Energy Updates, Healing

The Rise of the Divine Feminine

The Power of the Divine Feminine

It’s been an interesting week this week as the energies seem to be ramping up. I remember towards the end of last year we were talking about the rise of the Divine Feminine and wowzers has that had an impact.

I don’t know if its just me and because I work with women, but there really does seem to be some fine tuning going on with the way that we are connecting with the Divine Feminine. It’s causing a bit of a clash between the different aspects of this energy.

On the one hand we have the softness, vulnerability and opening. On the other hand we have the wildness, the strength and the power of Femininity.

My view is that we are learning to be unashamedly ourselves and embrace whatever combination of these qualities that we hold. We are learning to harness and use these energies for ourselves and it is enhancing our power to create.

More than ever over the last few weeks in the healing room have seen a rise in the Kundalini energy and I’m working with more and more women who want to clear sexual trauma and explore their creative life force energy. The power of this energy for healing us in incredible and learning to use it is even more incredible.

Where the #metoo movement gave rise to an awareness of the power imbalance, the residue of this has been a real awakening of power for women as a collective. There really is a “Don’t take no shit” attitude at the moment and it isn’t directed at the opposite sex. There is a balance to be gained between feminine and masculine forces within us and it feels like we have to come full circle and experience these energies for us to come to balance within ourselves.

When you’re nailing it, it feels like intense creative flow, passion and alignment combined with purpose, intuition and what I can only describe as a recognition of our own resilience and “sturdiness.” Above and beyond anything, although this is a spiritual process the impact is in a very human way and it is helping us to navigate between the different dimensions and realms.

This creates movement and that’s been reflected in the shifts that clients are experiencing as a result of sessions. There really is a big change in the air and a redressing of balance when it comes to power.

Bring it on I say!!!

Energy Updates, Healing

No time for fake ones – Energy Update 28th July, 2018

Yo! Feeling a bit Gangsta Rap this week and the energies are seriously ramping up. If you’ve struggled with sleep and you’re feeling tetchy around people that are not authentic, welcome to New Earth! The energies around are about being real, saying it exactly how it is and unapologetically taking what’s rightfully yours. Entitlement, Power, Ownership. This is some strong ass energy coming through and it’s opening us all up to new experiences and new ways of thinking about the world. Personally, I bloody love this wild, wolf like sass that’s being unleashed. It’s bold, it’s brazen and it’s empowering. It’s about change and this is the crux. Change is inevitable and our experience of these energies is influenced by our willingness to accept change.

Expect all your old perceptions to be challenged on the deepest level that you can manage and remember the confusion is temporary. This is the bit where you start working it all out. This is when the pennies start to drop. The energies around us are helping us even though it seems like more of a hindrance because of the frustration or fear of change. There’s a lot of work around “old me” and “new me” and it’s uncomfortable. To the max – UNCOMFORTABLE but it’s necessary. Progress is found in the Dis-Comfort Zone so expect to be challenged and expect to feel uncomfortable. Style it out and see how the different aspects of “new me” feel to you. You’ll know quite quickly what’s authentically you and what’s not. I like this experimental aspect as it has a really open feel to it. It feels ok to explore and discover. We have this gateway open to lead us to who we are becoming.

The portals have opened up and Lightworkers are starting to gain clarity on their purpose and mission here on Earth. There really is no time to waste at all. The energy for action is there to be harnessed and it really is driving us forward without giving a shit about what’s logical. Heart led work and dropping all the old ideas and expectations of what we thought our work would be. The work is just the work. You’re delivering something a lot bigger than yourself but ironically this time is all about you. This is about what you can create. With planets in retrograde, people tend to think that they are being slowed down. That’s true to an extent, but it is a perception. The Universe is going at it’s own pace and it always will. It’s the pace of our progress that we need to understand and to take ownership of the fact that it is not dictated by external forces. The pace you work at within is the same pace as the Universe. Staying connected is literally all you need to do to align and get in to the flow. Allow the flow and keep moving inwards through connection. Even when we stand still, we are still moving. Our thoughts are still creating. Our ideas are in the process of manifesting. The key thing is the action that pushes through this energy and that’s where we are standing still as it feels like there is more confusion than clarity.

Remember that confusion is the process that leads to clarity. One simple way to work out the direction is to make a list of what you don’t want. Then take each item and find it’s opposite and that gives you a list of what you DO want. Simple…kind of lol but that’s just the starting point.

For me, the energy is wild and ready to be harnessed for forward movement. There have been a lot of bombshells dropping as a result of the Eclipse season. The mask has literally dropped off and there is no time for any bullshit. You can take things at face value or you can go deeper. You’re seeing what you didn’t see before and it is eye-opening.

