say “show me.” This is even more awesome if you remember that you’ve asked because being human, we often forget and then when the shits hitting the fan, we wonder what hell we’ve unleashed! I’ve started getting in to more of a conscious habit with the words, “show me regardless of whether I like the truth or not” and then I let go. This is the critical bit because you really do have to accept what comes rather than influence the outcome!

The pull from the moon is a big one and there’s something very reassuring about this moon’s energy. I’m feeling a different vibration with this one. It’s almost like the energy of “home” wants to come in and sit with us. I like this feeling. For those of you who are on this path, you’ll know I’ve talked about this feeling before. This feeling of wanting to go home. I feel the energies of this place are with us. I can’t sense whether it is galactic star energy or whether the energy of the ancestors is coming through more strongly with this moon. It’s a nice feeling this glow though because either way, the message I’m getting is “You are not alone. There are many more out there like you.”

For me, this moon is significant as I turn 40 in a few days. They say life begins at 40 so perhaps I’m also feeling the energy of my own rebirth from this star flooded universe. Who knows?

If you need help with any of the themes in this post, please do get in touch.

Until next time….Love and Light,

Hafsa

Healing, Inspiration

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it

To attract what you truly deserve, you have to feel that you deserve it. Lately, I’ve been working to try and reach more people and that’s because I know I can really make a difference. I know there’s more to do and I’ve been trying to get to the bottom of this so I thought I’d share my thinking on this with you.

So I know that I have a real impact on people’s lives. I know that healing has helped make massive leaps for people’s careers. I’ve helped people come back from absolute rock bottom. I know that there’s some clients who literally trust me with their lives. I know that I’ve helped people avoid being on prescription drugs and even helped some people to come off them. I know I’ve helped people become confident and assertive. I know I’ve helped people overcome their fears of intimacy. I know I’ve helped people make sense of their spiritual journey and taught them how to work on themselves. I’ve seen people grow and blossom in front of my eyes. I’ve helped people to take charge of their own destiny and given them the perspective that’s helped them to believe that everything is possible.

The list is endless and you’d think that this would be enough evidence for me to believe in myself, right? Well, I’m going to be really honest here and say that I’ve only just started to understand the difference I make to people’s lives and I’m still battling with this. Empaths start on a much lower self-worth level to others in my opinion and it takes a lot to climb to that place where you truly believe in your gifts.

I had a lovely client come in the other day and something he said will stick with me forever. He said, “You can say that your work is rewarding and real satisfaction and that you make a real difference. People will remember you for what you did for them.” I tried to stay cool, but inside my heart dropped a little because I’d not taken that perspective. I usually just bumble along, shrug off the praise and get on with the job. I hadn’t really been listening or taking on board the nice things that people have said because perhaps I didn’t feel that I truly deserved it. I always focus on what else there is left to do and this made me stop and take stock and really appreciate what I have.

I know that when people tell me how much I’ve helped them with the sessions we’ve had together, I still have a hard time accepting the praise. It’s like I still can’t quite believe that I’m doing this.

It takes an awful lot to step up and accept all of who you are. I’m finding this as I battle my way through it. I talk a lot about working with the shadow aspects, but this is like another form of shadow that we also need to work with. Being able to see and accept what you’re putting in to world and the positives it brings is a beautiful thing. What happens is that we think of this as Ego and retreat in to being humble. I know this is what I’ve been doing and actually as a result, I’m not getting what I truly deserve because I don’t truly believe I deserve it.

This is one of the things that I’m trying to set about changing in myself because it’s part of my self-sabotage pattern and I know I’m fed up of living that pattern. In my bones, I feel that it’s time to step up and really be visible about the work that I do. I’m building my confidence. I’m getting better at accepting praise and I’m really listening and allowing the evidence to show me that this journey is well worth the graft. Look at what I can do – it’s magical but in the daily grind, the magic gets lost and forgotten. I want to be the person that still believes in the magic!

It can be overwhelming, but I’m learning that actually praise and kind words are how people are showing love and appreciation. I have to keep my heart open to this love. It doesn’t mean it’s going to my head and it doesn’t make me any less humble. It’s quite a difficult and new concept to me to be able to celebrate the good things that I have put in to the world and be proud of what I have achieved. It’s actually quite scary!

I’m conscious not to take anything for granted because I know where I came from. At the same time, I understand that if I am overwhelmed by it, I’m not in complete acceptance of it. It’s an interesting dilemma because the Ego is shouting “Be humble!” and at the same time you’re at the point where you can’t deny the evidence that’s put before you.

