99 Pathways of the Heart

99 Pathways of the Heart – Maintaining and nourishing yourself

“When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to feel a very steady yet powerful state of awareness in your being that maintains and nourishes you and others.”

This is the pathway that I’ve been reflecting on this past week and it is one that presents plenty of challenges for me. Embodying a steady state is something that I have been working on for as far as I can remember. For me, there is a juxtaposition here with being a free spirit.

This pathway requires pulling yourself inwards whilst you experience life. Being a free spirit, it’s easy for my heart to be called elsewhere. I want to talk about this because for me it is one the most challenging aspects of who I am as a person. This is where the conflict lies and I’m noticing that it is how my power escapes sometimes.

I know I have this immense reservoir of love within me and the capacity to nourish and give to others. This pathway takes me further in to using this source to help maintain myself and it is this very thing that I have been trying to do for a long time. This pathway has helped me to uncover a whole other level and given me an awareness and perspective that goes deeper.

For those of us that are empathic, it’s very easy to relegate our own needs in order to serve others. We think that this is why we came here – to serve. That’s part of it but not the whole of it.

This pathway really made me look at the way I give and the expectations that I have created from others around me. When I began to pull it back and go within, what struck me is how very little I have given myself. With a reservoir so large, it’s almost as if I think can survive on a lot less from the pot so rather than taking from it, I put in to it. This brings up feelings of guilt and feeling selfish. At the same time, I look around me and notice that perhaps I feel this more because of the belief that I came here to serve. There are deep set emotions here about worthiness attached to this and whether I deserve to take when I can give so much. It became obvious to me that there was very little balance in my life when it came to this.

It’s been a really challenging week and working with this pathway has actually made me feel really sad. I have to be raw and honest about how I feel. That’s what this space is for and it needs to be expressed.

The pathway also reminds me that I must not overextend myself. This is what occurred to me and I can see clearly where I am doing this. I can blame being an empath to some extent but the truth of it is that I have plenty of fleeting whims and distractions all created by my ego to prevent me from embodying this state. I can see that very clearly. I realised that I can’t hide behind anything anymore. Especially not when it has been shown to me this clearly. When you realise how little you have given yourself, it brings up anger and resentment and I’ve had to spend a lot of time working with this. I’ve allowed this and I forgive myself. I can change and that is what I am doing. Easy statements to make but if you’ve ever gone through this, you’ll know the raw emotion it brings up.

This idea of sacrifice comes with this type work and it’s something that keeps coming up for me to clear away. The idea that being in service should be at the expense of your own self simply isn’t true. I am entitled to a life just like everyone else. There’s a paradox here as the “service” is actually what I have chosen to do. It’s my own path I’m creating so it is as much for me as it is for humanity. The ego makes you choose one or the other and we are conditioned to believe that choosing service to others is the better thing to do. In actual fact, we can have both but it takes a lot of unlearning which I am still learning to do.

When I call the ego out on this, the contradictions are so very obvious. There is so much pain in saying goodbye to old ways of being. I’ve always tried to be conscious of what my ego is doing and exploring the pathways has brought up a lot of wounds that need to be healed within myself.

It isn’t easy getting the balance within yourself between serving others and serving yourself. We are brought up with conditioning that tells us that putting ourselves first is selfish. We’re taught a linear way of thinking that suggests that if we think about ourselves first, it means that we don’t care about others. It’s difficult to shift to a way of thinking that enables you to be equal to others and there’s a perception that to consider yourself equal equates to being egotistical. It gets really complicated because you can think this logically in your head but when the feelings of guilt show themselves, your heart gets pulled straight back. This is what I’m grappling with.

I’m always banging on about self-worth and I’m a work in progress but what I am learning here has come at a critical time for me. My life is interesting because of the demanding nature of my work. I get phone calls and text messages all the time asking me all sorts of things. I’ve always felt the need to answer and help and I don’t regret helping. I do sometimes resent the demands and that’s me being really honest. I take full responsibility for this now where in the past I’d have blamed others. I’ve created and met these expectations without even thinking about it and it’s difficult to undo without experiencing emotional turmoil. Meeting demands is what I’ve been looking at taking a step back from because there is a line where my work ends and I begin and that can get blurred very easily. Even though boundaries have been set, a plea for help is a plea for help and my heart isn’t one that can ignore it easily. So it’s been an emotional time because for each time that has happened, I’ve had to ask myself who I am putting first. I’m learning to deal with the emotion that comes with it and I can tell you it isn’t easy but it is necessary. This is a spiritual lesson that needs to be learned.