As a result, you’ll be finding that you’re irritated and impatient around people that are not willing to take responsibility for themselves. Anything that doesn’t feel real and authentic will jar. Be more concerned with you than them and don’t be overpowered.

The theme in the healing room this week has been all about taking action. Ideas can stay ideas. To make them manifest, the energy needs to move through action. These energies are causing restlessness. If you don’t know what action to take, this makes it even more frustrating.

This energy feels like a pushy parent and I am certainly feeling it driving me and whipping me in to shape. It’s tough but its what’s needed.

All for the greater good knowing we have to go through what we have to go through to get to where we are going to.

Enjoy the ride!

Energy Updates

Opening the Heart Chakra

The Heart has been the focal point this week and the healing room has seen a great deal of anger and self-criticism trying to shift it’s way through clients. It seems to be that these are the things that we are working on collectively and there is so much in this that I had to write about it to take a closer look at what is the happening with the energies.

It is a time for change and I definitely feel that for myself and for all of my clients. Like I wrote in my last update, we are losing “old” version and integrating this newer updated version of ourselves. The way in which this is most noticeable is in our reactions and the way that we deal with things. Opening your heart up to loving yourself is one of the most challenging things to do. We find that we are often quite harsh on ourselves and developing that love and compassion towards ourselves is something quite alien. It’s almost as if we don’t even realise how much we are berating ourselves for the smallest things.

We are realising that we deserve so much better in all things. We are realising that with this build up of love and power, all things are possible as we learn to hold this new energy. I had one client who simply said, “Grrr! Why are you right?!”

It’s quite a big thing when you realise that you really aren’t the person that you thought you were. It’s even bigger to understand that you’ve got to try and love yourself anyway. Even if it feels like you don’t really know that new you that well. Your instinct is different and your reactions are different. It feels that we are in a place of spiritual limbo energetically because between losing the old you and becoming the new you, there is a void. One thing it is pushing us to do more and more is to be unconditionally loving towards ourselves and be ok with the not knowing what that final product (if there ever is one) looks like.

The void is an interesting energetic space because in it we find the anger, the self-criticism and the sense that we aren’t quite there yet. It is a frustrating space. I know first hand because I’ve really been feeling it, especially yesterday. There is no sound basis for the way that we feel and actually what we find is that we can always find a donkey to pin the blame on.

In actual fact, when you break it down, you realise that you are in a transitional space and transitional energies can seriously mess with your head if you don’t come back down to earth and stay grounded. The situations in our lives become the reasons for the way we feel because it makes us feel better to have some rational explanation for how we feel.

It could be anything and everything that you blame. When you ask yourself how you really feel about that situation, it opens you up to acceptance. What’s actually happening is that heart chakra is being wrenched open and all the emotion is pouring out of it. Can you be ok with that?

The Heart Chakra has really been the focal point for the healing room this week. It feels like all of our hearts are opening to self-love more than anything else. With this opening, we are beginning to release old feelings of being unworthy, of loss, of grief, of sadness. With the Heart Chakra opening comes a renewed sense of purpose and being which feels refreshingly different.

Since the beginning of the year, the focus has been on authenticity and getting real with yourself and the people around you. It has been about finding yourself, shedding what no longer serves you and letting go of the past. Now that the bulk of that work has happened, it’s like the words “What now?” are flashing in front of you and there is a need to know and have it all worked out.

We are still releasing and the picture will take a little longer to emerge. The thing that helps me the most is remember that this is the creation phase and so the energies that we bring in to this space matter. If we can see the clearing as a positive thing, it helps us to stay focused on the purpose. Clearing is a good thing. It is releasing from a heart centred place.

We are learning to hold the energy of joy from the heart. Whereas before it has been suffering that we held in the heart space, this energy is one that feels like it’s bobbing up and down and making us feel motion sickness. It’s acclimatising to the feeling of joy and being able to hold that. We’re bound to feel a little sea-sick with it but breathe it in and hold it and brace yourself for what’s coming next.

It really does feel like great hope on the horizon. I know many of my clients are at that stage in the healing cycle where they are learning to hold their own energy and learning to fly can be tricky!

All things now seem possible…hold tight!

 

Energy Updates, Healing

The Old Me Died – Help!

The theme from the Healing Room this week has been about getting comfortable with this new version of ourselves. There’s a deep sense of loss that comes when we have changed so much and can be difficult to cope with.

For myself and many of my clients, the theme over the last couple of weeks has been the realisation that we aren’t who we used to be. It’s time to step up. Noticeably so, a lot of my clients are at the stage where their old ways and habits just don’t fit anymore. They’ve noticed that they’ve also shed a lot of the baggage, including people in their lives. We’ve talked about this a little in previous blogs because I know it’s been happening for a lot of people as part of the Universal energy shifts.

