So continuing on from yesterday’s blog. I feel I have more information to share and so I thought I would knuckle down to writing this piece just to share the learning.
I’m in a place in my life where I have a lot of decisions to make, and this morning I walked in to my healing room thinking, “God – I need a miracle.” So I sit down at my desk, and my friend calls so we’re talking away. On my window sill I’ve propped up a diary that my sister made for me. The cover is embroidered with the words, “Miracles happen every day.” On this cover, is a bee. A big fat furry bee. He isn’t moving, I know he’s not dead though. I read that when bees get tired, this is what happens so I grab a date, split it in half and put a couple of drops of water in it. I make sure the bee gets a whiff and place it down so the bee can drink.
So the bee comes to life again. A miracle. Miracles do happen every day. So I look up the bee as a spirit message because I’m wondering what the universe is telling me. And it says, when bee comes buzzing in to your life, expect a miracle. Need I say more?
We start with this idea that everything is connected, so even though yes and no seem poles apart, they are connected. Everything is connected, and one of the first things that I noticed was the synchronicities that are occurring in my life right now. Little things have kept happening to make me think that there is more at work than I am seeing. I’ve always believed there was, but when you see it manifesting before you, it takes your belief to a whole other level.
I started this journey with so many niggling decisions to make so the yes and no thing made sense for me. I needed some help with this. The practice was to feel in your heart the energy of yes and no. So you take a deep breath and affirm yes and notice how the heart and the breath react. You do the same for no. This is our internal guidance mechanism.
I noticed my heart more than my breath, and with the yes I could feel my heart expanding and the breath flowed easier. With the no, I felt my heart contracting, and it felt like the energy was harder and not in flow. This you would expect, but then how do you apply this knowledge in day to day life?
I think I’m quite good at reading intuitively, but I think having this practice with me over the last couple of days, I would take that back and say I am extremely good at reading this for other people, like my clients or friends.
Knowing your own yes and no is always a little trickier! Over the last day or so, I think the lesson I am learning is to say YES to me. I’m always doing things for other people, and I’ve always thought that my service through my work sort of meant that what I want takes the back burner.
It’s strange because I’ve been noticing what it feels good to do, and those things are things that have been purely for me. I’ve treated myself, I’ve laughed. When I’ve been having good quality conversations with people, and learning and sharing, I’ve not put myself under pressure for not getting work done. These interactions are what enrich my life.
I’ve realised that time for me in the morning, alone where I dedicate quality time to myself is important before the world starts making its demands on me.
I’ve learnt a lot in terms of saying no as well. It’s opened me up to understanding how I don’t want to offend, and this is an important lesson. In this work, often people ask you questions and make requests that you don’t want to grant because they are not giving you an exchange in return. I am always polite and helpful, but this week I’ve been direct and turned those requests down. The no energy is what I’m sensing, and I feel secure that’s my answer and I am honouring that. I would do normally, but I would wonder whether that was the right thing to do. This somehow feels different. It’s the affirming to myself that I am following the flow I think that makes it a nice way to be.
I have learnt so much in the space of a day just by noticing, so I’m really excited to see what happens on the rest of this journey. Even writing this, there were times where I felt very vulnerable, and so that listening to yes and no has become my go to. It comes directly from source, so I can’t get it wrong.
What feels good for you is where you go. In the flow. No resistance. Simply trust.
Miracles happen every day!