A strong feeling of discomfort comes from taking a step back. It’s like going against what your heart is telling you when you don’t reply to a plea for help but I had to explore this feeling for myself. It feels as if people are relying on me. It feels that there is an urgency for them that I am ignoring and that somehow makes me a bad person. Again, this linear way of thinking is one I’m learning to undo because a lot of that conditioning simply isn’t true.

What I have realised with this pathway is that I go deep and I do have a lot to give. My priority has become to maintain that within myself. Embodying a steady state of awareness and power is important but I didn’t realise how important it was for maintaining and nourishing myself. I thought I was doing that and I know now that I am not doing enough of it. The reason for this is the raw emotion, the guilt, the anger, the feeling selfish that I’m still learning to overcome. And all this just to feel equal to others! It’s mind blowing because I thought I was overcoming myself in terms of self-worth but there’s always more I need to be shown and more I need to do.

It’s interesting because although I do take a lot of time for myself and I switch off when I have to, I’ve developed some sticky habits when it comes to work. It’s the belief that work overrides everything because of it’s nature. It doesn’t though. What overrides everything is my state of being and my ability to maintain and nourish myself and I’m starting to look at that as often as I can in response to meeting the worlds demands on me. I’m taking it one moment at a time and seeing how it feels to choose me.

Just when you think you’ve got the self-worth thing down, the universe throws you a massive curve ball. With things changing as rapidly as they are, this is a very valuable lesson that the universe is giving me. I’ve noticed how quickly it can become about everything else. I’ve noticed how my free spirit slips away under the mask of empathy.

Old beliefs and old habits are dying hard. I’m working hard on taking the shame out of “I’m putting myself first.” It’s one I think a lot of us can relate to. If nice people finish last, I’m not ok with that and so I’m determined to prove that wrong.

I am just as important as everyone else and I’m determined not to forget it!

Healing, Reiki Training

Does Distance Healing really work?

Does Distance Healing really work?

Curious about distance healing? Well let me tell you how it works!

Everything is made of energy – that’s a scientifically proven fact. Particle physics says that each particle can positively or negatively influence it’s immediate surroundings. That’s why when you have Reiki, it’s these waves of energy that are having an impact on your energy field to create a sense of wellbeing.

Now remember we are all particles of energy. We are all made of the same stuff and connected to the same life force energy. Energy doesn’t have physical boundaries, nor does it have any time boundaries. This is why we are always connected to our past, present and our future. Our mind can navigate these places and time travel between them without any physical movement. This is magic and in essence if we can recognise that we only have to generate positive thoughts for good things to happen, then we’re on the way to something really powerful.

Our physical body is the densest bit of our energy field and this is why it is visible. It is made of particles of solid matter. Things and people are made of this and so that’s why the mind recognises them as “real” objects.

We also have energy around us. This is the auric field. It’s the energy ball that surrounds us and it is filled with our own personal energetic vibe. When you meet someone, this is the first thing that you’ll sense even though it isn’t a tangible and visible thing.

Places and people all have their own energetic signature. When you walk in to a place, you immediately sense whether it feels good or not based on it’s energy. We all have this ability and we can use it inform us what feels right or not.

Thoughts generate energy. We only have to think about bad memories for us to start feeling low, even if we are nowhere near the person that may have caused them. This is because what we have generated is charged with the energy of emotion. For more on releasing emotional blocks – click here!

How does distance healing work?

Energy has an impact regardless of time, space and physical proximity. The premise for distance healing is simply that we are all connected to the same source of energy and so therefore to each other. Energy follows intent and so you can energetically connect with anyone, anywhere and send them positive energy and healing vibes simply by making the intention to.

Distance healing is a bit more than that though. It can be just as intense as having a Reiki session in person. You can watch this video if you want to see someone’s first experience of Reiki. It’s really old from when I first started out, but definitely worth taking a look at. Click here to take a look!

I’m connecting to your energy in the same way as I would if you were here. I’m channelling the energy in the same way that I would if you were here. The energy is working in the same way as it would if you were here.