When we shed, it creates a void. It feels energetically that we have been living in this limbo/void stage for a while now but this week it really seems to have shifted to allow the new stuff to begin it’s manifestation. When you’ve shed and worked through your baggage, what you’ve actually been doing is preparing yourself ready for what you’re about to receive.

We grieve the loss of who we were because it involves a little bit of our Ego dying. The Ego that tells us what to do to stay safe. When your heart over-rides this, there’s a lot of discomfort that follows.

This is one of the things that we have been dealing with this week. Personalities have changed. Priorities have changed. And now what we’re noticing is that because of this inner change that’s already taken place, it’s manifesting on the outside. We receive when we are ready and so clearing the old vibrational energies out and integrating the new ones is a vital step in the manifestation process.

You’d think when you got what you asked for, you’d be ok with it all though, right? However, it’s useful to know that it can create a great sense of overwhelm.

Am I ready? Can I cope? Is it really happening? Do I deserve it?

All these questions are the old Ego fear just whispering in your ear trying to put you off. Keep listening to your heart and let it guide the way for you.

There are some amazing changes happening for my clients. Many of them have been asking for clarity with certain situations and it has been delivered. So now they know what to do as a result of getting the information they needed to make the decisions.

It’s crunch time. It’s time to follow through.

It’s also time to enjoy the results of the hard work that you have put in and enjoy the lovely delights the Universe is bringing your way!

It really has been a whirlwind couple of weeks for many of us, and now we are entering Eclipse season so prepare to do it all again!!

Energy Updates

Alternative Energy Update 18th June, 2018

I’ve not done one of these for a while and I have a confession to make. I’m not sure if I want to continue with these in the same format as a whole lot has changed for me over the last month or so.

Some of you will know that I have been fasting. I am a Muslim and I observe Ramadhan as one of the 5 pillars of Islam. During this period of time, I have learnt a lot about myself and I also took the opportunity to learn more about my faith.

“What do I believe in?” It’s an interesting question to ask yourself. I’ve always been one of those people who wanted to know why this and why that and so I’ve kind of gone off on a tangent with things. It was strange during Ramadhan because I knew I had committed to writing these regular energy updates. I know they are useful for people going through the various changing collective energies, but for some reason I found myself questioning whether or not they were still relevant for me.

So when something is relevant for your audience and isn’t 100% resonating with yourself – what do you do? This is the question that I ask myself. I didn’t want to force myself to write and feel compromised and so this post is more my own inner exploration of whether I should continue or not.

It’s sort of an experimental post in that I do not as yet have an answer to the question of whether I will continue or not. I always say that I don’t truly know how I feel about something until I’ve written about it and so it feels strange to do this in a public space, however it is helping me to get over some of the blocks I have to sharing. This is why I decided to do it in this way and none of this was edited post writing.

It is simply a stream of consciousness.

So to energy updates and I’m trying to work out whether or not I should continue with them. I’ve fallen out of love with the idea of Ascension in a way. I do believe that we are all on our personal journey of transformation. I also believe that people are experiencing similar frequencies in the way that they experience change. I believe it isn’t one size fits all.

I have also come to think about the information that is being given out through these updates and I’m not sure that I want to be the “director” of this information for a number of reasons, mainly the paragraph directly above this one.

Whether you call it Ascension or Enlightenment doesn’t even matter so much anymore. I have always been of the persuasion that you take what resonates and then explore the rest for yourself and find your own reasoning. I’m sure that’s what people do with the information anyway – I just felt the need to reiterate that.

As I write, an idea has just struck me. What if instead of a weekly energy update, I went in to the themes that emerge in the healing room each week? A lot of what I write in these energy updates picks up on these themes and so I think this may be a more helpful way of addressing the different energies that emerge during the healing process.

When you break it down, any Ascension or Enlightenment journey is actually all about self-healing and learning about yourself. This is the journey that I am on and I know that it is the journey that many of my students and clients are on. I like the idea of continuous evolution and exploration and this is a lovely space in which I am able to share that with my audience.

I am almost certain that these updates in future will be themes from the healing room and my own personal themes as I evolve. There is something that feels very real and transparent to me by going back to basics. It feels like this is what is happening through my work and it is a very powerful shift. It is moving from the person I think I should be to who I am and although it is challenging, I think it is probably one of the biggest shifts that I have undertaken. Deciding to do things differently and my sense tells me that this is just the beginning. There is something very expansive about this energy. It’s again peeling off the mask and revealing more and more. Things always get blurred, then you focus and more is revealed. Amazing and expansive.

When you learn Reiki, you learn that Master Usui called it his “Method to achieve Personal Perfection” and so it is always about being the best that we can be in any given situation. Personal perfection is about continuously awakening to yourself, recognising yourself and being aware of your surroundings and how you mesh with them. Perfection itself is a myth, but it is the journey of travelling towards it and coping with the big and small changes that it brings as you adapt to a new way of being. This in a nutshell is what it is all about for me. It is that very real and pure acceptance of the imperfections that lie within us all. Complete acceptance of where we are and what is happening. These are the themes that we find challenging because we are always on a quest to make it how we “want it to be.”