The trick is to define your own sense of identity because there is strength in having that sense of self. The Ego is the false identity and when it screams “Be humble!” at you, it is one of the ways in which it is holding you back and keeping you in the limitations that you’ve been taught.

I never really recognised this fully before now and working with it has been really challenging. I can say in my own mind I believe I make a difference and I’m starting to accept the evidence as real. Remember how deep set the ego ideas and beliefs are.

Defining your own sense of self takes time. I’ve been on this journey a while and I’m still finding false selves and as each mask falls away, it enables me to become more authentic, more real and more confident in my own definition of who I am.

I don’t want to be what I’m taught I have to be in this world. I don’t want to have limitations and restrictions placed on me.

I want to be able to share and celebrate the fullness of who I am. I want to believe that I can attract what I deserve. I want to believe that I truly deserve it.

If any of this resonates and you’re on the path trying to find ways to become who you came here to be, please get in touch with me. I love working with opening hearts and minds to all the possibilities!

 

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 16 – Flexible Strength

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a flexible strength that can adapt to any situation and yet remain rooted in, and moving toward, the purpose of your life.”

This pathway came at just the right time for me to integrate many of the lessons that I am learning on this journey. I’ve talked before about distraction and how sometimes being an empath can mean that you get absorbed and pulled in to everyone else’s stuff. We can feel resentful because our full focus is not on our own mission.

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been consciously looking at how I get pulled away and distracted and I’ve made a lot of changes. The first thing that I want to say is thank you to all the true friends that have understood that I’ve needed me and my work to come first. It’s appreciated more than you know.

One of aspects of this pathway is developing strength from the way that we look at the past. For those of you that know me, you’ll know I do a lot of work with the shadow aspect. The shadow is all about looking at all the things that you’re not so comfortable with and I feel that it’s a way of breaking down the ego.

The pathway talks about forgetting the past and just keeping going. I find this really interesting and I don’t take that literally. I think there is much to be gained by understanding that you can’t just put your past in a box and pretend that it doesn’t exist. Part of shadow work is to revisit some of the more uncomfortable parts and to work through them and with them in a way that allows us to learn more about who we are. This process helps us to accept parts of ourselves that we may have disowned because of shame or anger at the way we behaved. Learning love and compassion for yourself means that you have to go in and be able to accept all of this to be whole.

We all have parts of ourselves that we don’t care to name and shame because it is deeply troubling. These parts usually are distinguished as the judgements we make about others. It’s hard to accept that that’s ourselves being reflected back at us. I know when I first started working with my shadow aspects, it sent me in to deep despair and it was so easy to let those things bring me down. That was because I didn’t fully own them and I hadn’t healed from them and so they still had a lot of power of me as a person.

It is easy when we face adversity to act out old shadows. Sometimes it is that inner child surfacing and being able to face yourself takes courage. It means being able to feel pain, shame, anger, fear and know that it has a place within you along with everything else. The spiritual journey isn’t all love and light and rainbows and unicorns! There are times when it is deeply uncomfortable getting to the truth. And the truth isn’t always fashionable enough to wear so we wear a mask instead. All of this starts to become apparent as you work with the shadow. It takes courage and being human, sometimes my courage fails but I think even approaching your shadow is a good start.

I do this because I want to be authentically myself. Sometimes authenticity can get lost in politeness and people pleasing. You’ll notice how that feels in yourself and I know that I don’t like it. I don’t like letting people down but when it’s a choice between that and letting myself down, I’ve learnt that it’s not always easy to choose me. It’s something that will take time to master and there’s a lot to work through.

There is darkness within all of us but part of our inner work is to face it and begin the alchemical process of transmuting it and learning to shine light on it so that it becomes something more than just a painful memory. From this process, we develop the flexible strength that this pathway is teaching us about. A person is more than the sum of their parts. When we identify all the parts, we become that something more. This is what I’m talking about. It isn’t the easiest thing to name those parts and become that something more.

When you know yourself, you are truly resilient in the face of adversity. When you are reluctant to face all aspects of yourself, you’re likely to be triggered. I think it always goes, “Trigger first, lesson later!” We need time to ponder and reflect and life is amazing in the way that it presents the lessons to us on a plate. Each trigger is an opportunity to learn and grow. Sometimes it starts with a bitch and a vent, but as you work through it, you realise that you need to own that judgement that you’ve made because it’s showing you who you are. When you’re at peace with it, you’ll experience it without being triggered. This is true strength.

There’s “who we like to think we are” versus “who we actually are” and the ego likes to hold on to it’s ideas about our identity and how we define ourselves. We have deeply set ideas, some so deep set that we’ve yet to see them.