There is no separation between you and I in the healing space. For most people who have distance Reiki, they feel everything as if they would in person and this is always a surprise for them!

I want to encourage more people to try distance Reiki because it’s an experience!

It’s definitely worth trying!

If you’re up for it, give me a shout!

Healing, Reiki Training

What is Reiki Training?

When the word Reiki comes to a person’s attention, it’s like a magic bean being planted. Reiki Training is the start of you becoming the person you came here to be.

I do a lot of Reiki Training which is all about teaching people how energy healing works. I also teach them how to use it to work on themselves and others. When I talk to people about how they got to Reiki, a lot of them will say, “I kept hearing the word Reiki” or “A few people have told me I should learn Reiki.”

At that stage, some people don’t really know what it is. Some have done a little bit of research online. I thought I’d give you my definition of what Reiki is and how it can help you transform your life.

What is Reiki?

In essence, Reiki is energy healing. The energy that we are using is the same energy that we are all made of…Life Force Energy or Chi or Prana – however you know it. We are all made of energy and we all come from the same source of energy. Reiki is when you connect to that source of energy and channel it for the purpose of healing yourself or to help someone else to heal themselves. The person channelling the Reiki will be attuned to the energy and will have learnt how to do this in a safe way. This is what Reiki training teaches you.

How can Reiki help me?

Reiki is an amazing tool for personal development and spiritual growth. It can help you access so much more within yourself and really change your life. Before I came to Reiki, my life was chaotic to say the least. I felt lost and like I didn’t really belong here. Many of my students can identify with this feeling of “wanting to go home” but not really knowing where home is. It’s a deep sadness that I think is felt by many on the spiritual path. I think Reiki really helped me to come to a better understanding of what it means to be on this Earth. It also helped me to find my purpose in life and gave me the opportunity to help others.

I remember on Day 1 of my Reiki training, my teacher said to me “You’re going to be teaching this one day.” I laughed out loud. Sure enough though, she was right and it has been the most rewarding journey of transformation and expansion. Tough in places, but well worth it. I’m now in a position where I can teach others and watch them grow and its like planting magic beans!

I wish I’d learnt it sooner – Check out my Blog post on what Reiki can teach you that school never did!

What is a Reiki attunement?

Now there’s some teachers out there who will attune you to Reiki. An attunement or empowerment is when a Reiki Master passes the blessing of Reiki on to a person so that they are able to use the energy more effectively for themselves. I think you need more than just an attunement though. I think you need to be taught how it can be used so that you can get the most out of it for yourself.

The way that I teach Reiki is based on it’s practical application to everyday life. It’s your tool and you want to be able to use it for yourself, in your own way for your highest benefit. For me, this is important because not only are we interested in expanding ourselves spiritually, we also need to remember that we are human and live a human life with real human experiences. Being spiritual is great but so is understanding your human-ness.

Reiki Level One

Reiki Level One is open to everyone who has an interest. It will teach you the basics of energy healing and it’s application to everyday life. We learn about the history of Reiki so you can connect to where it came from but also learn about it’s journey from East to West. The Reiki precepts (principles) are the foundation of Reiki practice and we also learn the daily energy meditation – another key element. We also learn about mindfulness, self-healing and cover what happens as you’re energy begins to change. I think that’s important knowledge if you’re learning to master yourself! There is also a practical at the end of the 2 days training so you’ll be taught how to give Reiki to friends and family should you wish to.

I’ve met quite a few people who have had Reiki attunements but haven’t been taught the foundations of practice for them to get the most out it. I think that’s a real shame because Reiki is the most amazing personal development and transformational tool there is out there.

If you’re open to mastering yourself and getting in control of your own life, Reiki is a great option. Not only does it help you to understand yourself, it also gives you a way of understanding the world so that you can find your place in it. It helps you to connect to yourself, your source of energy and the world around you.

That to me is the golden thread for alignment. Magical things begin to happen when your energy starts to change.

You’ve got the power within you. Reiki training simply helps you to access it!

Sounds interesting?

If you are interested in Reiki training, please do get in touch with me. Lets see if we are a good fit to work with each other. It’s really important that you connect to the person teaching you as this will be your guide for the journey. If you are local to Leicester, I run Reiki courses at least once a month. I also teach 1-2-1 via Zoom (Video Conferencing). It doesn’t matter where you are in the world, you can still learn Reiki with me.