This then brings me to my faith and one of the things that I have really come home to through this month of fasting is surrender. Complete faith and surrender and the same theme of acceptance rings out loud and clear for me. It is not, nor will it ever be, about what it “should” look like or what “should be happening.” It is taking a step back and surrendering to the idea that everything is good for you. Everything is happening perfectly, by design and what you do in this particular moment helps to design what comes next for you.

Can you accept it if it isn’t how you planned it? That brings me to realise that when I set out with this commitment to providing regular energy updates, it felt right for me in that moment. I felt I had a voice and space to give that and share the experience. We are in a time where that information is readily available to you and there are others who can provide this for you in a more authentic way than I am able to do so at this time.

My heart is saying write from your heart. Write what you are feeling, share the experiences of the students and clients that come to you and do this with the aim of simply being able to share. There is no real purpose other than it makes my heart happy and I’m cool with that. It isn’t so much about the energy and where it is taking us – although I do still keep an eye on that!

It’s more about being human, living and integrating this in to your day to day life. It is about what your mind, your body and your soul are doing together and how connected you feel to inner yourself, your life, your purpose. It’s about what you’re going to do about it. That’s more me. My voice matters more here than anywhere else and it’s my way of helping people navigate the collective shifts on this planet. The term “Ascension Guide” doesn’t fit for me in the way that it used to. I can leave that to others and focus on what I need to share that’s related to my own purpose and service here on Earth.

So in future, these updates will be titled, “Themes from the Healing Room” (and everyone in it, including me!) as this is what is feeling good for me to do right now. If it’s energy updates and Ascension information you’d like, I can point you towards Vaz Sriharan. (Click here)Vaz is one of the most credible and authentic voices in this field of work and I continue to follow his work. He’s humbly living this journey the same as us all and sharing his experience being of service in the way that’s most authentic to him. I respect and admire that!

In essence, we all have our own way of making a contribution and being of service and I’m still finding mine so thank you for your patience. You know we are all a work in progress and always will be!

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 12 – Al Muhsi – Assessing What Is

I started this pathway at the beginning of Ramadhan and now feels like a good time to write about it.

“When you are drawn to this pathway, take the opportunity to stop and look through the eyes of Divine clarity at your life as it is right now.”

If this Ramadhan has taught me anything at all, it is mindfulness and being present. A lot of crap has been happening and a lot of good things have been happening too. I’ve been looking at the way I manage myself through these situations.

As someone who suffers from anxiety, this pathway again has taught me acceptance of things as they are now. I’ve said this before but you don’t necessarily have to like what’s happening to accept it. When you reject it, it creates a whirlwind of anxiety and feels overwhelming.

Sometimes you have to cut through the crap of what you want things to be or how you think things should be. At the root of it is what is happening RIGHT NOW and often we look at situations through a different lens. We stay in disappointment when we focus on as we want it to be. Nothing in life is going to be that picture perfect. Every moment is leading you to the next moment and everything is temporary and transitory. It’s very much what you choose to believe that has an impact on hardening or softening your anxiety.

The perfection is in this present moment. Accepting what IS can be really challenging because it involves surrendering. This is the ego as it starts to fall away. The ego is what you believe to be true and when that goes, parts of your identity start falling away with it. I could go a whole lot deeper with this idea, but I will save this for another post! Suffice to say that we are working with what we believe to be true in so many ways and the way we assess “what is” has a lot to do with what we believe to be true. It is always laced with judgement about our current situation.

It’s amazing how much stress falls away when you bring your mind to what is happening right now as if that is all there is. It is one of those things that you have to keep reminding yourself of. One of the things that I have been doing that has really helped me this Ramadhan is to try and be in this state of continuous dialogue with my Creator.

It helps because it means that you are talking to your Creator as if you are talking to yourself which makes you more conscious of the things that you are saying. It means that you can continuously ask for the help that you need in every moment. It also means that you can spend a lot more time in the here and now. When the worries come up, you can ask for help with them and then go back to noticing what is around you and expressing gratitude for it. It alleviates a great deal of stress for me!

It’s funny but what prompted me to write this post makes me chuckle now. I’m sat at Bru on my laptop as I write this. I’m waiting on a call from the garage because I took my car in for a service this morning. They’ve called me once already to tell me there’s work to be done and it’s going to cost me more than I thought. I felt a slight panic as I don’t actually have the money for it. That’s what credit cards are for and I’m grateful that I can defer payment but as the time comes closer to paying that bill, I can see the panic setting in. So as always, I have asked God to find me a way and holding on to that Golden Thread because everything happens for a reason.