There’s always more to do in breaking down the ego and it can sometimes feel like you’re treading water and that you’ll never be free of it. Even that is an acceptance in itself. You are in the actual process when you acknowledge it and try to make peace with it. It always feels better to me to acknowledge that I am on my way to something. It’s the process that’s more important than the outcome. When we focus on the outcome, we realise that it’s too big. When we focus on the process, we see that we’re taking steps towards something. A step in the direction you’re choosing feels better than perfection.

It’s always interesting to say the least working with the shadow aspect. We start to discover just how many lies we have told ourselves – more than we care to admit. It’s a level of honesty that you can’t really be ready for when it hits you. It makes sense to do it though because you arrive at a truer version of yourself than the one you are now. Constantly moving and evolving to get to the truth of who you are is meaningful work and it grows you.

And once you start on the quest for truth, you can’t stop!

Energy Updates

Ascension Energy Update 20th November, 2018

Well there’s definitely been a massive shift in the ascension energy since Venus went direct on the 16th November. The thing that I’ve noticed is that all those lessons that we’ve learnt when it comes to relationships are at the forefront of our minds. There is a steely determination in the air and the vibe is centred about not going back to our old ways.

With this energy shift, there have been physical symptoms. For me, the amount of sleep I am needing has increased! The rest is an important part of any energy shift because our soul energy moves a lot faster than our physical mind and body does. We need to physically catch up and as we process, it can make our minds and bodies feel tired.

One thing that I feel strongly is to understand that everyone’s pace is different. I do however get the sense that once we have caught up (however long this takes) the energy will speed up and you’ll find yourself really getting to grips with what needs doing and following through on things that have been sitting for a while.

With this energy, there’s definitely a sense of sifting through and prioritising. I know that this is the energy because it isn’t a process that comes naturally to me. I feel a deep need to really connect in solitude and actually that’s guiding me to what the priorities are at any given time.

The energy is magical at the moment. So many signs and synchronicities. It feels like it has to be this way to get us to believe in the magic again! The energies have been so heavy over the past few months that this is much needed relief for us all.

It’s uplifting even if it making us feel sleepy! I’ve found so much more joy and laughter since the shift happened and this lightness brings with it a renewed hope and optimism.

It really is a magical time and a brilliant time to get things in motion. I know that Mercury is retrograde but I feel that it’s time to plan and put together the vision for the future. It feels like we have moved on from so much after Venus shifted and it has given much needed clarity.

Re-evaluating relationships was the focus of Venus retrograde and it’s beautiful how the lessons learnt are resulting in the way that we approach anything new. There is something cautious and protective in the energy, but at the same time it isn’t coming from a place of fear. It’s coming from heightened intuition and the resistance to learning lessons seems to be subsiding.

There is an openness to this energy and a willingness to welcome whatever emotions are coming to visit. It’s an expansive space and its fast paced. There is a lot of movement and almost like a feeling of whizzing through the air at times.

With Mercury Retrograde, it’s important to pay attention to the details for us to properly harness the energy. If you’re anything like me, you’ll get carried and not take account for the small print! I have to keep reminding myself. Checking in is important and remember not to go too fast with this because there is the potential for burnout.

It is reassuring to know that all is coming to fruition but the message that’s coming through really strongly is that we need to take everything at our own pace. You can’t swallow the entire ocean. You can only take a sip at a time. This energy is setting the tone for what’s to come and so on a practical level, now is the time to think about what you’d like to introduce in to your routine. Whether it’s new ways of thinking, new habits, structure, discipline. This will all be made easier because of the energy that we are in.

The Universe is supporting us to get to where we need to go. Most of the time, it can feel like the Universe is throwing us a curve ball and teaching us the lessons but this energy is lovely because it feels supportive, reassuring and energising in a way that I’ve not experienced to this extent before.

Take advantage of it! Also know that what’s meant for you is on it’s way and regardless of whether you consciously or subconsciously try to sabotage it, it’s all coming for you anyway. You’ll learn what you need to learn through the process but that which you desire is the thing to keep in mind.

Learn to become obsessed with visualising what you’d like this energy to bring you and watch as the Universe meets you and supports you to achieve and realise it. It’s a beautiful feeling to be able to believe in the magic again and I’m really loving what’s happening right now.

Remember when you feel the magic, you resonate that vibration and that vibration has an impact on others. The more you can harness that feeling, the more you are contributing to raising the vibration on this planet. We are all doing that. Even something as simple as being in a good mood or sending out good vibes makes a difference.

I hope you’re making the most of it! I’ve cracked on with more videos as a result of this little boost so if you’d like to take a look CLICK HERE! Get in touch if you’d like to share how you’re feeling about the future!

Until next time,

Love Hafsa