Now, in this moment, I have two choices. I can either worry that I won’t have the money or I can trust that it will come from somewhere. I know what happens when I go in to worry. It means that I am not being present and I can get taken off on a tangent. The other option is to stay in the moment and focus on what I am doing right now which is to keep writing this post. Keep writing and just not think about something that hasn’t happened yet.

Now I know how my mind works and I will be back and forth from this thought about how I’m going to pay that bill but if I allow it to distract and then consume me, I am not going to be able to focus on getting anything done. Do you see how it works?

I have to accept that it has happened for a reason and use it to keep me focused on what I am doing. That is the clarity that this pathway talks about. It is clarity about my purpose. There’s something very magical about this present moment. It is a state of empowerment and clarity. It is a place of self-mastery. It’s understanding that you can deliver your purpose and all you need to do is stay focused on the actions that will help you to do this. I know for a fact that is all I need to do. Everything else is taken care of. Sustenance and provision is something that comes from that same Source. Creator provides. One way or another, I know it’ll be taken care of and so when I think of it like that, the worry begins to melt away.

Life is one of those things that is unpredictable. That’s a given. There is always uncertainty and that’s a given. However, if we embrace it and see where it takes us, it can feel expansive and exciting. If we worry, our energy contracts and we can’t see past the end of our own noses.

Life as it is right now.

What does that mean? It means looking around for things to appreciate. It means being thankful that the help is there. One of the big things for me working with this pathway is being able to see that some things happen so that other things can happen. We don’t always realise at the time, but what will happen for us in the future is dependent on what is happening now.

So if I look at this bill, perhaps this is what will create abundance for me. I know it’s money going out, but it is an opportunity to keep wealth circulating and by doing that I have contributed to the way the world goes round.

Everything is a dependency. I may be a speck in the grand design of this Universe, but I am a deliberately designed speck with a purpose. If we focus inward, we can create a sense of inner stability that we ride on when there is nothing certain in outer world. It is knowing that we are part of something greater and that there are other things that are dependent on us. Therein we do not exist in isolation, even when the world’s problems are beating down on us and it doesn’t feel like there is a way out. What happens next is dependent on this present moment.

Cultivating inner stability allows you to grow and change. I know even a year ago, this bill would have pushed me over the edge. It comes down to our outlook and belief that things are always getting better for us. Whatever is sent for us is good for us. This is an opportunity to trust in abundance even if things don’t look the way I want them to look right now. At least I have a car that is roadworthy and it’ll keep me safe.

ENABLING yourself with these beliefs is the way to create the way you want to be feeling right now. The way you feel is what creates the next thing. That is Law of Attraction in a nutshell.

If you can look around and be happy with what you have and be in acceptance of all of it, it helps. It is understanding that as you look around, everything is already changing because everything is temporary. Sometimes, it can feel as though nothing is really happening but life and the whole Universe is in continuous motion. When I think about this, it blows my mind. You can sit still and watch the whole Universe moving around you know that you too are moving even if you don’t feel it. It’s crazy!

I’ll conclude this pathway by asking you to take a moment today to sit still and notice at how much has moved for you. Think about the things you can’t see and the things that you can. Understand that you are in constant motion. Take a breath and allow yourself to catch up with THIS present moment.

Let me know how it feels!

Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 28th May, 2018

Hey hey!! It’s an interesting time energy wise. I was teetering on the edge of whether or not to do an energy update this week. I’m fasting at the moment and so my energy has been all over the place while I adjust. I decided to put off doing an update until I felt in a place where it wouldn’t be clouded with the distortion.

It got me thinking though in the sense that we are never separate from everything else that is happening in the universe and so maybe the collective is experiencing the same distortion? I know there are millions of people fasting around the world and it is a time for conscious reflection and inner change. This is a Universal theme and one that we are all working with. I certainly feel that fasting has given me an accelerated feeling in terms of this inner reflection and change and there is a lot to be said for the growth that comes as a result.

There is a full moon tomorrow and that explains why I’ve been grumpy and inwards the last couple of days. This new moon feels intense and serious. It feels like it is consolidating change and for those of you who have been feeling the build up, it feels like this is about setting in the changes of the past few months. It hasn’t been an easy trip, but it is lovely to feel at the point where we are integrating lessons.

Sometimes we are receiving lessons and that’s when everything is changing around us and it moves so fast and we have to deal with things whether we like them or not. And sometimes, you get this lovely energy of integration. It still pushes us, but in a very different way.

The theme of the last couple of months has been this idea of being aware of your part in everything and so with this knowledge it feels like we are beginning to learn how to direct our own lives and guide ourselves towards our future.

Try as much as possible to notice the inner changes. Who have you gone off? What are you finding difficult to tolerate? What’s starting to wind you up and why? Pay attention to the answers. Look at where you’re blaming others and when you’re blaming yourself.

There’s a tricky aspect to this energy in that it is breaking down the Ego and the sense of identity to the extent where we are experiencing such a massive void that we feel lost. In that place, any sense of purpose or belonging goes out of the window. You need to feel lost in order to find your way. If anything, it will tell you whether you continue on the same path or change direction. There is nothing finite in the decisions that we make for ourselves and it is ok to change to something that feels better for us if that’s necessary.

You may find that some things just don’t seem to want to work out and you may just have to accept that it isn’t the right time. It’ll keep and come back around when the time is right.

All in all, really interesting energies this week. Personally, I’m feeling pulled inwards and will likely stay there until the Full Moon has passed. Full moons are usually a deeper cleansing so a lot of us are going to really be feeling it. Expect to be a little mardy…it’s all good.

It does feel like victory is just around the corner though so hang in there. Personal battles fought and won is the theme of this moon for me. Hang tight and see you on the other side!

 

Energy Updates, Healing

Energy Update 15th May, 2018

Wowzers! It’s been one hell of a rollercoaster ride with the energy and so I thought it was timely to do an update on what’s happening with the energy.

More emotional than physical over the last week or so and some of us have noticed all of our demons rising up to the surface in a way that enables us to really see ourselves in a different light. The light being shone is brutally honest and so we are starting to see the good, the bad and the ugly in ourselves. It can come as a bit of a shock, and the revelations are set to keep coming. All the things that we have been battling against have been in our faces in a way that really allows us to see the choices that we have been making. I use the past tense because there is a sense of bringing things to light in order to make different choices for ourselves.

By showing us what we need to see at this time, this energy has been taking us downwards and deeper in to the work that we need to do on ourselves. It has been like taking a bird’s eye view, out of body perspective of our life choices and seeing it is a wake up call to choose what really matters. It allows us to understand self-sabotage and watch it while it is happening knowing that we are changing and that we have the power to choose differently.

Although intense and often painfully honest, if you can maintain the bird’s eye perspective and harness this energy, it is truly liberating. There is something fresh and exciting about making different choices. The energy itself feels heavy and although we may decide to choose differently, there is a sense of being pulled back in to old patterns.

Ride the storm as it is going to be changeable. It’s likely that where you have chosen to do something differently, that old 3D energy will pull you back and dilute your determination. This is simply coming to show you that change happens slowly and it takes time for patterns to change.

There is an excitement that comes with this energy, especially when you see the possibilities of what can change if you can change and do things differently. This energy can be empowering, but like with anything has it’s shadow so it’s being aware that if it feels debilitating, it is only temporary.

We are shifting through to something better, and it can only be good for us. Everything is good for us, if only we could see it when we go through it! The beautiful thing about this energy is that we are seeing ourselves going through it, healing from it and really trying to make the most of living.

Feelings will come and go, but live needs to be lived regardless because it is temporary. I think the weather is showing that. All the signs are there, we just need to listen and pay attention and allow ourselves to be guided through.

If anything, this energy is showing us how to navigate life. 3D/5D doesn’t matter so much anymore. None of that matters. Do YOU that’s all it is teaching you to do. Learn YOU and do YOU in the most authentic way that you can.

Peace and blessings, and enjoy the ride!

Love Hafsa

99 Pathways of the Heart

Pathway 11 – Al-Musawir – Designing and Training

 

Now this pathway I found really interesting for where I am in my life. I have just been away to Istanbul. My second visit to what I consider in many ways to be a spiritual home.

I was called the first time, and fortunate enough to be called again. The first trip triggered a long process of cleansing and clearing, and those experiences led me to where I am at now. All the good, the bad and the ugly that needed to be raised to make me who I am was as a result of that trip and I’m certainly grateful for it. Although at the time, I had no idea that it would be the catalyst for such massive change.

I feel as if everything that I had asked for on that first trip had been achieved so going back felt like closure in a way. A feeling of peace and gratitude, but also space to shape the next phase of my life.

This pathway gave me just that. It is about shaping our lives, but also allowing ourselves to be shaped through our experiences. It highlights that the Divine shapes and moulds us in to what we are through our experiences and that process is one of continuous evolution.

For me, this pathway made me think again about who I want to be. I felt like I have grown in to the person I wanted to be, but sometimes when that process is complete, there is a void to fill.  The pathway shows us that we are being moulded and kneaded in to shape all of the time. This can either feel like we want to escape life or embrace it – and it very much depends on how much we are able to surrender to the process.

While I was away, I had some magical experiences and moments of insight and wisdom. You know when you cross paths with strangers and the words exchanged are just what you needed to hear and the answer is clear? Those sorts of experiences that I will cherish and never forget. Accidental happenings that answered the questions I was seeking answers to.

Practicing this pathway made me realise that the route to getting here was a long journey of many steps, yet I was feeling so impatient about knowing the answers and for me, it showed me that the answers keep revealing themselves. Sometimes you just have to relax and it becomes crystal clear.

The first stage is this concept of surrendering and accepting that I do not know best. It’s funny that when you allow yourself to be guided, everything becomes a message from the Divine and you can feel your heart talking to you and leading you to where you need to be. For me, surrender has always been challenging and I am still working on it. I noticed pretty much straight away how much expectation plays a role in my suffering and sense of control. Surrender means acceptance of everything, good and bad and saying I am happy with this. I thought I had this down, but exploring this pathway made me see my inner control freak in full blown technicolour. It also made me look at my Ego in a different way, and helped me to see aspects of my shadow that I had been avoiding looking at.

This places control in a different light in that we try so hard to avoid confronting the shadow aspects of ourselves. We feel guilt and shame for feeling the way we feel about certain things, and this is something that we hold. Using this pathway, surrendering those feelings simply by acknowledging that they were present within me gave me a sense of peace. It also gave me permission not to be in control, and a realisation that I could experience this shadow aspect without causing any harm to anyone else.

I think as human beings, we have an idea of what a “good” person should or should not think or do and when we have emotions that conflict with this, it becomes difficult to deal with because we feel like it makes us a bad person and it is shameful. Through this pathway, I felt like I was learning all over again to be responsible for everything I was feeling and to really own it. It is difficult to own your Ego and overcome shadow feelings. Sometimes we feel bitterness, resentment, irritation, anger, impatience, envy, rejection, sadness, misery but we think we can not feel it fully because it has an impact on the people around us. Sure, people may notice that you are not yourself, but you can not harm them with what you are feeling. You only harm yourself by not honestly facing what is there.

This pathway about designing and training is about living honestly and understanding the contrast that the shadow aspects of yourself allow you to see. By avoiding the shadow, there is a clear message that these are emotions you do not want to feel. This resistance is also a resistance to allowing the Divine to shape you. It contradicts acceptance and surrender to all things that are bestowed on you, regardless of how it all feels to you.

By knowing what you don’t want, ultimately you understand what you do want. I felt like the counter emotion to all these shadow aspects I was discovering is Love. When I asked myself, “How do I want to redesign my life?” the answer is with Love. To work through your shadows, you need Love. To ensure your reality feels good to you, you need Love. To surrender, you need Love.

The pathway is about continuous evolution and the way Creator changes us over time, and in our darkest moments we forget that even that is out of Love. This whole process of being human with all it’s intricacies is made easier with Love.

I remember how it used to be before I came to this path. I always used to think “Why me?” when I recalled all the moments of darkness, all the painful experiences, all the suffering I felt I had to go through. It all makes perfect sense though when I think about it because I needed to go through all that to be here doing this. You never grasp it at the time, but there are some experiences that are absolutely necessary as without them, you can not appreciate the fullness of your gifts here on Earth.

Finally, for me this pathway was very much about getting out of my own way and almost disappearing to allow the life force to work on moulding me. The trouble with the human mind is that it always has an opinion on what is happening! This pathway has taught me neutrality in it’s purest sense and given me a sense of curiosity. It taught me that I can set an intention and ask for something and it will be received. However, the way I receive it and the timing are not things I have any control over. It allowed me to pose the question, “What happens if I do nothing?” and I was finding clear guidance and signs and synchronicities as a result. It gave me confirmation that there are signs, and the path is lit up, but we are so caught up in trying to control and mould our own lives that we forget that there is a bigger picture. This higher plan will play out regardless of whether we do or we don’t.

From this, I took away something very important and that is the feeling of peace that comes with accepting the good and the bad and being happy with all emotions. Although we may not entirely be convinced that what happens to us is for the best, if we can see that it isn’t the end point and take the lessons that it brings, it gives us peace. Where my Ego would say that’s passive, it makes sense to just drop it and get out of my own way by saying, “Yes ok – thank you because I know this is leading me somewhere.” The critical learning is that in that moment of GRRRR – it isn’t the end point yet your ego will make you feel like it is. Continuous motion, continuous learning and continuous evolution. If you grasp this, life becomes something very different and the joy comes back. It is, in itself, a way of connecting and staying connected through the pain.

When you reject a situation, you become separated and disconnected from Source and it feels that there is no help and support. Why would Creator do this to you? As Rumi said, “The cure is in the pain.” In actual fact, it is an opportunity for you to accept and be the closest that you can be to Creator. Those painful emotions are a way of bringing you closer to the Truth but it is only through facing those shadows that we get there.

The pathway recommends that we get a feel for the design of our lives even if all the steps are not clear yet. It also suggests that we look at what’s going on inside us with love and discipline to clear and dissolve. It shows us that there isn’t an end point. Nothing is good and nothing is bad. It is all purely experience that shapes us.

It may not make sense at the time, but it will one day. For me, it is stepping back and allowing these experiences to support personal perfection, learning and growth. It is not judging the feelings and experiences and it is understanding that Love changes and moulds everything.

Energy Updates

Energy Update 4th May, 2018

Let’s get straight in to it with this energy update. There has certainly been a shift in the energy and I feel we are still in the clearing phase of this shift following the full moon.

For a lot of people, it is a feeling of being stuck, stagnant. Wanting to do things, or knowing what needs to be done but no energy or action happening. There is a lot of thought and little action.  Try not to get frustrated. Everything has it’s own time.

The energy at the moment seems to be around the higher chakras. Plenty of energy and ideas coming in but it feels like treacle as soon as it hits the heart chakra with very little movement. I’ve definitely seen this a lot in the healing room, and I am experiencing this myself. We simply have to stay open to allow this energy to pass through. My feeling is that it is also training us to get out of our own way, but more on that as it comes through.

Over the last few week, we have all been experiencing a sense of losing aspects of our identity. Old ideas and patterns are no longer working, and it feels like we have to forge a new way. It is particularly challenging when the energy is not travelling as we would wish it to so the transition is not as fluid as we would like it to be. As well as this, we have gone through a shedding process. For some it has been dramatic changes. For others, the “Aha!” moments that lead you to question why you’re doing certain things. For me, it has been a mixture of the two. I think I said this in a previous update, but as the changes are happening on the inside, it takes time before they materialise on the outside. It really is a time to consolidate and integrate the changes.

Transition. I think this is the theme for the week. We are in another cosmic holding space and the lessons of patience and trust are all pertinent yet again at this time. Physically we are caught in the “Stop” and “Go” energy so it feels like going round in tiny tiny circles and although it feels like there is a lot going on up there, it isn’t translating in to material reality. Even though we feel sluggish and at a loss in terms of what to do, it is really important to prepare for what is to come. Mentally gear yourself up to be in the mindset of creating and receiving. If there is something that you have wanted for a while, think about what you can do to prepare to receive it as it’ll help the energy along.

For a lot of us, we are finding that things, people, situations that we once used to resonate with are not supporting us in the same way and it has been a time for letting go. It almost feels like a transition towards independent thinking and living. We were waiting for this stage of ascension, but now that it is here, we feel lost in transit. It’s like being on a carousel not knowing where you’ll eventually end up and you won’t be moving towards it until you accept the uncertainty that comes with it. Don’t hold any guilt or sadness for the people and situations you have left behind. Clear your slate at this time, and it will help you to clear your heart.

For me personally, I have been following Ascension energy updates and I feel that where they once filled a void in terms of making sense of the world, they do not resonate in the same way. I can only write on my own experience of the energies as a way of establishing my own truth. Those that resonate will follow, and those that go off me are free to do so. At this time, I can’t stress how important authenticity is and that there is no point in pretending anymore. It feels as if we have gone to the point where pretending feels so uncomfortable that we avoid it at all costs. You may have noticed that you don’t want to be around inauthentic people, or people who hold you to certain expectations.

We are each in search of the truth and the process at the moment is challenging us to really look long and hard at what we believe to be true and question why we believe it to be so. Challenging the feelings that we get helps us to go within to determine if its something to keep or lose or sit on until it’s certain. It is even more challenging when it feels like that feeling of certainty doesn’t appear to be there in the same form that it used to appear to us. New gifts and new ways of noticing are opening up at this time. This forces us to really go within and work from the inside out. Those feelings are all still there, and it feels like we’re going to have to get used to squinting before we can fully see this and get used to this way of looking at things.

There is a lot of light coming in and this is quite demanding on us physically as it filters it’s way through. I’ve noticed palpitations and pulsing as the light comes in. There is a tendency for overwhelm, and some random bouts of tears but when you allow this, it opens you up to receive more.

Hold tight as I feel that change really is imminent. The most challenging part of this transition is holding this energy as it feels like we are collapsing under the weight of the sheer immensity of the light coming in. Know that you only get as much as you can handle, and you can ask for it to be turned down if it is all too much for you. There is a sense of magic on the horizon and you can feel the buzz. Try to enjoy where you’re at now. It’s all too easy to keep asking “are we there yet?” and that takes away from the experience of expansion and growth. Remember you can grow standing still and you can grow while you’re moving. Often we forget that when there is little progress to be seen, there is a great deal going on behind the scenes to put it all together. Try and keep this in mind as you ride this energy wave.

Until next time, take care, rest up and enjoy the ride if you can!

Love Hafsa